A/N
First: Thanks to everyone who is reviewing and putting this on alert and favorites: You guys are awesome, seriously. I didn't start this story for reviews, I just wanted to see if I could do it, but you guys fuel my desire to keep going.
Second: You guys have been warned, Charlie is going to do a complete 180 here and the not so pleasant side of him is going to come out to play. Also I really haven't mentioned Renee too much, the way that I see it she's not that big of a part of Bella's life right now; We'll just have to wait and see if she wants to make an appearance. I have a feeling that she's going to have to.
And of course, I own none of this.
Chapter 25 part I
BPOV
The past two days have been so surreal; That's the only way to explain it. I think back to yesterday afternoon and life was business as usual. I never knew that my life could turn on a dime like it did last night. Not just my life, I correct myself; but everyone's life, I guess.
Edward and I are going to be parents. Wow how weird is that?
I knew that one day I had hoped that this would be our life, but I never anticipated it being so soon.
I still can't seem to get my head wrapped around it; The moment that I read that one word that forever changed my life, I knew that I had decisions to make and I needed to make them fast.
I knew my options of course, and while I fully support each woman's right to choose, I knew that wasn't a choice that I could live with for myself.
That left me with two other choices; I was fully prepared to release Edward from all responsibility and raise this baby on my own but that wasn't what I wanted.
Fortunately for me and the baby, Edward stepped right up to the plate and said that he intends to stay by our sides, and not only that, he said that he wants this, he wants us. He never even hesitated when I said that I wanted to keep the baby.
His family was equally wonderful. I have never felt so loved, protected and welcomed in my life. I already knew that there will have never been a child that will be as loved as this one will; or as spoiled for that matter.
Esme is literally basking in the thought of being a grandmother. Emmett is already suggesting names for his soon to be nephew such as Dan as in Marino, Joe as in Montana, you get the picture. He is positive that in 20 years his nephew will be a Heisman Trophy winner. Whatever that is.
It would serve him right if it's a girl; but then again if we have a girl I can't even begin to imagine the horrors that Alice and Rose would bestow on her. I can already see it; pink everything, including castles and princesses.
I shudder at the mental picture.
"Everything ok love?" Edward asked as he walked up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. Instantly he was rubbing circles on my stomach; I'm not even sure that he was aware that he was doing it, I think that it may have just been instinctual. God he's going to be a good dad.
I, however; worry about my maternal abilities; it's not like I had the greatest role model. In that case I was more of the mom and she was the child; Who knows with all of that experience maybe I will be ok after all.
"Yeah, just thinking, is all." I say honestly.
He started guiding me upstairs towards his bedroom; "Here, let's go talk about it" He said.
Before we make it to his bedroom he stopped and pulled me into his study.
He wasn't saying anything, he just appeared to be judging the room.
"I think that this can work." he mumbled.
"What can work?" I ask.
"As a nursery, love."
"Edward, you love this room, this is your space."
"Bella, this is a room that serves no purpose but to hold books; I personally can live without it; I would much rather give it to the baby, besides it's right next to our room, there would be no better place." He explained.
"Edward, I can't move in here, I can't do that to your family." "I'm imposing on their lives enough as it is."
"Bella, do you plan on living with Charlie?"
"I guess that I hadn't thought that far in advance, it's just been so much to deal with in such a short time." I answer.
"Look, just think about it, please." "My parents are already expecting you to move in with us, but I can always go out and get us a place of our own, if you would rather, but at Charlie's you guys don't even have room for a baby." "Look you don't have to decide today, but I wasn't just talking when I said that I would never leave either of your sides. Please think about it baby." He was pleading with me now.
"I'll think about it Edward, ok?" "Ok, that's all that I ask, so are you tired, do you want a nap?" He asked.
"Actually I was thinking about going to offer my help to Esme." I said.
"Love, she has plenty of help, actually it was her idea for me to bring you up here to rest."
"A shower would be wonderful."
"Then a shower it is, love. May I join you?"
"Please do" I gave him a huge grin.
I walked into the bathroom and he was on my heels. I began to undress, but apparently I wasn't even going to have to do that on my own.
"Here love, let me help you with that." He said.
