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With one case over, and another one still with no leads, Olivia sat at her desk going over photos trying to find something that would help. Maybe there was something they had missed, there had to be. Still throwing herself as much as she could into her work, she was keeping her mind off of things with it. By 9:30pm she was still hard at work trying to find something to help break the case, Cragen walking out of his office seeing her at another late night, since he knew she had spent the night before till well after 3am on it, and had been back at work by seven. "Liv go home, I don't want to see you again till wednesday. your to take tomorrow off, you look like hell, get some rest." He said plainly.
She started to say something, but before she could get a word out, "this isn't up for debate detective, go home." She didn't want to just go but had no choice, grabbing her jacket, "yeah ok, see you later Capt." she said walking past him and out the door.
Just about home having walked to clear her head, felt her hand balled up in a fist. She hadn't even realized it, but looking down feeling frustrated, and angry, got the sudden urge to let out some of her frustration. Walking into the alley next to their apartment, she punched the side of her apartment building as hard as she could. she was sick of feeling like this, hopeless one day, helpless on the days she had therapy at not being able to just be over it, and needing to be there. Group sessions were bad, she hated going even if she liked some of the people, she never really felt she deserved to be there. they were real victims, she wasn't. She punched the wall a few more times, then took to bashing the back of her hand and wrist into it.
Twenty minutes later out of breath, and steam she heard her phone ring. Reaching into her jacket with her other hand for her phone, "Benson" she said harshly.
"Liv?" Alex had called to see where she was, since she had called the station and had been told she had left to go home, and that was now forty minutes ago. "I called the station, they said you left a while ago, are you ok?" She was worried.
"I'm fine I just needed a walk, be home soon." Ok so that wasn't the truth, but what was she going to say? 'I couldn't take it, I got frustrated and beat the crap out of my arm.' No she left all that out as she looked at her hand that was now swelling, and would be bruised for sure, maybe even broken.
"You sure that's all baby?" Alex wasn't buying it, she heard the tone in her voice.
Olivia huffed back, "yes I'm sure, look love you, be home soon."
Alex shook her head at the phone, not that Liv could see it, "ok baby, love you too, see you soon." ending the call as she went back to her book.
By now you could see the bruises starting to appear on her arm, and it had swelled up even more. Also there was a big bump on the back of her wrist and hand, she had really done a number on it. Olivia leaned against the wall next to a trash bin taking a few deep breaths steadying herself, finally feeling a bit calmer with the pain setting in, it was as if this was what she deserved, Under normal circumstances she would never think like this, but she also felt at least this she had some control over. She caused this pain, not Harris, not El with all his questions she hated him asking, not the Capt, telling her to go home, no this was something she did to herself, she controlled this, she finally had some control.
As she stood there looking down the alley way, she hadn't heard him, or what hit her. She felt everything spinning around her as she fell to the ground, just as she passed out she felt a tug on her pants.
Two hours later Alex paced back and forth calling Liv's phone with no answer, leaving yet another message worried about her, she finally called Elliot. "El, has Olivia called you?" She sounded worried and scared, not like her usual self. "no why. Alex?"
Elliot had no idea what was going on, but went on to tell her the Capt. had sent her home and told her not to be back till the day after tomorrow.
"El, I talked to her a few hours ago, said she needed a walk." Alex by now was throwing on her jacket and racing out the door. "She never came back, I'm going to see if I can find her."
Olivia came to with him on top of her, pants around her ankles, underwear torn off and her legs bruised and sore. The man took her gun, tossing it in the trash, only after hitting her again, this time with it. Told her how good she was while laughing before running away. Groaning, not able to get up she started crying.
"What, she never got home? I'll be right there meet you outside we'll find her Alex." He hung up told the Capt. and ran. Alex was out side when Elliot pulled up, he jumped out of the car running towards Alex as they both heard what sounded like strangled cry's from the alley way.
Alex was the first to make it around the corner into the alley, dropping her phone yelling, "El, over here hurry!" She ran to Olivia's side, dropping to her knees as she wrapped Olivia up in her arms, "call a bus NOW!" Her tears spilled down her face as Elliot came running to see what it was, he called for a bus and went looking around for any signs of things.
