Chapter 13

EPOV

"Is that a yes then?" Please say yes, please say yes.

I feel like a kid asking for a new toy, but this is important.

"Yes, Edward" "I will stay with you tonight."

I feel like jumping up and down with joy, but try to keep a normal pace and voice, in order to not scare her.

"I kind of need to get my bag out of the other room though,"

"After all of the junk that Alice was feeding me earlier, I really need to brush my teeth."

"I'll go get it, don't move."

I take the steps running as fast as I could, I didn't want to miss one moment more with her than I have to.

"Play it cool Cullen, you definitely don't want to freak her out now."

Hmm she wants to brush her teeth, I wonder if she will let me give her her first kiss?

I'm not going to push my luck though, I promised my most gentlemanly behavior and I'm not going to go back on my word.

I think that I do indeed need to buy Alice something very pretty and very expensive.

I wonder what she might want?

"Wait you dumbass, get your sister off of your brain."

After what seems like an eternity I have reached the guestroom, and have almost made it back to my room with her bag.

"Cool, calm, collected." I can do this.

After my breathing evened out, I walked into my room, where she was currently looking at my music collection.

"So Bella" I said while handing her bag, "what are you in the mood to listen to?"

"Um, this is going to sound weird, but do you have any classical.?"

What, are you kidding me, she is too good to be true.

I really need to calm my manic ass down. Hmm classical could help.

"Do you like classical music Bella?"

"It's not something that I want all of the time, but yeah on days like this it would be wonderful."

"If you don't have any classical that's ok, if you have it some smooth jazz would be good too."

"Which would you prefer?"

"I have both genres covered."

"Classical please." She said in that angelic voice of hers.

"Do you have a favorite composer?" I'm dying to know this, classical music is very important to me. It's what I play most of the time.

When I'm really stressed, I find that playing a complicated piece helps me decompress.

The attention and focus that it requires practically rids me of all of my troubles.

"Chopin" she answers.

"Some of my favorite pieces were composed by Chopin." I tell her honestly.

"Maybe tomorrow you will let me play my favorite for you." I offer.

"I would like that very much."

"Uh Edward, can I ask you a question?"

"I believe you just did, but of course." I say while chuckling.

"Um well, it's sort of like um…"

I am absolutely dying to know what she's thinking right now.

I can't even begin to imagine what could be so embarrassing.

Her telltale blush is back and she is nervously biting on that lower lip.

"Here baby, let me do that for you" I want to say, but I don't.

"Bella, you can ask me anything, I will never lie to you and I will never laugh at you."

"Well, would you think that I'm a complete freak if I told you that I get jealous of your piano?"

She is so adorable when she's embarrassed.

"Bella, I could never think that you're a freak, but why in the world would you be jealous of my piano?"

I think I know the answer to that but I have to hear it from her.

"It's just ugh, oh never mind it's not important."I stepped closer to her and pulled her into a hug. "God she fells so good, oh not now."

"Hey" I lifted her chin and tilted her head so that she was looking me in the eyes, so that she knew what I was about to say was the truth.

"I want to know what you're thinking, I don't care how silly you think it is, I want to know."

Since my hand was already on her face, I take a chance and stroke her cheek and push a strand of hair behind her ear.

"Please tell me what you're thinking" I'm pathetic and I know it, but I really want to hear her say it.

I watched her swallow as if she was trying to force the words to form.

"Well it's just that watching your hands on the keys, is really erotic."

"You're touch is firm when it needs to be and soft and gentle when it should be."

"I know that this is stupid, but that's what I see when I watch you."

"And it's just…."

"Just what sweetheart?" I started stroking her hair, trying to encourage her to continue.

"It just sometimes, I wonder what it would feel like."

"HOLY SHIT! She didn't just say that, did she?"

Damn, now I have to take a couple of steps backwards so that she doesn't know what that did to me. I swear those words went straight to my cock and it's taking every bit of self control that I have not to throw her down and show her exactly how it would feel.

"I'm sorry" she exclaimed "I shouldn't have said that."

"It was really rude of me, and I've embarrassed you, oh God you must think that I'm really a huge ho-bag."

"Shh, sweet girl," I whisper into her hair, pulling her back into me.

"I'm not embarrassed at all, well at least not for the reason you think."

"And as far as thinking that you're a ho-bag as you put it, not even close."

"I know better than that." I'm still trying to calm her before she has a panic attack.

"Yes, I was surprised." I continued, "but not in a bad way, I swear."

"It's just your words kind of uh how do I put it nicely, effected me."

"Huh?" "Oh, oh, I get it"

"Not yet baby, but one day you will…" Will you please shut the fuck up?It's like I'm sharing a brain with Emmett now.

"Honestly, I think that is the most beautiful thing that anyone has ever said to me.?"

"Really?" She asks me.

"Really" I promise her.

"Uh Edward, do you mind if I use your bathroom? I really need to brush my teeth please."

"Of course and I show her the way."

