The way you are.
Chapter 5

Felix opens his eyes and found his face was being hide by a mop of brown hair. Memories , of what had happened last night, were coming back. He felt sad, he lost Marzia. The girl, he tough, would always be with him. But he felt also happy. A smile was on his face when he tight his grip around the American next to him. He had Ryan now.

Ryan snuggled in the others chest when he felt the other holding him tighter. He was awake, but he didn't want that Felix let go of him. So he pretended that he was sleeping. But he couldn't do it for like a minute. So he yawns a little and open his eyes. "Good morning" he mumbles sleepy, while he rubbed his eye with his hand, and smiled a little.

Felix, smiled back and kiss Ryan's forehead. "Good morning"

Ryan snuggled even closer to Felix and let out a comfortable sigh. "So, what are we going to do today?"

Felix sighs. He did want to go do some funny things with Ryan. But- "I don't think that we can go somewhere today, Ryan" the American looked at him confused. "Marzia will come to pick up her stuff. I can't let her be alone"

"I understand. It's okay, Felix" he widened his smile a little and blush when Felix kissed him. Yes he did understand it. But that didn't make him feel disappointed. He really tough that they could do something with the two of them. But he knew that it was not just over between Felix and Marzia. They been together for a long time. What will their parents think? What will the bros- Wait a second. "Did you turn of the computer yesterday?"

Felix tough for a second about it. "Fuck!" he jumped up, leaving a laughing Ryan on the bed, while he run to the room where his computer was standing. He saw the computer was still on and recording. He sit down on the chair and smiles. Maybe he had a video for his bros. he stopped the recording and looked the video.

Ryan, who finally could breathe again, was walking out his room when the doorbell ring. "I will open it, Pewds"

"Yeah, really sexy in jour pajama pants" Felix jelled back. Bad for him that he couldn't see Ryan blush.

Ryan, put on a shirt and opens the door. "Hello" his smile faded when he saw who was standing for him.

"Hello Ryan" Marzia said while she smiled a little. She smiled, but her eyes didn't. she knew that. "I'm here to get my stuff"

"Oo, yeah" Ryan said while he took a step aside, so that she could come in.

Marzia walked into her old house en walked to the living room. "Where is Felix?"

Felix looked up from his screen when he heard the voice of his girlfriend. Ex-girlfriend. He stood from his chair and walked into the living room. "Hey Marzia"

"Hey" she said and this time her smile reach her eyes. But it went away as fast as it came. "I came to get some stuff"

"Yeah, I tough you would come" Felix said while he stroke with his hand throw his hair. "Should I help you?"

"No, I think you are too busy with your video's" she looked at Ryan. "Maybe Ryan can help me"

"Oh, uhm" Ryan started. A little shocked that Marzia was asking him, instead of Felix. "Yeah sure"

She smiled and walked into her and Felix old room. She didn't like what she was going to do. But she just didn't want to lose Felix.

Ryan looked at Felix for a moment. But Felix smiled and point with his head to the room where Marzia was. Ryan sighs and walked in the room. When he was in the room, Mazia closed the door and turned around to him.

"How long?" she asked and put a bag on the bed.

Ryan looked at her confused. "What do you mean: how long?"

"How long are you and Felix together?" she looked at him and for once in her live her eyes were cold.

Ryan didn't know what he must say. He didn't really know if Felix and him are together. It looks like they are, but he didn't know for sure. "I-I don't know if we really are together"

"Do you know what Felix did when we started to" she picked up some clothes and put them in the bag before she turned to him and crossed her arms before her chest. "Having sex?"

Ryan looked up confused. Why would she asked him something like that? He didn't want to know what they did together. So he just shake his and picked some things up from her.

"He moaned out your name, instead of mine" it really hurt her to think about it. So was shocked when Felix said that. But she need to do this.

Ryan looked at her with wide open eyes. Felix said his name, instead of Marzia's when they were doing it?! So Felix was thinking about him! He could feel a blush coming on his face. He felt happy.

Marzia saw this and then she got angry. "So you really think that you and Felix could have a relationship?" she asked.

Ryan shrugged. "I think so yeah. I like him"

"How do you think that he likes you to in that way?"

Ryan blushed more and looked away. "We kissed"

"So, that doesn't mean anything" Marzia stood close to Ryan and looked at him angry. "You really think that Felix will love you like he loved me?" Ryan wanted to answer but he couldn't, because Marzia started to talk again. "He will never love you as he loved me. What can you give him? You don't have that much money. You don't have any self-confidence. You hiding your face behind a stupid masked. And more imported: you are a guy"

Ryan was listening to her with shock. All that she just said. He never tough about it. She was right. What could he give him? He lived in America. He didn't got anything . And more imported: he was a guy.

Marzia turned, see that she got him were she wanted him, and started to packed more stuff. "You and Felix don't have a future together. It's me and Felix, and no one else can have him" she picked up her bag and walked to the door. "He is just confused. But he will come back to me. He's just going to try, but he will be tired of you really fast. And then he just throw you away and is coming back to me" she smiled and walked out the room. Leaving a hurt and sad Ryan behind.

Felix heard the door open and he walked to the living room and saw Marzia with the bag. "You got everything"

"My clothes. I will come back later to pick my other stuff" she said smiling. She walked to him and put her arms around him. "I'm going to miss you. But, I'm giving to the chance to think about it"

"I know Marzia" Felix said while he hugged her back a little. "But I think this is the best"

She let go of him. "I think you making a huge mistake" with that she grabbed her back and walked out the house.

Felix sighs and rubbed with his hand over his face. 'She's pissed' he tough but let it fall when Ryan came out of the room, pale as a sheet. He walked to him and pulled him close in a hug. "Are you okay?"

Ryan wanted to say yes, but he couldn't. He felled sick, like really sick. So he shook his head and hide his face in Felix shoulder. "I don't feel so good"

Felix pushed him away a little so he could see him. "You sick?" he place his hand on Ryan's forehead. "You are a little warm. Come on go to bed"

Ryan nodded and wanted to start walking to his room. But, when he took when step his head started to hurt and the room started to spinning. He tried to call for Felix, but he couldn't speak. He started to fall but two strong arms got him before he hit the ground. He heard Felix' voice from far. The last thing her heard was the last words what Marzia said to him: he will throw you away and is coming back to me. Than it went all black.