AN: Hey guys. Here's another chapter. This is the last chapter like this before the big meeting. I just wanted you guys to see where Emily's head is right now. Thanks for all the reviews, favorites, and follows they mean a lot to me. And please excuse any mistakes I made. This chapter was done in a hurry.

Also someone was wondering why the pack isn't out looking for Leah yet, and the answer to that is we kind of jumped to the past with the last couple of chapters. Right now to the pack Leah has only been gone a little over a day. They think she is fine and safe. They don't know that right now she's at the Cullen's house beat up and healing after her attack. Until Leah joins back up with the pack the story is going to jump around a little. I will try and make it more clear the next time, and if there are still more things that are unclear please let me know so I can try and fix that in the next chapter. :)

Disclaimer: I don't own anything or anyone from Twilight.

Third Person's POV

A couple of hours before the pack meeting is to start. Sam and Emily are just waiting for the pack, their imprints, and for the council to arrive.

At first when Emily and Sam heard of the meeting that would soon be taking place they were concerned. They had no idea what it could be about, but then again it could only be so many things if Sue was the one asking them all to meet up. It had to be about the pack meeting that happened yesterday. After all Leah had left in tears. Emily for one was glad that Paul told Leah what she was thinking, but would never say out loud because it would ruin the image that she wants people to see. Emily stills loves Leah and misses her, but she is getting tired of Leah being all bitchy towards her when all she is trying do is to be nice and spend time with her.

Emily couldn't take sitting and just waiting for Sue and the others to come so she decides to make food for when everyone got there. She went into the kitchen, and started a couple batches of muffins. Baking helped her think clearly and calmed her nerves. Whenever Sue comes around Emily always gets nervous.

As she started baking Emily started to really think about the situation she finds herself in with her own family.

It wasn't easy for Emily being around any of the Clearwaters anymore. But Emily wanted to believe so badly that her Aunt Sue was coming to tell her, Sam, and the pack how sorry she was for Leah's hurtful words, and that she would make sure Leah would be a part of the wedding. She wanted both her cousin and her aunt to be a part of it. She wanted things to go back to how they use to be when Emily was loved by Leah and the others. But Emily knew better. Sue never put anyone over her kids, and especially not someone who had a hand in hurting her child. That wasn't Sue Clearwater, no Sue was a mother bear, a lioness, a real mom and everyone knows you never mess with a mother's children, and that's just what Emily had did.

Emily never meant to hurt Leah, she loved her and Seth like siblings, and Harry and Sue like they were her very own parents, but once Leah was done with her so were the rest of the Clearwater family. No, they weren't out right mean and hateful towards her like Leah is now, but she could feel the difference in the way they talked to her and treated her. She was no longer a part of the family like she was before, and she knew she had no one to blame but herself. She picked Sam over Leah, over her family, but she NEVER thought it would cost her so much. Emily knew they would be mad and maybe a little hurt for a while, but then they would move on and forgive her because that's what family does. They all claimed to love her so much, but when it came time to show her that love Emily felt like they just let her down. The only problem with Emily's logic was she forgot who she was dealing with. She forgot that the Clearwaters always stick together, and although she may have been like a sister to Leah, she wasn't a Clearwater, no Emily was a Young and acted like one too.

Emily really didn't want to hurt Leah, and it kills her every day to see the pain that she caused one of the people she loved most in the world. But she loves Sam more, and she is disfigured now, no other man would want her. Only Sam can look at Emily's face and not see scars, no when he looks at her all he sees is a pretty face. No other man will ever feel that way about Emily. Leah is out of this world beautiful, and could have any man she wants. Emily knew Leah would be able to move on and find love again, and as soon as she did Leah would come back to her and all would be forgiven. And then the rest of the Clearwater family would have to forgive Emily also and they will be a big happy family again.

Another reason Emily thought Leah would forgive her was because of the kind of person Leah was. Leah was a forgiving and kind person; she went out of her way to help others, so why was it taking Leah so long to forgive both Sam and Emily. Leah had said many times how Sam and Emily were the two most important people in the world to her, so why could Leah forgive strangers, but not the two most important people to her. Emily didn't care to think about the fact that they are also the people who hurt her the most in the whole world, and in the worst ways possible. It was easier to make it Leah's fault.

Emily knew that if their roles were reversed that Leah would have never given into Sam. Leah would have fought him until the day she died and even though Emily did fight it she knows she didn't fight as hard or as long as she could have. Leah would have never given into Sam. She would have never hurt Emily the way Emily hurt her. Emily knew all of this and still picked Sam.

