I'm here! Sorry I've been gone so long but I was out of state and now I have family visiting so I've been really really busy! And I leave Friday to go out of state again for a few days. But when I'm there I'm going to see R5 so I'm super excited for that! I get back on Tuesday and should be back to updating regularly for a month or so. But then I move into college O.O and I'm not sure how much I'll be able to update then... Anyway, back to the story. I'm still loving how much you guys like this story! It makes me really really happy! And I've decided how I'm going to write a big plot point for this! I'm excited for using it because I'm kind of basing off something I read in another fic. It's actually probably my favorite fic of the moment so when I use it I'll be sure to credit where I got the idea from! It's not like I'm totally copying the idea...well, you'll see :P But I like this chapter because it's got my Seblaine and my Niff. Gotta love both! Enjoy!
Sebastian wakes up but doesn't open his eyes. He's slept better than he has in a long time. Sebastian smiles, snuggling into the bed. Wait...this wasn't his bed. And what's that noise? It sounds like a soft breathing. Sebastian's eyes shoot open. There's Blaine. He fell asleep next to Blaine. Sebastian's staring at the sleeping boy. He knows he should get out of bed but he doesn't want to. And their head is sharing the same pillow. Sebastian smiles again and scoots himself closer to the man in the bed. Blaine feels the motion on the bed and opens his eyes. Blaine smiles when he sees that Sebastian is looking at him and smiling. Sebastian looks down, embarrassed he got caught.
"Good morning," Sebastian mumbles. Blaine smiles.
"Good morning. How did you sleep?" Blaine asks.
"Actually, better than I have in a long time," Sebastian says, sitting up and stretching.
"I'm glad to hear that. It must've been this bed," Blaine said with a smirk. Sebastian chuckled and stood up.
"Yeah, that had to be it," Sebastian says, shooting Blaine a wink. Blaine smiles and playfully pulls the blanket up over his head. Sebastian loved how adorable he was being and had to tear himself away from the scene before he did something he shouldn't. Sebastian walked into the kitchen.
"You want some pancakes?" he yelled from the kitchen. Blaine pulled the blanket down and looked around to see that Sebastian was gone.
"Yeah, that'd be great. Thanks," Blaine said, standing up and smoothing out his clothes. Sebastian pulls out the ingredients and begins to make pancakes.
"I didn't know you could cook," Blaine says, waltzing into the kitchen.
"There's a lot you don't know about me, killer," Sebastian says keeping his focus on his cooking. Blaine takes a seat at the kitchen table.
"I'd like to," Blaine says, looking down at his hands. Sebastian stops what he's doing and sighs.
"Blaine..." he says, turning around to face the man. Blaine reluctantly looked up to meet Sebastian's eyes. "Blaine, you're leaving today. And we're never going to see each other again."
"Don't say that," Blaine snapped, his back straightening.
"Why? It's true, isn't it?" Sebastian questions.
"I don't want it to be," Blaine says quietly. Sebastian sighs and sits across the table from Blaine.
"What do you want?" Sebastian asks, looking Blaine directly in the eyes.
"I..." Blaine sighs, "I don't know. I honestly don't."
Sebastian nods.
"Only you can decide that, Blaine," Sebastian tells him and Blaine nods in agreement. "Now, let me get those pancakes going," Sebastian says, standing up and returning to his cooking. Blaine groans and drops his head to the table. Sebastian finishes a stack of pancakes and sets them on the table. He grabs the syrup, butter and forks and sits down at the table.
"These look great," Blaine says, putting some on his plate. Sebastian smiles and puts some on his own plate. They both take a bite.
"Damn, these are good!" Blaine calls out with his mouth stuffed, making Sebastian laugh.
"Oh, you have some..." Sebastian says, reaching over and wiping some butter off of Blaine's upper lip. Blaine watches him, feeling his heart skip a beat when Sebastian touches his lip. Sebastian looks at the butter on his finger and brings his finger up to his mouth, sucking the butter off. Blaine can't help the soft moan that escapes his lips and Sebastian smirks at him before continuing to eat his pancakes. They finish their pancakes in silence and Sebastian stands up to clear the dishes. Blaine stands up as well.
"Thanks for breakfast Sebastian, it was really great," Blaine says. Sebastian turns to him and smiles.
"It was no problem," Sebastian answers. Blaine reluctantly looks at his watch a sighs. "Gotta get going?"
