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Chapter 10

Luke's POV

Everything was silent in the house. Scott had just left to talk to the wolves and Kurt still hadn't left Bella's room, not even when I arrived from the Cullens' house a few hours ago.

Henry had already called and I must say it was not a pleasant conversation. Just like my brothers, he too was furious and ready to come and kill Edward. Fortunately, I think, he was still on a mission. I'm almost sure he'll ask someone else to come, though. It's not in his character to just let these things go. There won't be missing volunteers, that's for sure. How I wish I could be the one to put my hands on him… Bella is the sister I never had and it hurts me to no end to see her like this. She deserves to be happy!

I headed to Bella's room and found Kurt sat on the rocking chair, watching her. The stereo was on, playing one of Bella's recorded CD's. The piano and her beautiful voice filled the room. I stopped in the doorway, for a second, just listening… One of the things I liked the most was hearing Bella singing. Her voice was so soothing, so peaceful…

I always hated that Bella kept herself so busy to keep the memories and the pain at bay but if anything good came out of it was her deep love for music. She had learned to play more instruments than I could count. She always said that playing demanded enough attention to keep her distracted but I also know that it was a way to release some of the pain and somehow feeling closer to Edward. That was obvious when the piano became her election instrument, she put everything she had into it and turned out to be an amazing pianist.

In the beginning I thought she shouldn't learn to play the piano. I was afraid that it would bring her the memories that she was so desperately trying to keep away but surprisingly it gave her some piece of mind and some comfort. Even though her songs are always full of melancholy and sorrow they do wonders to your soul. Her voice is the best remedy to a broken spirit or a troubled heart. It's just a shame that it doesn't have the same effect on her.

"You should have gone with Scott. He may need help with the wolves." I stated. He shouldn't be here all the time. It was bad for him.

"I don't want to leave her. Scott can handle the wolves by himself. They would never hurt him. Bella needs me more. I want her to know that she's not alone. She'll never be…"

"She knows she's not alone, Kurt. She knows we're here for her but we don't even know if she can feel us here. She never talks about it when she wakes."

"I don't care. Whether she can feel me here or not, doesn't matter; at least my mind is at peace because I know that I am." I knew Kurt long enough to know that staying here and try to convince him to leave the room was useless, so I left and headed to my own room.

When we remodeled this house, Bella insisted that we should add a bit to it so that each one of us could have his own room. Of course these weren't as big and equipped like the one's back at home but they're good enough for the small periods of time we spend here. We never stayed more than a week.

As soon as I entered the bedroom, I saw the wooden box Bella had given to me before we left to the Cullens. It still was on top of my bed, exactly where I had left it. I hadn't thought about it yet. Bella had told me to destroy it if something went wrong… Things had clearly gone wrong but I wasn't sure of what to do.

I didn't even know exactly what was inside of the box. I knew that it meant a lot to Bella, that whenever she traveled she always took the box and that it contained pictures. About what, I wasn't sure but I had a pretty good guess.

Reaching for the box, I opened it and, like I had predicted, pictures of Bella and him met my eyes. They looked both so happy in all of them! The way he looked at her was so… loving. It was a look of pure adoration, like if she was the only thing in his world. How could his feelings have changed so much? I couldn't understand. The Edward in those pictures was exactly the one that I had pictured all these years, the one I wanted Bella to go back to. How could he change so much? Or was it Bella that never saw the real Edward? I didn't know why but that seemed hard to believe.

There were also small notes, written in a neat handwriting, no doubt from him, asking her to be safe or telling her that he had to leave but he would be back soon. Even written, the words seemed to exude the great love he felt for her. Each one was a whisper of adoration and a promise of return.

I closed the box, putting the items I had taken out, back inside. I wondered about what Bella had asked me… destroy it… was she sure she wanted to do that? Did she really want to throw away the last reminders of what they had? Maybe that was exactly what she wanted. Forget the past to move on… It sounded ridiculous! I know Bella! She will never forget and she will certainly never move on. She'll just keep surviving for us, like she has been doing all these years. Or maybe not. Now all her dreams are lost maybe she won't come back to us. Maybe she'll stay in this coma-like state forever. If only I knew that she wasn't suffering, right now… I couldn't know. Bella never told us what happened when she stayed like this… she never told us if she was aware of anything around her or if she was simply unconscious…

Did she really want to erase everything? To destroy something she, obviously, held so dearly? I felt like I didn't have the right to do it. These items did not belong to me. Those were not my memories to erase and I didn't felt comfortable doing it, even if Bella had asked me to. Maybe I could just make it disappear. But how? I couldn't just bury it on the forest or put it on the garbage.

