Chapter 6
Disclaimer- Tsubasa characters are not mine, just Tamara, Cheresa and Asshina, Shadowfang is one of my friend's characters that she let me borrow.
Tamara watched from the front door as Syaoran stood in the rain "this is why I don't believe in love" she said to herself "all it does is hurt you and it causes you nothing but pain, so why do we have it?"
When Syaoran came in Tamara walked up to him "Tamara-san?" Tamara wrapped her arms around his neck "Syaoran why do people fall in love when all it does is cause you pain?" she asked, tears brimming at the edges of her eyes "I don't know, it just comes to you" he replied, Tamara leaned back and looked him in the eyes "you will always love Sakura no matter what, right?" she asked, Syaoran was taken aback by this question but nodded "yes I will" Tamara smiled slightly "then please don't break her heart or go through any pain alone, all of us are here for you, none of us are going to judge you. Please come to me or any of the others if you need help and keep holding onto that love, you will get her back even if she doesn't remember you, she will love you again" she told him then stepped back "u-um sorry about that" she said before running off out the back, Syaoran stood there surprised and three shadows moved back up-stairs.
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Tamara sat on a low tree branch looking at the moon and stars and watched as the stars twinkled as if to say 'hello' sighing she closed her eyes and started singing.
How do I believe in love
When all its does is break my heart
All I want is for you
To love me
For nobody but me
She sighed "I still can't find anything to add to that" she said to herself, she looked down at her hands where tears were slowly falling "why do I already care so much? Why? Do I want to feel the pain in my heart when they get hurt?" Tamara wiped her eyes leaving her question unanswered; looking back up at the sky she started singing again…
Now we've come so far from the darkness
And we'll never be apart
So we leave for tomorrow
To start our lives again
Find me there my tiny feathers
Of my holy ancient days
I will calm all your sadness
And sing my song for you
Find me there-
"Tamara-san?"
"Ahhhh!" Tamara yelled as she fell of the branch in shock only to be caught by Fai who was standing behind her "are you trying to kill me?" she asked as he helped her down "no, why?"
"you gave me a heart attack, why are you here anyway?" she asked facing away from him and rubbing her eyes to make sure all the tears are gone "I wanted to talk to you" Fai replied "about what?" Tamara wondered turning back to him "what you said to Syaoran-kun a little while ago" Fai replied "why the hell were you listening in?" Tamara snapped "we were coming down to keep out of Syaoran way before he came inside, but we were a little to late" Fai explained "we?" Tamara questioned "Kuro-pon, Cheresa-san and I"
"So everyone heard" she stated rather then asked "yes, why did you ask Syaoran that?" Fai asked "because I truly want to know the answer" Tamara replied as she walked past him "you want to know too, right? Why everything you love ends up leaving?"
Fai stood there as Tamara walked towards the house "Tamara-san…" Fai called out turning around "yes?" she asked standing at the door, facing away from him "why are you like this?" Fai asked, Tamara gave a hollow laugh "I honestly don't know, but I can't change" she replied and walked into the house.
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Cheresa watched as Tamara came into the room, got changed and went to bed without a word, after she was sure she was asleep she grabbed Tamara's bag and with a sad look in Tamara's direction she walked out the door and to Kurogane and Fai's room.
Cheresa knocked on the door and waited 'til Kurogane opened the door "oh its you" he growled "were you expecting Santa Clause?" Cheresa asked sarcastically, Kurogane scowled "no I was expecting someone sane" he replied "will I do?" a voice came from behind Cheresa and she whirled around to see Tamara "Timmy?" Cheresa wondered in shock "wha-wha-what a-a-are you d-d-doing here?" she stammered "well when someone was sneaking out of the room with my bag I had to check on who would do something so hurtful as to steal my stuff" Tamara replied grabbing her bag off Cheresa "but they have a right to know" Cheresa argued "know what? The past? 'cause that's all you'll get out of these books, they only tell you what happened today and yesterday, the rest of the quest is in my head" Tamara said and turned around "you know what Cheresa tell them whatever you want while you're here because I don't want you in the same room as me tonight" Tamara added before leaving to her room "Cheresa-san you okay?" Fai asked from his bed, Cheresa turned to him and gave a small sad smile "yeah, I knew something like this could happen" Cheresa replied before turning to Kurogane "please let me stay here tonight, I promise I won't make a sound" she begged, Kurogane sighed and stepped aside to let her in "thanks" she whispered and walked in.
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Tamara closed the door and threw her bag at the opposite wall, she slid down the door and put her head in her hands "damn it Cheresa, you could have just asked. I would have said that you could, but you went behind my back and stole my stuff" she said and hit her hand against door "damn it!" she shouted
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Cheresa looked at the wall when she heard a thump and then Tamara shout "damn it!"
"Tam" Cheresa said sadly, Fai looked over at her "Cheresa-san, how long do you think Tamara-san will be like this for?" he asked "not too long… I hope" she replied.