"Yeah," Blaine says sadly. "I'm supposed to meet me friends."
"You gonna come say goodbye tonight?" Sebastian asks. Blaine nods.
"Definitely. I wouldn't leave without it," Blaine tells him. Sebastian smiles and walks over to stand in front of Blaine. "Can I have a hug?" Blaine asks timidly. Sebastian nods and wraps his arms around the smaller boy. Blaine leans into the hug and lays his head on Sebastian's shoulder. Sebastian holds Blaine close to him, never wanting to let go. Blaine takes in Sebastian's scent, trying to memorize it. Neither man wanted to let go so they just stayed that way for a while, just holding each other. Sebastian pulled away first, knowing that Blaine had somewhere to be.
"You better get going, sexy," Sebastian said, avoiding Blaine's eyes. Blaine nodded and gave Sebastian's cheek a quick kiss. Sebastian looked at Blaine's face and smiled at him.
"I'll see you later, Sebastian," Blaine said, headed for the door.
"See you, Blaine," Sebastian said as he turned back to the sink full of dishes, determined not to get emotional about this. Sebastian scrubbed furiously at the drying syrup on the plates trying his hardest to tell himself that he'd be fine once Blaine left.
Blaine walked out of the door and just stood in front of the door to Sebastian's apartment. He wanted to just run in there and kiss Sebastian and tell him that he had no where he'd rather be. And maybe that was true but Blaine knew he had to leave. He had to go meet up with his friends at Dalton and act like everything was okay. Blaine composed himself and made his way down to his car. He got inside and just sat there for a moment before starting the car. He took deep breaths trying to calm himself down. He didn't know why he was so worked up about this but it was really getting to him. Blaine started the drive back to Dalton in silence. He was just thinking. Thinking about his life and how it had all changed so suddenly since he met Sebastian. Before he was so sure about everything in his life. He knew that Kurt was the one for him and that they were to be married shortly. He knew they'd live happily ever after in New York and have beautiful children together. But now, Blaine had no idea about his life. He wasn't so sure Kurt was the one for him anymore. I mean, how can someone be the right person when you find someone else who makes you feel amazing as well? Blaine knew he loved Kurt but he couldn't quite put his finger on how he felt about Sebastian. And now the idea of marrying Kurt made Blaine's heart ache because that meant he wouldn't be with Sebastian. But also the thought of leaving Kurt for Sebastian made his heart ache because that meant hurting Kurt and that's something Blaine never ever wanted to do. After a while of contemplating his life, Blaine got tired of thinking and decided to turn on the radio. But why does every stupid song have to be about love? Or heartbreak? Definitely things Blaine did not want to hear about right now. He scanned through each channel multiple times before giving up and putting in his soundtrack of The Lion King. But he skipped Can You Feel The Love Tonight of course. Blaine loved listening to Disney music when he was tense because it calmed his nerves and the music was generally happy and upbeat which made it fun.
Blaine pulled into the Dalton parking lot and already spotted everyone else's cars in the lot. Blaine looked down at his clothes. Thankfully he had changed his outfit after everyone left so no one would know that these clothes were from yesterday. He got out of the car and ran a hand through his half-gelled hair hoping it still looked presentable. He quickly found his way to the front office where everyone was waiting for him.
"Finally dude! Where were you?" David exclaimed, as all of the Warblers stood up from their seats.
"Uh…" Blaine said.
"What's up with your hair?" Wes asked. Blaine reached up to feel his hair.
"What's wrong with it?" he asked.
"It looks like you slept in the gutter last night. Plus your clothes are all wrinkled," Jeff says as his eyes widened. "Hey…" Jeff said in an accusatory tone.
"No, Jeffrey Sterling, I did not have sex with anyone last night," Blaine informed the blonde. Jeff pouted and crossed his arms, standing next to his boyfriend. Blaine looked at the way Nick was looking at him. His look told him that he knew something was up and that Blaine would be questioned about it later.
"So, uh, we ready to go?" Blaine asked, grabbing the visitor's pass that Thad was holding out to him.
"Yeah man, let's go," David said as they all made their way out into the hall and down towards the old choir room. As they walked Blaine spaced out and began to think about Sebastian. He wondered what time he had to go into work today. And how many creeps would hit on him and try to get them to go home with them. Blaine knew Sebastian loved performing but Blaine wasn't a fan of the creepy old men that Sebastian performed for. It made him mad that those men just treat him as an object. Not as a man. He's a real man with real feelings that Blaine just wants to get to know a little bit better.
