Happy Castle Day! so, who is nervous and who is terrified? me? i'm both... i would simply not watch the episode until september but i can not be unspoiled for 4 months.. so... yeah..

Anyways! i got writers block with this one and i'm not sure about it .. so i decided to end it where it was and post the next one on Friday.. maybe.. please review!

Disclaimer: DOn't own it.. if i did we wouldn't have to wait 4 months...

Hours later Rick was hugging a very slim and long pillow that tickled his face, smelled like cherries and something that reminded him of Kate. 'Oh crap!' he thought. Very slowly he opened his eyes and yes, in front of him was the hair of a certain sleepy detective and his arms were holding her by the stomach. 'Oh crap, crap, crap' he told himself, 'Ok, calm down, Ricky, just slowly extract yourself from her' he heard the voice in his head say, 'But I don't want to!' he replied to said voice 'move!' 'Oh fine, I'll try'

He began to remove his arm from her belly but she grabbed his arm and put it right where it was, intertwining her fingers with his without waking up.

'Great, now what?' - He asked his inner voice.

'Uh, keep sleeping?'

'Yeah, ok'

It didn't need much convincing; he went back to a world of dreams where he'd wake up just like that every day, with a big smile plastered on his face.

Hours later Kate started to get chilly; she felt this cold, hard thing on her back. She was on her side, facing a mirror that she didn't remember being there. The light from the window behind the bed reflected on the mirror and that's when she saw him. Rick. He was pale, eyes glassy and cold, he was behind her, facing the sealing. She stirred to look at him; she screamed his name, caressing his face, trying to feel a pulse on his neck. Nothing. He had this awful look, like he had seen a ghost and died from fear. She didn't know what to do; she was desperate, hearing her heart breaking into million pieces.

"It's your fault, you know" – Said a low voice, almost like a growl, from behind her.

There was something familiar in that voice.

She jerked her face to where the sound was coming from. The mirror was gone but instead there was Roy; his eyes were pitch black and he was dressed in a black suit, pants and shirt included, no tie.

"No, it's not. He was fine last night" – she told him in between sobs.

"He got scared, Beckett. You pushed away too much and that is the result" – he said while pointing with his index finger at the body that was once Rick Castle.

"NO! I don't believe you, sir!"

"It's not the first time. It's your fault that I'm dead, I was about to retire, travel with my wife. You made that impossible"

"Kate! Kate!"

It was Rick's voice, it came from afar. She looked at where his body was but there was an empty space instead.

"Rick!" – She called, looking at all directions at the sealing – "Where are you?"

"Kate! You need to wake up, remember…" – Rick's voice told her, every word a little quieter than the last.

Beckett opened her eyes in shock. The first thing she saw was the blue, very much alive, orbs of her writer. Without thinking she hugged him, it wasn't until she did that she noticed that her cheeks were wet. She couldn't care less; she let the tears run freely as she felt the very warm and strong arms of Rick embrace her. He kept whispering soothing things in her ear.

When the sobs subsided she separated from Rick but he still held her at arm's length. He cupped her cheek and removed a single tear that was running down, and kissed her forehead.

"Talk to me, Kate" – he said gently.

She sighed, she didn't want to relieve the whole experience, but she needed to tell him, she'd promised.

"I woke up and you…you were dead…your eyes were glassy and empty, you were cold and had this expression of fear on your face. Then the Captain showed, he was dressed in black and had pitched dark eyes, he told me that it was my fault that you were both gone"

At this point she had tears threatening to fall back but she fought them.

He brushed a lock of hair from her face and looked directly at her. The next words that flew from his mouth made Kate's heart skip a beat.

"I'll always be by your side, do you hear me? Always" – he whispered in her ear. His voice full of emotion.

Her breath caught in her throat, she couldn't speak so she just nodded.

They stayed like that, in each other's arms, for quite some time, neither willing to let go. It wasn't until Kate's stomach decided it was time to have some breakfast that they pulled apart, looked at each other and laughed. Rick insisted on making something to eat while Kate showered and changed.

After about 20 minutes Kate had already showered and dressed; she decided on a pair of jeans and a green t-shirt with the green lantern slogan in the front. It had been a gag gift from Lanie and she secretly loved it, maybe even more after discovering that a certain writer liked said super hero.

She was finishing with her hair when the smell of scrambled eggs and bacon hit her nose, which, of course, made her stomach grumble. She smiled at the thought of Castle making breakfast for her, but then a rare feeling on her belly bothered her. That damn feeling that had been holding her for a long time had crept out again; fear. It was bothering her that she still felt it, after what happened last night, they way she felt around him. She took a deep breath and went to him.

"There you are, I was about to call you. Your coffee is on the table and so is breakfast. I'll be back in a sec, just going to grab a quick shower"

Before she knew it she was alone in the kitchen so she sat down at the table. She couldn't help but to smile at the thoughtfulness of Castle. The table was set; two empty plates, a cup of coffee filled and one empty; there were other plates from where the smell was coming from, covered with a napkin to keep the food from getting cold.

