A/N
I just want to say thanks to everyone who reviewed and added this story to alerts and favorites. You guys really make my day.
I would love to get suggestions for Edward and Bella's costumes for the party.
Please nothing too cliché, ie no Cinderella and Prince Charming, or Batman and Catwoman.
I know what I want to do, but can't make it work without bleaching Edward's hair and that is so not going to happen.
Musical or literary suggestions are welcomed.
Extra shout outs if you can figure out how to get Bella into that corset that Alice bought her, without embarrassing her too much or making her too ooc.
And of course, I own none of this except my fantasy of Edward in a black, leather duster and guy liner.
Chapter 14
BPOV
Mmm, I could stay like this forever; Wrapped safely in Edwards arms, there is no place better.
And did I mention his lips? Last night I was given my first kiss and not only was it the best first kiss that any girl could ever hope for, but I am convinced it was the best kiss in the history of all kisses.
His lips are amazing, I mean women could spend small fortunes trying to create a mouth like his. His lips are plump and soft and sweet and any other adjective that you think of while trying to describe perfection.
Then there are the kisses themselves, beginning with the sweet, chaste and yes loving kisses. Then the kisses that are hot and passionate, I found myself lost in those kisses, he tastes of something spicy but sweet at the same time. I could happily drown in that taste and then beg for more.
The feel of his tongue in my mouth was exquisite, so soft and velvety, but firm and commanding at the same time. My God, how does he do it?
Every time that he would grab my hair and pull me into him I came undone.
The thought of leaving his side for even a moment was agonizing, but I really needed to get up.
My panties were soaking wet and very uncomfortable and I knew that if I didn't stop this I never would.
"Edward" I say, "Hmm?" He moaned into my mouth. Oh man I would never get tired of this. But I really needed to breathe.
"Do you mind if I take a shower?" I ask pulling away slightly, and feeling the loss immediately.
"Of course you can sweetheart" "but really wouldn't you rather stay here with me?"
"Without a doubt Edward" "but honestly I need a minute, if we stay like this I'm not sure that I can leave it at just kissing."
I noticed his expression changed immediately to one of concern. "Bella, baby, I want you to know that I would never push you for more than you are ready for." "I'm sorry if you feel pressured that was never my intention all." "I'm willing to wait for as long as you need, I don't expect anything from you, I swear."
Damn, I think that I've hurt him and I know that I need to explain myself and now.
"Edward, look at me please." I beg
"I promise that I've never felt that from you, not for a second." "It's me, my body is demanding more."
"It's just well.. Well you know that I've never done this before and now it feels like I'm on fire, your touches are driving me crazy with need for more."
"I need you to know that I'm not in this just to hand in my V-card."
"I know it may sound weird to you, but I think we need to take a second to breathe and maybe decide together how much more we are ready for."
"I think that's a great idea, love." he said. "How about we take some time to think about it and we'll talk about it later.?
I quickly agree, I don't want this conversation to go unfinished but we really do need some time to get on the same page.
"How about you go take that shower and then how about some breakfast?"
"Perfect" I say.
I try to stand up on my very shaky legs and give a quiet prayer of thanks when I manage not to fall.
I gathered up my things and before I made it to the bathroom I walked over to him and gave him a gentle kiss. I just had to have one more.
The shower is amazing it has steam and various jets so it's more like a total body massage. The shower head feels like you're standing under a soothing waterfall. Almost Immediately I felt my body begin to relax, I hadn't even noticed how tightly I was wound. It felt like I was on a roller coaster and I'm not sure if I wanted it to speed up or slow down.
"Hmm, so this is what people mean when they talk about sexual frustration." I mutter to myself.
I don't know how long I was in the bathroom but by the time I finished my shower, threw my hair into a messy ponytail and brushed my teeth, Edward was already dressed in a pair of perfectly worn jeans and a green pullover.
Gah, that green was amazing on him, it brought out the bronze and copper in his hair and the green in his eyes. He should never take it off, I decide.