Before I pull the door shut, I told her that if she needed anything to just let me know, if I didn't have it, I'm positive Alice or Mom would.

"Thanks, but I think that I'm fine." she replied.

While she was in there I began a desperate search for something to sleep in.

I usually just sleep in my boxers, but that won't do tonight.

I finally found some flannel sleep pants in the back of my closet and changed into them as quickly as possible. I grabbed a t-shirt out of my drawers and tried to relax.

I then started to have a silent conversation with my dick, promising him all of the self loving that he wanted tomorrow if he would just behave tonight.

This would be the first time that I have ever shared a bed with a woman and I didn't want to traumatize her.

After what felt like years of waiting she finally emerged from the bathroom; Her face freshly washed and I could smell the mint from her toothpaste.

I pulled out several CD's that I thought she might enjoy and I asked her to pick a couple if she wanted and excused myself to use the restroom.

I brushed my teeth, checked to make sure my deoderant was still working and added a little extra, just in case.

I contemplated going ahead with a little self loving but I was afraid that things would be awkward if she figured out what I was doing.

I took a deep breath and walked back into the adjoining room.

I saw that that she had chosen a couple of cds and I complimented her on her choices.

I pulled the covers back from the bed and asked her which side she preferred.

"It doesn't matter" she said shyly, "Just go to your usual side and I'll take the other."

I could tell that she was nervous and so was I for that matter.

I'm not sure why, because I knew that nothing was going to happen, well maybe if I was lucky, some cuddling and maybe I will be allowed to kiss her goodnight.

"Would you like me to leave a lamp on?" I asked "or I'm sure that we have candles around here if you would prefer."

"I'm fine with the dark" she said and sounded much more comfortable than I felt.

We both climbed in the bed and I grabbed the remote for my stereo, as soon as the comforting strains of Chopin began I felt myself beginning to relax.

I turned the lamp off and laid flat on my back trying to get my emotions in check.

I was going to sleep and yes I mean sleep with this angel.

The girl that had been haunting my dreams since the first time that I laid eyes on her.

Neither of us were moving and you could have cut the tension with a knife.

I decided that if I didn't want an awkward night of both of us laying stiff as a board, I needed to man-up.

"Bella," I said.

"Yes, Edward" she whispered.

"Uh can I, no I mean may I hold you, just for a little while?"

Instead of answering me, she just started scooting over towards me, while I held my arm out for her to snuggle into.

Once I had both of my arms around her and she was snuggled tightly into my chest, she made the sweetest sound I had ever heard, it was just a little sigh, but I couldn't imagine anything more perfect.

I realized then that if I had died at that moment, I would have died a very happy man.

We laid there for what felt like forever in content silence, I didn't need anything but the sounds of her breathing, to lull me into contentment.

Apparently, she wasn't quite as comfortable with the silence though and started asking me about the music that was playing.

I started telling her the history of the pieces, all the while rubbing small circles on her back, hoping that she would be able to relax enough to sleep.

I was happy to talk all night to her, but I know that the day had been more than a little stressful for her and I knew that she needed rest.

She continued asking more questions and then the conversation just drifted to general topics.

Nothing too heavy, it felt like she was willing to do anything to keep me talking and I was happy to oblige her.

My nerves started kicking in again because I knew what I wanted to talk to her about and I wasn't sure how to approach the subject.

I decided on the direct approach, all that she could do was say no right?

"Bella?" I say it in the form of a question though.

"Huh." she replied,

"Uh do you remember last week at the lesson when I asked you about your first kiss?

"Yep, but please don't remind me, it's one of my most embarrassing moments, and trust me I have a lot of those to choose from."

I chuckled at that and didn't say anything further, but all of a sudden she looked up at me and realized what I was trying to ask without being able to form the words.

I thought for a moment that she was going to reject me, but she just nibbled on that bottom lip for a second before nodding and whispering "please."

I started rubbing that bottom lip of hers, while trying to give myself a mental peptalk.

"Come on Cullen, you can do this."

"You may not have a ton of experience, but you have kissed women before."

"Dude, get on with it before she takes it as rejection" I am actually yelling at myself now.I take a cleansing breath and bend my head to give her a soft chaste kiss, and then another and yeah another and I begin to wonder how far she would let me take this kiss.

I gently caress her cheek and then put my hands in her hair, pulling her deeper into the kiss.

I stop for just a second to make sure that she was ok.

I kiss the tip of her nose while giving her a moment to catch her breath, before I had the chance to ask permission for another, her mouth was crashing onto mine.

I took that as encouragement that it was ok to take the kiss a little farther.

My hand instantly fisted her hair again as I used my tongue to beg for entrance. Which she freely granted.

My god she tastes like heaven, it's sugar and vanilla and everything delicious that you could imagine.

The heat coming from her body was nothing like anything that I had felt before and I knew that if I didn't stop this now, that there was no way that I would be able to later.

Damn I want her, more than I have ever wanted anything in my life.

My erection was painful and my body was screaming for release.

There was no way that she didn't feel that pressing against her and suddenly I'm ashamed of myself.

