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Harry
After three days in LaPush, I had enough. First that stupid Sam wouldn't let us stay out house because Chris was only allowed to visit not stay on our lands. He wasn't an imprint or a part of the tribe so he couldn't stay for long periods of time. Grandma Sue and Billy had to step in so that he could stay. Then we went hunting and had half of Sam's pups try to attack us. The worst was when I tried to go to the corner store to get some candy and Sam's guys didn't let me. I hate them. I know they are supposed to be my family but they weren't. They made that clear. I still wasn't old enough to take them but I couldn't wait until I was. I still looked around 8 because my stupid growth spurts stopped about a year after I was born. Its moments like this that I still wished for them. I would have never let those pricks talk to me like that. Assholes!
I couldn't wait to see my mom but when I saw her face I knew that something was terribly wrong. She tried to make it seem like it was ok but I knew something was really wrong. We got home and mom went straight to her room. My uncles and Nessie were in the kitchen talking. I pretended to watch tv in my room but instead I snuck out and crouched by the kitchen window so that I could hear.
"I couldn't believe what I was hearing Seth. I wanted to kill him. I know we cannot attack another wolf's imprint but … I don't know who this guy is but he had no right to talk to her like that." Uncle Embry told them. Mom imprinted?!
"What did he say, exactly?" Uncle Paul asked him.
"He was talking in Quileute and I mean the old and perfectly pronounced Quileute that old Quill would speak. He told her that he had been watching her and that he knew that her son was half leech and that he couldn't believe that his own imprint had 'soiled herself' by sleeping with a leech. Soiled herself! Can you believe that crap?! The way he said it too. With that disgust and contempt."
"I can't believe it. And you said he imprinted before? Can that even happen?" Aunt Rachel asked him.
"He's a bald eagle not a wolf. Bald eagles mate for life but, if that mate dies, they tend to find a new mate." Aunt Nessie informed them.
"So his mate died and he imprinted again. That hasn't been heard of. Then again, there's never been an eagle shifter in our tribe." Uncle Jake said.
"Yeah man. He apparently was surprised by it too. He's been watching her for a while and I guess he will continue to watch her. He did say that he would protect her but he made it very clear that he didn't want anything to do with her."
"I can't believe this is happening to her. Gosh! Why can't she catch a damn break? This isn't right!" Nessie said. I could tell she was crying. We both were. I heard enough about that jackass. I ran through the forest not sure where I was headed. It only took a few minutes for Sam's morons to find me. One of them tried to jump on me but I used my power to freeze him and he trapped to the ground like a sack of potatoes. Idiot!
"I'm not in the mood for you assholes. So fuck off!"
"Yep, you definitely got your mom's mouth." Jared said as he phased back.
"Sam said I was free to run here."
"Yea well, I am sure Sam won't be too happy with you using you leech powers on our boys."
"Well I don't give a fuck what makes Sam happy. All he ever did was make my mom's life a living hell. And now…" I shut my mouth and tried to hold back my tears.
"What happened? Is Leah ok?" He asked as if he were actually concerned.
"My mom is none of your concern, dog. Leave us the fuck alone!" I shoved him back but he didn't flinch. I couldn't have used my gift to get some easy shots in but I hated using my power. It reminded me that I was related to him. I ran off closer to the Cullen border. I heard Chris laughing and a moment later he appeared with Nahuel and the new girl, Kara.
"Wow!" He said as soon as he saw my face.
"I need your help."
"Is everything alright?" Nahuel asked.
"Yea, I just need to talk to Chris in private."
"Ok?" He and Kara kept running. Once I knew they were gone, I asked my request.
"I need you to find my mom's imprint. He's a bird shifter. A bald eagle. He has to be around here somewhere. Please, find him."
"Aunt Leah imprinted?"
"Yeah. And the bastard rejected her which why I need to talk to him. Please. Just see if you sense something in the sky." Chris looked at me skeptically but he closed his eyes to concentrate. He needed to concentrate when he was tracking across long distances or for people in specific.