God I feel like a bargain basement reject compared to him, I'm just wearing my favorite Beetles T-shirt and a plain pair of dark wash jeans.
What he sees in me I will never know, but I'm happy as long as he does, I'll never argue with it. How in this world did I get so lucky?
As soon as I walked into the room his face lit up with the most delicious crooked smile. "I love the shirt." he said.
"Ready to eat love?" I love it when he calls me that.
"Yep, let's go, I'm starving."
By the time that we reached the second floor I noticed that he was a little nervous and I had to know what was causing it.
"Is everything ok Edward?" Great, now I'm becoming nervous.
"Yeah fine" he said, but I could tell that there was something more.
"It's just that everyone is here already and I don't want you to feel awkward around them."
"It's ok" I say, "They're the ones that left us alone all night."
"Well, just know that Emmett will probably make some lame ass attempt at trying to embarrass us, I can handle it, I'm used to it, but I'm worried about you."
"Don't worry, I'm a big girl, I can handle it." I try to assure him "and besides last night, was so worth it."
I'm beginning to wonder where my confidence was coming from, but I already knew. Edward was the difference.
He took my hand as we made our way to face the firing squad.
"Well, well what do we have here?" I heard the booming voice that I already recognized as Emmett's"Don't even start Emmett." Edward says in a menacing tone.
"So Bella, did you make a man out my brother last night?"
Edward lunged for Emmett's throat at the same time that Rose hit in the head.
"What?" he bellows "I'm just saying, it's about damn time that somebody did."
Rose and Alice were already at my side trying to comfort me when I noticed Edward just standing there looking very uncomfortable.
"There's a hell of a lot more to being a man Emmett than using your dick, but you wouldn't know anything about that would you?" Edward accused.
It was at that moment that I was hit with the full impact of what was being said. Edward is a virgin too.
How in the hell is that possible? This man is the most gorgeous man on the planet. This is the man that could date all of the supermodels that he wanted.
This is the man that wanted me for some unknown reason and now I'm convinced that he wants me to be his first as badly I want him to be mine.
I turned to look at him and he just nodded his head to confirm what I was silently asking him. Oh our conversation from earlier so has to be resumed.
"Emmett, you're an ass dude."
It was then that I noticed someone standing there that I could only assume was Jasper. He was a gorgeous man, tall and blonde, with a sweet smile on his face.
"Hi Bella, I'm Jasper." "It's nice to meet you" I tell him.
Inside I'm dying of humiliation, but I'm not sure if it's for me or for Edward.
"I tried to warn you about Emmett" Edward whispered in my ear.
"We'll talk in a little while I promise." He kissed the top of my head and said "You need food."
"Bella, I'm really sorry." Emmett said to me. "I'm not so sure that it's me that you should be saying that to and Jasper's right, you are an ass,." I told him. He came and grabbed me and pulled me into a big bear hug. "Forgiven?" "Please say yes." I couldn't help it, I just can't deny him, he truly is adorable in an overgrown teddy bear kind of way. "Forgiven." I tell him, "but there's someone else that you need to apologize to."
"Right this damn minute too or else you are cut off for a month." Rose piped up.
"I'm sorry Eddie, but dude it's about fucking time you got that stick out of your ass."
I guess that's about as close as Emmett is going to get to being serious.
After we ate an amazing breakfast that Edward cooked of eggs, bacon, hash browns, and fresh squeezed O.J., he really is good at everything. "Do you want to take a ride or I know that I owe you a couple of piano lessons, which would you prefer?"
"Ride please."
He just laughed at me, all of the tension from before long forgotten, and said "You'll do anything to get out of piano lessons won't you?"
"Yep" I told him popping the p when I said it.
"Come on then baby, let's go for a ride."
We had just grabbed our jackets and were almost out the door when Alice came bounding down the stairs.
"Just where do you two think that you're going?" She asked while tapping her foot.
"Out" Edward said while giving her an odd look.
I swear those two must have a silent way of communicating, because after he said that she just gave in. "Fine, but I need Bella back by 4:00 so that we can get ready for dinner."