I kicked off the flip flops that I was wearing and he slipped my t-shirt off of me. He made quick work of my bra and knelt down in front of me to remove my jeans and panties.
I walked to the shower and started warming the water while he undressed.
I stepped into the shower and he followed behind me.
"Mmm, this feels amazing." I said as I stood directly under the water.
He picked up the bottle of shampoo and asked if he could wash my hair for me. Agh, the way his hands feel when he's massaging my scalp. Seriously he could do that for hours and I wouldn't complain one bit.
He repeated the process with conditioner and then grabbed a sponge and began washing my body; paying particular attention to my still flat stomach.
I couldn't help the giggle that escaped my mouth.
"What's so funny?" He asked. "Edward, I don't think that you can bathe the baby from the outside and besides I'm pretty sure that you would need a microscope to see it still."
"I know that, but it's never too early to give it attention." He argued.
"I really hate calling it an it" he said.
"I know honey but I don't know what else to say."
He resumed his washing of my body and by the time he reached my breasts I was moaning uncontrollably. "Edward, please." I begged
"Ok, sweet girl, I'll take care of you, but not in the shower." He turned off the water and grabbed two towels off of the warmer.
He wrapped the first one around his waist and then bundled me up in the second; picked me up bridal style and carried me to the bed.
"Edward, before we go any further, is this safe?" I asked him suddenly concerned.
"Sweetie, I have it on good authority that not only is it safe, but we can probably expect to be doing a lot more of it." He chuckled.
"Oh God, you asked Carlisle didn't you?" I was instantly mortified.
"Bella, relax, nobody else heard the conversation, and he's a doctor remember?" "He was the perfect person to ask, he's not judging us, and it's not like he thinks that we haven't been together already." I hated to admit it but it made pretty good sense.
"I wasn't going to make love to you again until I was positive that it was safe." "I'm sorry if you're embarrassed but yours and the baby's safety is more important to me."
"I love you" I told him. "I love you too Bella, more than you will ever know."
We made love for what felt like hours, it was slow, gentle and felt more like a reflection of our love than it ever has.
We were laying there lost in each others arms, when there was a knock at the door. "Uh oh, busted."
"Kids can I come in for a minute?" It was Esme.
"Just a second mom" Edward said, reaching into his closet grabbing a t-shirt and sleep pants and threw them to me; He hurriedly dress and went to open the door.
"Uh, sorry to intrude, but Bella I wanted to let you know that the station's meal is ready if you two want to run it down there before lunch, we should be ready to eat in about an hour."
At the mention of food my stomach growled loudly.
"I think that this baby is going to eat like Emmett." Mom said. "Get ready to go and I'll throw in a doughnut for the road Bella."
We got up and got ready to go and made our way down to the kitchen. I saw boxes of food packed and ready to go.
There was a turkey, stuffing, green beans, sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, rolls, cranberry sauce, corn, and a pecan pie. She also had a 12 pack of Coke to go with it.
"Esme, you outdid yourself, you shouldn't have gone to all of this trouble."
"Thanks mom." Edward said and went and kissed her on the cheek.
"It's no trouble at all." "Now go take it to him and get back so that we can eat."
"Oh and Bella dear, here's your doughnut." I just grinned and happily took the baggie from her.
I tried to pick up one of the boxes to carry out to the car, honestly it was not very heavy, but Edward, Esme, Carmen and Alice all yelled stop at the same time. I can see that I'm not going to be allowed to do anything for myself now.
Edward loaded the boxes into the car and we began the short drive to the police station. I was nervous about seeing Charlie, afraid that he would be able to tell, Esme sure could.
"It's ok love" "He won't know." Edward tried to calm my nerves.
We got to the station and Edward pulled the boxes out of the trunk, stacking them one on top of the other. I opened the door for him to walk inside.
Charlie saw us immediately and smiled. "Man Bells, help a guy out and carry some of that for him."
"It's ok Charlie, they're not heavy and I try to be more of a gentleman than that." Edward said without a thought.
"Ok son, but it is 2011 women like to be considered as equals now." Charlie chuckled.
"Oh she is my equal in every way, but I insist in doing the lifting around here."
"Me and the guys sure appreciate this, Edward please tell your folks thanks."