"I sense something, not sure what it is but it could be him. Come on." We ran back to the northern border of the wolf territory. He came to a stop at the bottom of a rocky cliff side.
"He's up there, I think. I've never had to track a bird before."
"You can go."
"I'm not leaving you alone with him. He rejected her. What if he hurts you? Your mom would kill me."
"He won't hurt me."
"Dude. You don't know that." I hated when he went all big brother on me. These past few months Chris had definatelychanges. He was more mature. Less like uncle Emmett and more like aunt Rose. I hated it.
"Please Chris." I looked at him straight in the eyes for a few seconds and he finally conceded.
"I'll be within shouting distance." I waited for him to leave then I took a deep breath. Ant started yelling in Quileute.
"I know you're up three asshole! Get down here or I'm coming up for you. Don't even think about flying away because I'll use my powers to make you drop like a rock!" I screamed at him. A few seconds passed. I was about to start screaming again when I heard his stupid bird. I saw him emerge from a cave like formation and glide down to me. He transformed as soon as he hit the ground.
"Is that how you speak to an elder, insolent child?" His posture was stiff as if he was trying to restrain himself.
"You're not my superior. You're not worthy of my respect so I'll talk to you however the hell I want!"
"I know you are angry because your mother is hurt. She will recover."
"My mom dissevers better than you. Much better, but you are her imprint. You will go to her and you will apologize for being such a dick." I really wanted to hit him.
"My decision has been made. I will not accept a mate that laid with a cold one. I am her protector. My duty ends there." He turned around as if to end our conversation. It only made me more pissed.
"Her protector?! Then where the hell were you?! Where the hell were when that prick that fathered me raped my mother? Why didn't you protect her from him?" He stopped on his tracks and turned to me. His eyes were surprised and then furious.
"She was raped?" He asked me in a hiss. I shook my head.
"What? You didn't know, oh perfect one? You hate us so much that you didn't even bother to get the truth before you passed judgement. Maybe if you would get off your high horse long enough to get the truth, then you would know that my mom was raped! She sacrificed herself to the vampires to save aunt Nessie. Aund Nessie was only like 5 years old but she looked older and the vamps wanted to rape her. Mom could never let that happen to a child. She would have died that day but aunt Nessie didn't give up that easily and she nearly got her head torn off trying to save my mom. " He stayed quiet, looking at me. His body was shaking slightly.
"Your father raped my mate."
"He's not my father! I may share his DNA but I am nothing like him! I hate that bastard. Because of him everyone hates me. I don't like having everyone in this damn place hate me, having my own family wish I didn't exist. It's you they should hate. It's your fault I even exist. You should have protector her better!"
He was getting angrier by the second and he took one step towards me. So I froze him. I hated my power. I had only used my gift a few times so was surprised by the strange feeling that surge through me. It was as if I felt his essence connect with mine. Like I wasn't just paralyzing his body but as if I was paralyzing his spirit. I ignored the strange feeling and approached him.
"This is how he did it you know. He froze her with this stupid gift I inherited. My mom would never let herself be touched like that by a leech." I pushed him hard and he landed on the ground a few feet away from me. He still couldn't move. I grabbed his arm and sat him up against a tree.
"I wish I could let you kill me, but I know how much that would hurt my mom. I think you hurt her enough for a lifetime. My mother has been broken because of imprinting before. The alpha here, Sam, was supposed to be her husband but he imprinted on my mom's best friend and left her. Then her pack turned their backs on her. They ridiculed her and hurt her more. I can't let anyone else hurt her again." I got up and thought about what I wanted to do. Mom needed him in order to be happy, more than she needed me.
"As much as I hate you right now, I know you can make her happy. She needs you. If you want me gone, I'll leave. I'll find a way to go. She'll be sad at first but as long as you are with her she'll get through it. Once you have your own kids, everything will be back to normal for her. Please, go back to her. I'll find a way go away. I swear it. She won't even know this is the reason why I left." I had tears in my eyes. I turned away from him and started walking towards the trees. I knew my power would break off once I reached a certain distance so I decided to give myself a head start.
