The way you are.
Chapter 2
A hand was been stroking over my chest gently. Goosebumps were everywhere on my body. I shivered when soft lips were touching my neck gently . I let out a soft groan when those lips were going down my neck, and starting to kiss my chest. My hands were strangled in soft hair and let out a moan when the hands were going down my sides and were resting on my hips, making circles. I let out a gasp when lips were closing around my nipple and a thong was playing with it.
"Fuck" I hissed out and bucked my hips up to meet the other.
"You like this. Right, Ryan?" the Sweden whispers with a husky voice, while he led his hand go down to my crotch. "You like it when I touch you in this way" his thong licked the shell of my ear and he bite a little.
I let out a loud moan while I move my head to side to give the other more space. It felt so good when Felix is touching me like this. Like nothing matters except us two and this moment. I let out a moan again when I feel Felix rubbing me. I bucked my hips up to meet his hand. "F-Felix"
"That's it Ryan" he whispers in my ear. "Say my name"
I tilled my had back when he started to speed up. Moans were coming out of my mouth. Normally I would be embarrassed, but it was me and Felix. There was nothing to be embarrassed of.
Felix' soft lips were pressing on my neck again and this time they went up to my jaw, my cheeks and finally met my lips. The kiss was so gentle that I melt in it in the first touch. Felix' thong licked my bottom lip, and I knew what it meant. I opened my mouth a little and Felix's thong slip in my mouth. Our thongs wrestle with each other, and of course was Felix in the lead. But I didn't care. I liked it.
I had to break the kiss when Felix start to stroke me again and I had to moan. I opened my eyes and looked at his smiling face. He was so gentle. That was the most I loved about him. He was gentle with me, that I was thinking that he tough he would break or something. But you don't hear me talk bad about it.
His hand was on my cheek and his thump was stroking my collarbone. We just stared into each other's eyes and I was so focused on his bleu one that I was shocked about what he said.
"You so beautiful, Ryan. You don't need to wear that mask"
I lift my hands up to touch my face and I couldn't feel my mask. Fuck! I turned my face away and bite on my bottom lip, not to cry. Why do I have to ruined it now! A tear was running down my cheek and Iwanted to wipe it away. But Felix was faster. He rubbed it away with his finger and looked at me with a gentle smile.
"You don't need to cry, Ryan. You are beautiful" he whispers and kiss my cheek. "I love you the way you are"
I smiled at him and let my hands resting on his cheek. "I love you to, Felix"
Our lips met again and Felix' hand when down again and he-
A loud knock on Ryan's door, let him scream in shocked and he sit up as fast as he could. He grabbed his mask and put it on as fast as he could, when the door opened and Marzia was standing in the doorway.
"Good morning, Cry" she said with a smile.
"H-hey Marzia, good morning" Ryan said with a smile he tried not to look fake.
"Felix, told me to wake you" she said and turned around. "We are going in about an hour, so just get dressed and eat" than she closed the door.
Ryan sigh and buried his face in his hand. All that just happened was a dream! A fucking dream! Jesus! Why the hell did that happened? Why does he dream about something like this! With Felix! He was sick in his head! He wanted to stand up but feel he got a little problem. O no, what is he going to do now. He have to take a shower, but that means that he have to walk past Marzia and Felix. If they see his little 'problem' what will they think of him? He sighs again. "Fuck!"
He stand up grab some clothes and slowly opened the door. He looked in the hallway but saw neither of them. He walked to bathroom and closed it behind him. Well at least that was not awkward. He stripped out of his clothes and step into the tub. He opened the water and let it run down his body. That was better, he could feel that his 'problem' was going away, but he knew water was not only helping. He grabbed himself in his hand and start to stroke himself. Fuck, it was a long time!
Meanwhile, Felix was in the kitchen. He was making breakfast for the three of them. When he heard footsteps he looked around to see Marzia. "You waked him up?"
"Yeah, seems like he is in the shower now" she answered and sits down.
Felix, started at her and he knows something was bothering her. So he walked to her, stand behind her and place his arms around her. "Is something wrong?" he kissed her cheek.
"Not really" she said while she stroked his cheek. "It's just… Never mind"
"Come on, Marzia. What is it"
She turned around to him and looked him in his eyes. "It's about Cry"
Felix frowns surprised when he heard it. "What's with Cry?"
"I still think it's weird that he is wearing his mask here" she said while she rubbed her hands together a little nervous.
Felix sighs and let his head hanging. "Marzia, we talked about this already. Cry want to have his mask on and we have to accept it"
"I know Felix. I know that" Marzia said while she stands up and start to walk to the living room. "But he also have to accept it that, people don't like it to walk next to him when he has his mask on"
Ryan, who just came out of the bathroom, froze in his step. Were they talking about him? Yes of course they were talking about him. He is the only one who is wearing a mask. So, they were having
a problem with it? They said that it wasn't a problem, but maybe they just said it to not give him a bad feeling. They were just nice to him. He could feel his eyes burn from the tears that were coming in his eyes. No! I couldn't cry now!
