In that instant everything went quiet and the boiling rage that had consumed me ebbed away.
I had never been truly mad at Edward for leaving me. I had felt immense pain, more pain than you will ever know, but never mad. I knew I wasn't good enough for Edward, so it made sense for him to want to leave. But seeing him there in the doorway looking more glorious than ever, I couldn't help but be mad and hurt. I mean after everything we've been through he just left me here like a sitting duck, and look what happened. I was almost Laurent's dinner! But at the same time though I felt inexplicable joy; I had missed him so much. I took a breath to settle myself, hoping to calm the conflicting emotions.
He had his own scent, honey-lilac and sun, so sweet. It made me want to leap in his arms and tell him how much I love him over and over again. But I resisted. I couldn't do that anymore, not to mention that fact that I was still mad at him.
"Bella," Edward said, his voice in awe.
"Yes," I asked a little confused now and somewhat pleased. He looked absolutely dumbstruck by the sight of me. Good. He should know what he's missing. At the same time though why was he acting like this? He's the one who didn't want me anymore!
"Bella, I, I,…" he sputtered.
I smiled. I couldn't help it. For once Edward was speechless, totally lost for words.
Then suddenly he was kissing me. For a second all I could comprehend was how different this kissing was. In all of my dull human memories he had never kissed me like this before. This was nice.
As soon as that thought crossed my mind I threw him off me hard. He flew right threw the door and landed outside where I quickly met him.
"How dare you!" I yelled at the dazed looking Edward. I had never been more angry in my life. "You left me here alone! You said that you didn't want me anymore! And now that I'm a vampire you think it go back to how it was! Well it can't! My parents think I'm dead, Laurent and Victoria are still out there probably still wanting to kill me, and I just don't trust you anymore Edward!" I finished, the air hitching in my throat, like I was choking, and even though my eyes were dry I knew I must be crying.
The whole time I had ranted Edward hadn't moved. He just sat there, listening to everything I said. Then as soon as I was done he got up walked toward me, but kept a safe distance, and said "Bella I'm so sorry," he paused then continued with a look of severe guilt.
"For everything I have put you through. I will never forgive myself for what I've done to you if I live a thousand years. But you need to know, Bella I never stopped loving you. I left you to keep you safe from who I am. I had no idea Laurent or Victoria would come and find you." he finished sounding so sad and sincere that I almost believed him.
But I couldn't. I would never know if he was telling me the truth or if he was just saying that because I was going to be around forever.
I shook my head at him, "I wish I could believe you, but I just can't," I said my voice sounding weaker with each word.
I turned away from him, everyone had kept their mouth shut through this big ordeal, and now nobody knew what to say.
I needed to be alone. Knowing what I was going to do, Alice called, "Bella, wait!"
I didn't though I ran as fast and hard as I could through the forest. Running from them, my past, and try as I might the dreadful future that threatened to swallow me whole.
I eventually stopped running. I was in the middle of a huge forest. The run had been a big blur for me though so I couldn't tell exactly where I was. I wandered around for a while until I came to a huge waterfall. It was beautiful, I sat down and stared at it. It was dark by now, but that didn't matter I could see perfectly. I could've sat there for hours, just staring at the beautiful waterfall, but I was interrupted by the reality of what all that had happened. What will I do? The Cullens said they were there for me, but how could I go back there? I just couldn't face Edward again. That just hurt too much. But where else could I go?
I was so deep in my thinking that I didn't even notice when a small clan of vampires came up behind me.
"Look what we have here Felix." Alarmed I whirled around a hiss escaping my lips.
"She's a feisty one," the dark haired vampire replied amused.
"Or one in need of a lesson in manners," the blonde vampire countered, "Jane would you please?"
"No Jane, don't, not this one ok?" the dark hair vampire pleaded.
Though I was confused as to what they meant I knew what the girl vampire, or I guess Jane, planned for me wasn't good. My only chance would be to make a break for it. But I was too terrified, I was outnumbered, they would just chase me down and do something infinitely worse. So I just stood there, frozen, waiting to see what they would do to me.
"Sorry Felix, I happen to agree with him, I'll teach the newborn some respect," she said with a big smile on her lips.
"What do you mean?" I asked cautiously.
"You'll see," she replied her smile growing wider.
I waited for it, but nothing happened. After a few more seconds of this Jane frowned and the brown haired vampire, Felix, let out a long sigh of relief.
"Now would you look at that," he commented happily, he had a big grin on his face. "She is unaffected by your power Jane. How intriguing. Aro would be mad if we didn't bring her back with us."
She pouted, "I suppose your right, go see if you can even contain the newborn and meet us back at the private jet." and with that Jane and the blonde vampire went back the opposite way back into the forest.
Still grinning he asked, "So what do you think? You want to become part of the Volturi?"
Sorry it took me forever to update! I had a huge case of writers block, not to mention i've been crazy busy, but still sorry! I hope you enjoy! Please review more!