AN: Here is chapter four. I hope you guys enjoy it. And once again thank you all for the reviews, favorites, and alerts. :)
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Jacob's POV
About ten minutes after Seth left Sam's house.
I can only sit here, and look at the open door. I can feel something's not right, but I'm too busy trying to fight off the urge to kill Paul. I can't really focus on what the bad feeling is or what it has to do with me. For now I need to keep my wolf in place, and not let him do as he wants.
He wants to rip Paul's throat out. He wants to break every bone in Paul's body, and rip off all his limbs. My wolf wants blood, and not just Paul's blood, no he wants to put all the wolves in this whole house in their place for letting him cause her pain. He wants to make Emily's face looked fucked up on both sides. My wolf has never been this angry or violent before, but the biggest problem I have with the situation is a part of me, and NOT the wolf part, is okay with killing Paul. He hurt Leah's feeling, and he seemed to be pleased with himself which is why I want to choke the life out of him with my bare hands.
However, a bigger part of me knows that's not right. These are my brothers, my friends, my family, but family would never treat each other the way Paul just treated Leah. Sure Leah was mean to Emily, but that was to be expected. I personally think Emily has lost her damn mind to even think Leah would be happy for her, or agree to it at all. She was better off having Sam order her to do it. But that thought seems to make my wolf even angrier. He hates the idea of Sam ordering his Leah.
Wait, did I just say that Leah was mine? Well… Did my wolf just think it?
Yeah I think he did. That can't be good. Okay I have to get the hell out of this place. My wolf is going crazy and making me think crazy shit that's going to make Leah kick my ass, or have me kill one of my friends. I get up from the couch to leave and go home. I hope the fresh air will calm me and my wolf down, and get him to think clearly cause I really don't know where his head is anymore.
"Hey Jake you leaving already?" Quil questions me as he notices I'm heading towards the door. Damn it, I was trying to get out without having to talk or deal with anyone. Now him and Embry are both looking at me.
"Um… Yeah. I have a head ach, and I think I'm just going to head home." I reply, but I didn't really sound that sure of myself like I would have if I didn't have a pissed off wolf wanting to go on a rampage in my head. But I guess Quil doesn't notice because he just nods his head, and turns back to the tv. However, Embry is now watching me with a questioning face. I can tell he senses something is off about me, but I'm not in the mood to answer him so instead I just keep going to the front door. That is until Paul and Jared started talking, and my wolf had to hear what was being said.
"Okay I guess I have to say it, Paul don't you think that was a bit much?" Jared asked looking at Paul then the rest of us to see if we felt the same way. Everyone seemed to agree with Jared. I know I did. "I mean… I know Leah was wrong, but to bring up her not being able to have kids into it was kind of wrong." Jared finished rubbing the back of his neck. I could tell that Jared felt bad about what Paul had done, but he should have spoken up earlier. Hell we all should have. Man were a bunch a dicks.
"Look! Maybe I shouldn't have said some of that stuff, but Leah is a bitch, and I'm sick of her always putting Emily down. Em was only trying to be nice, even though I really don't know why she tires anymore. It was about time someone put her in her place." Paul said with a shrug of his shoulders, and before I knew it I had Paul pinned on the ground while I punched him in the face. My wolf and I both wanted this. We wanted him to phase so we would have an excuse to end him. I was all for whatever my wolf wanted by that point. And it's the weirdest thing because as I'm beating his face in, it hits me that I'm not in pain anymore. At some point between me coming here and my wolf getting pissed my body had stop hurting. I woke up this morning sore as all hell, but right now my body feels no pain. I really don't know what to make of it, but I can't focus on that to long while I'm kicking Paul's ass. Even though as wolf I can think a lot faster and can think of more than one thing at time, it's just more fun to only focus on hearing bones break and his grunts of pain.
"YOU LIKE MAKING GIRLS CRY! YOU'RE THE BITCH! WHAT KIND OF REAL MAN WANTS TO MAKE A FEMALE CRY LIKE THAT?" I roared beyond piss now. I was one with my wolf, Paul needed to die! Everyone was trying to get me off of him now. They were now holding me back, as I growled and tried to get to him. It wasn't until I saw him fixing his broken nose and how bad his face looked while it tried to heal it's self that me and my wolf had calmed down a little. I really messed up Paul's face, and my wolf and I felt pretty damn good about it.
Sam came down stairs looking exhausted and stressed. "Look you guys, you need to stop yelling. Emily is upstairs sleeping, and she's already upset enough I don't want her to hear you guys." Sam said in a flat tone of voice. That is until he saw me and Paul being held back from each other. I wish they would let me go so I can finish beating up one of Sam's bitches; Jared being his second one.