"No problem" Edward said. I just groaned into his chest while he laughed softly at me.
We were silent as we reached the outskirts of Forks, I had no idea where we were going but I really could have cared less.
"Bella honey, are you ok?"
"Perfect" I say, "but why didn't you tell me?"
"Did you think that I would think any less of you?" I asked, really needing to know.
"Bella, it's not something that I'm ashamed of by any stretch of the imagination."
"I was actually going to tell you this morning, but our conversation was becoming so intense; I guess that I was afraid that if I mentioned it at that moment, it would seem like I was pushing you."
I hadn't noticed until that moment, that he had pulled the car off the road and we were just parked.
"Look at me" he said, "My virginity isn't something that I've worked hard to protect." "I have had opportunities but have always turned them down."
"I guess that is who I am, I don't just want a physical connection, I want it all; a physical connection and an emotional connection." "I have never had that before is all."
"Before" I ask. I really need him to clarify what he just said.
"Yes before." "I want you to know that I'm not pushing, and I don't expect anything, but let's just say that I'm ready if and when you are."
"I want you to control this, I want you to say when and what you want."
"Baby, I would be perfectly content to hold you and kiss you and not go any further, until the end of time, if that's what you want and need."
"I want more" I whisper, "I'm not sure how much more yet, but I need more."
"Whatever you want angel, but you're going to have to lead me on this." "I'm going to trust that everything we do is because it's something that you truly want and not just what you think that I want."
Oh God, could he be any more perfect? I began to cry and I could tell these tears weren't going to stop any time soon.
"What is it Bella?" He looked really worried.
"It's just, just that no one has ever said anything more perfect to me before and I am feeling all these things and it's so intense and I'm sorry."
He pulled me into him to hold me close, and started rubbing soothing circles on my back. "Shh sweet girl" he just whispered to me. "Please don't cry" he begged.
Finally I had the tears under control and was resting my head on his chest.
"We have to get back now beautiful, Alice will have my head if we're late."
"Don't want to" I pouted. "I know love me either"
Before we pulled back onto the road he bent down and gave me a mind blowing kiss. I looked up him to thank him for the honesty and trust but when I saw his face I couldn't breathe let alone speak, because as I was looking at him, he was looking back at me with a look on his face that could only be described as love.
"Bella, I need to talk to you about something else love." "Ok." I said.
"Uh, when do you turn 18?"
OH Shit, I hadn't even thought of this once.
"September" I said trying to fight the tears once again.
"Edward, can you take me home please?" "I will have Alice bring me my stuff."
"Hell no, I won't take you home." he yelled at me. "I will take you to my home, but I'm not going to let you go that easy."
"But Edward, I can't do this to you and I won't ask you to wait for me." I sobbed.
"Bella, do you think that I'm too old for you?" "No, God no," "Bella, do you not want me anymore?" "Of course I do, I've never wanted anything more." I sobbed.
"Good then that's taken care of ." "Look, we have my family and your piano lessons for cover, but it would help if you had a couple of friends that you trust to cover also." "I hate like hell asking you to lie and if you don't want to I will understand."
"What about your parents?" I asked. "Won't they be upset?"
"Not at all love, let's just say that they are very understanding and will probably be the biggest help." "I promise you that I will talk to them when they get home Monday, but don't worry about them or be embarrassed in front of them." "Esme loves you already and Carlisle will adore you once he meets you." "I want you to know that this changes nothing except we can't really go public in Forks; so all of our dates will have to be Port Angeles or Seattle, but I don't mind."
"Do you have anyone that you can trust with this outside of my family?"
"Yeah, there's Angela Weber and her boyfriend Ben." "They are great people and would never tell." "There's also my best friend Jake, he lives out on the reservation; his dad and Charlie are best friends and they always wanted us to be together, but that is never going to happen." "I love him and he loves me, but it is like a brother and sister thing; He will cover for me and I know this, I cover for him all of the time, he has this girlfriend that his dad doesn't approve of."