"Blaine?" Thad called. Blaine looked up at him.
"Yeah?" Blaine asked. He looked around. He hadn't even noticed that they had gotten to the choir room and that everyone was inside.
"You alright? You seem kind of lost…" Thad says.
"Oh, um, yeah, I'm fine," Blaine said, trying to keep it cool.
"If you say so man…" Thad said with a look that told Blaine that he didn't believe him. Blaine tried to keep his focus for the rest of the visit. He smiled and laughed when one of the guys came up with a memory that happened in a particular room they were in. He added his comments about how the Dalton food was some of the best he'd ever had. He even made a few jokes throughout the day as they looked around. The only thing that made Blaine uneasy was the way Nick kept looking at him. He knew Nick was going to corner him the first chance he got and Blaine didn't want to give him that chance. That's part of the reason that he stayed so animated throughout the day, trying to give the illusion that there was nothing up. But Nick was his best friend, of course he could see through it. The tour ended and all former Warblers made their way out of the school and out into the parking lot.
"Well, I guess this is it. We'll see you at the wedding man," Wes said, pulling Blaine into a hug. Blaine hugged Wes back.
"See you then, dude. Take care," Blaine told him, patting his back and pulling away. Wes smiled at him and let Trent say his goodbyes next.
"I'll miss you, Blaine," Trent said as he hugged him.
"I'll miss you two, man. But I'll see you next month," Blaine said, smiling at Trent. Trent smiled and nodded, letting David pull Blaine into a hug.
"Be good," David said which made Blaine's eyes widen. But then he remembered that it was just an expression and David didn't actually know anything.
"Will do. Take care of yourself, man," Blaine says, smiling at one of his oldest friends. Next was Thad's turn.
"See you soon, buddy," Thad said.
"See you, dude," Blaine says in return. Blaine waves as his four friends walk to their cars. Blaine doesn't even bother to look back at Nick and Jeff. They're taking him to airport so he'll see them later. Blaine's quickly walks to his car.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa," Blaine hears from behind him. He squeezes his eyes shut. He was cornered. Blaine turns around coming face to face with Nick. Jeff was trailing behind Nick, not sure what was going on.
"Yeah?" Blaine asks, putting on as innocent of a mask as he could fake.
"Oh, don't give me that. What's up with you man? And no lies," Nick says. Blaine sighs. Nick knows damn well that Blaine isn't capable of lying to him.
"Okay, can we at least go back to my place and I can tell you there?" Blaine asks. Nick nods.
"Okay, sure. We'll see you there," Nick says, taking Jeff's arm and walking to his own car. Blaine sighed that he had at least some time to think of how to explain this whole mess. Blaine got in his car and turned off The Lion King soundtrack as it came on. He needed this ride to be silent. He pulled out of the Dalton parking lot and began the short drive home. Before he knows it, he's there and still has no idea what he's going to say. Blaine parks in the driveway and Nick pulls in behind him. The three men walk into the house and Nick practically sits Blaine down on the couch himself as they walk into the living room.
"Okay, now talk," Nick ordered.
"Wait, what's going on?" Jeff asks, still confused. Nick sighs.
"Something's up with Blaine. He's been acting all weird ever since we left Dirty Times on Saturday. Are you sure you didn't cheat on Kurt, man?" Nick asks, looking back to Blaine.
"Yes, I'm sure," Blaine says with a huff.
"Well then what is it?" Jeff asks.
"I just…I don't…ugh," Blaine starts. "Promise me you won't freak out or judge me or anything?"
"Duh! We're your best friends, you know you can tell us anything," Jeff says and Nick nods in agreement. Blaine sighs.
"Okay, well…I may have a crush…" Blaine says, looking up at his friends through his eyelashes. Both Nick and Jeff were just staring at him.
"On who?" Nick asks after a moment of awkward silence.
"Seb-…Emerald," Blaine admits. Again, the only immediate response he got from his friends was staring.
"Blaine…that's insane," Nick says.
"Yeah, I mean, tons of guys get lap dances. Blaine, the strippers are paid to act like they want you," Jeff adds.
"No, it's not like that in this case," Blaine says.
"Blaine, you don't even know this guy's real name. You don't even kn-" Nick was cut off.
