The way you are.
Chapter 3.
"You sure about this, Pewds?" Ryan said, while he looked at the other, with an amused smile. "You know that you are getting in trouble"
"Come on, Cry" Felix said while he rolled with his eyes, but then smiled. "I'm not going to be in any trouble"
"You are" Ryan said while chuckling. "If you are screaming at night because you have a nightmare, because we are going to see a horror movie"
Felix looked to Ryan, who was sitting next to him and pouted a little. "I'm not scared of horror movies"
Ryan laughed and blushed at the same time when he saw the pouting face of the Sweden. Good that it was dark in the cinema. "Sure not. You only screamed when you play a horror game, but not when you see a horror movie. We will see"
Felix give him a playing push and stole some popcorn from the other. "Okay we make a deal. If I scream, you can tell my bros something, whatever you want about me"
"That will be hilarious" Ryan said already thinking of something. "And what do I have to do if I lose?"
Felix, knew already what he would say. But he didn't know if it was a good idea. He didn't want to ruined the mood. The finally were out of that awkward moment and he didn't want to put them in there again. But he just have to say it. "If you lose, you put off your mask"
'I knew he was going to say that' Ryan says to himself. He didn't want it, but… "I-I only do it for one day" he finally said looking at his knees. "But I only do it if it's just the two of us" when he tough of it, it sounds normal. But as he now said it, it was so wrong in so many ways. He started to blush again. Fuck.
Felix, didn't even hear the last part of what Ryan said. He was shocked that he actually said it was okay. So if he didn't scream, he could see Ryan's face finally! That must be easy. "Okay, it's a deal" he hold his fist up and Ryan pushed his own fist against the other. "Let it start then!"
"Should we not warn the other people that are sitting here?" Ryan said and he moved away laughing when a fist was almost hitting his cheek. "Just joking, Pewds. Just joking"
Felix chuckled and the lights when out and the movie started. The two of them were staring silently to the screen, and both of them jumped in shock when a loud noise was hear and a face of a creepy girl was on the screen. They looked at each other and have to bite their lips, to not start laughing out loud. But, Felix didn't scream. But the movie just started.
About a half hour later, it came more difficult for Felix not to scream when something unexpected happened. But still: he didn't do it.
Ryan, next to him, had his hand for his eyes and was peeking throw his fingers. Jesus, he was even more scared than Felix was, and that was almost impossible! Out of the corner of his eyes, he started at Felix. 'He is so cute when he is scared' he tough. No! Fuck, there he goes again! Stop thinking of him in that way! He let his hand slip from his mask and rest his hand on the armchair.
Felix wanted to do the same thing and his hand lays down on that of Ryan.
The two of them looked, first, at their hands and then to each other. A blush was coming on both their faces, but it was too dark to see. But both of them didn't move their hands. Both of them didn't want to move. And then it happens. A lout scream broke them out of their moment and Felix entwined their fingers.
Ryan's blush grew more when he felt their entwined fingers. But he didn't let go. Was Felix feeling the same thing as he did? Well, he have to or else he wouldn't do this. But he was scared, maybe it was just that reason. But, you don't entwined your fingers with your best friend, because you are scared. So the only reason…
Felix was thinking the same thing. But he also didn't move his hand. It was the other side, he was holding Ryan's hand tighter. Not because he was scared. Because he wanted to. It was a long time ago that he and Marzia were doing this, god, he couldn't even remember when their last time was. But Ryan's hand fits in his perfectly, just like when he hugged him. They were soft. So soft. 'How will his body feel?'. Pewds, not now!
The movie went on and both of them acted like they didn't blush. But their hands were never leaving each other. Sometimes, Ryan wanted to lay his head down on the others shoulder. But he didn't it. It would be to awkward. And Felix was hoping that Ryan would do that, but it never happened. But they didn't care. How it is now, it was okay. Good. Perfect.
2 hours later.
"Come on Cry!" Felix whined when he take a bite from his hamburger. "I didn't scream"
"You did!" Ryan said laughing when he pointed a fries at the other. "And loud it was!"
They were sitting in the MC Donalds, with both some French fries, a hamburger and a drink. The movie just ended a half an hour ago. When the movie ended, their hands were still connect with each other. Even when the lights were on, they didn't let go immediately. They didn't care what others tough of it, but it was a little awkward when they walked out. But that was gone now.
"It was not a scream" Felix said again trying not to laugh, because he knew that he screamed. But it was the end of the movie, and he didn't know that there was coming more and that he screamed out because he wasn't prepared for it. "It was just-"
"A scream " Ryan finished him and giggled. "So that's mean I win"
Felix groans and let his head fall on his arm. "I was so close in seeing your face"
Ryan, takes a sip from his drink and a blush was coming on his face again. "W-why do you want to see my face so badly?"
"Everyone wants that, Cry" Felix said and bite in one of his fries. "And I just want to see how you look like" his cheeks were getting hot but he didn't break the eye contact. But then he sighs. "But it's okay. If you don't want to show me it's okay"
Ryan bit on his bottom lip. Should he just let it show him. He looked around him. Nope! There are too many people here. But for a reason, he felt guilty and then he had an idea. "Okay, we make another deal"
Felix looked up surprised and a smile was on his face. "What deal?"