On her plate there was a note that read "Please serve yourself, I'll join you as soon as possible. RC" she smiled as she drank a sip of her coffee, feeling the caffeine taking effect she began to relax. She closed her eyes and smiled remembering the look of Castle's face in the kitchen. She would never say this to him, god knows he doesn't need any ego boost, but he had the most adorable look on his face, that combined with his hair messy and almost on his eyes made her want to smile. Oh, she had it really bad for him.

"Thinking anything good?"

Kate was a little startled when she heard Rick's voice, he couldn't have been gone that long, or maybe her daydreaming was as bad as his?

"Oh, nothing, just enjoying my coffee"

She smiled at him.

He narrowed his at her for a second, he knew there was something she wasn't telling, but decided to let it go for now.

"Hey, you haven't even look at the food"

"I was enjoying my coffee"

After finishing breakfast he picked up some dishes and before leaving he whispered in a husky and sexy voice that made her shiver "Green Lantern suits you very well detective, you know how much I love that comic". And he left to wash the dishes.

Yep, she was screwed.

So, - he said after returning from the kitchen drying his hands with a hand towel – What are we doing today?"

"You look…"

"Sexy? Irresistible? I know,…" – he said as he placed the towel on his shoulder, kind of like a bartender.

"Actually I was going to say very Mr. Mom"

"Oh. Yeah, well, I had to learn all the ways of the job for Alexis. I wasn't comfortable with someone coming to the house to do things that I could do"

"I understand. My dad was the one that handled the chores when I was little. Since my mom was the one with the 9 to 5 job and he was a freelancer"

"So, you were a total daddy's girl" – he said, smiling kindly at her.

"I guess I was" – she said smiling at the memories of her childhood.

After a moment of Castle staring lovingly at his detective he snapped out of it before she'd noticed

"You never answer my question, Got any plans for today?"

"Actually, no, I usually read or ehm cook"

"Only done that after a month and you haven't lost your mind?"

"Well, I also kind of fish"

"Kind of? Are you that bad?"

After a glare she answered trying to hide a slight blush "There aren't actual fish in the pond"

"What? Then what do you do?"

"Come on, I'll show you"

It had been about 2 hours since that. Kate had grabbed her dad's fishing rod for Castle and her own and went to the backyard where the pond was. They brought two flexible chairs and a cooler with some cokes and sat on the deck. Beckett told him that the art of fishing was not in catching the fish and eating it, it was in the way you threw the rod and admire nature, the way it relaxed you. Castle was mesmerized by the way she explained it all; she had a look on her face of pure enjoyment and relaxation. Kate also told him stories about her childhood and the cabin, how her dad had always loved the act of fishing and inculcated it in her.

"I can't believe it has been two hours, you were right, this is relaxing. I could do this all day"

"Told ya"

…..

After cooking and eating a very delicious BBQ made by Beckett (at Castle's insistence that he needed to prove her amazing cooking skills in other type of food that wasn't heavenly pancakes) they were resting lazily on the couch, a bit closer than usual, Rick had an idea.

"You know…" – he said in that tone of voice he had when he thought of Castle flavor ideas.

"Why do I have a bad feeling about what you're going to say?" – She said eyeing him skeptically.

"You hurt me, Detective; I was going to suggest a walk on the forest. There is a place I know from my days here"

"Oh, really? Do you think that place still exists? I mean it has been what? 30 years since you came here?"

"Hey! I'm not that old. – he pouted - For your information it has only been 20 years"

"Only?" - She said with a grin

"Oh, ha ha, detective, very funny"

After looking at her with his best 'pet me, I'm cute' puppy dog eyes for half a minute, she caved.

"Ok, Castle, where are we going?"

His eyes lit up and a big smile came back to his face.

"Come on, the exercise will do us, uh, me some good"

Rick rose from his seat and laid a hand to Beckett; she hesitated for a second or two but took it nonetheless.

They left the cabin after grabbing Kate grabbed the keys and Rick a couple of things from the kitchen and saved them on a backpack and putted on his back. She eyed him suspiciously but said nothing; she kind of liked that sense of surprise that Rick gave her with his antics.

"Castle, do you really know where we're going?" – She asked, about an hour later, they were still walking.

"Don't you trust me Beckett?"

Silence.

"Kate?" – He said turning around with a worried look on his face

She was smiling. He relaxed.

"Yes Castle, I trust you, I just think that we're lost"

"Nothing like that, I know exactly where to go, come on now, there isn't much left. I promise"

After 5 minutes he stopped and came behind her whispering on her ear "Just relax and trust me" and covered her eyes with his hands, he indicated her to keep walking.

About a few feet later, she was getting anxious and he noticed "Calm down, Kate. We're here"

He slowly removed his hands and she opened her eyes, missing the feel of his hands on her face. She dropped her jaw and her eyes popped out from their sockets.

R&R please!

~AC