"I will Charlie, Happy Thanksgiving"
"You too, see ya Bells."
"Bye dad." I sure wish that I had known that this would be the last pleasant conversation that we would have for a long while.
Twenty minutes later we were back at the house and it appeared that everyone was waiting for us.
We gathered at the table Carlisle said grace and then gave a little speech about the things that he is most grateful for; Especially his family including members that weren't even here yet and of course he included me too.
I was so touched that I could not fight my tears, Edward just squeezed my hand and said "me too."
Once we had finished the incredible meal, all of the girls got up and began cleaning the kitchen for Esme.
Everyone tried to talk me out of helping and told me to go rest; I had to let them all know that I would not be treated like an invalid for the next nine months. They didn't seem to get that I was having a baby, not battling cancer.
After the kitchen was spotless, everyone gathered down in the family room; the guys wanted to watch a football game and the girls wanted to finalize their plan of attack for shopping the next day.
I wanted to talk to Alice, I knew that I wanted to get Edward something special, but considering that he has everything, I had no idea what.
Edward and I had already decided that we would let everyone leave early and we would meet up with them later; allowing me to sleep in a little.
"Alice, Esme, I need your help please." I asked.
"Sure sweetie, what can we do for you?" Alice asked.
"Uh, could we take this in another room, away from prying ears?" Sure Esme said; "All of the girls are welcome to come along." I said not wanting to exclude anyone.
Suddenly everyone got up and followed me out, the guys oblivious, all except one that is. He gave me a worried look, but I smiled back at him, trying to convey that everything is fine.
"So what can we do for you Bella?" Esme asked.
"Help, I have no idea what to get the man that has everything for Christmas." "Suggestions please anyone?"
I told them about one idea that I had, but I'm not even sure that it would be possible in time for Christmas.
Everyone responded with Ahh, that's so sweet, he would love that.
"Bella, I'll check with Carlisle on that and let you know what he says." "I'm sure he'll ask, so do you have any idea when you might have conceived?"
Yep, the blush was back, "Well it had to have been after I started the antibiotics but was long enough ago for me to be aware of it now, so maybe around Halloween."
"I will let you know as soon as I can and that reminds me, we need to get you a doctor, would you like a recommendation?"
"Yes please."
"So back to ideas for a gift?" I said suddenly feeling very uncomfortable.
"Sweetie, I know that I haven't been around you two for long, but I know my cousin; you could literally go to a 7-11 and pick up a car air freshener and wrap it and he would think that it is the most amazing thing that he's ever been given. I still can't get over the fact that he found THE ONE his first time out of the gate." Tanya said. Irena and Kate quickly agreed.
"Bella, I have an idea, if you would like." Alice said.
"Yes, I wouldn't have asked if I didn't need help."
"Well, since Edward is the kind of guy that if he sees something he wants he just goes out and buys it, there's probably not a lot of material things for you to choose from, but Edward is so sentimental, maybe that's the way to go."
"How about a scrap book?"
"Huh?" I asked, is she kidding?
"Wait hear me out, you buy a book, we have tons of pictures of him from when he was a little boy, even some from when he was a baby," "How about you, do you have any of yourself?"
"Sure but I still don't get it."
"We'll put those pictures in there side by side, and then pictures of him now, like him at the piano, or with his guitar, or in his car, you get the idea." "Then we take pictures of you in the same settings, then we add pictures of you two together; we have some amazing ones from Halloween, and then we leave plenty of room in the back to keep adding, for the baby."
"Actually Alice, that's pretty good." "You're a lifesaver."
"He will love it." Esme said. Everyone agreed that it was perfect.
"We can pick up the book tomorrow and then we'll get started." Alice said.
"Thanks again, I really don't know what I would do without you." I told them.
We walked back in to the other room to join the rest of the family and Edward looked up at me and said "everything ok?" "Yep" I said smiling at him, and crawled into his lap; allowing the women to go back to their list making.
Later that night, as everyone was trying to wind down early so that they would be able to leave early in the morning, Esme mentioned to me not to leave the house without crackers and a soda, you never know when you're going to need them.
I was exhausted, it had been a very long day. The minute that we escaped to his room, I was collapsing from the weight of the day.
