It seemed to Dr. Brennan that the traffic was dreadful in the wee morning hours of this Sunday. Struggling to stay awake, her body physically and mentally exhausted and frustrated, the doctor opted to make a detour to the local coffee shop. She found the quaint shop rather crowded yet calming as she sat herself at a small table awaiting her coffee to be delivered. The atmosphere was relaxing and soothing as it put her tired mind into a manageable state.
And from this she deduced that emotions are not irrational- just some of the preconceived notions that come along with she concluded she loved Seeley Booth even with his flaws. That, she Temperance Brennan loved him and that in the pit of her stomach decided she wanted him to aid her becoming a mother, something she was afraid of. But, yet when she ran this through her mind as having a child with Booth, it seemed so right so loving and perfect.
Brennan released a tired sigh as she tipped the sever and began to warm her hands on the steaming coffee cup. As she anxiously waited for the liquid to cool some she felt tranquil, she felt like she had reached a new level of nirvana in her life. Her mind told her to simply rake the coffee and go. Her heart and mind Booth told her to find Booth. Was he still at her home? Was he mad at her? Did he feel he had made a mistake?
Those ideas filled her head as she made the hasty decision to return home. Had she not been so eager to learn how Booth felt, she would have seen how tired and dreadful she looked wirh bloodshot eyes and messy hair. as she drove home, Bones had herself convinced that Booth had left her behind. Upon arriving home she entered th unwelcoming darkness that loomed. Part of her expected to see Booth on the couch, but she did not. That in itself crushed her. She was now positive he was gone.
Feeling depressed Brennan poured herself a glass of wine and sat on the sofa. She felt so empty inside, and that emptiness inside was her conformation that what she felt was love. Her inner genius took action to allow herself to stop drinking and crying. Once that was accomplished she went to check her room for Booth. Upon entering her room a vast darkness encompassed her and a melancholy feeling as she found her bed the same mess it was from their loving as when she left. At the sight her heartached, as she drank oin the scent of Booth's cologne from the pillows as she made her bed. Could he really have just used her?
Feeling desperate Bones went to the spare bedroom. She opened the door to total darkness so she left the door ajar for some light. As her eyes adjusted she spotted Parker sprawled across the king size bed. But no sign of Booth.
A familiar feeling of disappointment crept through her insides. But then she felt familiar muscular arms wrapp around her waist and turn her toward them. "Hey," Booth announced in husky tone of a silent whisper. "I thought you left," she replied with hurt and anger in her tone as she lightly punched his shoulder.
"I told you Tempe, I'd never leave you," Booth said knowing it sounded corny, but his eyes told her he was serious. "I am sorry. You startled me," Brennan whispered careful not to wake Parker. Booth nodded knowing that her apology was more then what it seemed. "Do you want to go to the living room so we can talk?" Booth offered as his grip around Brennan's waist tightened as he pulled her close to him, his muscles on her warm milky flesh.
"Let's," Bones said with a seductive grin hidden in the dark. Brennan resumed her relaxed position on the couch as she poured herself another glass of wine. Booth grins as he sits in the corner recliner. " Booth," she drawled in a sultry tone. His head turned to her and he sat tense as he waited for her to continue. "I am sorry about before. It is just this whole relatioship thing is new to me," Bones announced. "And when you said you loved me I freaked out. Because my experience with so called love has ended in disaster. But after talking to Angela, I realize what love really is. And, that is how truly feel about you," Bones announced the darkness hiding her awkward and embarrassed expression.
"Good because I love you. And I was so afraid I pushed you away," Booth said as he moved to the couch and set her wine glass on the table. His lips gently brushed hers as he showed his affection. Just when tit was starting to become more than a kiss, Parker walked in. "Daddy what are you doing?" Parker asked. "Your father and I were just about to-" Bones started but Booth covered her mouth to muffle her and told her not to tell that to his seven year old son.
"I was just gving her a kiss," Booth replied annoyed. "Does that mean she is going to have a child?" "No, buddy." Booth replied. "No, Seeley I want one," she replied sternly and his eyes met hers to challenge if she was serious. Upon her face was etched the familiar serious expression. "Look Parker, kissing doesn't make you have a kid," Booth replied ignoring the comment made by Bones. "Well that's what happened with mommy. I walked in and she and Paul were kissing.
