Jane and Amanda had been texting each other for a few hours at work but when she got home she told Amanda she would talk to her later. It was Jane and Maura time, and that was the most important thing to her. It was always time well spent, any moment with Maura was great even if she was in a sour mood. Jane took another shower and cleaned up a little, she only cleaned for two things, she was either gonna get laid, or a dire occasion and this was a dire occasion. Upset Maura was not good, upset Maura was even worse when she was the cause.

Fifteen minutes away, Maura was ordering take out to Jane's address while she grabbed a couple of cactus leaves to feed Bass. She slipped on a pair of red Manolo Blahnik to match her red clutch and her black dress. To Maura this was casual and comfortable. Locking the door on the way out she texted Jane, "I'm on my way. Be there in 15."

Exactly fifteen minutes later Maura pulled up in front of Janes condo in her 2012 blue Prius, got out locked her car doors and headed for the steps that lead Tom her best friends door. When she got to the condo door Maura was about to knock but was surprised when Jane beat her to it and opened the door first, "Hey Maur, come in." She moved out of the way letting Maura past and then closing the door softly.

"Hello Jane. The Chinese food should be here in fifteen minutes." She sat down on Jane's couch and made herself at home"Sorry, I know I said I would bring dinner, but I figured it would be warmer if it was delivered."

Her friend smiled and asked if she wanted any of the wine she left from their last sleepover. "Oh yes! You know Pavillon Rouge Chateau Margaux dates back to the 17th century. Its tannic concentration is exceptional and it is very rare that you can detect astringency." She stated proudly. Jane loved the way simple facts would bring sparkle to the Dr.'s eyes. She was like no other, not one other person did Jane know who could start rambling on about facts that no one else knew and be proud of themselves when they could name every astronomer and scientist dating back to the early 1700's. There was a rewarding feeling the detective would get knowing this great doctor was her best friend, not someone else's, she didn't have to share Maura and she liked it that way.

"It amazes me that you know these things Maura. I wish I had known you when I took my ACT!" Maura jokingly glared at Jane.

"If I did, I would have given you all the wrong answers." She stuck her tongue out at Jane and preceded to take her glass of wine from her hand. "Thank you."

They sat and inch apart together on the couch. It was routine, one would come to the other's house, take put would be ordered, tv would be watched, talking would take place late into the night until it was time for bed. It was an unspoken rule between the two. If it was late and drinking was involved than no one went home. The domestic feel was natural for the two of them and no one said anything about it, not even their family.

Jane grabbed the remote and put the tv on mute. "I know you just got here but I wanted to talk about what my antics yesterday. But first I wanna ask what was wrong with you earlier today?"

Setting down her glass she answered, "I thought you were pushing me away. You seemed like you needed your space so I was trying to be a good friend and give that to you. I don't have any experience with friend behavior although I have read the Adult Friendship volume in the Sage series by Rosemary Blieszner and Rebecca Adams."

The rambling didnt go on as long as she thought it was going to but she smiled anyways. "Yeah, but our friendship is unique, it can't be dissected and analyzed by researchers, what we have is special." Maura reached for Jane's hand and gave a little squeeze. "And that's why I wanted to talk about what's going on with me. First I wanna say sorry again for making you think I was pushing you out. I hope you're not mad at me."

She waited for a response and when she didn't get one she continued. "I'll start from the beginning. Korsak made a comment about you being my girlfriend and it got me thinking that maybe it wouldn't be so bad to date a woman since my love life with men has been prickly."

"Why couldn't you have told me this when you found out? You know I would never judge you, Jane."

"I know but your opinion meant the most to me and I didn't want to ruin our friendship by coming to you and saying, 'Hey Maura I think I'm gonna date women now' and I wasn't completely sure I wanted to yet. Pursue women that is." Maura nodded her head, an indication for her to continue. "I talked to Frost about..."

She didnt get to finish when Maura cut her off with a scowl. "You talked to Frost before me!"

"Aw, come one Maur, I had no one else to go to and I definitely wasn't gonna go to my Ma. I knew you'd flip shit about this." It was bad enough she was just figuring out she was gay, well more like finding out if she was gay and then coming to terms with it. But what was worse was getting chewed out in the process. "Yelling at me isn't going to make this easier Maura."

After a minute she spoke. "I apologize I didn't mean to get so irate but isn't that what friends do when they're not the first to know their best friend's secret? I read it in the article." She did the cute little cocked head to the side and scrunched up her eyebrow thing.

The innocence in Maura's features softened the ones in Jane's and she laughed lightly. "Yeah you are, and I'm sorry. But that's the problem, wanting to date women wasn't all." She looked at Maura and gave an apologetic face shifting one leg under the other so she could face her more. "I kinda, uhm, already started talking to someone online."

"Oh, what's her name?"

"Her name's Amanda and she's petty cool. I've been texting her all day." She said enthusiasticly. "I sound like some 16 year old teenage boy. I asked Frost for the password to my profile and I seen her message, I messaged her back and we hit it off. She..."

On the outside Maura looked completely put together but on the inside she was being ripped apart at the idea of seeing Jane so giddy over another woman. The hurt inside was slowly dissipating and being replaced by anger and not only was the anger aimed at the newly formed relationship with Amanda, but at herself as well. How could she let someone else take her Jane from her. Of course she never told Jane she was in love with her. But she had just found that out, before she thought it was just a physical attraction, and it was, then the need for her touch began to turn into an emotional thing. Whenever she was hurt, whenever she was ecstatic, lonely, upset, or just bored, she craved the touch of the detective. It was her new addiction. Jane was her new addiction, and she knew she would never get over her. One could only imagine the all out rage she was feeling inside. Jane's love was meant for her not someone else, not Casey, not Dean, and definitely not this Amanda woman, that was for damn sure.

There was no one she could blame but herself, she had told Jane she wasn't her type, IF, she was gay. The mantra 'You're not my type' replayed over and over in her head haunting her, taunting her, forcing her to come to terms with the fact that this inevitable war of emotions was her doing, her undoing. She hadn't seen Jane this happy since she got her the horse racing lessons the day she killed Hoyt. She couldn't and wouldn't take that joy away. Telling Jane she loved her now would only make Jane angry with her, and confuse her.

"...and I still haven't met her yet but the more we talk the more I want to, you know?"

"Yes, she must be something special."

"She is. I know this is a lot to spring on you all in one night but I honestly thought I'd end up with you, if you were a lesbian," She laughed lightly, looking Her best friend in the eyes and quietly continued, "because you're the longest relationship I've ever been in, even if it is strictly platonic. You are the only one I've ever been vulnerable around, comfortable around, or let touch the scars on my hands. You're the most important person in my life."

The doctor smiled and said, "As are you and I can understand why you'd think that." I don't want to be in a strictly platonic relationship with you. You don't even know how much more I want than just a friendship. Maura thought to herself.

They sat for several minutes in comfortable silence and just drank their respected drinks and ate their takeout before it got too cold.

"Maura?"

"Yes Jane."

"You've never thought about being with another woman before, in more than just a...uhm...uh... non platonic way?"

Maura had never wanted to be in a romantic relationship with another woman before, only men, until Jane came along. But Maura had always been open minded and thought that a woman's sexuality was fluid and she didn't believe in labels. "No, no I haven't." She didn't think she was gay, just gay when it came to her friend, the detective. From the first time she seen Jane's smile she knew she was charmed, there was no doubt about it. So she answered what she thought was the truth. "I'm not gay Jane."