Suddenly an idea came to my mind. There was someone else these memories belong to and as much as I wanted to keep my distance I had to get this over with. Before I went, though, there was something else I wanted to do. I turned my computer on and started working.

Two hours later

Finally everything was ready. I grabbed a red backpack from my closet and put the box and all the DVDs that I had just recorded as well as a pen drive that I had filled with pictures inside. I put the backpack on my right shoulder and headed out of my room.

I neared Bella's room and after knocking, alerting Kurt to my presence, let myself in.

"I'm going to take care of something. I won't be long, half an hour tops, okay?" He shrugged. I hated to see him like this and I didn't want to leave him alone here but I wanted to get this box business over with as soon as possible, so that I could focus solely on my sister and my brothers. I snatched my keys and cell phone, putting them inside the backpack, went outside and hopped on my Harley, taking off immediately.

Alice's POV

Jasper had managed to calm me down after we arrived to our room but he hadn't been able to make me forget what was happening. Edward was being a moron, Bella was in a coma for god knows how long and everything was falling apart. I had imagined things to go so differently.

When we found Bella, I allowed myself to be confident that everything would go back to normal, that our family would be complete again. Bella was my sister, my best friend and I had missed her so much during all these years that seeing my brother throw the chances of her ever being with us again off the window made me angrier than I had ever been.

Maybe I had been a bit harsh with Edward but I was so tired of him not believing. He didn't believe Bella, that is the love of his existence; he didn't believe me, his sister, or my judgment... What was he doing? What was he thinking?

Jasper told me that Edward was confused and suffering but I was too, and Bella even more. I would understand if he was slightly mad at her after she explained everything but he didn't even gave her a chance to do it. He started accusing her and then when I explained him her story he thought she had made it up. This Edward is not my brother!

"I think that we never really understood how broken he was, Ali." Jasper had told me. "He believes now, and he's felling so bad it's impossible to describe." I knew Esme had talked to him and opened his eyes for some things he needed to see, that he needed to understand. When he left for his room, I went after him. He was sitting near the glass wall, looking at the forest.

"Edward." I whispered after getting in and closing the door. He didn't reply so I went and knelt on the ground next to him. "I'm sorry I was so harsh but I couldn't handle it anymore. I couldn't keep hearing you say those things about Bella. I didn't want to make you feel guilty; I just wanted you to believe. I just needed you to understand!"

"I know, Alice. You have nothing to apologize for. I do. You were right! I just... I should have..."

"Just bring her back to us Edward!" I threw my arms around him, sobbing again. "Promise me that you'll do everything you can to bring her back to us. To bring her back to me." I begged. He grabbed my face with both of his hands and looked me in the eyes while he spoke.

"I promise, Alice. I'll do everything in my power to get Bella back. I'm going to bring her back." I nodded and hugged him again. Then I got up and left the room. He needed to be alone. Jasper met me in the hallway and took me back to our room.

After lying in the bed for a while with Jasper's arms tightly wrapped around me, I got up, had a shower and went to sit in the living room. Carlisle and Esme were there too. Carlisle was reading a book and Esme was nervously flipping the pages of a magazine.

Suddenly, I was not seeing the living room anymore, but someone on a motorcycle. At first I did not recognized the person but then I saw it was Luke; he was coming here. When the vision ended I started to worry. Had something happened to Bella? Was he coming to tell me that I couldn't go see her in the afternoon after all? Were they leaving sooner?

"What was it Alice?" Jasper asked, as he sat on the couch next to me. Carlisle looked up from his book and Esme stopped browsing the magazine.

"Luke is coming over again in a few minutes." Five minutes after I spoke a motorcycle was heard in the drive way. I got up, as Emmett and Rose entered the living room, and went for the door, unable to contain my anxiety. He was getting off his bike and had a red backpack on his shoulder.

"Hey Alice." He said smiling a little.

"Luke. Is everything okay? Has Bella woken up? Are you here to tell me than I can't go visit her later? Because I would understand..." I started.

"No, Alice. Bella hasn't woken up and you can still go visit her, the reason I'm here is another."

