Chapter 43: "An Excess of Divine Material Energy, Part II"
(Warning: This chapter contains sexual content. If you are offended by such content, or do not like to see straight pairings, you may wish to skip this chapter.)
...We are... aren't we...? We're going to have sex...
Here... Now... In my bed...
I have desired this for so long... so...
...Why do I feel afraid...?
…...Because I only thought I wanted this but really don't...? N-No, that's not it...
...It's because Kohaku might kill us for it... yes... that's it. If, if I slept with him, she would surely find some sort of way to get revenge...
His lips pull away from mine after a moment. Soft, warm, and full, a part of me tells me to pull his head down with my hand, and press them into mine once more... but I force it down with sheer, complete willpower, and manage to get my voice to speak, if somewhat shakily. "...N-Nii-san... but... you love Kohaku... so why are you–"
He quiets me by putting a finger to my lips. Shhhhhh. It's the sound he makes, before pulling his finger away.
"I have her blessing," he simply says with a smile.
I feel my eyes widen in sheer shock. She…... actually gave him permission to be... adulterous?ǃ
That's... Kohaku is a lot of things, but not even she would willingly give him permission to sleep around in that manner! That is unacceptable!
"Nii-san, if that is her plan, then I refuse to– mmmmmmf?ǃ"
His lips kiss mine again. Firmer. Harder. His arms wrapping carefully around the back of my neck and upper shoulders as he does so. Almost as if it were magic, I could feel the energy, and the thoughts, that I would need to argue leaving my body.
Part of me demands to push him off of me and ask him what the hell does he think he is doing, but part of me... part of me wants this...
…...What do I do...? I'm so confused right now…... I want to stop him, but I also don't want him to stop...
...And... knowing it is his lips pressing against mine... is making my panties stick to my body. I, I'm getting... aroused, again...
I feel my cheeks fill fresh with blood at my embarrassment, realizing that I'm getting aroused just by a kiss like this...
To get that aroused from a simple, mere kiss... is my mind truly that depraved...?
"...Ah?ǃ"
The sound of my own voice catches me by surprise. Nii-san has slipped his hand under my nightgown, and he is massaging my left breast...
His hand... it cups and rubs the flesh like it was meant to be used for that purpose, and that purpose alone.
"N-Nii-san..." I manage to choke out, attempting a feeble protest... but before I can continue, he gives my breast another squeeze, sending a spark through my body that makes me shiver. I feel my heart thumping harder inside of the breast, from his squeezing, and just from these two things alone, I can tell my breathing is quicker than normal...
"Shh. Just lay back and enjoy this, Akiha. It's all for you, tonight." The smile that comes from behind those glasses... it's so kind, that it's cruel...
"B...But... Kohaku's... are..." I begin another protest.
"I don't care. It's not the size, it's how they suit the girl... and smaller breasts suit you just fine, Akiha." The smile widens even more, even as the rest of the world screeches to a halt.
…...…...
…...He…... likes them…... that way…...?
...Why...? Surely... women with bigger breasts gain the better males, as Hanei is all-too-easily able to prove without even really trying, so why are mine–
"...Haahǃ?"
...He... he managed to pull my bra up as I was lost in thought... and now he's... pinching... my nipple...
Messages of delight slam into my brain like a precision strike from a martial artist, with such force that it knocks even more of my thoughts from my head. The more he rolls it between his fingers, the quieter the voices inside my head that are chanting "stop him" get... and the louder the voices of "enjoy your body's pleasure" become.
"Nnn... Nii-san... this... isn't right…..." I gasp sharply as his fingers roll the flesh between them. I feel my head thrash on the pillow, despite itself, just from this...
"Oh? But your body's saying it wants this badly, Akiha... see? The other one's hard and sticking up through your nightgown." He tugs on the other nipple between his fingertips lightly.
"I... Idiot... it'd... react that way to anyone..." I squirm a little, my eyes shut tight, and my legs moving apart slowly but surely.
"But you'd resist harder if it were anyone else. But yet for me, you're not even resisting at all, Akiha..." he offers in that cruel-yet-kind voice. "So that means you really do want this... and so do I."
…...…He's... right. I'm not...
If... if it were any other male trying to do this to me, I would be fighting them the whole way... and unless they were more of a monster than I am, I would win.
But... if it's Nii-san, it's... it's like my whole body is just a toy for him... a doll he can move and pose any way he likes... a mere toy that is for his amusement.
Everywhere, and everything, is accessible to him... for he is the puppeteer.
With his other hand, I can feel Nii-san pulling on my nightgown. Taking it off... and as if entranced, my body moves to allow it, my arms lifting so he can get it off easier, before pulling away the covers and looking me over, like a bird with its prey.