Felix crossed his arms before his chest and looked a little angry at his girlfriend. "So you saying that: you don't want to go somewhere with Cry because he is wearing his mask"
"Well, you can say it like that" Marzia said while she looked down to the floor. "He is really nice, but that mask makes him weird"
"I'm weird to!" Felix said while he throw his arms in the air. "I talk to stuff in videogames"
"That's what you doing home" Marzia said while she sit down on the couch. "Not in public"
Felix run his hand thrown his hair. What does he have to do now? He wanted to go do something fun with the three of them. But now he knows that Marzia, actually, doesn't want to go with Cry. Shit! It doesn't make any sense! He sit down in a chair and looked ad his girlfriend. "What do you want to do then? We can't let him just stay here on his own"
"I know" the girl said. "Just go with the two of you. You guys will only talk about games, so it's not really my thing" she shoot up and walked into the hallway.
Ryan, run fast to his room when he hear the footsteps coming his way. He closed the door but hold his ear against the door. It really hurt him what he heard. But he couldn't help it too hear all of it.
Felix fallows her and leans against the wall . "Where are you going?"
"A friend" she put on her coat and opens the door. She turned around walked to the Sweden and kissed him. "I'm sorry, Felix. Maybe we can go another time, with the three of us"
Felix smiled and kissed her this time. "It's okay. I will talk to him, maybe it works"
She smiled, happy that her boyfriend was not mad at her. She gives him another kiss and then walked out the house, closing the door behind her.
Felix sighs, walks back to the living room and let himself fall on the couch. What the hell is going on! Why didn't want Marzia go somewhere with Cry even if he had his mask on. It didn't matter! And why was he so pissed in the inside. He didn't let it show it to her, but he was pissed when she said it to him. Cry was his best friend if he wear the mask yes or no he didn't care!
Ryan, opens his door slowly. What was he going to do now? They almost had a fight because of him. But they didn't know that he heard all of it. Maybe it's to just act like he don't know anything of it. So he walked out his room and slowly make his way to the living room. He saw the Sweden lying on the couch with his arm covering his eyes. Should he just turn and walk away, or say something? 'Just say something, damn it!' he told himself and that is what he was going to do.
"You okay, Pewds?" he asked. 'Don't let him show him, you know what is going on!' he remembered himself.
Felix move his arm from his eyes and looked ad his friend. He sits up and sighs. "Yeah I'm okay. Don't worry about it, Cry" he smiled.
Even Ryan know that that smile was not the real smile of Felix. But it still make him blush behind his mask. "W-where is Marzia"
"She went to a friend. I forget that she was going away" so now he was going to lie to his best friend! 'You are an idiot!' Felix yelled ad himself. But he didn't want to tell Ryan why Marzia is not coming with them. He will be hurt and he didn't want that! The last thing he want to see, is a crying friend.
"Okay" Ryan says scratching the beck of his neck.
An awkward silent came between the two friends. Ryan was still with the dream in his head. He still couldn't believe that he dreamt that! And Felix still couldn't believe Marzia said all of that. It was like she was saying: 'choose between me or Ryan'. The silent when on a couple of minutes and when Ryan couldn't take it anymore he broke it.
"So what are we going to do, Pewds?"
"Well" Felix started. He didn't want to be alone with Ryan. What if he goes hugging him again or do some other stupid things? But he couldn't just say that they weren't going anywhere. Ryan came because he asked it. So he pushed the feeling away and stands up. "We can go to the city. Buy some games or something"
"Sounds good to me" Ryan said smiling.
"Let's get going than" Felix said. He take his car keys and walked to the door. When he pasted Ryan their hands brush against each other and both of them were staring into each other eyes.
Ryan start to blush when he saw the dream before his eyes. How Felix touch him, kissed him and talked to him. Goosebumps were on his body again. Man, he was really in love with Felix. Jesus!
Felix wanted to pull Ryan close to him and just hold him the whole day. Just like he did yesterday. Maybe he wanted to do even something more. Touch him, kiss him, feel him. A blush was coming on his face. Fuck! He had to admit it to himself. "Let's get going"
Ryan nodded, not trusting his voice. He fallowed the Sweden out of the house and walked to the others car to wait there for him. How was he going to survive this? How was he going to acted 'normally'? He touched his mask with his fingertips. Should he pulled it off? Showing his face, so that Felix and Marzia don't have to fight again because of him? No! He let his hand fall. He doesn't want it. He bite his bottom lip. "Fuck"
Felix walked to the car when he locked the door. He opens the car and take a seat in the driver's seat. Ryan sit next to him. Felix started the car and drive to the city. He has to admit it to himself. He looked to Ryan from the corners of his eyes. He was starting to fall for his American, best friend.