Hey guys! I finally updated early (next day...wow..[clearly has no scheduling skills]). I got bored yesterday so I wrote two drabbles, which I'm thinking of working into the plot. Let me know if you like them! (:
Hatchi was never good at keeping secrets it'd been a problem since kindergarten for her; and this one was huge. She never regretted her decision, but to say she never thought about what it would be like if it never happened would be a lie. She spent countless nights and tired mornings thinking about it, if things had only been a little different, but she couldn't change the past. She never wanted to hurt them; it almost killed her to see it happening. She wanted to tell him so badly, from the beginning, but she couldn't. She couldn't tell him, not now. If she waited awhile, not long just enough, than things would be okay. To be honest, she wasn't even sure if she should, but she couldn't lie to him about something like this; at least not for long. She'd tell Nana first, maybe Haruhi, and ask them what they'd do, what she should do.
Love was a fickle matter, and she couldn't hurt him, not again. Would this hurt him? Would he be angry? Would he hate me? He wasn't like that, he cared for her, for everyone, regardless. Still, she was afraid.
She never thought she made the wrong decision. Not for her, but for him. She wanted him to live his dreams, and to find someone he loved who could let him do that. She always had feelings for him, but she learned to hide them, or at least she thought she did. It was what was best for him, and that made her happy, as much as it broke her heart to see him sad. Seeing him again, seeing him smile, made everything seem okay for her. Even this secret.
This wasn't something she could hide forever, it actually surprised her she managed to hide it for this long, but she had to tell them eventually; before the paparazzi did. She wanted to tell them, and maybe, seeing him laugh one more time would let her.
Haruhi hadn't laughed this much in a long time. She'd never met anyone like Shin, even though she was sure he'd met a million girls like her. Their relationship was easy, free of all the guessing and trickery with the twins, and half-daughter dynamic with Tamaki. She knew he was a male escort, she didn't care, it's not like she had any intentions, but part of her was afraid that was the only reason he was being nice to her.
After that afternoon, everything changed. He'd told her something he's never told a friend or fangirl before, something he hasn't told many people. Nana was among them, and somehow, she felt closer to her too. She had been shy until now, never really talking to any of them, she wasn't even sure what she was doing here, but something about this made her feel closer to all of them, like they were never going to say goodbye.
She and Shin hadn't talked until a week before, but somehow they were extremely close. They almost kissed then, and they each regretted pulling away at the last minute; each for their own reason. Shin couldn't have an actual relationship, not after everything he's done and will do; but the real secret is that Haruhi made him completely forget about Reira, from the first second he saw her. Haruhi had never been kissed, and was afraid she'd fall for a guy who wouldn't fall for her back. But they both knew this was just the beginning.