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The flame flickered back and forth as a cold wind howled throughout the room, Momo Hinamori sat down in front of a desk, her eyes red and puffy from crying her entire body trembling with fear; in apprehension of what she was about to do. She stared at the letter in front of her, closed and addressed to Hitsugaya Toushiro, she then opened it and ran over what she had wrote as her final goodbye:

Dear Hitsugaya-taichou

By the time you read this it will already be too late, I will have already passed on and my shame will have been destroyed, I know you may hate me for what I have done but I cannot bear it any longer; the shame of me being the 5th Division's Lieutenant and Aizen-taichou's betrayal has left me broken...far too broken to be fixed. I have tried to put on a brave face for the men and women who serve under me now but it's no use, I can sense their anger and suspicion about me...I was the most devoted to Aizen-taichou and nothing anyone said made an impact on me, no one could persuade me that Aizen-taichou had defected from Soul Society and had joined the Hollows in destroying my home...our home...I was so blind to loyalty that I didn't see what was in front of me until it was too late, until he stabbed me with his Zanpaktou and left me for dead. It was not until then that I realised what he had done and what he regarded me as, trash, that's what he said to me when he had stabbed me, that I was trash and not worth killing, that was perhaps the moment when I had lost hope...when I knew that I was just a stupid girl grabbing onto flimsy beliefs and not worthy of being a Shinigami yet alone being a Division Lieutenant.

Hitsugaya-taichou...when you find me can you please do a favour for me? Can you bury me near our old home so I can rest there...it'll feel good to be home after all these years, thank you for being such a good friend to me Hitsugaya-taichou and I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to bring Aizen-taichou to justice...I hope you can do that for me. Thank you and goodbye Hitsugaya-taichou.

Momo Hinamori

5th Division Lieutenant

Momo closed the letter and she could feel tears running down her face and she could see the tear drops raining on the letter blotching it, she pushed it aside and sighed before she took a tanto, she shivered in anticipation of what she was about to do, she faced the door of her room; wanting for Hitsugaya to not suspect anything when he first entered not to be cruel but to not make him worry at first. She then undid her clothes to expose her body to the cold, she would not kill herself in the traditional way such as hanging or cutting her wrists; instead going to go towards a more traditional route of Seppuku. She felt that it was right, that she should commit Seppuku, that her shame would be erased once she was gone...no longer would she need to look in the eyes of her squad to know the shame and humiliation in them; that their Captain was a traitor and their Lieutenant might follow suit.

She slowly grabbed the tanto and unsheathe it, the blade glimmered in the moonlight and reflected light all around the room, 'So beautiful...' she thought to herself as she prepared to plunge the blade into her abdomen and horizontally cut her abdomen three times from right to left; "So this is it...now or never..." Momo said to herself as she swallowed hard as perspiration begins to fall from her head, "I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry Hitsugaya-taichou...I-I just can't go on anymore..." with a cry she then plunged the blade into her abdomen.

The initial pain was so great that she almost fainted from the pain, she gasped and panted hard to cover the pain, "Oh damn it!" she cried out, as she tried to finish off what she had started, she then brought the blade across her abdomen towards the left grunting in pain as the blade tore through her soft body. She then did the same thing two times resulting in three horizontal cuts on her abdomen, blood gushing out of her wound and pooling around her, "it...it is done" she whispered as she closed her eyes and waited for death to come.

"I'm worried about Hinamori-fukataichou" Isane said, "she hasn't been herself for a few days."

"I know what you mean" Toushiro said, "she's not acting like herself."

"The betrayal has hit her the hardest" Isane commented, "I don't think she's coping with what Aizen did."

"I know, she keeps defending him, and the brass continually reject her defence and they even accused her once of being a traitor but the Captains put their foot down on that matter and Hinamori managed to get off" Toushiro said.

Isane then laughed, "What's so funny?" Toushiro asked.

"You really do care for Hinamori-fukataichou don't you?" Isane asked with a smile a little bit of mischief twinkling in her eyes.

"W-what are you talking about?" Toushiro asked blushing a bit, "o-of course I care for the baka" he said looking away as Isane continued to laugh at Toushiro's predicament. They soon arrived at Momo's room and Isane lightly knocked on it, "Momo-chan are you awake?" Isane asked softly.