Later mommy said we were going to have a child, but then she said it died," Parker explained. "No bud. Look if Bones and I decided to have a child we will ask you. Right Bones?" Booth explained. "Yes," she replied not enthused. "Well I am fine if you and Bones have child. I like her. Besides it would be cool to be a big brother," Parker announced as he went to the bathroom his original intention.
"Bones you can't just talk about that stuff in front of Parker. Besides do not tell him you want a baby just to humor him," Booth lectured. "Well, what if it wasn't just talk? What if hypothetically I wanted a baby?" she continued slightly offended. "You said you'd never have a kid,"Booth replied. "Well, people change, and I want a child," Bones decided. "Temperance it is not as if it is a puppy. It is a full-time commitment. You can't make a rash decision such as this," Booth explained as he held her tight. "What if I told you, I have thought about and wanted this ever since I was buried alive by the gravedigger?" she challenged him.
Booth remained silent as he processed her words. They were words he wanted to hear so bad, but not like this. "I'd tell you to make sure you are ready for all the responsibility. And the restrictions," booth warned her. "Like what?" Bones asked her eyes full of concern. " Like if you are pregnant you can't go to the case in Cape Town with me. And no other digs in South Africa, or anywhere. You'd have to stay in the safety of the lab," Booth remarked his eyes serious and strong. "So I won't be pregnant instantly, ," Bones argued before going to her room.
Booth sat with his mouth agape. What had triggered this in his Bones? "Can we at least take this discussion to your room before Parker over hears us?" Booth inquired slightly befuddled. Bones followed Booth to her room wondering why he seemed so offended. "Temperance," He whispered as she sat close to him. "Hmm," she replied. "I do not think that you are using logic or thinking clearly," Booth replied. "Why?" she countered defensively.
"Because when people are in love it doesn't mean they have to have children, or have them right away," Booth whispered softly as Her mind was off picturing herself as a mother. She forsaw the task as a difficult one, but one she would embark with Booth. But, the more she began to think about such an idea the more trouble arose. She knew Booth was a religious man and felt ashamed that he had never married Rebbecca. Would he expect her to get engaged or even married? And, if he did this could she live with that? Could she see herself being a wife, an institution she had considered slavery?
With a deep sigh Brennan turned over to face Booth as he slept. Moments later, Brennan heard aa knock on her bedroom door. Swiftly, she got up and put on a black silk robe. She then opened the door to find Parker in tears. "What is the matter Parker?" Bones asked as she closed her bedroom door and went to sit with him in the living room. She could see tears on his face as she walked him into the living room and sat him upon the couch with her.
"I had a bad dream," he whispered as he tried to brush away the tears. "Do you want to talk about it?" Bones offered as Parker sat near her. "Yes, it is the same dream I have where mommy's boyfriend beats her. Then he does things to me," Parker sobbed at the end his voice shaky and terrified. "Parker they are just ideas. Ideas can't hurt you. You are safe here," Bones suggested. "But what if it really has happened?" Parker offered.
"If it happens tell your dad," Bones said as she held the crying child by her side. "Bones?" Parker asked. "Yes?" she replied. "It did happen, and I am telling you because daddy said you had bad things happen to you as a child," Parker whispered as he hugged Bones and held on to her for security. "It is okay Parker. he can't hurt you here. Has it been going on long?" Brennan asked her tone telling parker to be honest. "For over a year," Parker cried.
"It is not your fault Parker. I know you probably feel like no one gets you, and it is your fault. But that is not true. I get you, and your only a child, you would not have been able to stop it," Bones whispered while Booth stood in the bedroom doorway listening to her. Booth noticed how calm she was, how motherly and loving. That act made up his mind about having a child with her. "Do you want me to sit with you until you fall asleep?" Brennan asked the scared child.
"Yes," mumbled Parker as he got up allowing Bones to move. She spotted Booth, and knew in her heart that telling him his son was raped and molested would kill him inside and hurt her just as much. Bones followed Parker to his room and sat on the couch while Parker sprawled across the king-sized bed. "Do you want me to get your father?" Bones offered as she hsaw Parker begin to ball up and cry into his stuffed animal.
"No, daddy would be mad at me," Parker whispered. "I will stay with you Parker. But, your father needs to know, so he can get you away from the people who are hurting you. Do you understand?" Bones said. "Yes, but can you make sure he doesn't punish me," Parker asked obviously terrified. Bones nodded and promised to return as she went to find Booth.