I blush slightly in embarrassment, because he's actually looking at me in "that" way... instinctively, my hands and arms reach for my chest to cover my breasts, and for my underwear, to hide the growing damp spot that is surely soaking through them. Even though it's him doing these things, my body still attempts to preserve its modesty...
"Akiha... don't you get it? You're beautiful the way you are. You don't need to be bigger, or curvier. And you definitely don't need to hide what's so naturally beautiful on you." He says these things in that same calm, happy voice. "I like you this way, so don't change a thing."
"...Nii-san..." It's all I can say... my mind is unable to find room for complaints. It is melting right now just knowing he is looking at my nearly-nude body... and all of that liquid heat that my body has produced... I can feel it slowly flowing out...
I can see him smirk slightly. "Besides... it looks like your body's liking this even more than I thought."
"E-Eh? What do you mean by–"
...?ǃǃ
A jolt of pleasure surges through my body upon Nii-san touching my panties. The one thing left that is protecting Tohno Akiha from being totally immoral.
"What do I mean by what, Akiha? Hmm?" His fingers rub on the very crotch of them.
They're rubbing... nearly directly on my clitoris... and I can feel the wetness that has soaked into them...
It is all I can do to gasp and shudder, and try not to scream from the sensation. If Hisui were to hear...
"Wow. Akiha... you're soaked. I guess you really have wanted this for all that time." He says this in a voice that's almost... mockingly amused.
"G-Geh... don't say that..." I blush hard in embarrassment as his fingers trace themselves up and down over the folds down there, pushing even more wetness into my panties and making me begin to get needy with desire. In. I want them in...
Nii-san's fingers continue to rub for a minute or so before stopping. "Mmm... I think you're a little more ready now, Akiha." I hear him inhale deeply. He's...
...Smelling me...?ǃ
"N-Nii-san!" I shout out loudly, absolutely humiliated and shocked.
But he laughs. "Akiha, what, you think you don't smell nice there? You're beautiful. It suits you."
...H, How can he say that's nice! That's body odor! A specific body odor! An odor that one does not... no, should not smell!
"Th-That's not the point...! Th-that's something that's not meant to be inhaled like– ahhhhhhhhhhh..."
I cannot finish my sentence. As I was trying to explain myself, Nii-san simply had pushed my panties over and began running his tongue up and down along the pink, delicate folds of my inner labia.
Souka had been first, but this was Nii-san's tongue... my body reacted much more strongly, and any thoughts I had of stopping this quickly faded, and before long were long gone. I simply no longer cared.
"Mmmm... that's better, Akiha. Just relax, and I'll take care of everything, okay?" With unspoken agreement, he spreads my legs apart with his hands, and resumes licking up and down, his hands rubbing and caressing my inner thighs as he does so.
I can feel my body shiver and writhe, and I feel my breath hitch in my lungs each time his tongue moves...
His tongue... so much different from Souka's... so much... rougher, and better... the way he does it... it's bold and sharp, like a man... and all I can do lie there, shivering, panting, and grunting like I am helpless...
...But... I am helpless, really...
It's like... it's like all I can do is lay there, with my eyes half-closed, and watch with fascination as his tongue moves, occasionally apparent, in and around the folds. The folds that are able to speak far more than the other pair of lips that I possess...
Words cannot describe this feeling. Souka's was good...but with Nii-san, it's so much bolder...
I gasp sharply. I can feel that heat quickly beginning to build as his tongue rubs there, faster and harder. No! Not so soon! Not with Nii-san!
But his thick tongue... his experience at this... it is all too much for my nearly-untouched body to bear... and the assault on my body refuses to cease...
My eyes open and my body automatically gasps as I feel what's best described as a twinge in the pit of my stomach, followed by what feels like liquid fire heading from my belly button straight down towards my vagina...
"...NII-SAN!"
It's all I can cry out as my hands frantically scramble for something, anything, to hold on to, eventually settling for a hard grab at my bed covers, as I choke out my words while bliss overtakes me... and despite my best efforts, my body shudders hard, the toes curling hard and the hands gripping my blankets with a death grip, as convulsions of my vagina throb and fluids pour out, shocked by what he has done to it. All by simply licking, just like Souka did... not even for as long as she did...
And just like then, I feel my eyes getting heavy... no... must fight it... he'll be disappointed if I... but... so very hard... close... open... close…...
...The touch of his fingers on my forehead brings me out of this state. Within a few moments, my eyes open more fully, and I look at him, drained, tired, exhausted, and panting, to which he smiles.
"Mmm. Not yet, Akiha." He says it just as warmly as all of his other words tonight. "It won't be as good if you pass out so soon. So, tell you what... while you recover..."
With this unfinished statement, he pulls off his pajama bottoms completely. Half in a daze, my eyes gaze in his direction, almost as if it were automatic and perfectly natural to look between his legs.
I am, of course, looking at "it." His penis...