"HIS NAME IS SEBASTIAN SMYTHE! HE DROPPED OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL BECAUSE HE GOT KICKED OUT OF THE HOUSE AND THE ONLY JOB HE COULD FIND WAS AT THE CLUB. HE'S AMAZING AND SWEET AND FUNNY AND IS A GOOD COOK!" Blaine screamed at his best friends. Both boys looked taken aback by their friend's out lash. They were stunned into silence for a few moments.
"Oh…um, he cooked for you?" Nick asked.
"Y-Yeah, he made me breakfast this morning," Blaine says.
"But you said you two didn't -" Jeff was interrupted.
"We didn't. I just… When I said I was going to my grandparents I really went back to the club. I saw him there and I asked when he got off of work and it wasn't until really late. I said I'd wait and I did. We went to a diner and ate and then when we were ready to leave there was a thunderstorm out and he said he didn't want me driving in it so he invited me to his place. Nothing happened, we just talked for a little bit then we fell asleep," Blaine explained, thinking they didn't need to know about falling asleep in the same bed part.
"Wow…" Nick said, not really sure what else to say. Then Jeff asked the one thing Blaine really didn't want to talk about.
"What about Kurt?"
"I…I don't know," Blaine admitted with a sigh. "I love him and I don't want to hurt him. But I can't get Sebastian out of my mind."
"Okay Blaine tell me this," Nick said, leaning forward so his elbows were on his knees. "Which scenario is worse? You living here with Sebastian after you called off the wedding with Kurt or you living in New York with Kurt, leaving Sebastian behind?"
Blaine lowered his head, in deep thought. He really didn't know.
"I really don't know, Nick. I honestly can't answer that," Blaine tells him, looking up to meet his friend's eyes. Nick nods.
"Would you like my advice?" Nick asks.
"I'd love it," Blaine says with a nod.
"I think you should postpone the wedding. Not cancel it, just delay it. Because you need to sort out your feelings before you commit to anyone," Nick says. Blaine nods. That sounds reasonable to him.
"Why do I tell Kurt I'm postponing? I can't tell him the truth. It'd kill him," Blaine says.
"Tell him something came up and Nick and I can't make it," Jeff suggests.
"Yeah, okay. He wouldn't go through with it if you guys aren't there. But why can't you make it?" Blaine asks.
"Um… Tell him we had decided to get a baby and that's when all the adoption crap is going to happen!" Jeff comes up with.
"But what about when you don't get a baby?" Blaine asks.
"The adoption fell through," Nick says. Blaine smiles.
"Yeah, that could work," Blaine says. Nick and Jeff smile.
"But you still have to figure out what you want to do about Sebastian," Jeff says. Blaine nods.
"Yeah, I know. I told him I'd stop by the club on the way to the airport to say goodbye. Is that okay, guys?" Blaine asks hopefully.
"Yeah, sure," Nick says.
"Can we go now so we can catch another show?" Jeff asks excitedly. Nick rolls his eyes. Blaine chuckles.
"My bags are all packed whenever you guys are ready," Blaine says.
"Now. Please. NOW." Jeff says, standing up and heading for the door.
"So you'd rather see a bunch of men that you can't have dance around up on stage instead of seeing me, the man you already have, naked in front of you?" Nick asks, following Jeff out. Jeff smirks.
"Oh babe, don't be silly. I know I'll get to see both tonight," Jeff says as he runs away from Nick, knowing that would earn him a hit. Nick began to run after his boyfriend as Blaine put his suitcase in the trunk of Nick's car, laughing at the pair. Blaine would've driven himself to the airport but he didn't want to just leave his car at the airport. He had left his car in Ohio because there really isn't much need for one in New York. Jeff had managed to escape Nick and slid into the passenger seat of his car. Nick got in the driver's seat and glared at Jeff.
"Get. Out," Nick ordered. Jeff smirked.
"You wouldn't leave without me," Jeff says.
"No, I meant get in the backseat. I'm not going to sit by you, I'll sit by Blaine," Nick says, somewhat resembling a pouting child. Jeff rolls his eyes and climbs out of the car, switching seats with Blaine. Blaine slides into the passenger seat and Nick begins to drive.
Blaine's dreading seeing Sebastian because he knows this is goodbye. But he's also excited as well because right now he's on his way to see Sebastian.
Thoughts? I hope this was worth the wait! And I just finished the next chapter tonight and I'll tell ya, it's pretty sad :( But look out for it soon!