Bones went into the living room to find Booth standing in the bedroom doorway. Immediately Booth was able to sense something was not right. "What happened to Parker?" Booth asked wondering why his son was reduced to tears in her arms. "Parker just told me that his mom's boydriend touched him inappropriately and he is having nightmares about. I explained to him he is safe here and that what he is feeling is normal. I told him it is not his fault. But he is afraid you will punish him," she whispered in a grave tone.
Booth stood there speechless looking to Brennan for some answer. "What do I do?" he whispered to Bones. "Talk to him. And get him out of the house or it will get worse," Brennan replied hugging Booth for support. "Can you go in there with me? I am afraid he might think I am going to hurt him," Booth asked of Brennan who nodded in agreement. They entered the spare-room to find Parker sitting and crying. "Hey bud. Bones told me what happened. It is okay your safe here," Booth said holding his son close to him.
"I need you to answer me a hard question. Are you up to it buddy?" Booth asked as he held his son. "Yes," Parker replied in a mouse of a voice. "What did mommy's boyfriend do?" Booth asked. "He touched me in my privates and made me touch him," Parker replied his voice strong and holding back tears. "Okay, bud well I am going to try and get mom to let you live with me where you are saffe," Booth replied smiling at his son. "Your not mad at me," Parker asked. "No, bud. It is not your fault. I am mad at mommy and her boyfriend. Now go to sleep Parker. If you need me I'll be in the living room," Booth whispered.
Bones went to lay down as Booth called Rebbecca. Booth gave her the choice between siging over custody of their son. Otherwise he was going to press charges against them. Rebbeca instantly agreed and promised to meet him in the morning to sign the papers.
"What do I do now Bones?" he muttered his voice desperate to aid his son. "Let him talk it out with a therapist if he wants. You can't force it upon him as it will only make it worse. But, he is young he may get over it now that it is out in the open," Bones replied as she massaged Booth's shoulders knowinghis back must be aching. "I can't go back to bed knowing he is hurting. I swear if her boyfriend has the balls to show tomorrow, I will beat him," Booth sighed.
"It won't solve anything. From now on he'll be safe. I remember when I was about his age and got molested by one of dad's criminal buddies. I felt better once I divulged the truth to my mother. A week later it was out of mind because they did not make it a big deal. They just talked it out, and let me do the rest myself. Parker's a smart kid he will be able to let go especial now that he is removed from the situation," Bones told Booth reassuringly.
"I know Tempe, and you were amazing with him. So motherly, you knew right what to do when I didn't," Booth whispered as his forehead pressed against hers and their lips inches apart. "What are you trying to say?" Bones asked hoping he was thinking what she was. "It means you will make an amazing mother figure to Parker and a mother in general, and that I will have a child with you. If, you can wait until things cool down with Parker. After watching you talk to him and comfort him I can't believe I ever doubted your want, your need for a child to love you back unconditionally," Booth smiled before brushing his lips against hers. "Are you serious about this?" Brennan asked her voice so full of euphoria.
"Positive. No one else I'd rather do this with," Booth grinned as he took her in his arms and began nibbling seductively on his earlobe. "But is it not against your religion to have sex let alone child out of wedlock," Bones inquired with confusion. "It is but when a guy knows the woman doesn't believe in marriage he does what he needs to," he replied with a boyish grin.
"Maybe if someone would ask at a later time, my answer may change. Remember I never said no, or that I wouldn't when it came to us," Brennan hinted knowing that this is what he wanted most, and he was giving her what she wanted most a child so she could live with being a wife. She just hoped that her reproductive system was not damaged beyond allowing her to have a child. Brennan was going to schedule an appointment with a fertility doctor and obgyn first thing in the morning. She did want to get her hopes too high about having a child when there was a decent chance she could not bare children.
"Yeah." Booth sighed rubbing temples as he sat on the couch. "You should probably go back to bed," Booth said lovingly before he brushed his lips against hers. "I am not coming with out you," she insisted. "But I promised Parker-" he started. "Parker is probably already fast asleep," Bones replied. Booth got up and checked on his son. Sure enough Parker was fast asleep and did not wake when Booth let the door slam shut behind him.
