After you decide it to move in with Justin you two celebrated in a very interesting way (I'm pretty sure we all know what that means, right back to the story), that happened five weeks ago. You don't feel very well today and you wonder if it has something to do with what happened 5 weeks previous to today.

'-Hey Jods. You don't look very good, have you seen a doctor?' John asks very concerned.

'-I feel like I've been run over by a bus and I haven't seen any doctors.' You respond and run to the bathroom to throw up (rings any bells?).

'-Does Justin know about this?' John asks.

'-No and I wanna keep it this way till I go to the doctors, got it?' you snap at John.

'-Don't need to snap at me. If you want I can go with you.' John offers.

'-Sorry for snapping at you, this seems to bring the worse of me. I have an appointment with my doctor this afternoon.' You say.

'-I'll clear my schedule. I suppose you wanna keep this only between us, right?'

'-At least for no. I have a feeling that it's not only about the fact that I might be...' you don't continue but he knows what's that supposes to mean.

'-What do you mean?' John asks.

'-How many pregnant women cough blood?' you ask

'-What? When this started?' he asks worried.

'-A couple of days ago. If I'm sick I'll resign and you are gonna help me make up a story for Justin and Randy.' You say.

'-Let's not think like that. We'll go to the doctors and we'll cross each bridge as it comes.' John says.

'-Ok. My appointment is in 3 hours. Pick me up in 2?'

'-Sure. Till then try to think positive.' John says hugging you.

***2 hours later***

You are in Saint Louis at your house waiting for John to pick you up. Randy, Justin and the others are at the arena for some signings and you took your day off since you didn't felt very well this morning. You are really scared, you know what means when you chough blood. You've seen your grandmother dying from cancer and you have a bad feeling about this. You look at your belly, it doesn't show that you might be pregnant, you took a test but you want your doctor to confirm that you are. You are consumed by the fact that you are pregnant and you might have cancer too. What you're gonna do? Have an abortion so you can cure yourself or don't have it and your unborn child might grow up without a mom. You're just gonna have to take this decision fast. John is here so as soon you know more you're gonna take that decision and let everybody live their lives.

'-Hey.' You greet John kissing on the cheek.

'-You look like you are about to take a though decision.' John says.

'-I'm about too, because I know what means when you chough blood so if I have cancer, I'm gonna keep the baby and try to survive but I'm not gonna do it here.' You say.

'-What do you mean?' John asks.

'-I'm gonna give you letters for Justin and my brothers where I'm gonna tell them that I have somebody else and I've decide it to move with that person. They don't need to know my real reason; I don't want this to affect their carriers.' You explain.

'-Are you insane? Justin is gonna have his heart broken and Randy will never forgive you.' John says.

'-I know but I want what's best for them. A baby and I might have cancer, it does not gonna help Justin's career. He's too young for this. I'm not sure how I'm gonna survive without him but I have to do it for the sake of my child.' You say whipping a tear.

'-Maybe you don't have cancer and maybe Justin wants this baby.' John tries to calm you.

'-I know I have it. It's just a feeling but the doctors will confirm this.' You say.

'-Speaking of doctors you have an appointment and we should get going.' John says hugging you.

***2 days later***

You have to go to your doctor today to get the results, you've asked John to come with you.

'-You ok?' he asks.

'-Dunno. Are you gonna help me with what I've said the other day?' you ask.

'-If that's you want. But you have to promise me that you'll call me at least once a week. I'm not gonna tell them that you call but I have to know that you're ok.' John says.

'-Hi, my name is Jodi Albert. I'm here to see Doctor Wilson.' You say to a nurse.

'-He'll be with you in 5.' The nurse says

Those 5 minutes felt like an eternity. When he finally came and asked you to go to his office you knew that there's something bad going on.

'-John I want you to come with me. I can't do this alone.' You say.

'-Ok honey, calm down.' He says.

'-I think you should take a sit Jodi.' Doctor Wilson says. He has been your doctor for the past 14 years.

'-I have some good news and some bad news. The good news is that you are indeed pregnant. You're almost 6 weeks.' He says.

'-I kinda knew that. What's the bad news?' you ask.

'-You have lung cancer. It's at his early stage but being pregnant it's gonna affect your treatment.' He says.

You feel like the time had stopped. You hoped that your feeling wouldn't come true.

'-You ok?' John asks.

'-I'm ok. What's my best shoot at keeping the baby and continuing the treatment without hurting him?' you ask your doctor.

'-There's a clinic in Munchen, Germany. They developed a new way of treating cases like yours.' He responds.

'-What are the odds?' John asks.

-'60%, maybe 70%.'The doctor responds.

'-I'll go to Munchen. I want this baby to have a normal life.' You say.

'-I'll talk with doctor Lahm and he's gonna take your case. He's a good friend of mine.'

'-I wanna ask you something before I leave. If my brothers or boyfriend or anyone asks of me, you're gonna have to tell them that you don't know nothing about me. I don't want them to know about my pregnancy or my cancer.' You ask Doctor Wilson.

'-If that's what you want.' He says

'-Yes. Can you send me the details of that clinic? I wanna go as soon as possible.'

'-Sure. I'll send you the details this afternoon so you can leave tomorrow.' He says.

'-Thanks doc.' You say getting up.

'-Jodi, take care of you and of that child.' He says hugging you.

'- I will.' You say smiling.

Now you have a reason to fight for. Your unborn child.

'-We have to do everything today. Pack my stuff when they are doing that signing and move them to your hotel room, tomorrow you're gonna have to drive me to the airport. But what's the most important, you're gonna give those letters after the show. Now, I have to go and talk to Vince.' You say.

'-I'll come with you.' John says.

***Vince's Office***

After you've told Vince what's going on he agreed not to tell anyone what's going on.

'-If you need anything call me no matter what.' Vince says.

'-Will do boss.' You say smiling.

'-After you get better promise me that you'll come back and kick some ass again.' He says.

'-Will see about that.' You say.

'-We have to go Jods, we have lots of things to do.' John says.

'-Take care Vince of them for me.' You say.

'-Will do.'

Your life got a U turn in just a couple of days. You have no idea how you're gonna survive without Justin. He's your everything. But you're gonna have to. You know that Randy is gonna be pissed and he might not talk to you again, that's if you survive.

'-I have to ask you a thing before we go on with this.' You say to John.

'-Sure.'

'-If I don't make it I want you to take care of my child.' You say.

'-Don't you think that Justin will do that?'

'-I know he will but he has to think at his career. You're gonna have to fill in Liz so there won't be any misunderstandings. When he's gonna be old enough you're gonna have to tell Justin and to my baby the truth. Got it?'

'-Yes but let's not think so negative. You're gonna survive and raise this beautiful child.' John says.

'-How do you know that he or she is beautiful?' you ask.

'-Having as parents you and Justin I think says it all.' John says smiling.

'-Ok smarty pants let's go and break Justin's heart.' You say.

'-Try to be gentle in that letter and not to put yourself in a bad light.' John advices you.

'-I have to make myself look bad so he won't look for me.' You say.

'-I'll cover your tracks and I'll make sure that he and Randy won't do anything stupid. I don't know about your brothers.' John says.

'-They will get over it. They have to. I don't think that my mom would be proud of me right now.' you say sad.

'-She is. I know this. And I'm sure that were she is right now she's looking after you.' John says.

'-I hope. I've got left only my dad and we're not that close.' You say.

'-I hope everything works out for you.' John says,

'-Me too. Me too John.' You say hugging him tightly knowing that this is gonna be one of your last hugs for a while at least. Or you hope so.