"Come in, then." I invited.

"Thanks." He came in, running his free hand through his hair, like if he was nervous.

"Oh, this is Jasper, my husband. You didn't really have the time to meet him properly, yesterday." I introduced.

"It's nice to meet you, Jasper. I'm Luke." He said shaking Jasper's hand.

"Nice to meet you too."

"Are you okay?" I asked motioning for him to seat next to Esme.

"Good morning." He greeted. "I'm sorry for coming so early, especially when Alice is going to visit later, but this was something I wanted to solve as soon as possible. And yes I'm fine, I just can't take too long. Scott is in La Push talking to the wolves and don't worry because I told him not to come back while he wasn't sure they wouldn't try anything against you. I'm just a bit worried about Kurt. This is harder for him." He sighed. I had already noticed that Kurt's relationship with Bella was slightly different than Scott or Luke's

"I had noticed that already but first tell us why you came here." I was curious. Jasper took my hand. Luke reached for his backpack and opened it, taking off a wooden box with a beautiful swan and... was that... our crest?...on top.

"What is that?" Esme asked noticing the detailed top of the box.

"This... was Bella's. She made the box herself. It's for your brother." He said looking at me. For Edward? I was beyond confused. Why would Luke come over to give Edward something that was Bella's? Especially after all that happened yesterday.

"For Edward?"

"Yes, Alice. Before we came over, yesterday, Bella gave me this box and asked me to get rid of it if something went wrong." Why hadn't he, then? Things had gone worse than I ever thought possible. I thought he would do anything for Bella. He noticed the confused look I was giving him. "It's just that after I saw what was inside of it... I felt like I didn't have the right to destroy it. I wouldn't feel comfortable doing it."

"But why do you want to give it to Edward?" Jasper questioned.

"Because what's inside this box belongs to him too. So if someone should decide what to do with it, it's him. He can do whatever he wants with it. Destroy it, bury it ... anything."

"I'll give it to him." I said. I was curious to know what was inside the box but if Edward wanted us to know he would show us.

"I also brought something for you Alice." Luke stated.

"For me?" I asked surprised. What could he possibly have for me? He grabbed his backpack again and pulled out some DVDs and a pen-drive.

"Yes. This is for you." He said pointing at the items he had just place in the small table beside the couch where he was sitting. "When we talked I detected some jealousy because we got to spend the last seventy years with Bella and that chance was taken from you. I also understood that you had missed Bella more than I had thought. I know you worried and you wanted to talk to her and know everything she had been up to. Since your brother made sure you won't have that chance I thought you would appreciate if I recorded the videos and photos I had on my laptop and brought them to you. I understand you feelings and thought you would like to know at least some things." Oh god! I can't believe he did this for me. "If you don't want them I can take them back." He added quickly.

"I have no words to describe how grateful I am to you. Thanks you so much for doing this." I thanked him.

"You were always a good friend for Bella and she missed you a lot. I wished nothing more thank you two could keep your friendship. It's so important to Bella. During the last couple of days, just being with you made Bella happier than I had ever seen her. Those videos are homemade but they're not bad. After Kurt learned how to work with a video camera, he was a pain in the ass. He really got on Bella's nerves because he was always filming her. So you can thank him for this. I just recorded some that I had on my laptop. I'm afraid I have to go now."

"Wait! It's just that... Kurt seemed to react... It looked like this was affecting him more than you... I just wondered... and you said when you arrived that this was harder for him... I have noticed that Kurt's relationship with Bella seems to be more intense than yours or Scott's..." By the look on his face I couldn't say if he was going to answer or not. I really hope he would.

"That's because it is. Kurt and Bella's relationship is different than Scott or mine because of the way they met..."

"Did she change him?" Carlisle asked a bit taken aback .

"Not exactly. Bella found Kurt while he was changing, outside a city, when she was coming back from hunting in a nearby forest." We were looking at him intently so he continued. "All of us when humans had families and friends, good or bad, we had them. Kurt was abandoned outside an orphanage when he was still a baby and grew up there. He never knew what was having someone that cared for you or a friend. Everybody despised and mocked him and others were even afraid of him. He was always alone. As soon as he turned 18 the orphanage's principal kicked him out with the excuse that they had too many children. He wandered through the streets until a vampire found him. Something must have scared the thirsty vampire and he ran away leaving Kurt to change by himself."

