Still sadly I own nothing, but if I did...
Alex stirred in her sleep, still in the same sitting position she had fallen asleep in, her hand still in the same spot as she opened her eyes. Looking down at her sleeping love that was now in a fetal position, she leaned over softly brushing her lips against Liv's in a kiss, then making her way to the bathroom.
Feeling the small kissed placed to her lips in her sleep, Liv had incorporated it into her dream, like when one hears sounds and adds them in. She felt her heart race, and her eyes were wide with fear, his lips were on her, he was kissing her again. She was watching as if she was outside her body, his hand grabbing her face holding it there, cheeks squished painfully as she screamed 'please don't, please don't, please, don't.' he repeated her words, then as he kissed her some more, 'Mmmm', he moaned. Olivia still sleeping screamed out "please don't, please don't, please, don't."
Having just put her hand on the door about to come out, Alex heard Liv's screams and ran over to her. Trying to wake her up without success she ran her hand softly over Liv's hair almost petting her saying, "shhh, it's ok baby, it's ok." Very shortly after Liv was calm and her breathing returned to normal. Alex sat there not sure what to make of it all, but would not bring it up in the morning she knew as she sat there watching over her love till sleep claimed her again.
They had showered, dressed, and finally eaten when Liv, having not remember her cries in the night finally spoke up, she still wasn't sure this wasn't all a dream and she would wake up to find her Lex gone. "Lexy, what are your plans now that your back?" She had waited for this day for so long, but now with her back she felt awkward and strange, she was no longer the same.
"Mmmm well," she started to answer having missed their walks in central park, figured a nice walk in the park would be just the thing, she was taking it day by day for now. she knew she needed an apartment, she couldn't stay here for ever, but that could wait till tomorrow, this was Liv's first day off in a long time, even on her days off Alex knew she went in. "Lets take a walk in the park baby, I missed our walks so much while I was gone."
Placing their coffee cups in the sink she nodded. "Mmmm, I missed them too." They grabbed their coats shrugging them on and were out the door.
They walked for hours in the park, Alex taking in the sights and smells she had so longed for, and missed. dragging Liv all over as they went down by the pond and finally took a break on some benches. She even got a laugh as she hummed the Mr. Softee song.
Olivia took a deep breath as she leaned over and rested head on Alex's shoulder, normally she was the strong one, the one to hold Alex close always be the one on top, the one Alex leaned on and rested on. "Alex?"she asked
"Hmmm?" she said smiling as she felt Liv's head on her shoulder, an arm draping around her love. Still looking over the water happily.
"Do you, do you, you know love me still?" She sighed then held her breath waiting. Maybe this was a question better asked at home, but she just knew she was no longer lovable. If and when Alex said said she didn't, she knew it was when she would say it, Liv couldn't haven't bared to take the news at home, she would have ran or freaked out maybe, but here she wouldn't be crying so bad if she did at all.
Alex pulled away slightly as she moved her hand up to her loves face, placing her hand under Liv's chin using her finger to lift it up so she was looking directly into her eyes. Her face as soft and sweet as ever as she looked sadly at her love. "Of course I still love you, I have dreamt a lot of nights about this day, being here with you in your arms, cuddling, talking, and spending the rest of my life with you. why do you feel the need to ask such a thing baby?" Tears were brimming in her eyes threatening to spill yet she kept them directly on her.
Her chin held up, she looked away almost shaking her head away, as she tears silently spilled down her face, she hated herself for making her Lex almost cry. "It's, it's nothing, I just missed you, I was so afraid you had moved on." She had just said more than she had said in weeks other then when talking to victims and having to at work.
Alex leaned in to kiss her as she she moved to wipe away her tears. Seeing Liv flinch as her sad eyes got a bit wider, pulled back as her thumbs wiped at her ears drying her face. "you know, I missed having hot dogs right off a cart, come on am starving." She wasn't buying the story, but didn't plan to push the issue here, she would ask Eliot later in the week. Getting up pulling Liv with her they headed off for a hot dog with all the fixings.
By the time they got home both were exhausted, and as she fell on the couch Liv picked up the remote to her stereo turning on her favorite cd looking at the clock it was now after seven, Alex had gone straight to the kitchen and was making tea for them both.
Placing the mugs in front of them she sat down next to Liv, leaning her head back on the sofa, closing her eyes. "Peppermint," she said meaning the tea before turning to look at Liv and playfully poke her in the side, the rest of the day had gone so well, as if the questions and the time all faded away effortlessly, for now at least.
Liv, laughed reaching for a pillow on the sofa, she tossed it at Lex, grateful the questions were over, as was the long day. "Hey no fair," she said pretending to pout.
They decided on pizza for dinner getting salami and white sauce with shredded provolone on it. after dinner and another movie as Alex yawned and Liv stretched, Alex offered to sleep on the couch since she wasn't sure what Liv would want, she hadn't forgotten anything, or the sad broken looks she saw when she looked at her love off and on all day. "Livvy, I love you baby, sleep well."
Olivia, knew what Alex was doing, taking her hand pulling her up, "Please just hold me?" The sad broken and distant look was back in her eyes, she wasn't good at asking for this anymore, but she couldn't sleep alone again, when she did she never slept, she always woke up in a sweat with nightmares.
Alex took her in a hug looking into her eyes, "you sure Livvy?" tears threatening to spill again from the look in her loves eyes.
Olivia nodded, she loved when Lex called her Livvy. Kissing Lex's forehead leading her into the bedroom.
Please as Always R/R and I hope it's getting better, as well and not being to dragged out, but the next chapter should go a lot faster, i know this one was draging... all helpful advice and criticism is welcomed... Please if you want more I would love at least 5 new reviews for this, TY!