How was it possible, that so much had changed in my life in a mere 24 hours? Maybe the better question is how is that I've already accepted the new changes in my life so easily? Don't get me wrong, I'm still scared as hell, but with this family and their support, I'm handling it much better than I would have thought.
"Edward, are you still scared?" I asked.
"A little, I'm afraid that I might not be a good dad, but I know that I will do everything that I can to make sure that I am." "How about you?"
"Yeah, and it's sort of the same thing, I don't know anything about babies, I'm afraid of being a failure as a mom." I told him honestly.
"Bella, you're so loving, there is no way that you're not going to be an amazing mom, and we'll have the family, I promise that they will teach us what we need to know."
"I know Edward, but I can't help the fear of screwing up."
"I think all parents go through that, it's natural to feel that way."
I rolled over onto my side so that Edward could spoon me, and I fell asleep safe in his arms with him rubbing circles on my stomach; I could tell he's already in love.
Several hours later we were awake and ready to leave the house, to meet our family and friends; Edward had even gone to the bakery to buy more doughnuts while I was showering. Have I mentioned just how much I love him?
I was brushing my teeth when it happened for the first time; Oh shit this is morning sickness.
Instantly Edward was there, holding my hair back for me. Oh how humiliating.
Once my stomach had settled and I was able to finish brushing my teeth, I felt so much better.
"Love, we don't have to go today, we can shop on-line and I promise that the family will understand." He said.
"No Edward, I want to go, there are things that I need to get and we promised your family."
"Sweetheart, they will understand, I promise." "Nobody will make you feel bad about not going."
"Please Edward, I want to." I said crying now.
"OK, baby, but I'm going to pack an overnight bag, once you have had enough, we're just going to get a room and come back in the morning, hell maybe we'll stay two nights and come back Sunday; that way I get you all to myself."
"Edward, we can't do that, tonight will be fine, but the rest of your family will be leaving and we need to be there to see them off."
"Ok love, whatever you want, but tonight we're staying in Seattle."
Three and a half hours later we were in Seattle and at the mall; Edward deposited me curbside at the entrance and went to find a parking place. I rolled my eyes at him about that, but he didn't care.
"You're going to have to do enough walking today as it is, and I have no idea how far away I'm going to have to park, so please just go sit on that bench and wait for me."
"Fine, but I don't have to like it." I said
I sat going through my wallet to make sure that I had my debit and credit cards; when I saw it. "Where the hell did this come from and how long had it been there?" Oh he's so in for it, I said to myself.
A few minutes later I caught sight of him walking my way, talking on his cell phone.
As soon as he hung up, he took one look at my face and he knew that he was busted.
"Edward" I began.
"Bella, listen to me, what's mine is yours and it's time that you learn that."
"You are the mother of my child and I won't have you stressing over money." "It's pointless, I have plenty and now you do too.""Edward, this card has my name on it, which means you got it before you knew that we were going to have a baby, what the hell?"
"Bella, I didn't want you having to worry over how to pay for Christmas, please baby, just let it go and use the damn card."
I really didn't want to argue with him but I couldn't let him think that he had gotten one over on me either so I just said "this isn't finished yet."
"Thank you" he said kissing the top of my head and taking my hand.
"We're supposed to meet everyone outside of Bloomingdale's in five minutes."
It didn't take us long to find them, there were so many of them and of course Jacob and Emmett are both so big they are hard to miss.
"Bella, how are you feeling this morning?" Carlisle asked.
"Morning sickness, not so fun." I said.
Esme and Carmen just giggled.
I saw Alice and Edward talking and it left me with a sense of dread.
"So, now that everyone is here, how about we split up, boys go together and girls together."
I hated leaving Edward's side, but I knew that I needed time away from him in order to shop, so I reluctantly agreed.
"You take care of her for me" He warned all of the women.
"Edward, you need to relax" Alice told him "We won't let anything happen to either one of them."
"Bella, I hope that you don't mind and if you don't like it we can take it back and let you choose, but I saw this earlier and thought that it was perfect."
It was a scrap book and on the front cover were people that looked like a family standing around a piano. She had also picked out pages to go into it, one set had musical notes on them, another set had books and a third set had baby items.