"Oh god!" Esme exclaimed. She couldn't help but feel like that. Her mother instincts always kicked in when she heard a story like this.

"Bella found him and estimated that he should be changing for about a day and half. She took him home without hesitation and stood by his side during the remaining time of his transformation. You can imagine our surprise when Bella comes home caring a changing human, but we helped her anyway. She made him as comfortable as possible and never left his side. When it was over she explained him what he was and how his life could be. She introduced him to our diet and invited him to join our family. He took her invitation without hesitating and became her most fierce protector. No one can truly the relationship they have because no one can imagine how much Bella gave him. I have seen in his thoughts how it was for him before he was changed and I know how grateful he is for Bella. She gave him what he never had and always wanted: the love of family, friends... His life started when he met her and he'll do anything to protect her."

"I can't imagine someone not liking Kurt, he's so nice..." I said.

"Neither do I, Alice, but human children can be very cruel. Kurt is one of the smartest and nicest people I know. It's an honor to have him as a brother. He's the most protective, kind-hearted brother and the most loyal, reliable and trustworthy friend anyone will ever have, because he knows what it's like not to have someone who cares about you. That's why he's the one who is suffering the most with this and was also the first one to attack your brother yesterday; because, right now, to his eyes, nothing is more important than Bella and losing her is not an option."

"Thank you for telling us." Esme said smiling.

"You're welcome but I have already done everything I wanted here and now I need to go back." He got up and walked to the door as I followed.

"I'll see you later, Luke."

"Bye, Alice!" When he left, I closed the door and went back to the living room. Esme had the wooden box in her hands and was admiring the top of it with Rosalie, tracing the carvings.

"This box is beautiful. It would be a crime to destroy it." Rosalie commented.

"Edward!" I called but he didn't answer. "Please come downstairs."

"I want to be alone." A muffled voice came from his room.

"Please! Luke brought something that belonged to Bella for you!" In a second he was standing in front of me.

"What?" I grabbed his hand and made him sit on the couch, next to Esme. She handed him the box and his fingers traced the box's high relief, stopping when he reached the crest of our family. He looked at me waiting for an explanation.

"Luke said that this also belonged to you so I am assuming that the crest is to represent you and the swan is to represent her."

""What's inside?" He asked.

"I have no idea Edward. Luke just told us that Bella had given him the box before she came over to see you and told him to get rid of it if something went wrong."

"Why didn't he? If it was what she wanted..."

"He said he didn't have the right and didn't feel comfortable to do it. He decided to give it to you so that you would decide what to do." He stared at the box for a few minutes before opening it slowly.

"If you want to see it alone, it's okay Edward." Esme said, placing her hand on his arm.

"No. Stay." He whispered.

Edward's POV

Bella's brother had left and Alice asked me to come downstairs. She said Luke had left something for me that had belonged to Bella. When she told me that Bella didn't want the box anymore but her brother didn't feel comfortable destroying it so he had decided to give it to me I wondered what was inside the box that could belong to me too.

First I admired the beautiful high relief on the top of the wooden box. There was a beautiful Swan and the crest of our family. Alice said that maybe it was to represent both of us. Maybe. What could possibly be inside this box?

Esme said that if I wanted I could open it alone but I refused. I needed them here. I wanted them here. I slowly opened the box and was surprised with pictures. Pictures of my past with Bella. Pieces of memories frozen in time. A time where we were together and happy. A time where I could hold her in my arms and kiss her whenever I pleased. Moments that I didn't have now because I had hurt her too much.

I picked on of the pictures carefully. Looking at it. I had my arms around her waist and we were smiling. Would I ever see her smiling again? Would I ever have her in my arms again?

"Oh my God, Edward! She kept everything!" Alice stated.

"Yes, she did." There were also small pieces of paper that I recognized as some messages I had written to her, because I didn't want to wake her. It was everything in this box. The pictures were varied and there were plenty of them. Probably every single one we had taken. To know that she cherished this moments as much as I did, and still do, made me regret what I had done all over again and even more strongly, if that was possible. She loved me as much as I loved her.

"Why wouldn't Bella want to keep this?" Emmett asked.

"Because she didn't want to hold onto these memories if there was no hope of Edward to be with her again." Esme explained. "She probably gave the box to her brother because she knew she wasn't going to be able to destroy these pictures herself. It would be too painful."

"See Edward... she never forgot, she never lied." Alice said.