"So what were you going to tell us?" Kurogane asked sitting down against the wall next to the door "well I suppose I can tell you without the books" Cheresa said turning her attention to the two men "in my world you are all characters in a show called Tsubasa Chronicles, its also in books which Timmy's got but anyway you guys are semi popular between Timmy's friend which includes me, she has read every book and watched every episode of Tsubasa, that is how she knows the future of this quest because she read it. Look I'm not good at explaining things so-"
"We get it, she knows everything" Kurogane grumbled "yes and she doesn't want some things to happen but she's not going to tell you who the bad guys are-"
"Why Cheresa-san?" Fai asked "well she said that it helps everyone's relationship grow and that she will give you clues anyway, so my advice pay attention to her" Cheresa told them shrugging "oi, you two get to sleep, we are leaving tomorrow" Kurogane grumbled "okay" Fai and Cheresa replied in unison, Fai laid down in his bed and Cheresa laid down on the floor and curled up into a ball to sleep.
A few minutes later Cheresa shivered, she stood up and closed the window. She turned around to see Fai already asleep "wow that was quick" she whispered and looked towards Kurogane who was still leaning against the wall with his eyes closed I can't even tell with him she thought as she laid back down to sleep, she shivered again and bit her lip as she tried to sleep.
Suddenly a blanket landed on Cheresa and she bolted up, gasping "wha-?"
"if your cold say something or you might get sick and I don't want a sick brat on my hands" Kurogane spoke up scaring Cheresa "r-right, thank you Kurogane" Cheresa said with a smile and laid down, snuggling into the blanket he scared the shit out of me she thought and fell asleep five minutes later.
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The next morning Tamara woke up and walked down stairs to see everyone already having breakfast "who are you?" Sakura asked and Tamara looked at her with a confused face "oh, well that's not something I usually hear in the morning, a nice good morning would have been better" she replied scowling, Sakura's eyes widened and everyone else looked at Tamara in shock "oh I'm sorry, good morning" Sakura said bowing, Tamara fake smiled "that's fine, anyway my name is Tamara it's a pleasure to meet you princess Sakura" she replied before sitting down next to Sakura and Syaoran "so what did you two do last night?" she asked "we talked about Sakura and about the quest" Syaoran replied "so you know that this isn't your fault Sakura, you lost your memories because of the evil guy who is now after the feathers, a dumbass in my opinion" Tamara said grabbing some toast.
"You know who the bad guy is?" Syaoran asked "yep, but I forgot his name" Tamara replied "bullshit" Cheresa mumbled, Tamara glared at her "what was that Cheresa?" she asked innocently "oh nothing" Cheresa replied looking away from her.
"Well this may be fun but I'm going out" Tamara said and turned to Sakura "I hope you'll have a nice rest and get your strength up" she said before walking out the door.
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About five hours later everyone but Sakura were leaving with Masayoshi to go out for lunch and say goodbye.
"Well at least it isn't raining" Cheresa said as they set off "you're talking about the weather?" Syaoran asked "well what else is there to talk about?!" Cheresa snapped, Syaoran looked at her in shock and Cheresa sighed "I'm sorry, I'm just having a bad day" Cheresa apologized "hey, where's Tamara-san?" Masayoshi asked, Cheresa's face went dark "I don't know" she replied "she went out at breakfast this morning and hasn't come back yet" Fai told him.
"Well let's go get something to eat, maybe we'll see her on the way" Syaoran said and they began to walk again.
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Tamara braced herself as she and Asshina got hit with a waterfall of water "okay, I'm done" she said as Asshina vanished "thanks for the battle Shougo-san" she added as she squeezed the water out of her hair "no problem, you were a good opponent" Shougo replied "thanks, would you like to come have lunch with me, I'm pretty sure I know where Syaoran-kun and the others are. You could say goodbye cause we are leaving today" Tamara told him "sure alright" Shougo replied.
Tamara took him to the restaurant she knew the others were going to be at "you first" she said to him as he walked in.
"Yo" Shougo said when he found the table everyone was sitting at "Shougo-san!" Masayoshi exclaimed in surprise "how did you find us?" Cheresa asked "don't underestimate our intelligence network, you guys" Shougo replied sitting down next to Masayoshi "and by that he means I told him" Tamara said making herself known seeing as no one had seen her yet "Tamara-chan, where have you been all morning?" Fai asked "with Shougo-san, we sparred all morning" she replied sitting down next to Kurogane when he moved across "yeah, she is one hell of an opponent, just about the same as Syaoran-kun" Shougo added after he finished ordering "how's your injury? Feel better now?" he asked Syaoran "yeah, I'm sorry for having to end the battle halfway through…" Syaoran replied bowing "nah! Its ok you had no choice under that situation. And besides, it was clear that I lost that battle…" Shougo told him, Tamara smirked when the other team member started complaining about who lost money and who won until Shougo shouted at them to shut up.