"Jake? What the hell?" Sam had asked me after ordering Paul to calm down. Sam knew if it really came to a fight that I could take him easy. Hell not to sound conceited or anything, but I can kick all their asses. It's just a fact. I'm the best fighter in the pack. "Jake why would you attack you brother like this, what the hell is wrong with you?" Sam questioned me again, and this only pissed my wolf off more. Who the hell was he to question us?
"Fuck him. I'm not his brother." Paul growled out. He looked pissed, but with the command on him he couldn't do anything about it. I just rolled my eyes at him. I already kicked his ass what more do I need to do.
I had freed myself from the guys hold and was about to just leave. That is until I decided to hell with it. I don't care anymore. I'm done with this bullshit. I'm about to lay it all on the line. "I'm done with him always fucking with Leah. She has enough to deal with without Paul acting like a little bitch, because Leah doesn't want him." I said not even yelling anymore. I was still mad but more than that I just want this shit to end. Paul and Sam looked surprised, but everyone else was trying not to laugh at their faces. Then Sam faced Paul in anger, and Paul's face was slowly turning from surprise to confused but I didn't let that stop me. "Oh I see. You thought no one knew you liked Leah, but it was obvious. Your always on her case, and when you're not you're looking as her ass. So be a man about it and just ask her out," I had to ignore my wolf again, because once again he was pissed, but this time it was at me for telling Paul to ask out our Leah. "Stop acting like a second grader and picking on the girl you like. Just man the fuck up." I finish taking a calming breath for me and my wolf. By this point Jared was shaking his head in disapproval for his friend's behavior while everyone else was still laughing at Paul. It was Sam who broke into their fits of laughter.
"You like my Lee Lee? You need to stay the hell away from her Paul! She's MINE!" Sam spoke the words not even trying to stay level headed any more as his features contoured in outrage. He then lunged at Paul. Everyone jumped into action to stop him before he could reach Paul. Paul was still out of it, and wasn't ready for another attack. But luckily for him Jared, Embry, and Quil stopped Sam from hurting him.
The pack just looked at Sam like he was crazy. It was clear to me that they couldn't believe he would say something like that about Leah, or lose it the way he just did. But I wasn't surprised. I always knew Sam still had feeling for Leah, and that is what pissed me off. I was livid that he had called her his, and I can't for the life of me figure out why it was making me just as infuriated as it was making my wolf.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I asked enraged. "Did you just call her, Your Lee Lee and say she was yours? You do realize she's not with you anymore right? That she hates you and that you plan on marring her pregnant cousin. Cause with the way you're acting like a jealous boyfriend and attacking Paul for having a crush I'm not so sure." I said each word slowly and in an annoyed tone so that even he would understand that he had no claim to Leah. He had no claim because she was MINE! Damn it, his wolf did it again. He keeps slipping up and claiming Leah, and I really wish he would stop doing it. I shook my head trying to get all these crazy thoughts of Leah being mine out of it.
"Why do you even care about Leah, Jake? I thought you guys hated each other?" Sam asked me trying to take the heat off himself, but damn if he didn't ask the right question. Ever since I woke up after first getting hurt from the new-born battles I have felt different, my wolf has felt different and has been a lot more active. I think I even grew some more. Looking around at my pack brothers I knew it was true, because I'm the biggest person in the room now, but instead of focusing on my new size and my wolf's new found obsession with Leah Clearwater to much more I decided to answer Sam.
"I just do. Besides, someone besides Seth and Sue have to care about her. You sure as hell don't." I stated as uninterested as I could. The pack didn't need to know about my new found feeling for Leah, mostly because I didn't understand them myself. I mean I'm still in love with Bella, but my wolf has gone crazy and decide to want the one and only Leah Clearwater.
"And what the hell is that supposed to mean. You don't know a thing about me, Black. I still lo-care about her." Sam said, quick to try and fix his slip up, but it was too late we all knew what he was going to say. The way Paul was looking at Sam right now told me he didn't like it one bit. I was just pulling things out of thin air when I accused him of having a thing for Leah, but maybe I was right about him. I don't know being a wolf I tend to just say thing when I'm in a certain mood.
I rolled my eyes to show Sam I wasn't buying his lies anymore, and by the looks the guys were giving him they weren't either. "Well you sure don't know how to show it then. If you cared," I made sure to put emphasis on the word care to show him that we all caught what he was going to say, "about Leah like you say then you wouldn't have let Emily put her on the spot like that in front of us all, and you would have come down here when Paul was going off on Leah to help her with him instead of waiting for Emily to fall asleep." I shot back. Everyone looked in awe of me for standing up to Sam, but Sam just looked mad. I didn't care, he knew I was right, and my wolf really wanted to kick his ass so if he wants to go we can go.