"I know. We were so happy." I whispered.

We kept seeing the pictures and the little notes, remembering every single moment represented in those pictures. My heart clutched every time I would look at a new picture as if reminding me of why I wasn't going through these pictures with my Bella in my arms.

When there weren't any more pictures in the box, Alice took it from my hands and started examining it.

"What are you doing, Alice?" I was afraid she would damage the beautiful box.

"The box is not as deep as it seems. I wonder... if there is a false bottom..." What kind of books had she been reading? False bottoms? A few seconds later, she removed a piece of wood, revealing, indeed a hidden compartment. "I knew it!" She exclaimed.

"What's inside?" Carlisle asked.

"Letters." She answered curtly. Letters? To whom? She took them out and handed them to me. The first envelop had To My Family written. I handed it to Carlisle. He looked at me and pulled the paper from the envelope.

January 2017

Dear family,

I feel a bit stupid for writing this to you, knowing that you will probably never read it but somehow it makes me feel a little better. Please know that I never meant to hurt you and that is exactly the reason why I have to stay away.

Returning now would be dangerous and I don't want you to suffer more if you have to lose me one more time to the Volturi. I hope you can understand that I'm doing what I think it's best to protect you from something that is completely out of my control.

Hopefully, the day that I will be able to return will arrive and I'll never have to leave you again. Till then I'll do my best to diminish your suffering, I'll keep all of you in my memory and pray that the day I will return will come soon.

Staying away is the hardest thing I ever had to do but I would never be able to live with myself if I caused you any more pain or risked your lives because of my selfishness and need to be next to you.

Thank you for being there for me and for making my life so much better.

Please forgive me for what I'm doing.

With love

From your devoted daughter, sister and fiancé,

Bella

"Is there another one?" Alice asked while Esme sobbed on Carlisle's shoulder.

"No." I answered. "The others are all for me." The letters that still were in my hand had my name written in the front and small numbers, probably indicating the order they had been written. I picked the one that had the number one and opened it.

20th June 2030

Edward,

I know that you'll never read this but I'm hoping I'll feel a bit more at peace with myself if I write it.

Today is your birthday and also one of the saddest days of the year for me. It has been so hard to stay away. It breaks my heart all over again every time the sun rises in the sky. It's one more day without you. One more day that the most I can do is be in your head. Listening to you thinking, wishing I was there with you and not being able to go.

My life is so empty without you. I never wanted to live forever without you. I never meant to spend one single minute of this life without you. It's the worst punishment someone could have ever given to me.

When will this torment end? When will it be safe to go back to you? How long will it be until I can touch you again?

I miss you so much there are no words to describe. Every single day I long for your voice, your touch, your presence... I'm so tired of living without you. I keep myself extra busy to hold my memories at bay but there's always something that reminds me of you.

The hope of someday being with you again is the only thing that keeps me going. The emptiness I feel in my heart won't disappear until I find you again.

You'll forever hold my heart...

I Love you

Bella

I was sobbing, by the time I had finished reading the letter. I felt Esme comforting me and Alice trying to take the letter from me.

"Please let go Edward. You'll tear it." I allowed Alice to take that letter from me and looked for the one that had the last number, opening it immediately. It had been written just four years ago.

August 2082

Edward,

I should have gone back a long time ago but I can't make myself do it. You're healing, slowly but you are and I feel like I don't have the right to throw myself back into your life again. Will you take me back? Will you let me go back to you, now that I am a vampire? After spending so long keeping a lie that just made you suffer?

How can I be good enough for you when I became what you hate so much? How can I be good enough when I spent ten years with the Volturi, killing and threatening? You deserve so much better. But it's getting harder than it ever was to stay away.

Every year that passes, the pull becomes stronger. You have no idea how many times I found myself with my suitcase packed, looking for flights that would take me to where you are. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to stay away from you.

Please forgive me for what I've been doing and believe that I never did anything so hard in my life. I hate myself for all the pain and suffering that I've caused you and our family. I love you all from the bottom of my heart.

My love for you is boundless and my heart belongs solely to you.

I love you

Bella

I couldn't think straight! I just wanted to have her in my arms so that I could tell her that she is good enough for me, that she is the only one that will ever own my heart. How many times had she almost come to find me?

"Everything will be okay, brother. I'm going to see her now." Alice said. How I wished I could go with her. I would have to find a way to see Bella.