"Do you think that he and his girlfriend and Angela and her boyfriend would be willing to come to the party?"
"Sure, I don't see why not, especially if that means Jacob gets extra time with Nessie."
"I have to tell you now, that I am not ashamed of us and if anyone asks me directly, Bella I won't lie." "I won't deny you or us, as far as I'm concerned we're doing nothing wrong. I know that some people won't agree, but that's the way it is."
We had been parked in the driveway for quite a while when I saw Alice standing outside; I was afraid that she was going to physically try to remove me from the car if we kept her waiting any longer.
"We have to go in" I said "I don't want to, I just want to sit here and hold you, but she's never going to allow that."He was on my side of the car before I even had my seatbelt unhooked.
He opened the door and pulled me into him. He gave me a scorching hot kiss before relinquishing control to his sister.
"Don't worry baby, we'll make this work, I promise." He whispered.
"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, what the hell did you do to her?" Alice screamed.
"What are you talking about Alice, I didn't do anything I swear."
"Bella, honey you're a mess. Your eyes are puffy and swollen and your nose is all red." "It's going to take me an hour to cover all of this."No offense taken." I said.
"Well hurry up and get inside, I'm definitely going to need Rose's help now."
We have to get you dressed, accessorized, hair and makeup finished."
"Why did I ever let you two go out?"
"And you" she was glaring now. "Get up to your room and get ready, I've picked out two different outfits for you." "The one on the left is the one you want if you're driving the Volvo, the one on the right for the Vanquish."
I just looked at her like she has grown three heads, I'm really confused.
"Alice, why are you picking out my outfits based on the car I'm driving?" Edward asked, at least it seems he's as confused as I am.
She just ignored him of course and started to push me up the stairs.
"I've already gotten your bag out of his room, I want you in the shower in five minutes." "The underwear that I want you to put on is already in my bathroom."
Oh no, the pixie is on another mission, what is it this time? I thought that she promised to quit interfering,
"Trust me Bella," she just sang. I suspect that this is going to be a long night.
After my shower, I take a look at the underwear that she had laid out, when the hell did I get this? The bra was black satin and strapless and the panties were the matching thong. I am beginning to suspect that the pixie has a secret stash of clothes for me at her house.
I guess though that it never hurts to be prepared.
As soon as I walk into her room she hands me a dress, it's also black satin and has spaghetti straps, it fell slightly above my knee with a bubble hem.
It truly was beautiful, but I was going to freeze my ass off out there.
She then threw a beautiful long, black, cashmere coat at me.
She styled my hair in a perfect up-do and then Rose started on my makeup.
"We're going for dramatic tonight Bella" Rose explained
"He's not going to know what hit him." Alice chimed in.
"Hey guys, he likes me already, you really don't have to go through all of this." I argue, it's not like they were actually listening though.
They gave me smokey eyes and red lips, I was handed a pair of silver hoop earrings, a silver necklace and a silver bangle bracelet.
I had to admit that I looked good, but I hate to encourage them to continue the torture.
I just noticed that I had not seen my shoes yet and instantly I was terrified.
I knew what was coming and I was right; 4" stilletto pumps.
"Alice these are deathtraps, I won't be able to walk in them."
"Relax Bella, Rose and I will help you down the stairs and I promise you that Edward won't leave your side long enough for you to fall."
Now I'm not an expert on shoes or anything, and truthfully I can't tell Payless from Jimmy Choo, but I had to admit these gorgeous black shoes with the red soles were sexy as hell.
True to their word helped me down the stairs and I never even stumbled.
At the bottom of the stairs, I saw him, my god, I had never seen anything more beautiful in my life. He was standing, waiting for me, he was wearing black dress pants with a beautiful black dress shirt. He was wearing some cologne that made my mouth water, the only way that I could describe it was masculine and clean. Do we really have to go out?
All I want to do is curl up in his lap and resume kissing him.
"Bella, you look…. I'm can't even find a word for how beautiful you are."