"You know what the sad part is? I wanted her to imprint on someone supernatural. Someone who could protect her and keep her safe from those who want to hurt her. I just never thought that she would be so unlucky that after everything she's been through, her own imprint would hurt her worse than everyone else."
I left him there and ran back to the Cullen territory. I didn't go all the way to the house. I stayed by the river close to aunt Bella's cottage and sat on a rock. I couldn't hold it anymore so I cried. I was supposed to be a little kid right? Little kids are supposed to cry. I heard someone approaching but I didn't care. The wind blew her scent my way and I realized it was Kara. She approached me slowly and sat next to me.
"Are you ok?" She asked me in a sweet voice. I hadn't really spent any time with her. I hadn't even really looked at her so I was a little embarrassed to have her see me cry. I looked away. She didn't get the hint. Instead, she got closer to me.
"Cousin Edward told us what happened to your momma. I'm sorry hear mate was mean to her."
"Thanks." I said plainly. I sighed and wiped my face with the back of my hand. I turned my head so that I could see her properly. She was still small and young. I smiled at her and she smiled back at me. She had a sweet smile. I didn't understand how they could be so afraid of her.
"Uncle Nahuel said that sometimes it takes time for people to accept those who are different. Maybe that is what he needs."
"Maybe." I looked away again. Giving him time won't work unless he gives her a chance. God only knows how long he's been flying around, watching us.
"Would you like me to leave?" She asked me after an awkward silence. I instantly felt bad.
"No. I'm sorry, I'm just still upset. Coming back home made me realize that my mom's mate is not the only one who has a problem with who I am. Everyone here hates me."
"I'm sorry to hear that. I know how it feels to be hated. I killed my momma. My aunt hated me, she made me do things I didn't want to. She told me it was my duty. Now because of her, they're all afraid of me. I wish I could just disappear."
"I wish I didn't exist." We both looked at each other. She smiled and took my hand. She was wearing gloves for some reason.
"I would be sad if you didn't exist."
"Thank you. I would be sad if I couldn't see you." She giggled.
"Why do you always wear these long gloves?"
"You don't know?"
"Don't know what?"
"My power. I can turn vampires and hybrids into humans with my touch. Its in my skin. That's why cousin Alice gave me all these clothes."
I couldn't believe what she told me. I was so happy that I didn't really think about it what I was doing. I hugged her, catching her by surprise. She hugged me back and released me. When she did, I touched her face. She was my answer. My salvation. Maybe if I was human, my mom's imprint would let me stay with them. Maybe I won't have to leave my mom.
"No!" She pulled back but it was too late. I had touched her face and hopefully I would become human. She got away from me quickly, crying. I didn't understand. "What have you done?! They said I wasn't allowed to turn anyone. They will come back to kill us!" She screamed at me, crying.
"Why? Your gift is amazing. This is what I need. I don't want to be connected to him. I don't want to be a monster anymore." I tried to reach for her but she she stepped back. I felt a little hurt by her reaction.
"That's why you hugged me? I hope you're happy because now we're both going to die!" She yelled.
"What's going on here?" Nahuel appeared next to her and took Kara in his arms.
"I'm sorry uncle Nahuel. I'm sorry."
"You, come with me." He told me. And we walked into the main house. Uncle Emmett came over and gave me the scary look he always gives us when we do something bad.
"What the hell happened?" He asked me almost in a growl.
"He touched her." Nahuel told him and uncle Emmett's eyes got wide. Suddenly everybody was there. Uncle Edward came towards me and started to examine me.
"I don't think it worked. He doesn't feel any different and she didn't even feel her power activate. She's more upset that he betrayed her." Uncle Edward told us.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
"Your power didn't activate?" Carlise asked Kara.
"No. I guess I didn't. I usually feel a current but this time I didn't." She explained.
"I'll start a blood workup and monitor him. Call Leah."