"Y-yes" Momo said softly, so soft in fact that the two of them needed to listen really hard to hear it, looking at each other they slowly opened the door to find Momo smiling at them weakly and sitting on a cushion, "evening Hitsugaya-taichou, Kotetsu-san" she said.

"Evening Momo-chan how are you?" Isane asked blissfully unaware of what Momo had done to herself as she sat in front of her, "me and Hitsugaya-taichou were just in the neighbourhood and we thought you wanted some company for the night" she said as Toushiro nodded along with her.

"Thank you both of you...you've really stick with me despite what people say" Momo said in a whisper as her eyes began to wander around the room.

"Of course" Isane said, "its not fair that people blame you for what Aizen did, you're completely innocent of the charges against you."

"Besides how can an idiot like you ever betray Soul Society" Hitsugaya rhetorically asked intending to make Momo laugh but it only resulted in a light chuckle and even then it was weak.

"Thank you...I can never thank you enough, I only wished I was strong enough to bring Aizen to justice...I wished I was as strong as you Hitsugaya-taichou" Momo said with a weak smile.

"What happened to Shiro-chan?" Toushiro asked a bit perturbed by what Momo was saying, Momo had never once called him by his rank and it was always by his childhood nickname so to hear Momo call him by his rank made him worry.

Momo stayed silent for a time as she closed her eyes, the next time she opened her eyes she was crying and her voice trembled, "I'm so sorry Hitsugaya-taichou, I'm so sorry..."

"Momo what did you do?" Toushiro asked standing up as Isane got the message and the two of them went to her just as Momo leaned forward and collapsed, Toushiro went to her side and saw the three gaping wounds on her abdomen, "oh Kami-sama..." Toushiro exclaimed, "MOMO!"

Isane didn't miss a beat as she immediately used healing kido on Momo, "Hitsugaya-taichou quickly get Unohana-taichou, this kind of wound...I can't handle this kind of wound" although she tried to keep her voice level it faltered when she said that she wasn't able to handle this kind of wound as she feared that Momo would die right before her eyes.

"O-okay" Toushiro said as he turned around but was surprised to find Unohana and two kido healers by her side, "Unohana-taichou...how did you-"

"We've put Hinamori-fukataichou on suicide watch since Aizen's betrayal...I wasn't able to sense her wound until I felt her reiatsu falter dramatically, I came here as quickly as I could" Unohana calmly said.

"Unohana-taichou I can't stem the blood flow, she's losing blood fast...I...I..." Isane frantically said as blood continued to gush out of Hinamori's wound.

"Calm down Kotetsu-san" Unohana said as she helped Isane heal Hinamori's wound, "this seems to be a deep cut and it's been bleeding for quite some time, if you two had not arrived here and Isane didn't use emergency first-aid I do not think she would be alive now...well done Isane, you might have just saved her life" she said with a kind smile.

"If we hadn't arrived...if we hadn't visited her..." Isane whispered as the alternative was too much to bear for the young Lieutenant as she openly cried for Momo.

"Do not dwell on the past...dwell instead in the present and plan for the future" Unohana wisely said, "you saved Hinamori-fukataichou's life, try to think on how you can help her in the future...she'll need lots of support when she wakes up."

"Y-yes Unohana-taichou" Isane said sadly as she leaned on Hitsugaya for support, who for once had no idea what to do or say, he was too shocked that the person he considered a childhood friend and perhaps crush would try to end her life even if it was through Seppuku...he then saw a letter on the table. He slowly rose up and went over there before opening it, it was addressed to him and it expressed Momo's shame about Aizen's defection and her inability to handle it, tears flowed from his eyes as he dropped to his knees before he cried out, "DAMN YOU AIZEN! I SWEAR I WILL KILL YOU!" vowing vengeance on the man who had broken Momo to this much extent that she would try to commit suicide as he cried and crumbled the note in his hand.

He then felt Isane's hand on his shoulder, "We should go Hitsugaya-taichou...we should wait by her side" she said softly as Unohana finished stabilising Momo and was transporting her to the 4th Division as she accompanied her.

"Y-yeah..." Toushiro said wiping his tears, "we should" he then followed Isane back to the 4th Division where he spent all night by his childhood friend's side not even thinking of going back home to sleep as he slept close to Momo praying that she would wake up soon.