"We are going to play a game, let's say" he thought for a sec. "Left 4 dead 2, who will kill the most zombies wins. If you win I put off my mask"
"And if you win?"
Ryan shrugs. "Nothing, it's not like that I want you to show me" 'Maybe some love. No! Stop it! Fuck!'
Felix laughs and shakes his head. "Okay, Cry, that's a deal. It can be a video to for the bros"
Home
"I killed that one!" Ryan jelled when he saw that the name of Felix character was on the screen. "I swear! It was me"
"The game said it was me" Felix said still focusing on the zombies. "So that's one for me"
"It's not fair!"
"Oh it is!"
"Fuck you!"
"With pleasure"
They looked at each other and start laughing. They looked like two little kids, who were fighting over a toy. But they were focused again on the game, when Ryan heard his character yell out when a zombie got him.
"Fuck!"
45 minutes later
"That's how I role" Felix said while he danced his little dance. "That's how I get all the lady's"
"That's impossible!" Ryan yelled while he stared at the numbers on the screen. "I shoot more zombies! Fuck! I know it for sure!"
"Too bad, Cry" Felix said while he put a hand on Ryan's shoulder. "Now let me see that beautiful face of you" he wanted to grab his mask, but Ryan ducked away and started to run to the living room.
"If you want to know how I look like" a huge smile went on his face and he lift his mask a little. "Come and get me"
Felix, started for a second, shocked, to his friend. Sins when is Ryan in this way. But he didn't care. He liked it. He stands up and start to chase the American.
Both of them were laughing loudly and they couldn't help to feel like two little kids. But they didn't care! Felix couldn't remember when he had this much fun! And Ryan had the same tough. But it had to end sometime.
Felix, finally got his arms around the others waist and he tackled him on the couch. He grabbed Ryan's wrists and pinned them above his head, while his knees were on either side of his waist. He hold the wrists, of the other, with one hand when the other hand start to tickle his side.
"S-stop!" Ryan said between giggles that turn into laughing. "P-please! Pewds! S-stop!"
"Are you giving up?" he stopped for a second.
"Never!"
And the tickling start again. "Have it your way"
Ryan start to laugh again. Tears were running down his cheek and his stomach started to hurt. "Okay, okay! I give up! I give up!"
Felix chuckled but stop with the tickling, and started at the other. And then he, finally, notices their position. He could feel a blush coming on his face, but he didn't move.
Ryan tough of the same thing and blushed more than Felix. Fuck! He is going to see my face! I need to stop him! He tried to free his wrist, but Felix tighten his grip. Fuck! He started to panic. He need to get out of here! Now! He tried to push Felix away with his legs, but it didn't work.
Felix knew that something like this will happen. He need to calm him down! "Cry, calm down. I'm only taken your mask off"
"No! No you can't!" Cry screamed and his voice broke when the tears were streaming down his cheeks. "I don't want you to hate me!"
Felix looked shocked at the American. "Cry, why would I hate you?"
Ryan started to cry loud. "B-because everybody does when t-they see my face!"
Felix loose his grip on Ryan's wrists. How could he think that he would hate him because if his face? He would never hate him for that stupid reason! "Cry" he whisper gently . "I would never hate you of how you look like"
Ryan whined and looked Felix in the eyes. "You promise?"
Felix smiled gently. "I'm promise"
Ryan nodded slowly and closed his eyes. He didn't want to Felix' face when he pulled out if mask. He felt how Felix grabbed his mask and slowly lifted it up. He let out a shaking breath and open his eyes slowly.
Felix started with his mouth open. When he saw those blue eyes he could feel the butterfly's in his stomach. Ryan looked… He looked…. So cute! Why would he hide his face?! He was so cute! A blush was on his face again and he could only stare at his friend. He was even more cuter than Marzia.
Ryan, shivered uncomfortable under the other stare. Why was he not saying anything? Maybe he does hate him now! Fuck! That has to be it! He hate him now! He bite his bottom lip. "W-what?"
"Cry, you look so" Felix stopped and lift his hand to the other cheek, whipping a tear from it. "So"
"Just say it, Pewds!" Ryan said while tears were coming in his eyes again. "Say how ug-"
"Cute" Felix interrupt him and wipe away some more tears.
Ryan stared at him confused. "I-I'm cute?"
Felix note and started to stroke his collarbone with his thump. "You really look cute, Cry" Ryan blushed and wanted to turn his head away. But Felix didn't let him do it. "You don't need to hide it. This is who you are, Ryan"
Goosebumps appeared on his body when Felix said out his name. O my god! Was this a dream? Felix didn't hate him! He could die happy now!
The two of them stares into each other's eyes. Slowly Felix was getting closer to Ryan. Their eyes were almost shut and Ryan could feel Felix' warm breath on his lips.
"Felix" he said out weakly closing his eyes.
"Don't worry about, Ryan" he moved closer to the others lip.
Ryan put his arms around the Sweden's neck and pulled him more closer, while Felix's hand went down to his waist. Ryan couldn't believe that this was really happening. They were going to kiss! He could feel almost the touch of Felix' lips on his. Then finally their-
"Felix, I'm home!"