Chapter 7
a/n Another chaper! the next one may take a minute to upload, but I will try to before or during this weekend. Enjoy!
Amy had watched him run out of her apartment in such a hurry that he forgot his bag. She knew that if he had his phone, it would be in his bag and he couldn't call for a ride without it. Knowing her boyfriend so well, he knew that he refused to take the buss without his buss pants so he probably would come back to her apartment soon. She decided that there was no use sitting around waiting for him, so she made her way to her bedroom, gathered a set of blue and white panties and a bra that Penny had helped her pick out, along with a blue night dress that she had also obtained with Penny's help and made her way to the bathroom. Upon setting her stuff on the bathroom floor, she heard the familiar three knocks of her boyfriend at the door, but in a different voice than she had expected. It sounded so fragile and broken, she wondered what had happened to him. Slowly, she made her way to the door to open it for him.
Upon opening the door, Amy held a puzzled look on her face that reflected sympathy. Sheldon was staring at the ground and she could tell something was wrong- after all, she wasn't stupid. "Sheldon, look at me." Amy requested softly. She saw him tense but then whimper slightly and she felt her heart break. Slowly, he lifted his face to meet her gaze and there she stood, stunned. What had happened in the past ten minutes? Tons of thoughts ran through Amy's head at one time that she forgot her mouth was agape.
"Amy." Sheldon said slowly and softly. It hurt him to speak, but it was not possibly for Amy to just read his mind, he needed to at least say something. "I forgot my bag." The words tumbled out of his mouth and he realized tears were starting in Amy's eyes. Suddenly, he felt himself begin to panic, he hated it when Amy cried. "Uhm…. Don't cry." He offered. "Sheldon's here. I'm… sorry I left so fast…? I didn't…. I didn't mean to offend you…" Upon saying that, he noticed that Amy's tears had only gotten worse. "I'm sorry I didn't…. kiss you…." He shuddered at the thought but Amy's tears just kept coming. He felt extremely awkward standing there now and he'd give anything for Amy to stop crying. His whole body was aching and he was having trouble keeping his eyes open for much longer. "No, Sheldon. It's not that." Amy said between sobs. Sheldon raised his head to look at her, slightly wincing at the pain. "Then what is it?" He questioned.
Whilst waiting for a reply, his mind started to wander. He recalled the time that he had been beaten up in school- he was in fifth grade. When his mom found out, she too started crying. She had stated that it was out of anger towards the kid who had done it and hurt for her 'baby'.Maybe he thought maybe I hurt Amy, but how? I didn't do anything to intentionally upset her. If I didn't then that must not be it. What if. He paused his train of thought for a moment. What if Amy is angry with me? Then sudden realization hit him. What if she's angry with me and threatens to terminate the relationship?
Before he could continue thinking, Amy had snapped him out of his thoughts. "Sheldon!" She said, raising her tone slightly. "Were you even listening to me answer your question?" Sheldon had no idea what to say. If Amy was already upset with him, which her tone of voice helped prove, then if he answered truthfully then she would be hurt even more. However, she knew when he was lying and he wouldn't think about lying to her. "Never mind." She quickly said, noting Sheldon's hesitation. "Come in." She said as she stepped aside to let her boyfriend in. "Would you like a hot beverage?" She was about to remind him that he could stay at her place if he needed to, but she had no desire to push her luck, or push her boyfriend's boundaries so she just left it alone.
Upon gazing at Sheldon, Amy realized that his face was masked with confusion, and when he spoke his tone definitely held the same amount of confusion. "But hot beverages are for when one is upset." He met her gaze and paused before continuing. "And I'm not upset. If anything, I should be making you a hot beverage." It was then when Sheldon had pointed out that she had been crying that she raised her hand to wipe her tears away. Sheldon- who was standing a mere two feet from her- continued his train of thought. "But, if you insist, tea will be fine, thank you." "O-okay." Amy stuttered. She turned away from him and took two steps before turning to face him again. "Sit down and we can talk." With that, she turned once again and made her way into the kitchen without looking back. She wants to talk. Sheldon thought.Perhaps she's more upset than I thought she was. Then, realization dawned upon him. She is going to terminate the relationship…but she can't. I'll be lost without her. At the thought, he turned pale and suddenly felt extremely nauseated.
He felt trapped, he needed to at least sit down before he passed out, so he made his way over to the couch before tripping and falling onto it instead of carefully sitting in it. He yelped out in pain and Amy hurried over to him, his tea in her hand. She placed the cup on the coffee table near the couch and helped him up. "What happened?" Amy frantically asked. Sheldon tried to keep calm. "I fell, isn't it obvious?" He did a good job of masking his emotions and acting like a kid who simply didn't have them. Amy fought back an eye roll towards him. "No, Sheldon. I mean, why are you hurt? What happened?" Sheldon hesitated answering her, he wished that he didn't have to explain it to her. All thoughts about her terminating their agreement were still there, but he pushed them back. Earlier she had claimed that she didn't want to terminate their relationship, but he wasn't sure now. Penny said those kinds of things to Leonard and turned around and did those things she said she wasn't going to do. He knew he could trust Amy, he just wasn't sure he could trust his own feelings, which is why he ignored them in the first place.
"Amy, what happened was after I left your apartment, I went into the parking lot." He shifted slightly into the couch, indicating that he was done talking for the time being. He felt that this was a good enough answer, but Amy had different opinions. "I figured as much. Then what happened?" She questioned. Sheldon sighed and took in a deep breath. "While I was in the parking lot, I forgot that I didn't have my cell phone to call Leonard for a ride and I didn't have my buss pants, or any money for a taxi, and that I had forgotten my bag here. So, I came back to get it." He paused and Amy looked at him as if to say Isn't that obvious? She looked anxious for an answer and it made him uncomfortable. He looked at her pleading big, blue eyes and just wanted to capture her full, red lips in his and it made no sense to him because he hated physical contact with anyone. They'd only been going out for three years! He figured the sooner he told her, the sooner he could get his bag and abandon the thoughts of her.
""I turned to go back to your apartment and a teenager knocked me to the ground with a very powerful garden hose, then proceeded to kick me in…. places….and when I opened my eyes, he mocked me and now had multiple friends with him, who surrounded me….and again, kicked me…in places…and punched me…in places…" "And by places." Amy interrupted. "What do you mean?" He attempted to answer her question by tipping his head down to his…area… but then felt the pain of moving and froze. He turned a scarlet red from embarrassment and dropped his gaze from Amy to the floor. She decided to drop her question. "Never mind, I think I already have an idea." She mumbled. There was a moment of silence then, with Sheldon looking at the ground and Amy looking the opposite way of her boyfriend, and in that moment of silence, was when Sheldon felt extremely vulnerable. The experience did not necessarily make him feel terrified of going back outside, but it didn't necessarily make him want to repeat the events that happened earlier again either. Before he knew it, he burst into tears