Alice's POV

Jasper was coming with me to see Bella. I was so nervous. Reading Bella's letters had been heartbreaking. I couldn't even begin to imagine how she must have felt. Why did things have to be so complicated?

"Calm down Ali. Everything will be fine." He said when we arrived at Bella's house. The last time I had been standing here, I was dying to find if my best friend was actually alive. I knocked at the door and Luke opened it immediately.

"Come in Alice, Jasper." He shook Jasper's hand and let us in. Kurt was sitting on one of the sofas and looking absentmindedly at the turned off TV. It seemed like he didn't even notice we had arrived. "I'll take you to her room." Luke said after casting a tired and worried glance to his brother.

Bella's room was almost exactly as it had been when she was human. The only difference was probably the old computer that had been replaced by her laptop.

Bella was lying in her bed with blue serge shorts and a white tank top. Her beautiful mahogany hair was spread next to her on the pillow and her eyes were closed, hiding their magnificent green color. She was so still, so pale… It reminded me of some of the first visions I had when she and Edward met. Visions where she was dead. She had never looked more peaceful and I had never felt more scared in my existence. What if she didn't wake? What if she stayed like this forever?

"It'll be okay Alice. She'll be fine. You'll see." Jasper wrapped his arms around me. I appreciated that he tried to comfort me but I knew that this was affecting him too.

"I know it's hard Alice, but we have to believe that she's going to be okay." Luke said from the doorway. I nodded

"Can she hear us?" I asked hopefully.

"I don't know. She never told us what was like to be like this. Every time we tried to talk about it she would change the subject." I nodded once again and walked closer to the bed, kneeling beside her head. I spoke low enough so that Luke couldn't hear.

"You have to come back to us, Bella. To me, to Edward. He's so sorry for what he did. He loves you a lot. You have to survive this." I caressed her forehead and kissed her cheek. I missed her so much. Jasper approached and knelt at my side, taking Bella's hand in his.

"You have to come back for us, Bells. We love you and need you so much. We miss you." I got up and Jasper followed me. For the first time since I had entered the room, I noticed the music that was playing. Someone was singing above a piano melody and the song was so beautiful. Edward played the piano a bit better but this voice was magnificent. Edward hadn't touched the piano one time since Bella's supposed death.

"Who's singing? I don't think I have ever heard this singer." I questioned Luke.

"Oh, you have. It's Bella." He smiled a little.

"Bella?" I asked amazed.

"Yes. She sings beautifully, does she not?"

"Absolutely." Jasper and I answered at the same time, taking some time to marvel in her wonderful voice.

"So... you convinced Kurt to leave the room..." I started.

"For a while, yes. Thank God for that. If Scott hasn't returned by tomorrow I'll try to talk him into going to La Push to see if everything is fine. I doubt he'll go but at least I'll try. Now that the anger has subsided he's just apathetic."

We did some more small talk and soon it was timer for us to leave. I didn't want to. I wanted to be there when Bella woke but I knew we had to. The others were at home, waiting for any kind of news we could have.

"We should get going." Jasper said taking my hand.

"Of course. Thank you for visiting. It's good to talk to you and honestly, it's nice to know that at least the rest of the family is what I expected."

"Edward is feeling really bad, Luke. He was afraid and suffering too. Bella is the most important thing in his life. He regrets what he did." It probably sounds like I am contradicting myself. Yesterday I all but killed Edward and now, here I am trying to defend him. It's just that in spite of everything he has done, he's still my brother; I know he regrets his actions deeply and he'll only be happy with Bella.

"I bet he does, Alice, but there's nothing I can do. He didn't even let her explain herself. He made the wrong assumptions and that crushed the small part of heart that still lived, the small part that still hoped. I'm really sorry I won't have the chance to stay around. You are good people and I would love to spend more time with most of you."

"It would be nice to have you around too. You guys are really great. Do you think I can visit again tomorrow?"

"Of course. Bye Alice, Jasper."

"Bye."

Edward's POV

Alice and Jasper had just arrived from Bella's house and I shuddered when Alice remembered what Bella looked like, lying in her bed. She was a bit disturbed and refused to talk about what had happened. No one pressed, even though we were anxiously waiting for any kind of news they could bring, knowing that she would talk soon.