It's a little swollen with his own arousal, but not fully. The male must be aroused to gain an erection, and only then can he and a girl have sex...
…...Even I know that...
"Akiha... if you want this inside you... you'll have to work with it..." With this simple statement, he settles back fully, allowing me complete access to his body. Unlike me... or perhaps because of Kohaku's relationship with him... there is no hint of shame, embarrassment, or hesitancy in Nii-san so... openly displaying his genitals. All that is there, is a warm, encouraging smile.
If I want it inside of me, he said...
If...?
It's no longer a question of if, it's a question of when...
As if entranced, I sit up, blushing. "I…... I've... never done this before, Nii-san..." I'm embarrassed. It's true... I've never done it before... "...So please... if I do something wrong... speak up..."
…...And yet, somehow, I know exactly what he wants... and what I have to do for it.
He simply smiles. "It'll be okay, Akiha. Just follow your instincts..."
I nod, and hesitantly, carefully, reach out for his penis, closing my hand around it carefully. It's warm, and slightly firm to squeeze. I feel it throb in my hand as I squeeze it, so I begin to squeeze it a little harder. I can feel Nii-san's body shudder and hear a slight groan from deep in his throat.
My hands... must feel that good to him. He's also definitely not stopping me, which is encouraging... so I put more effort and focus into it, since I seem to be doing things right.
I... cannot resist the impulsive urge to kiss the tip as I squeeze it. The tip, in contrast to the rest of it, is still notably soft. A gasp comes from his lips, and he whispers my name in the sweetest voice in the world.
"Akiha..."
My face is fully red. I can feel the fluids of my arousal seeping out of me. It... it wants me to put him inside of me. Like he was born for that purpose, and I was born to receive him. To take my virginity, like he was meant to do all along...
He continues to grow firmer and harder with every rub and kiss, as his voice becomes needier, sweeter. I notice a little bit of clear fluid has gathered at the opening.
I steel myself. If he was able to lick my obscene fluids... then... it'd be rude to not do the same for him, so... so shall I...
I lower my head slightly, and after a moment's hesitation... I run my tongue across the opening.
Nii-san gasps sharply once more in reply, and his hands reach for my head... much as my own did to Souka, on instinct, I realize fleetingly after a momentary thought.
The taste... is interesting. It is hard to describe. It is not exactly delicious, but... it is not bad, either. It is sticky, but with a hint of sweetness to it. It makes me lust for more...
Before I can even rationalize what I am doing, or even really think about it, I impulsively shove him into my mouth.
"A-Akiha!" His hips push slightly towards my face when I do. He was only fairly firm before, but his firmness begins to increase rapidly inside of my mouth, filling more and more of the space provided to it.
I had heard whispers of this from some random talk on campus. Some third-years were, of course, being horrible senpai to their kouhai. "It's easy," the blonde one was saying. "Just put it in your mouth, and move your mouth up and down." The first-year who was hearing this explanation was shocked and she blushed hard.
I believe the colloquial term for it is a "blowjob."
So... that was what I decided to do. I pushed my mouth up and down, making Nii-san's penis move in and out of my mouth. As I did so, I looked up at him, wondering what he would be looking at, what he was seeing.
Nii-san seemed to be far gone. His eyes were not looking at me. They were slightly glassy, and half-closed as he gasped for air. He did not appear to be in pain. They were looking off, somewhat vacantly, towards a wall in the room.
Normally, I should be mad. But... knowing I am making his body feel warm and good... somehow, even though he is not looking at me, I am proud that I have managed to get such a look on his face. It's... such a perverted and filthy look, but... I know I am doing this right, definitely. With my confidence increasing, my speed follows.
…...…Is this how I looked when Souka was licking me between my legs? That look that the mind is gone, and all that is left is the body that was craving pleasure...? I do not know. All I know is he is not telling me to stop... so I do not.
I inhale deeply, smelling the oddly pleasant odor that seems to be trapped in the hair, and especially strong on the small pouch of skin below... an odor that makes an involuntary moan come from deep in my throat. Casually, I move my hand down between my own legs, and I can feel the moisture dripping from me as I do this to Nii-san. As if it were perfectly natural, my hand begins to rub between my legs, pleasuring myself as my mouth pleasures Nii-san's body simply and honestly.
Nii-san, the only male I ever wanted to do this with...
My other hand rubs his inner thighs, as he had rubbed mine, encouraging along the sensations that must surely be blasting through his body. But sadly... eventually... the hardening stops. It seems Nii-san is as "swollen" as he shall get.
I pull my mouth away for a moment, to stare at what I have created... a thing that could be generously described as some sort of mutant mushroom, moistened with spit, and twitching and throbbing impatiently. It wants to be somewhere warm and moist.
...And it would be rude to refuse its simple wish. So I put the "mushroom" back into my mouth once more, and redouble my efforts.