"I'll call her." Aunt Bella told them.
Carlisle took me to his office and started examining me while we waited for my mom. I was dreaded her arrival. She already had enough to worry about. The worst part was the look of betrayed on Kara's eyes. It made me feel this pain in my chest that I never felt before. I would make it up to her. I will never let anyone hurt her.
Renesmee
Everyone had been so excited the night before so seeing Leah so clearly depressed and defeated when she got into the car this morning was shocking. I went over to her immediately but daddy grabbed me and shook his head. Embry looked at me and Jacob and he also shook his head to indicate that we needed to leave it alone. Didn't she just imprint? She should be happy. The plane ride was rather deflated. We could all feel Leah's depression. I could tell that uncle Jasper was having a really hard time.
We arrived at Forks by the afternoon. Harry was so happy to see his mother but he, also, could tell there was something wrong. He didn't even get a chance to greet everyone before he was all over his mom. I only hoped that she would open to me soon. The Denali stayed with us at the main house and I chose to stay with grandpa Charlie and grandma Sue so that I could spend more time with them. Jacob also stayed with his family.
Our first priority was Leah so we got Harry and took her home. Paul and Rachel were at the house waiting for us. Rachel had gotten the house ready for her. She was 7 months pregnant but as active as if she were just 2. One of the perks about an imprint carrying her wolf's child was an easy pregnancy. We found that out 2 years before when Emily was pregnant with her son, Sammy. Leah got out of the car and hugged them somberly. We were all quiet and that's how the rest of the afternoon went. Quiet. Finally Leah had enough so she went to bed. Harry followed after her and went to his room. He was so worried. We all were.
"Alright, what the hell happened to my sister?"
"I told you already. She imprinted and it didn't go well."
"Come on Embry. You were with her all night. I know that she told you something." Jacob said angrily.
"Please, Embry. This is my sister."
"I was pretty hurt when she told us she imprinted so I went out for a run to clear my head. I was on my way back when I heard her yelling at him. She was trying to coax him out of trees or something."
"The trees?" Rachel asked.
"He's a bird shifter. A bald eagle." Jacob explained to her.
"So what happened? What did you hear them say?" Uncle Seth asked irritated.
"I couldn't believe what I was hearing Seth. I wanted to kill him. I know we cannot attack another wolf's imprint but … I don't know who this guy is but he had no right to talk to her like that." Embry told us.
"What did he say?" Paul asked him.
"He was talking in Quileute and I mean the old and perfectly pronounced Quileute that old Quill would speak. He told her that he had been watching her and that he knew that her son was half leech and that he couldn't believe that his own imprint had soiled herself by sleeping with a leech. The way he said it too. With that disgust and contempt."
"I can't believe it. And you said he imprinted before? Can that even happen?" Rachel asked him.
"He's a bald eagle not a wolf. Bald eagles mate for life but, if that mate dies, they tend to find a new mate." I told them.
"So his mate died and he imprinted again. That hasn't been heard of. Then again, there's never been an eagle shifter in our tribe." Jake said.
"Yeah man. He apparently was surprised by it too. He's been watching her for a while and I guess he will continue to watch her. He did say that he would protect her but he made it very clear that he didn't want anything to do with her."
"I can't believe this is happening to her. Gosh! Why can't she catch a damn break? This isn't right!" I cried into Jake's shoulder and he put his arm around me trying to soothe me.
"I'm going to find him and talk to him. If he has a problem he can take it out on me. Not my sister." Uncle Seth pounded his fist on the table almost cracking it.
"I'm pretty sure hates all of us. He said that we are in league with the cold ones. He's a bigot Seth. He's not going to see reason."
"He's my sister's imprint. He'll see reason even if I have to shove it down his throat."
"As much as we would all love to beat this guy, he's still an imprint. What we do need to do is get information on him. There are no records of bird shifters that I know of and clearly this guy is Quileute." Rachel told them trying to take rein of the situation. She was going to make an excellent mother. "I'll talk to dad and see if he knows anything."
