Jasmine/Jason Hollyoaks storyline
Disclaim - i do not own the characters, Hollyoaks, or the general plot. i do own most of the plot
AN (authors note) – i hope this chapter isn't too confusing. I can't think of a way to make it less confusing!
Chapter four
"Jasmine..." i can see the confusion on Anita's face, "What's going on?"
And i decide that knowing how lovely and caring Anita is, she will understand completely, or at least i hope, because it's time to tell someone, and this is something that eventually i will have to face. Speechless, i begin to open up to the fact that I'm leading a double life as a girl and a boy, ignoring the fact that we are on the street outside Mobs and anyone could be listening. She's nodding but i still know she finds it hard to swallow. Anita invites me back to her place for us to properly talk and as we turn a corner, i can see a flash or bright red hair peaking through the bushes. Fern! Fern's been listening hasn't she? Could this nightmare get any worse if Fern found out? It's her soul aim to make my life a living hell already, and knowing about me being Jason can only make it worse. I don't tell Anita this problem when i am opening up to her in the privacy of her home. I'm so relieved that she understands, and for a second i even allow the possibility that more people will understand. But i quickly tell myself not to be so stupid.
"Have you told anyone else?" Anita asks,
"No, and I'm not about to! It's too hard, you know, with Bart,"
"I can imagine!"
"I'm seeing him tonight; he says we'll have the place to ourselves..." I'm ready to spill the details again when there's a knock at the door. Anita answers it, and i hear chattering from the hallway so i go and see who it is. I knew who it was before i got there – Fern.
"Hello, is Jasmine in, i need to talk to her," Fern trills, acting all cute and innocent. That's her problem; she may look fragile but she's as hard as a rock!
"Yes, i suppose so; you can go out in the yard if you want some privacy?" Anita offers, and Fern agrees. As i follow the devil into the back yard i already know this is a bad idea; because i already know what she's about to tell me. I'm ready for her to turn back into a wild cat and get her claws out when she surprises me by taking a more relaxed approach to intimidate me. Harshly she pins me up against the wall.
"I know your secret...Jason!" she hisses quietly and gruffly into my ear. My eyes are focused on her every move – especially her hands in the pockets of her tracksuit bottoms– I'm trying to figure out whether there's a knife in there or not.
"Ha, how long have you been keeping this quiet eh? How long have you decided to play dress up?" she pokes me in the ribs hard; but at least i now know that's her only form of weapon. My body wants me to curl up in a ball and scream but my brain is telling me to be the bigger person, to fight back and not be afraid.
"How sensitive are you? I bet you are actually a boy "dressing up" as a girl. And let me tell you this...your fooling nobody!" I say, unpinning myself from the wall and walking into her. I know that my words are confusing her but at least it's shut her up!
"At least my problems aren't as big as yours. I know about your problems too – and i know that you'll be struggling just as much as me!" this could go two ways, and i've decided i don't want to know which way it will go; i just want to get out of here! I am just at the fence when she starts up again. But her voice is different now; it isn't grumbly and cruel, it's innocent and afraid. This is so out of character that i am pondering whether she's putting it on or not.
"Wait. Don't you dare tell anybody, or you'll go to sleep at night and never wake up!" she explains. I still don't know she had a problem. My only chance out of here was to guess that she did and play it with all I'd got. But it turns out that i guessed right. Whatever Ferns' problem is, its bad enough that she doesn't want people knowing about it.
"I won't tell anyone, as long as you swear not to tell anyone about...about Jason," i stammer. She thinks this through for a minute.
"My family can't know i'm a lesbian...my friends definitely can't know. I'd be a laughing stock – like you'd be! I can't believe i'm telling you this. But i suppose you'd understand too – being a lesbian as well. You know i wasn't that surprised when i overheard you and Anita talking...i always knew there was something up with you," she poked me again, but not as hard. I can't believe this; Fern likes girls! If i didn't have a secret that i needed to be kept hush about too; I'd tell the world! But what's this...Fern thinks I'm a lesbian? Where did this come from?
"I still like boys!" i smirk. The look on Ferns face is so cold it could turn air to ice. I don't know what it is but something has clicked and suddenly she regrets the fact that she told me she likes girls – even if she thought i already knew.
"Ha...you thought i was...being serious. Haha...how dumb can you get...of course i'm not a...a lesbian, that would be insane. You've got nothing to stop me telling everyone about your double life Jazzy! Unless..."
I know she's lying; but i can't let her know that or she'll knock me unconscious. Nobody would believe me anyway if i told anyone Fern likes girls. I'll just have to forget it or I'll get what's coming to me.
"Unless, you give me something to shut me up!" she continues. Blackmail. I knew this was coming. I'm beginning to think i can read the future!
"Like what?" i ask.
"Money!"
"How much?"
"Lots. You'd better give it to me soon; or you're gonna get it! Have fun tonight with Bart, or not..." she laughs as she leaves and i feel alone again. This whole thing is driving me mad!
AN (authors note) – the basic plot to this chapter is that Fern finds out about Jasmine being Jason and Jasmine decides to test Fern where she reveals she is a lesbian. She takes it all back when Jasmine knocks back her advances by admitting she (Jasmine) still likes boys. Then Fern decides to blackmail Jas into giving her money for her to keep it all hush hush.