I felt my face heat up and I'm not sure if it was from his words or the sight of him.
Just then I heard someone clear their throat. Oops definitely caught in my daydream.
"Well is everyone ready to go?" Alice asked sweetly
"Uh Alice, give me five minutes please? Edward asked.
She just gave him a knowing smile. Edward kissed me gently and told me that he would be right back.
"What's going on Alice?" I asked her. "You'll see." was all that she would say.
While I was waiting on him to come back to me, Emmett and Jasper began complimenting all of us on the way that we looked tonight. I had to admit that they looked pretty good themselves and was about to tell them that when Alice got my attention.
"Look sweetie" she said.
I turned around and I saw him. I'm pretty sure that if Alice and Rose weren't standing there to support me, I would have collapsed.
He had changed clothes, he was in a black pinstriped suit, with a white dress shirt with French cuffs, this was finished off with a blood red silk tie.
"Oh my God" I whispered "Breathe sweetie" Alice reminded me.
He was inhumanly beautiful.
"Damn Eddie, you clean up pretty good." Rose spoke up, I could have kissed her for that. The tension was unbearable.
"Emmett, you owe me $100, he's taking the Vanquish." Alice squeeled.
Edward helped my with my coat and told the others that we would meet them at the restaurant.
"Aren't they going with us" I asked.
"No they are going to follow us in Rosalie's car." "I want you to myself if that's ok."
I could only nod, seeing him like this was sensory overload and I was speechless.
I really hope that Alice didn't spend a fortune on the panties that I was wearing because they were already almost destroyed.
It wasn't long until we reached out destination; It was a beautiful Italian restaurant named of all things La Bella Italia.
Once we made it to the valet's station and Edward had handed over the keys with the warning of "not a scratch." we were joined by the others.
He guided me up the stairs to the entrance with his hand resting on the small of my back. It was such a sweet gesture, but so sexy at the same time.
We were seated immediately and the hostess made extra sure to ask Edward if "we" needed anything else.
"No, we're fine I believe that is unless you need anything sweetheart."
He then bent down to kiss me, affectively shutting her up.
"No, I'm good" I promised. Ha there bitch take that he's mine.
Dinner progressed wonderfully, I'm sure that the food was delicious but I couldn't tell you what we had eaten.
Edward ordered a couple of bottles of red wine for the table, I didn't think that I would like it, but it was amazing and I was beginning to feel very relaxed.
"Edward, can I talk to you for a minute?" Alice asked sometime during dessert.
"Sure Alice, Bella will you excuse me for a moment, we will be right back?"
"So Bella. What did you think of the Vanquish? Rose asked.
"I really don't know much about cars, but it is beautiful."
"He must really like you Bella," Emmet laughed, "He's never even allowed me to ride in it."
A couple of minutes later Alice and Edward returned, and I couldn't help but notice that Edward had a huge smile on his face. I couldn't wait to find out what that was about.
After the wine was finished and the checks were paid, Edward said that we were leaving.
Emmett then asked about shots and guitar hero later; "Sorry not tonight but maybe tomorrow ok Emmett?"
"Wait what about party planning then" "Ouch, Rosie baby why did you do that?"
Edward then bent to kiss Alice and Rose on the cheeks and wished the guys a goodnight.
"What's going on Edward?" I asked.
"Alice planned a surprise for us" and that's all that he said.
"The pixie could have at least clued me in on it." I said.
Edward just laughed and said "well then it wouldn't have been a surprise would it.?"
A/N
Ok, ok please don't shoot me, I really tried to get things moving in the right direction in this chapter but it seems that I promised something that I just couldn't deliver. So I'm very sorry. I just needed to get the big discussions out of the way. Now they are free to move on, they have a plan, it's all good.
I have also started writing the next chapter and I've tried writing in in BPOV and EPOV, it's looking like that it will be Edwards turn again.
Next chapter coming up tomorrow even if it kills me.
Hint, hint Alice is a determined pixie and Bella takes the reigns.