"Fine," he agreed eagerly clasping her hand in his.
"You go first," her tone was demanding. If he could read her mind, he would see how much she needed this welcomed distraction. But, Booth could read her mind via her eyes, and he was glad to be of help. He could see the hurt, the pain, the need in her eyes. He was certain in his eyes was the same look mixed with a wanting look of sexual desire, but he knew even if things were different for them he needed to put her first.
"Okay. Truth," he offered.
"Chicken," she teased in jest before she continued, "What were you thinking when I told you I was pregnant?"
"That's easy. I was thinking I was the luckiest man in the world. I was having a baby with the only woman I truly ever loved, and she is so smart, so sexy, and would make such a great mother."
"Dare Booth," she replied her face flush with embarassment, but his words they created a heat. In the pit of her stomach there was a pain, but a good pain. A pain of desire, and then there was wetness and not just due to bleeding.
"I dare you to open up to me, to trust me completely without holding anything back." He meant he said as he looked her dead in the eye. "Okay." It was just one word, one simple word, but it meant the world to him. "What do you want to know?' she asked her tone loving as she disregarded the game for now. "Anything, everything." "I know this much, I love you so much it hurts. Everytime I see you my desire for you, my need for you grows stronger and stronger."
Booth looked at her completely enamored. These words made him the happiest man in the world, and he wanted nothing more than to take her right there and prove it.
"I...wow..." He stammered as he kissed her hand. Laying there in the hospital bed with her, he had all of his dreams confirmed.'Back to the game? I chose dare." "Hmm what to do what to do... I dare you to love me unconditionally. No matter what." "Bones, that isn't much of dare since I already do." "Then I dare you to stay with me, whether I am rendered fertile or not."
"You really think I'd leave you, just for that? Even if you can't give me children you give me so much, so much more."
"I promise to slow things down between us. But promise me this, you will give a child another chance if you can," he offered.
"Of course. I've been dreaming of that for years."
"Tell me how long."
"Since our first undercover operation. Since you were Tony.''
"I got you beat. I've wanted it since I first laid eyes on yous," he congradulated himself for winning.
"That's when I knew I loved you."
"What makes you love me?" he had to know. "You are the best I've ever had. You are the nicest, sexiest person. And, you love me. Plus the sex is unrivaled." "Good to know," he grinned kissing her neck. He loved making marks on her with his mouth, it was all his to do with it as he pleased. He would love her with his mouth.
"I was nervous about us." "Why, Bones?" "Because I suck at relationships. And sex has always been so painful for me, and I did not want to hurt for you, for us." "Bones, you should get checked by the doctor. Sex is suppose to feel good, not painful." "I did and they said there was nothing they could to do. Too much damage, too much trama." At these words his heart ached. He had been hurting her all along just... just to get off. "I'll find the best there is. Something has to be able to work." "There is something they could try, but they said it would render me infertile." "So you care more about another life than you do for you own?"
"I only care because you want children," she cried, the tears falling. "Not at this price Bones. How could you think, I'd put that over you? Without you my life is... meaningless." He replied holding her up against throbbing body, and she could feel his shift pulsating against her as her body vibrated. '' I didn't. I just... I don;t know. Love is stronger than pain, and I'd rather feel your love than my pain." Booth shook his head wanting argue, but it wasn't the time or the place.
"Just know that I love you," Booth begged of her. "I do."
Before he could responded the doctor came to check on her. And, by the looks of things she wasn't doing so well as the pain within her grew. The doctor order pain medication, and soon Bones was in a pain free state. He wanted to succumb to sleep and join her, but he needed to protect her, to hold her. He sat there lovingly and watched her sleep drinking in her aroma. Before long it was morning and they were discharged. Neither of them wanted to go to work, so Booth called out which he rarely did. Bones called Cam and arranged to work the night shift as they were in-between cases. Once back in her apartment she hopped in the shower, and he changed the bedding praying to put it all behind him. When she stepped out of the bathroom she found him sleeping on top of a fresh clean blanket it his boxers. Her eyes ran over his body and she wanted him, right then.
But, the doctor had told her she had to wait. so she settled for lying beside him wrapped in his arms. What Bones did not know is Booth had told the doctor of her pain, and they were devising a plan to help her while keeping her fertility if possible. Which Booth knew she was lucky to have. The doctor had told him there was so much damage that she was lucky she had gotten pregnant to begin with. He hid the piece of information from her. He could not stand the look of twerror that would be plastered on her face.