"Get the hell out of my house, and STAY AWAY FROM LEAH." Sam order. He had the nerve to try and tell me what to do, well jokes on him I'll see Leah whenever I damn well please, but I did need to get out of this house, so I left with everyone behind me. We all went home to think about the major things that took place today at the pack meeting.
It wasn't until I got home that I realized if I wanted I could go see Leah right now, but that also meant I would be going against a direct alpha command. How was that even possible? I really needed to talk to my dad about this, but he wasn't home when I got here. It might be for the best I'm not even sure what I should tell him anymore. Things are so confusing right now, and I don't know what's going on. Maybe if I break it into parts and think about it that way it will become a little clearer for me to figure out what's going on.
I'm still very much in love with Bella, and it's killing me knowing that she's going to marry that damn leech, and then become one herself. I'm about to lose the girl I love to a dead guy. I did everything for her, and she still picked him over me. But that's not stopping her from calling all the time, and coming over trying to see me. I told her I need a break from her and she won't even give me that. She just keeps trying and it only hurts me more, not that she seems to notice or maybe she just doesn't care about my wants and needs. Either way I need to find a way to let her go.
Then you got Leah Clearwater who somehow has become very important to my wolf which in turn kind of makes her important to me. And while she's available, she also hates me. She's mean to me and my friends. She's still in love with Sam, even if she won't admit it. She's just a bitter, angry, and negative person, but she's also beautiful and funny. Leah has always been one of the prettiest girls I have ever seen. Her body and face are perfect. No matter if her face is wearing that ugly scowl that she loves to rock so much she's still drop dead gorgeous, and she can be nice when she wants to be. I've seen it with the way she is with certain people like Seth, Sue, and even my dad. But Leah has always been one of those girls that were always out of reach to a guy like me, but now she seems to be the only thing my wolf wants. She'd be any man's dream girl if her personality didn't suck so bad. Maybe all she needs is a man that could handle her, and I could handle her all day and night… Wow… I can't believe where my thoughts keep going to when it comes to Leah freaking Clearwater! If she or Seth ever find out about this I am a dead man.
Speaking of dead men. Sam is going to be one if he keeps pissing off my wolf with his attitude. I don't know what it is but my wolf is starting to hate the guy, and wanting me to cause him bodily harm. I don't know, it's more like my wolf sees him as an obstacle that needs to be taken care of, but for what I don't know. Maybe my wolf is ready to be Alpha, but I don't think I am.
I don't know I just feel more lost. I have more questions than answers now. I'm going to sleep on it, and to talk to my dad in the morning.
The next day I really wasn't feeling any better. But at least being away from Sam and Paul has calmed my wolf down a lot, but now all he wants to do is check on Leah. And if I'm being honest with myself I want to check on her also, Paul was a real dick to her, and that was the first time I've ever seen Leah cry in my whole life. I'm going to go to the Clearwater's house after my talk with my dad. When I went into the kitchen my dad was already up with the newspaper and a cut of coffee.
"Morning dad." I said to him as I made myself a monster bowl of cereal. My dad put his paper down, and I knew something was wrong. By the look in his eyes, I would of thought I did something to make him mad, but I can't really think of anything that would cause that look. You know the one all parents have that tell you how angry and disappointed they are in you all with one glance.
"Morning Jacob." Was my dad's reply, and I knew for sure I was in trouble. The old man only called me, "Jacob" when he was upset with me, or was going to lecture me about something. Either way I wasn't looking forward to it.
"Is something wrong dad?" I asked as I sat down.
"We are having a council meeting at Sam's house today at 1:30, and the whole pack needs to be there." My dad said in his official voice. The one he used when he was showing his authority. That seemed to be all the answer I was going to get from him because he left the table then.
My dad went into his room to get ready. I was really annoyed when he left because now I couldn't even talk to him about how my wolf has lost his mind. After finishing my food and cleaning up the kitchen I went to get ready. My dad still wouldn't really talk to me until it was time to go, and even then it was him throwing his keys at me telling me to drive.
When we made it to Sam's place he glared at me and glared right back. My wolf wanted to go kick his ass, but instead I just took a deep calming breath and went and sat down so I could get this damn meeting over with so I could talk to Leah. The Clearwaters hadn't showed up yet so I guess I'm going to have to wait to see how she's doing. I hope this meeting is over with quickly, however by the tension in the room already this meeting is going to end just as bad as the last one.
AN: I hope you guys liked this chapter. Paul finally got his, and it seems Jake's wolf is ready to take over, but Sam and his wolf like the power. The next few chapters will be of some more people's POVs leading up to the big meeting that's going to start to change a lot of things. But keep in mind right now Leah has only been gone for a little over a day. The pack doesn't know anything is wrong with her yet. I would love to hear your thoughts on this chapter so feel free to let me know. Thanks. :)