Booth sat backdown holding Bones in his arms. "Can I ask you something?" Temperance asked her tone sweet and calm. "Yeah," Booth grinned. "What do you mean when you say you love me?" she asked knowing Booth would have difficulty explaining everything. "It means I don't want anyone, but you. I see a future for us. Maybe a house with white picket fence with a puppy and children. And maybe a wedding. But I always see me ending up with you," Booth replied as he rubbed her. He knew she wouldn't reply, that she was just assuring they were on the same ground. "Then I love you too," she whispered into his neck. "Good," he whispered as he kissed her his tongue deep in her mouth as he held her close, his need to feel her against him now that she was truly his.
"I am going to sit out here," Booth declared after several minutes of silence as he still reveled in the euphoria of that kiss with Bones. He flicked on the television and muted as Sports Center came upon the screen. "Then I'll stay with you," Bones yawned. She put a pillow in Booth's lap as she laid down.
"Hmm... so I am I like a pillow to you," he teased as he could feel himself starting to get an erection at the closeness of it. "Yes, a nice comfy pillow," she grinned as she slid her hand underneath the pillow and felt his erection. "Whoa Bones," Booth replied removing her hand. "Hmm," she moaned sleepily as she reached for the blanket draped across the couch. "Not now. Not with Parker. Not in this uncertainty," Booth replied as his hands ran through her hair.
Bones woke up at what she assumed was near ten. She had slept her morning away. She had got up to find Booth had left with Parker, and she couldn't help but feel emptiness at his disapearance. it felt like she was being used for sex all over again. Damn! She hafd over slept and missed her yoga class. She got up, her body sore and poured herself an immense cup of coffee as she let the warm liquid numb her over stressed brain. She heard a knock on the door. Bones opened she smiled as she saw it Booth. "Where is Parker? What happened?" Bones demanded as she ushered him noticing his disappointed face.
"Well Rebbecca took the liberty of calling her attorney and mine for the meeting. They wouldn't let me take Parker because my career is risky. But I did get Parker a restraining order against that jerk off who molested him. Now, Rebbecca has to check in every other week and Parker too with a social worker. She broke up with that asshole. The lawyers told her she will be drugged tested and has to enter a program. And, If she slips up I then get Parker, but the custody issue as it stands now will be revisted every three months," Booth informed her sadly as he helped himself to a glass of coffee.
"Well at least the situation has improved," Bones stated hoping to cheer him up. "Yes, I know. But I feel my job has nothing to do with Parker. My mom can watch him during the day, and you can help me with him," Booth said. "Yes, but we can try again in three months if she doesn't screw up sooner. and, until then we have time to work on us," Bones grinned across the table from behind her coffee mug. "That we do," he replied as he grinned a boyish grin.
"You look exhausted. You should go to bed. I will meet you there later," Temperance suggested much to Booth's dislike. "Maybe I want to spend it with you because once the work week starts we can't act like this in front of Cam or Angela," Booth replied. "Rest first. You will needed," she grinned as she flirtatiously tapped his shoulder.
Booth smirked as he headed to the bedroom to nap. Bones, having missed her yoga class went rummaging for her mat and popped in tape. She felt she needed to do yoga to relax. She felt amazing after her workout as she collapsed on the couch. "That was sexy," Booth grinned flirtatiously. Brennan nodded as he joined her on the couch, but his mind still on her flexibility.
"Booth," she panted her body aching from the vigorous excercise. "Yes?" he questioned as he pulled her towards him wrapping his arms around her tiny figure. "I want to get a dog," she sighed. "Why?" Booth asked startled that Bones would have animal.
"Because I want a child. But, we need time to see if things are right. I don't want to rush into this nor do you. So a dog would give me something to care for," the doctor surmized. "How about next weekend when parkers here. you to can go pick one out and rescie it from a shelter," Booth suggested. "Yeah I'd like that. It would give Parker and I a chance to bond," Bones grinned. "He likes you already," Booth grinned as he ran his fingers through her hair.
"So what do you want do?" Booth asked as he cupped her face in his. She let out an embarassed laugh as her face turned red, her eyes lingered on him the entire time. 'I don't know. I was going to write before the weekend vanishes. Unless you have a better idea," Bones smirked. "I am sure we could think of something for us to do all alone in the house," Booth grinned as he leaned over his lips locking upon hers.