"Thanks Rach."
Paul and Rachel got up and left to go talk to the elders. Embry stayed at the table staring at his beer. I put my hand on his arm to get his attention. He smiled at me.
"I'm ok Nessie."
"You don't look ok. I'm sorry this happened. I know her and I know it hurts her that you're hurting. She cares about you more than she will ever admit to herself."
"I know. I know."
Jake and Seth looked at each other uncomfortable. We all knew that Lean and Embry were in love with each other but Leah would never move forward with it because she was afraid. Afraid of this.
"She was right after all. She was right to reject me. I just wish…" I saw a tear role down his cheek. He quickly wiped it away and straightened up.
"I'm going to be there for her and help her get through this, but when its over I'm leaving. I don't know how Leah did it all those years but I'm not as strong as her. I stay and watch her love somebody else." Jake took a sip of his beer and nodded.
"I'll support whatever decision you make. Who knows, maybe you'll finally imprint when you're gone."
"No, you don't understand. I'm going to give up my wolf Jake. I know it will take me some time but I don't want to live forever. Not like this. I'm exhausted and I had enough of all the drama. I just want to be normal again. I want to go back to being human, find a good woman, settle down, and start a family maybe."
"Like I said. I will support whatever decision you make, bro."
"What about Harry?" Uncle Seth asked him. I saw a flash of guilt cross his face.
"I'll always be there for him. For as long as I am alive, I'll be there but we all know the kid is growing fast. After a couple of years, he won't even need me anymore."
"He'll always need you. But we'll be there for him when you're not." I told him. We heard Leah's phone ring upstairs several time before it went to voicemail.
"It's probably grandma Sue wondering why we haven't stopped by the house. I should call her."
As soon as I reached for my phone it started ringing. It was my mother.
"Hi Momma."
"Nessie, are you still at Leah's?"
"Yeah, what is it?"
"I was trying to reach her. Harry is here, he touched Kara. He seems fine but Carlisle is putting him on observation."
"What?!" Embry stood up instantly, knocking his chair backward.
"We're on our way, momma." I ran upstairs at vampire speed and entered Leah's bedroom.
"Leah. Get up, we have to go to the main house. Harry touched Kara. Carlisle is examining him now."
She got up so fast that if you blinked you would have missed it. The moment she was out the door, she phased. We all ran back to the main house. Leah went straight to the medical room to check on Harry.
"Is he ok? Is he turning? What were you thinking?!" She said as she hugged her son.
"He's fine Leah. We are certain that Kara's touch had no effect on him but I am keeping him here for the next few hours to check on him."
"So he's not turning?"
"No."
"Thank God!" Harry looked at his mom surprised. Embry finally stepped up next to her and examined Harry for himself.
"What were you thinking kid? Were you trying to get yourself killed?!" He pressed Harry to his chest for a moment and then released him.
"I just thought it would be easier if I was human." He confessed to them.
"What would be easier?" Leah asked him.
He didn't say anything. Embry and Leah looked at each other. Leah kissed her son and tucked him into the bed. It was almost his bedtime.
"You're staying here with Carlisle and when we get home you are grounded for a month."
"Yes, mam." He said sadly.
We all stepped out to the living room. Daddy was there with momma and some of the Denali.
"He'll be ok Leah. Carlisle just wants to make sure there are no latent symptoms since he is genetically different from all of us."
"How did this happen? I'm such an idiot! I should have been watching him." I could see the guilt and anger on Leah's face. She was always so hard on herself.
"He went after Picha Ka'l. They had a little conversation." Daddy told her.
Leah's eyes opened wide and then they narrowed. I had never seen her so angry and calm at the same time. Embry was also steaming but Leah was downright terrifying.
"What did he say to my son?" Her voice was vicious. Daddy just sighed and told her the truth.
"Somewhere along the lines of what he said to you. Harry told him about what happened to you and Nessie. Picha Ka'l seemed upset by it." Leah huffed angrily.
"How the hell did he even find him?" Embry asked daddy.