Jesus, all I wanted to do was kiss her, but then I have to screw it up by basically attacking her.

I had promised her that I would be a gentleman, and I broke that promise.

As I was about to apologize for my horrible behavior I heard her giggling.

"And what is so funny may I ask?"

"Nothing is funny" "It's just that I always expected kisses like that to be sloppy and gross, but that was most amazing thing that I have ever experienced"

"It made me happy and I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, but when I'm happy I tend to giggle."

I looked down at her and saw the smile lighting up her face.

I couldn't help myself, so I bent down and gave her another chaste kiss and said "You make me happy."

The next thing that I knew the sun was blaring in through the walls of glass in my room and there was a tiny knock at my door.

"Go away" I yelled and Bella just groaned.

I pulled her deeper into my chest and was trying to figure out a way to live on her fragrance alone, when the knock began again.

I knew that the she wouldn't go away, but I just wanted to disappear and take the angel in my arms with me.

"Edward, I'm coming in right now, so you've been warned." damn she sounded angry.

"Edward, did you take Bella…oh, uh sorry." Well at least she had the decency to look embarrassed when she saw Bella in my arms.

"Uh, I will let you get back to whatever it was that you were doing." as she started backing up towards the door.

"Alice" Bella said.

"It's ok, nothing was going on, you can come back."

"What did you want Alice, I growled."

"Well, I went into the guest bedroom this morning to beg for forgiveness from Bella and I saw that her bag was gone and it didn't look like the bed had been slept in and I just felt horrible."

"I was afraid that she had gone home and I wanted to find out what happened."

I noticed that she actually had tears in her eyes and was going to cut her some slack until I thought about the stunt that she pulled and how Bella would have felt if things hadn't worked out the way they had and then I was angry again.

"It's just the guys were so drunk and they needed to lay down and…""Cut the shit Alice" We figured out what you were up to.

"Oh, uh Oh" she was fumbling for words now and I wasn't about to let her off that easy.

"You're just damn lucky that your half assed plan worked."

"Did you not even stop to think about how she would feel by you two just up and ditching her?"

"She was crying when I got downstairs" "She thought that you two were playing a prank on her."

"Oh Bella, I'm so sorry." She cried, "Please forgive me."

"I already think of you as a sister, I never meant to hurt you."

"It's just that I saw the looks you two were giving each other last week" "and I knew that you would be perfect together.""Then Emmett came to me Saturday night and told me that you had confided in him Edward" "and I just knew that I had to get you two together."

"You're both so shy" she wailed. "I knew that the only way was to get you two alone together."

"Edward" "You know that privacy is hard to come by in this house, I really thought that I was doing the right thing."

"I love you so much and I hated seeing you so lonely."

"Ok Alice, we get it." Bella said, "We know that you were trying to help, but do you really think that we're both so helpless that we wouldn't have eventually acted on our feelings.?"

"I promise no more interference."

"Bella, Edward, please let me make this up to you."

"How?" I asked, I was already more than a little concerned about anymore schemes, she might have up her sleeve.

"Well tonight Rose and Jasper are staying over, I promise no more games, and Halloween is coming up in a couple of weeks and we always have this huge bash." I was beginning to wonder if she ever planned to stop for air.

"Why don't you stay over again tonight Bella, and maybe the six of us could all go to Port Angeles for dinner and when we come home, you could help us with our plans for the party."

Damn, I think that she actually has a good idea here.

"Please" she begs.

"Uh, well I'm not sure what Charlie will say about that" Bella said.

"I will call him myself, there's no way he can resist me, I can be very persuasive"

"Like I hadn't figured that out already." Bella mumbled.

God I love this girl. I know that it's too soon to tell her that, but just because I can't doesn't mean it isn't true.

"Well, I will have to go home and get more clothes if he agrees."

"Bella, you really haven't even looked in your bag have you?"

"No, not really, just enough to grab my toothbrush."

"Well, let's just say that when I pack for you, you come prepared for any situation."

"Well I think that I'm going to leave and give you some privacy now."

"Thank you for forgiving me, and I do love you both."

She skipped over to us and gave us both a hug, while she was doing that, she whispered in my ear: "I know that I promised no more interference but don't you think that you should ask her to be your date for the party before she starts helping us plan it."

"Thank you" I said. "Alice, I mean it, for everything."

As she was leaving the room, I handed her a sheet of paper that I had written my credit card number on.

She look at me like she was confused "Tiffany's webpage is already pulled up on your computer, I owe you."

She just squeeled.

Now it was time to get back to more important matters.

I turned to look at her and I saw a look of concern on her face.

"What's the matter sweet girl?" I asked.

"It's just I know that Alice feels guilty, but I don't want to overstay my welcome."

"Hey, look at me." I gently pull her head up to look at me.

"This has nothing to do with guilt, I want you here, and if that's not enough for you so does Alice."

I bent down to kiss her when she mumbled something about morning breath.

"I don't care if you don't" begging her for permission with my eyes.