A bout half an hour later Tamara looked up at the clock and was shocked at the time "my, my look at the time it's getting late we better go" she said standing up catching everyone's attention before they all looked at the clock themselves sure don't listen to what I say, check yourselves, bastards Tamara thought as she started walking out of the store "ah, Tamara-chan wait up, we're coming too" Fai called out as they got up.
Once outside Tamara stopped and waited for the others, when they came out Cheresa pulled her away from everyone "what's wrong?" she asked "nothing, I'm perfectly happy and fine-"
"Bullshit!" Cheresa shouted gaining Fai and Kurogane's attention but not that loud that Shougo's gang and Syaoran heard her "Timmy, don't lie to me, your never happy so don't try to act like you are" Cheresa growled at her "and who fault do you think that is Cheresa?" Tamara hissed making Cheresa flinch "I finally begin to trust you after you stabbed me in the back and you go and do it again, I had hoped, prayed even, that you would never hurt me again but you showed me that hope and trust… there is none, because if I can't even trust the people I call friends to not end up stabbing me in the back. Then please tell me who I can trust because I would like to know who, in any of the worlds we are going to travel in, I can stay around someone long enough to learn how to trust again when my little mental list of people I can trust has just flew out the fucking mental window, never to be seen again" Tamara growled and walked off towards the house.
Cheresa stood there staring at the spot Tamara was just standing when Fai and Kurogane came over "she's not angry you know" she told them "that looked like anger to me" Kurogane replied "it probably did but I know her well enough to know that she was more sad and heart broken then angry, and its all my fault" Cheresa said, blinking to try and stop the tears she knew were coming "what did Tamara-chan mean by 'friends who end up stabbing me in the back'?" Fai asked "a few years ago a few of our friends decided to play a joke on Tamara and for the joke they needed to use Tamara's locker which I was sharing with her at the time, I didn't want to be apart of it but I still let them into the locker and after we saw Tamara break down into tears over the joke more then once we went further by accusing another one of her friends at the time and he had nothing to do with it and when Tamara finally found out the truth that's when she lost all trust in us, it killed her to try and stay mad at us but she couldn't so by the end of the next day she was laughing with us again but she never really forgave us" Cheresa explained "even by my standards that's low" Kurogane replied and Fai nodded "I know and I hate that I ever done it but now I'm not sure if Timmy will ever forgive me" Cheresa said sadly.
"Hey guys, ready to go?" Syaoran asked coming over to them "yep" Fai replied cheerfully "if we ever come back to this country, we'll come and visit you definitely" Syaoran told Masayoshi and Shougo "take care!" Masayoshi shouted as they walked off.
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Tamara went straight to her room and started packing up ready for the next world but she couldn't even get across the room before she started crying, she lay down on her bed and cried her heart out before falling asleep from exhaustion.
Ten minutes later she was shaken awake by Fai who Cheresa had asked him to check on her "Tamara-chan we're leaving now" he said gently shaking her shoulder, Tamara rolled over to face him and yawned "alright thanks, I'm up" she said sitting up "are you alright Tamara-chan? Your eyes are all red" Fai asked "oh, they are? It's probably because I haven't been getting much sleep lately" Tamara lied and Fai didn't believe it but went along with it "well hopefully you can get more sleep in the next world" he replied, Tamara smiled slightly "no chance of that" she whispered "did you say something?" Fai asked from the door, Tamara looked up at him "oh no nothing, I'll be down in a minute" she replied, Fai nodded and left.
Tamara sighed and got out of bed, quickly finishing her packing she scanned the room for anything she may have missed before walking out of the room. Once downstairs she could see the others through the door and started having second thoughts about leaving with them, she turned around to go back upstairs when Arashi was going out so she saw Tamara standing there and spoke up "Tamara-san, are you alright?" she asked, Tamara whirled around as everyone looked at her "yes, I'm 100% fine, just making sure I have everything" she replied with a nervous grin as she stepped out of the house "so you are leaving?" Sorata asked "yeah" Syaoran replied, Sorata started crying anime tears "leaving so soon! You never even got a chance to taste the collaboration cooking of love from my honey and I!" he exclaimed but everyone ignored him.
"Are you alright?" Fai asked Sakura who was rubbing her eyes "yeah, I just feel a bit sleepy" Sakura replied and Tamara frowned knowing that she was going to be sleepy for most of the trip, she glanced over where Kurogane was talking to Syaoran.
Mokona grew wings and floated into the air "thank you very much" Syaoran said as the magic circle appeared under them "nah, don't worry about it" Sorata replied "I hope you will find Sakura's feathers in the next world" Arashi added before Mokona sucked them in taking them to the next world "Yuuko already knows doesn't she… no matter what happens… they will always go through it together" Sorata told Arashi who replied "yeah"
A/N: Please review and comment, I want to know what you think. Hopefully I'll get the next chapter up soon.