But why did she choose Sam over her own family one might ask? Since Emily knows how much Leah means to her, even now, even with all the hateful and mean things Leah has said and done to her. Emily still loves her. Emily still wants Leah around and to be a part of hers and Sam's baby's life. Leah is still the second most important person to her... And there was the answer to the big question. While she loved Leah, Emily loves Sam way more. How could she not, he's everything Leah said he was and more. She can be honest with herself when no one else is around and admit to wanting Sam long before he ever imprinted on her, but he never saw her only Leah. And then just like that one day he did, and he wanted her more than he wanted Leah. She knows it's sick to get pleasure out of that, but she has always been plain old Emily: shy, average looking, and not really wanted by anyone; except maybe the Clearwaters. However, Leah has always been the pretty girl that all the other girls wanted to be, including Emily. She is confident, exotic looking, witty, and before she became all bitter, she was loved and wanted by all. It was nice for once to be the prettier one for two. To be wanted by a sexy and important man, and to be loved and adored by the one and only Sam Uley.

Isn't it punishment enough that she has to look like a freak for the rest of her life, and that she's only second best? Emily is willing to admit that Sam never wanted her until magic made him want her, and made her his whole world. No one had to make Sam love Leah, hell even with the imprint a part of his heart still belongs to Leah. And so with all of those things why does Emily still have to be punished? Emily doesn't understand why the one time she picks herself over Leah that it cost her so much. The one time she decide to do what she wanted instead of what was expected of her that she lost not only what little beauty she had but also the family that she love and wanted to be a part of so badly. Why did loving herself more than loving Leah have to cost her so much? Emily just doesn't understand what she did wrong to warrant such treatment…

Emily misses her best friend, her sister, who used to tell her everything and treated her so kindly. But she also misses the people who came with her. She misses her Uncle Harry who died disappointed in her, she misses her Aunt Sue who uses to treat her like a daughter and made her feel special. She also misses sweet little Seth who use to look after her the way only a brother could. Now that Leah is done with Emily so are the others. None of the Clearwater's can stand to be in the same room as her unless they have to be, and that hurts Emily so much.

Sure she has her own mother, father, and a sister, but they weren't a family. They weren't like the Clearwaters who looked after each other, and did things together. No her family only looked out for themselves. Her dad cheats on her mom, her mom cares more about herself than her own kids, and her sister is a back stabbing witch. Emily didn't fit in with them, and that's why she loved to visit Leah and the others every summer. They showed her what a real family is and how real families behave. They always included her in everything they did. The Clearwaters never tried to one up each other; no they just loved and supported each other in everything they did. Emily misses feeling like she's a part of their family. She really lost a lot to be with her soul mate and didn't understand why no one else saw that, but her and Sam.

Sure Emily got Sam, but with that she got a soon to be hateful mother-in-law who always compares her to Leah, and of course she never measures up. She got rude stares, fake smiles, and gossip behind her back about her being a home wrecker who had no problem stabbing her loving cousin in the back. They think she deserved what happened to her face, and that Sam picked the wrong cousin. The only people that really liked her are the pack, the council, and the two imprints. The people who are in on the secret like her just fine, but the rest of La Push Rez hates her for breaking up the golden couple, and for hurting their golden girl. When it's put like that, doesn't Emily deserve a little break, some understanding from the family that she loves so much. Emily feels like she does. She feels like people should see her for the awesome and sweet person that she thinks she is. Emily works over time to make sure that the people in on the secret like her, and though she won't ever admit it she loves that they all like her more than Leah.

Now that doesn't mean that Emily's still not hurt by Leah's evil words and actions. Leah and Emily were never supposed to let a man come in between them, but Emily thinks that's what Leah is doing right now. Leah is letting that fact that she's jealous of Emily and the fact that Emily has Sam stop them from being friends, and that is what hurts Emily the most. When Emily was the jealous one, she would suck it up and be there for Leah, even when it hurt her to be. So why Leah can't do the same, and just be there for her, Emily can't understand. Why does Leah still get the wonderful family? Why does Leah still get to be prettier? Why does Leah still get everything when she's the one who behaves so badly? Why can't Emily have it all like she feels she deserves? Those are the thoughts that go through Emily's head whenever she's alone to her thoughts of Leah. With everything that Emily has she still wants more. She still wants all the things that Leah still has.

Emily is taken out of her thoughts by Sam's voice. "Hey Em, everyone is here and we're ready to start." Once Sam got a good look at her he knew something was wrong with her, but when he asked she said it was nothing and they should get this over with. All that baking did help her see clearly, because she knew Sue was there to handle business, and that meant putting every one of them in their place for hurting her one and only daughter.

AN: Next chapter is going to be the meeting so I hope you guys stick with me. I know there hasn't been any real action and the chapters are kind of boring, but the action is next. I just need you guys to see how some of the characters are feeling right now before everything changes.

To my guest reviewers, you guys are so funny. I laugh so hard when I read some of your comments. You guys get me so much. Also one of you guys told me the name of the author who has a story similar to this one. The author's name is Starling3545253 so thanks for that and your kind words.

Okay so I also need your help with something. I'm almost done with the meeting chapters, but I not sure if I want Jake to just take over or make his own pack. I have lots of ideas for both, but I'm not sure which ideas I like most so I'm putting it in your hands. Which one would you guys like to see. Just so we're clear either way there is going to be a fight between Jake and Sam. So in your reviews or PMs please tell me what you want to see happen. Thanks for reading. :D