The drive to Madison's house was quieter than usual. Granted the two never had problems with uncomfortable silence but Spencer could tell the difference, something was really bothering her girlfriend and recent events lately have shown that only two people could be the cause. They exited the vehicle once the Latina pulled into the driveway. They made their way up to the room where Madison attacked the blonde's lips with so much fervor. Spencer could feel herself being pushed back against the bed as she tangled her hands in the brunette's hair. Spencer knew that she should stop this so they could talk but the assault the Latina was performing on her neck elicited a moan and didn't leave much room for thought.

"Mmm. Madison wait." Spencer said putting her hand on the Latina's chest. Madison still continued further putting herself between the blonde's legs, putting pressure at her center. Spencer moaned again louder this time and found herself losing control.

"Madison." The blonde said a little stronger. Spencer pushed on Madison's chest once again and this time the Latina stopped. She rolled off of Spencer and lay on the other side of her.

"What the hell Spencer?"

"Don't 'what the hell' me; you know why I stopped this. Talk to me, please Maddy." Madison scoffed and sat up ready to leave the bed. The blonde had other ideas apparently because she was pushed back down.

"Ok so now you want me. Make up your mind Spencer."

"Lose the attitude and tell me what's wrong. I know something is bothering you because your performance a few minutes ago was lacking."

"Hey! That's mean and complete bullshit. If I remember correctly that was you about to bust my ear drum with your moans."

"Talk. I know something is wrong. Please Maddy, you told me to never shut you out and that you wouldn't do the same to me.

8

*Flashback*

It's been a month since Spencer and Madison started their new friendship. Madison had decided that she no longer wanted to cheer and Spencer was beginning to open up more. It was Friday which meant movie night. The two would alternate between each other homes. Tonight it was Spencer's house. The blonde was in her room writing in a journal Madison had bought for her when she was brought out of her concentration by knocking at her door. Spencer looked up to see Madison standing there.

"Hey. Sorry I'm late but I decided to pick up the pizza." The blonde just smiled and set aside the journal. Madison made her way over to the blonde and sat on the bed beside her while setting down the pizza.

"I see your writing again."

"Yeah, I felt the time called for it." It was secret no longer that Spencer was hurting herself. The Latina finally dragged it out of her after coming into the blonde's room one day unannounced. Madison quickly saw the scars and her eyes filled with tears and realizations. Madison vowed to help Spencer from there forth. One way was the journal, as an outlet for all that built up anger and self hate. The journey they took was anything but easy. Plenty of times Spencer would relapse after not taking the time to confront her feelings and deal with them. Now was one of those times.

"Do I have to ask what made you start again, or will you freely tell me."

"Madison I'm not in the mood. Let's just pick out a movie and eat some pizza. I hope you got pineapples on my side." The blonde got up from the bed and moved to her DVD collection. Madison watched as the blonde was stalled. They both knew what films she had.

"What are you in the mood for, Resident Evil or The Illusionist? I'm leaning toward zombie apocalypse."

"Stop deflecting and talk to me." Spencer sighed heavily.

"What do you want me to say? I got low and relapsed. There, story time over." Madison got off the bed and moved to sit behind Spencer. She put her arms around Spencer's waist and pulled her in close.

"Talk to me, please. Don't shut me out and I promise to not do the same." The two were quiet for a moment before the blonde finally spoke.

"I talked to Kyla today. She told me she got an email from Ashley. She's going to stay in Europe another two months. I guess just the thought of her made me feel like shit again. I just felt pathetic for caring when it's clear she doesn't give a shit about me.

"Hey. Don't ever feel ashamed for being human. That's what makes you so great Spence. You still care about people even when they don't deserve it. It makes you a lot better than most of us, but doing this to yourself will not make the pain go away. I understand having that numb feeling and needing some type of control in your life but this isn't the way. So why don't we watch some hot chick kill some zombies and eat this awesome pizza." Up until now Spencer was quiet.

"I would like that." The two rose from the floor. Spencer put the movie in while Madison got comfortable on the bed. The blonde joined her and the two lapsed into comfortable silence with the blonde cuddling into Madison's life.

*End Flashback*

8

"You're right, I'm sorry I don't know why I let that bitch troll get to me today." Spencer chuckled slightly. She knew just who her girlfriend was talking about.

"It's amazing how you do that. You're so hot."

"Nice try, sexy time later. Talk."

"Just shit about you still being in love with her and not fully wanting to be with me. Apparently I'm kidding myself in thinking that I'm the one you want." The Latina said staring off into another part of the room.

"Maddy…"

"I know okay. You don't have to…"

"Shush." Spencer said grabbing both sides of her girlfriends face and turning her head to face her. "Listen to me and listen well. You are the one I want Madison Durante. A part of me will always love Ashley because she was my first, but you baby, are my everything. You are the woman who I am madly and totally in love with. The woman who can cuss someone out at the drop of a hat but also make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. I trust you to be there and protect me always. To call me on my shit and not string me along. To be honest and never lie to me. You are the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. Ashley had her chance and she fucked it up. I don't want her back. The only person I want is you. Now." The blonde said as she got up on her knees and pulled the Latina on top of her. "Show me just how much you love me." Spencer said her voice becoming huskier.

Madison didn't have to be told twice. She climbed on top of her girlfriend inserting herself between the blonde's legs. She would kick her own ass later and then Ashley's for ever making her doubt this beautiful creature. There was no doubt in her mind now that Spencer was the one she was going to spend the rest of her life with making happy. And she was going to start tonight by making love to this beautiful woman.

Another chapter completed. My apologies for the slow update, issues of the personal nature slowing me down. As always. Read. Review. Enjoy!