Present day

Edward should have known that Jacob wouldn't just let him back in his life so easily, but he hoped that Jacob would have at least listened to him, try to understand. Talk to him at least. He had never been that fortunate though.

His first indication should have been when Jacob wasn't around when he arrived back in Forks, but he thought that maybe... well he didnt know what to think really. He had just hoped that Jacob was safe and happy. It was probably a good thing Jacob wasn't around for those first few months. Those first few months back in Forks were hard on both him and the people around him, expecially his family. After what Bella had done to him, he had trouble even trusting his closest family members. He would push away everyones attempts at consoling or comforting him, he didnt believe them when they told him it would get better. He had almost punched Rosalie when she told him to just get over himself and move on, but most days he felt like puncing Rosalie, so there was no change there. He was lost in his own self- loathing and guilt. He often preferred to be by himself. He was slipping and he knew it, the humans were starting to notice, which was never a good thing, but the steady rock that his adopted father and sister set him on the right path again, reminding him how to be human, or at least human like. He was grateful for that at least; but there was no going back to what once was, he could no longer be the same as he once was. The monster inside had woken up and he had trouble pushing it away, putting it to sleep and locking it in its cage again. He thirsted for blood now more than ever before, he wanted revenge on the whole human race for Bella's mistakes, but he couldn't have it. It was flawed but it worked, blaming everyone else but him self, choosing not to take responsibility his own actions.

It had gotten so bad that he once come close to taking revenge. In his most desperate moment he had almost taken the life of a man who had attempted to rob him. A foolish mistake which cost the man a broken arm, but Alice, Esme and Carlisle had shown up just in time, talking him down and holding him back from further injuring the man. At the time he was furious for their intervention but looking back now he was extremely grateful. If he had harmed the man (no matter how deserving) he would had never forgiven himself.

In that dingy alleyway, (once the man had run off) he had broken down and he had finally accepted that the reason he was in the mess was no ones fault bar his own. An important but necessary fact that haunted him and made him more depressed the longer he had to face that the reason that Jacob was gone was no ones fault but his own. He could have had real happiness for once in his life, but he had pushed it away, with flimsy excuses and his own stupid sense of heroism and misplaced loyalty. Maybe if he had just stayed in Forks and stood up to the Volturi as a family, Bella wouldn't be running around as a vampire and the Volturi wouldn't still be plotting his Demise. He couldn't forgive himself. No wonder Jacob couldn't and didn't want him back, he could barely stand his own self, let alone ask anyone else to stand by him or even love him.

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A few hours ago Seth and Leah had dropped by to welcome him back to the neighbourhood, they had been happy to see him and surprised he had a daughter, but like everyone Abigal had met, they instantly fell in love with her. Moments later the whole pack had followed, piling into his house after Seth had summoned them. They were all inside cooing over his daughter, and praising her, even Sam had managed to appear civil for the sake of "a new addition to the pack". Jacob didnt know what to think of that. It was a but too much for Jacob to handle at the moment. After years of staying away from the pack, feeling rejected and alone, only to now, years later, have giant wolfs bounding back in his life, like nothing has happened, happy to see him and welcoming. He couldn't figure out if it was a cleaver ploy to boost there ranks, or if they genually wanted him back. He at least trusted them enough to protect his daughter, without letting any serious harm come to her, so that was something at least. That trust stretched far enough he leave them inside alone with her, going for a run behind his house too cool off, getting some alone time, and some clarity. Something he hadn't been able to do since Abigal was born. Head down and lost in his own wolfy head, he bumped into someone, something he had been doing a lot of lately. That someone just want anyone but no one other than Edward, his intended imprint and the person who he still loved with almost all his heart, no matter how much he was trying to deny it.

"Jacob" exclaimed Edward with shock, he appeared as surprised to see Jacob as Jacob was to see him.

"Edward." said Jacob annoyed, the one person he was trying so hard to avoid, hoping to never see again, he bumped directly into again. It was like a twisted sense of fate or something, or maybe it was just Edward's stalker habits flaring up again. Jacob annoyed and fed up just let his emotions run wild. He was sick of keeping them pent up, sick of acting mature, sick of pretending, and just sick of everything in general, but mostly just sick of not being near Edward. He let out a menacing growl, confused woth all his swarming feelings, not sure what to think his head a whirlwind of emotion. The growl seemed to loose its effect as he stared into Edward's eyes. The accompanying remark of "What are you doing here?" Also lost it's sting as he couldn't help but think of how much he missed Edward. His thoughts came off as less of an accusation and more as a plea.

"I am surprised to see you here as you are to see me. In all honesty I didn't intend to end up here. I was just wandering and I guess because I was thinking of you I just ended up here. If I would have known you were here, I wouldn't have come." they were standing in the field, a place neither man had stepped foot in since they had been separated. It had just been too painful to set foot in a place that once held such fond memories. Now tainted with the idea of loss and longing, neither man could handle being reminded of that.

"You were thinking of me?" asked Jacob in small unsure thoughts.

"I often do."

Jacob gave him a searching look and then quietly thought "Me too" Jacob broke eye contact to bump up against Edward's side. Unable to help himself as he noticed the pained look in Edward's expression. He was suffering and it was hurting Jacob to see Edward like that. Edward run his hands through Jacobs fur the feeling reassuring in this tense moment.

"Im so sorry Jacob." said Edward braking down, and hiding his head in Jacobs fur. "I was foolish, I should have never left." Edward let out a anguished cry, the equivalent of a human sobbing. Jacob changed into human form, hugging Edward close to his naked chest to still his cries. It wasn't enough, and he soon found himself kissing Edward to comfort him, a long forgotten habit returning to him. Holding Edward close, he was rubbing soothing circles into Edward's back, till he was more composed and could actually face the world again. Jacob promised Edward it was going to be okay, and he meant that with his whole heart.

Edward tried speaking but for once he couldn't find the words to say and just ended working himself up in a state.

"Shh" Jacob said pulling their foreheads together, till he calmed down again. Then Jacob proceeded to kiss Edward, properly this time. A slow kiss, a kiss full of longing and need, waiting and want, sorries, and forgiveness. Edward had made mistakes, and Jacob had left but that wasn't important. As they kissed their worries were forgotten and as they made love long into the afternoon, for once in many years each man felt whole once again. A sense of completeness had settled over the sunny field that day, if it was only for a moment.