"Oh my God Alice it's perfect." "Thank you so much." I hugged her.
"Oh and Bella" Esme said; "I talked to Carlisle last night about the other thing that you want to do and he said that as long as you're right about the timing of things, it should be no problem at all."
This is so amazing, everything was going to come together so well.
We were all deciding where we were going next when I saw a store that I just had to go into. It was called Buy Buy Baby. Alice and Rose giggled.
"Hell Bella, that's the first store we went into" Rose said. "Even Emmett bought something in there."
"So it's already begun" I groaned.
"Of course it has" Alice giggled and pulled me into the store.
I looked around the store, not knowing what it was that I was looking for, I guess just trying to see what I was in for.
I saw a couple of things though that I knew that I wasn't leaving without.
The first one was a little bodysuit, Esme told me that it's called a onesie that was navy blue with a British flag and The Beatles printed on it. Perfect if the baby was a boy and the other was a little shirt that was pink with black zebra stripes on it and it said "My daddy is a rock star" too cute.
"Uh Bella, put that one back." Alice said.
"Why? I love it." I argued.
"Because the baby doesn't need two of those." I already bought that.
"Ok Alice, is there anything in here that you haven't bought?"
"Of course silly, I didn't buy anything blue, because I just know that I'm going to have a niece."
"Yeah, but Emmett, bought lots of blue, so you might want to check with him first." Rose said.
My head was starting to hurt. I bought the blue onesie and decided that it was time to get out of that store.
"Oh and just so you know, Emmett and Jacob are already arguing over which one of them will be the one to teach it to drive." Nessie said.
All that I could do is groan.
We walked around for another couple of hours and finally we met the guys at the food court, nobody wanted to eat, because we were all planning on eating together that night, but the baby was hungry obviously because I think people back in Forks could hear my stomach growling.
Edward walked up to me and grabbed me up in his arms looking extremely pleased with himself. Oh God what has he done?
I was just about to ask him when he said "Don't even think about asking."
How does he do that?
"So what will it be?" He beamed, making me look at all of the options in the huge food court. "Oooo, pizza," "Pizza, ok, what do you want on it?" "Hmm, everything,." I knew that I should have been embarrassed, but I couldn't help it. We began looking for a table and finally found one near the pizza place. A few minutes later Edward came back with a large pizza and a ginormous soda. "Please tell me that this is not all for me."
"Eat what you want love." I felt every eye on me, and it was making me extremely uncomfortable, I was finally able to talk Jake and Emmett into helping me out. I knew that I could count on them.
"Well love is there anything else that you need to get?" Edward asked.
"I think that I got most of everything that I need, anything else, I'll order on line, I've had enough." I tell him.
"Ok guys, what time are we meeting for dinner?" Edward asked.
"The reservation is at seven" Carlisle said.
"Well we're going to the hotel and let her rest for a while."
"You guys got a room?" Emmett asked. "Where are you staying?"
"The Fairmont" he answered.
"Damn Eddie, nice."
Great, I wonder how much he spent on this, we could have stayed at a Holiday Inn for all that I cared.
"Oh Bella, it's beautiful there, you will love it." Alice gushed, Esme agreed.
"That's usually where Carlisle and I stay when we visit."
"Why don't you ever take me places like that?" Rosalie asked Emmett right before smacking him in the head.
"Thanks bro, really." Emmett said while rubbing his head.
"Are you ready to go love?" He asked while laughing at Emmett.
We received hugs from all before leaving promising that we would see them at dinner.
A/N part 2.
OK everyone, I know I promised the showdown with Charlie this chapter, but once again I got really long winded; I really wanted to show the family rallying their support and love for the kids. It's going to be very important, no matter how much money Edward has they are going to need some serious help. I am doing this chapter as a two parter instead of making the next chapter a stand alone chapter. It will also be from BPOV and there will be fireworks oh and hopefully a major lemon, because she's going to need some lovin before facing Charlie.
Hmm, I wonder what Edward was doing for two hours, anyone care to take a guess? I'll give you a hint, all of the men went with him including Jacob.
And of course once again: I can't thank you guys enough for all of the support, encouragement and input on this story, I value it all, please keep it coming.