Emmett suggested that we started watching the videos that Luke had brought and everybody agreed. Alice was especially interested in this program and I should have been too. I wanted to know what Bella had been doing during all these years but I couldn't make myself pay attention. I couldn't bear to look at the TV. Her smiles never reached her eyes and those were full of sadness. That wasn't my Bella, just a broken and grieving version of her.

The only thing I could think about was having her in my arms, kissing her again. Having her with me.

"How is she?" I asked when the third DVD we were watching ended. They were mostly about special holidays, friends' visits or birthday parties.

"It was awful to see her like that. She was so lifeless, so… quiet." Alice whispered. I wanted to see her too. I had been mulling over this during the entire time the videos were playing. I needed to see what I had done. I had to be with her, to take back everything I had said. To tell her how much I loved her, how much I needed her. There had to be something I could do. As soon as I made the decision, Alice screamed getting up from her seat. "You can't Edward!"

Everyone looked at both of us. Alice had clearly had a vision and after her scream everybody was worrying about what I was going to do.

"I have to go Alice! I need to see her myself. I have to do something. I put her in this state, there has to be something I can do to bring her back. I have to try!" I got up too.

"She doesn't live with Charlie anymore Edward! Her brothers are vampires; you can't just sneak into her room like you used to do. Kurt wouldn't hesitate to kill you if he even suspected that you had been there! You can't do this, Edward!"

"I'll be careful, Alice. But I have to go. I can't just sit around and hope that she wakes. I can't tolerate not to see her. I need to be with her." With that I started running, praying that they wouldn't follow me. I heard Carlisle asking Alice if she saw something happening to me but I tuned them out. No one followed me.

I still didn't know what I was going to do so I just let my heart pull me to where I needed to be. The only place where I would ever belong: next to my Bella.

I settled in a tree that gave me full view to her bedroom window but kept me far enough from her brother's enhanced senses. Her position was exactly the same that had been in Alice's memory but, this time, Kurt was in the room, sitting in the wooden rocking chair that still occupied the corner of her bedroom.

I would remain here for as long as it took for her to be alone in her bedroom. I wouldn't leave without saying what I needed to say, without feeling her skin against mine for the first time in eighty years…

***

It had been two days since Bella closed her eyes, one since I had sat in this tree. Her brother still hadn't left her room, despite Luke's insistence. Alice had visited again, this time with Esme, who started sobbing once she saw Bella. Neither of them noticed my presence which was good. I just kept waiting for my chance.

***

Finally, two hours after the night fell, Luke convinced Kurt to go to La Push and see how Scott was dealing with the wolves. Once Kurt left, Luke settled in the living room with his laptop on.

I took this as my chance and silently approached the house, entering Bella's room through the window as I used to do. I moved with extreme caution and knelt on the ground next to her bed, without making a sound.

"Oh love!" I cried, taking in her state and gently caressing her forehead. Her skin was smooth and no longer burned against mine. She looked so peaceful.

I let my hand wander through her face, feeling her… her eyes, her nose, her cheeks, her lips… so soft. She was beautiful.

"I am so sorry, love! I didn't know what I was saying. I love you so much. Please come back to me! Come back or take me to that world where you are. Just let me be with you. I can't take it anymore... this distance, this pain I feel. I need to be with you. I need to hold you in my arms…" I didn't know what else to say… the only thing that came to my head were parts of an old song. I started singing at her ear, whispering. (AN: Forgive me- Evanescence)

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
To kill those words for you
Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't wanna lose you"
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

(…)

"Please love, please forgive me. Open your eyes and come back to me." A small sob escaped my mouth. " Let me prove you how much I love you... how I regret everything I said. I know that I don't deserve to be forgiven, I know that say I'm sorry it's not enough, I know it won't erase all the pain that I caused you but I was wrong. I was scared. Please just give me a chance to make things right. You're the most important thing in my life. You don't know how much it kills me inside to know that I did this to you. I love you with all my heart. Please just come back to me." I sobbed silently, holding her hand in one of mine, while the other remained on her lips, and burying my face in her hair. I missed her so much! I knew I had to leave. I couldn't stay here much longer but it was so hard.

I pressed my lips against hers and caressed her face one more time before jumping out of the window and started running as my sobs began to get louder. The turmoil of feelings that were running through me was overwhelming. I pushed my legs to go faster not caring where I was going, doing my best to ignore the pull that wanted to lead me back to where my love was, where my heart was.

Come back to me, my Bella…

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