Annoying Author's note: I know you people are reading this but so far I have got a review for every chapter. I am an affirmation addict, I need more then that. Come on, share what you are thinking. ;) These are really short chapters and to that I am sorry. Trying to get into Tony's head is complicated.
The car ride back to work had been excruciating silent. Tony stared out the window watching the world act as if nothing ever happened. How did the world manage to keep on spinning when it had lost an incredible agent and woman? Tony swallowed the rock forming in his throat and continued to watch. Even on this chilly day, people filled the streets of Washington, DC. He saw them laughing, smiling, talking on their phones, living and breathing.
Stopped at a red light, Tony saw a man and a woman sitting at an outdoor restaurant. The man had his arms wide out as he looked like he was telling a story. The woman looked fully into it. Her face suddenly broke out in a wide smile and a laugh over took her.
The innocent sight made Tony sick with jealousy and anger. How could life go on like normal from this point? Losing his partner and friend was truly a horrendous feeling he never would wish on anyone. The idea of Kate being dead swarmed around his head. He felt like he was stuck on a merry go around. His head spun violently. The car coming to stop in NCIS parking lot did it for him.
Tony flung open the door and just before a wave of heaving began. He unlatched his seat belt and fell to the hard ground. He sat on all fours as his body tried to bring up his breakfast. Sweat rolled down his neck. His heart pounded faster and louder than an entire drum line in a marching band.
Gibbs's shoes showed up in his line of vision of the payment. Suppressing the heaves, Tony managed to speak with a shaky voice "Boss, I would move if you don't want my breakfast all over your shoes."
"DiNozzo." Gibbs with his cold stoic voice spoke.
Feeling the bile rise higher and higher, Tony warned again not looking up "Seriously boss, you better move."
"Anthony." This time with a soft and gentle voice.
Everything in Tony froze. The bile paused from its voyage up his throat, his heart slowed down dramatically, and he raised his eyes upward. He had rarely heard his boss use his full first name and even then it was extremely rare to hear him say it in the gentle tone. A tone much like one you would use for a child. Generally that would irk Tony, but it instantly calmed everything down inside. Funny and almost pathetically enough, it made him want to burst out crying.
"I know this is hard," Gibbs continued. "But we are going to continue our jobs. We will find Ari and make him pay for what he did. I need you at your best so we can give Kate the justice she deserves. You understand me?"
Tony blinked several times and rose to his feet. His boss was absolutely right. He had to shake off his own personal feelings and do his job. "Yes, boss." He spoke firmly.
All three men Gibbs, McGee, and Tony stared at each other. There was a silent agreement that they would stop at nothing till Ari was found. They made their way into the building.
The bile still churned in Tony's stomach. He would have to move forward with the intent to bring justice for his partner. Somehow the idea of life without her just seemed so empty already. He had a job to do and that could distract him plenty hoping the feelings would numb away.