"That was my fault. Harry asked me to find him, he said he needed to talk to him. I'm sorry." Aunt Rose looked angrily at Chris. Chris was older so he really should have known better.
"I don't want him near my son again. If he gets anywhere close to you or Harry you let us know and defend yourselves if you need to." Leah told him.
"Do you really think he might hurt them?" Aunt Rose asked her.
"I don't know. I don't trust what I feel about him so I rather be safe than sorry. Imprint or not, if he hurts my son I will rip him apart. He can survive without a limb or two." She told us angrily. We all looked at each other doubting that she would ever attack her imprint but I think we were also relieved that she would put her son over her imprint.
"Are you going to talk to him?" I asked her.
"He's gone." Leah and Chris said simultaneously.
"I really have nothing to say to him, anyway." And with that the conversation was over. Leah went back to the medical room to check on Harry and the rest of us stayed in the living room.
Kara was so upset by what happened that the Denali decided to leave early. Harry tried on multiple occasions to talk to her but she wouldn't see him. He was so upset by it he refused to go to our engagement bonfire/barbecue. Leah made an effort to go but she only stayed for an hour before she went back home to her son. Embry also left early.
The party didn't go on undisturbed. We all felt Leah's depression but there was nothing we could do about it. Only one man could make things right and he had flown off. All we could do was wait and hope that he would return to her.
Picha Ka'l
I felt my body and soul connect once more. Immediately I turned into my bird form and flew away. I still did not understand what he did to me but it felt so familiar. I felt as if my own soul was trapped, separated from my body. That feeling of separation was so familiar yet I could not remember being separated from my body. The boy was strong and fast. I knew he was not human but I could still feel the connection. His power is also strong. What kind of being has the power to trap souls or to disconnect them?
I flew higher and took in the lands below me as I tried to make sense of all this. I recognized these lands. How I wished I could remember why. Why were these wolves always so familiar to me? I felt connected to them. I had sensed them in the past, but I still do not understand why. They were wolves and I was a bird. The connection to them was strong but the strongest one was her and her boy. I feel a powerful connection to him. His spirit calls to me like a beacon. Everywhere I go I can sense him. I am sure that it was his spirit that attracted me to her to begin with. Then I saw her and I knew she was my mate. It was so confusing. I could still see my other mate in my mind. I could not remember her name but I could see her in my head. Who was she? I new she was gone because I never felt the need to search for her but her love felt permanent. Now I had a new love. How I can I love this wolf too? It didn't seem right, yet there is no doubt in my mind that I loved her. I loved my wolf but I failed her.
My mate had been raped! The anger that surged thought me was powerful. Like wildfire. All this time I thought she had betrayed me. I thought she had mated with a cold one but she was violated. I was such a fool not to think of this. The boy did not look like any of the male cold ones. The entire time I watched them, I never saw the boy with a father. I never saw her share affections with any of the male cold one's either. I always thought it was strange that the boy's father was not around.
As I flew over these familiar lands I thought hard about what happened in the past few days. I do not now how long I flew but the days and nights began to merge into one another. I needed to remember. It was all connected somehow... The boy's powers, my past, this new mate, the wolves... They were all connected but to what? No not what, who... WHO! Of course! I stopped to rest as I the realization hit me.
They are connected to who I was! I saw the images fly though my mind all at once. I had changed my name to mean Third Light as a clue. This is my third life! These wolves, my mate, her son, they are all a part of me. They are all a part of who I was before I became Picha Ka'l. I remember! I don't remember all but I remember who I was before and I remember why I tried so hard to forget. I saw her image in my head again. I shook in pain and guilt as I realized I keep failing her.
I have made a terrible mistake. What I done?! How could I reject my own mate, my own family?! They are a part of me and they are the key to my memories. They are the only connection I have left to my people. How could I have judged my own flesh so harshly? Would they ever forgive me? Would they ever allow me back home? I must fly back to her but how can I face her after what I have done? I must find a way to make things right!