I don't dare stop. I finally have this. I won't stop until I get what I want.
And what I want... is Nii-san's love... all of it... especially that part of it...
I throw myself fully into pleasing him. Kohaku might have done it first... she may have beaten me into bedding him... but I will do it better! I will not make him regret coming to me tonight! I will make it an experience he will never forget...
With a grunt, I get the warning that shows I have been doing a good job. "A-Akiha...!" I feel him try to gently pull my head away from him, as he approaches his point of no return.
How sweet of Nii-san... he does not wish to force me to swallow that.
But I push at his hands with my spare hand, so that I can keep my head firmly on him, my tongue pressed to the underside as I move my head. That's where it's sensitive, I heard.
...That's what will make him come. That's what will make him ejaculate into my mouth.
I don't know why I want that, specifically, but... I know want that. I want every drop that I can get. Because I love him so much... that even if it tastes bad, I will do this anytime he wants it.
For Nii-san... nothing less than all of Tohno Akiha's love will suffice. And likewise... nothing less than all of his love will make Tohno Akiha happy.
And sure enough, moments later, I get my reward. A sharp, repeated gasp comes from Nii-san's throat and lungs, then with a shudder, I can feel him throb against my tongue... followed a moment later by some thick, hot, and sticky fluid entering my mouth.
My eyes widen. Instinctively, I swallow the fluid that is surging into my mouth. With each throb, more of it pours in, as if I had taken quite a greedy drink.
...Bitter. Unpleasant. It smells like the bleach that Kohaku uses on our white clothing.
But, still... it's Nii-san's... he also swallowed mine... so... this is only fair... and despite myself, I find noises coming out of my throat in between swallows. Gentle cooing noises, as if encouraging him to allow himself to fully empty himself into my mouth.
I swallow as much of the fluids as I can, until I can no longer exhale, and only then do I open my mouth and gasp for air. A few remnant globs drool out of my mouth, and down my chin and chest. My lungs surge and heave, desiring oxygen.
I remove my mouth from him, looking at his malehood. A line of saliva and semen stretch from his body to my lips. It is coated in both of our fluids, and it twitches with his racing heart. It is beginning to shrink in size slightly.
"Was... that good, Nii-san?" I ask, a little embarrassed. His eyes are closed tight, and he is panting for air. It... surely isn't his first... it can't be... right...? No, don't be silly, Akiha, surely Kohaku's done this before, right...?
"…...…...Akiha... it... felt like you wanted to suck my soul out of my body..." He finally manages to get these words out, as he struggles to recover his breath once more.
I... think that is a good complement... right?
His eyes reopen, and though they are glassy somewhat, he looks at me... and blushing slightly, he begins to re-harden. When I see this, I feel blood rise to my cheeks once more, and I can feel the heat inside of my body climb a little higher.
"...Nii-san...?" I blink. Did... I not do good enough? I heard males aren't supposed to remain that way... Usually once they orgasm, that is all, isn't it...? I did not want him to be so spent from what I did that he would not be able to have sex... if that happened, then I would certainly have stopped before orgasm so that he could continue...
He laughs slightly. "Akiha... you look... adorable like that..."
…...Adorable?
Coated in…... his fluids? How...? It... it's a mess, isn't it? Although, I don't want to clean it off of me right now... I want it to stay…... for some reason... I can't explain why, but...
"It's... making me want to go again... if you want to, Akiha..." he asks, looking at me.
I blush as I watch his penis once more. How I look must indeed please him... for it is starting to grow once more, and the more it grows, the more it twitches and throbs, just as it had before I began to do that to him.
"Then... if you are ready, Nii-san, then please... I don't want to wait anymore..." I say. I'm embarrassed... so embarrassed that I almost can't stand it anymore... but... after we exchanged fluids like that... it'd be kind of silly if we were not able to fully indulge in sex, wouldn't it...?
He nods, and motions for me to climb over on top of him. I do so. I blush as I can feel him... contacting me between my legs... getting firmer by the second as my slickened flesh rubs his own. In. Please go in. Please go in so deeply that I can feel him in my stomach, and never leave...
"Are... are you ready, Akiha?" He asks me once more, as if giving me one last chance to back out of this.
"…...Y-Yeah," I answer in an uncharacteristically frightened whisper. I know enough about sex to know losing my virginity will hurt... possibly a good deal. I close my eyes, clench my teeth slightly, and await the pain...
...But pain is not what arrives. What does, is a gasp. A female gasp. A gasp of shock.
Followed by a voice calling "…...…...…...…T-TOHNO-KUN?ǃ?ǃ?ǃ"
…...It is the voice of Yumizuka Satsuki...
...What do I do?
...What do I say?
...How do I explain...?
Next Week (4/3/11) – Chapter 44: "An Excess of Divine Material Energy, Part III"