Olivia was laying there with blood between her legs, and on her face pouring down from the cuts on her head having been hit twice. She looked so defeated, the voice in her head saying 'why didn't you just kill me?' she almost wanted to die, it had happened again, and this time it was because she had been so busy beating the crap out of herself, she hadn't even paid attention to who and what was around her. "Al.. Alex?" she whimpered, her chest heaved as she tried to catch her breath. Elliot found her gun in the trash, just as the EMT's got there and were looking her over. They got her into the ambulance, Alex climbed up still holding her hand not letting go to ride along.
Elliot told her not to worry. "I'll let the captain know what's going on and meet you there." Nodding as they shut the doors and sped off.
"Elliot bring her gun in, we'll dust it for prints and see if he's in the system." Cragen was pissed, not only was Liv like a daughter to him, but one of his detectives had been hurt, and after sealview, this would not be good. "On my way captain, and whatever he hit her with he took with him, looked like she was hit twice."
Alex paced back and forth in the waiting room, wishing she could be in there with Olivia. Cursing under breath that she should be with her, but Olivia had been adamant about not wanting her there, for Olivia's part, she didn't want Alex to know she had beaten the crap out of herself, and that's why she had been attacked. if she hadn't been so busy beating herself up she would have paid better attention to what was going on around her, and not been in that alley. "El, they are looking at her now." Elliot nodded as he put an arm around Alex trying to help, he hated to see her hurting, and knowing his partner had been attacked again.
"Damn it," he shook his head, he wondered why the hell she was in the alley just hanging out, when she should have been up stairs in her apartment with Alex. "Did she tell you anything, like why she was just hanging in the alley?"
Alex looked at him sadly, "no, I didn't ask, she's to out of it."
Nodding, "we will have to try and ask her later, they told you anything?"
"Not yet, but she has two bumps on the head, one from her gun causing the most blood, and clue what else she was hit with." Her eyes filled with tears, shaking her head as she thought, 'I wasn't here to help her last time when she was attacked, now again all I can do is hope she talks to me about it.'
A doctor in a white lab coat and clip board in hand walk up to the pair smiling as she introduced herself, "Hi, I'm Dr. Martian, your here for Ms. Benson?"
Both nodding quickly, "I'm Alex, and this is her partner Elliot." They took turns shaking her hand.
She filled them in on what happened, "well he tore her up pretty good, we had to stitch her up, looks like he used some sort of wood, she had a few splinters left inside." then explained while it had been small, it was heavy and had also been what he had hit her with, what they didn't know was how her arm got broken, it seamed it was a few hours earlier that it was injured.
Alex's heart broke hearing all that happened, El looked sick and like he wanted to shoot someone, "can we see her?"
Dr. Martian nodded, "you can, but only one of you can stay for now, she needs her rest, and I need to tell you she's been sedated, she's not completely out of it, but she is on heavy meds for the pain." turning to take them to the room, "she will need to stay over night for observation, she can go home tomorrow."
Alex held on to Elliot as they walked to her room. She needed to steady herself before seeing Liv.
Elliot kept his arm around her till they were just outside her room. "Alex, you ok? she's going to need you more than anyone." Alex nodded taking a deep breath calming herself and wiping the tears from her eyes, "yeah." Elliot nodded, "ok I'll only stop in then I'm going to see if they got anything off her gun."
Alex walked in first, sitting next to Olivia's bed speaking softly as to not scare her, "Liv honey, it's just me." Olivia wouldn't look at her, kept her face to the side and curled up in ball trying to make herself as small as she could despite her injuries. "Liv, El's here is it ok if he just comes in for a moment? He's worried about you too."
Olivia nodded slowly, not wanting him to see her like this, but couldn't come up with the words she needed to say anything. "Ok honey, I'll tell him to come in." Alex got up and let him in.
Elliot walked in smiling as he went to sit at the end of her bed in the extra chair, he talked to her for a few moments without getting her to say anything, looking to Alex he got up squeezed her shoulder, "she'll be ok, I am going to go see if they got anything off the gun."
Once Elliot was out of the room Olivia turned over, with her arm casted and legs bruised up so bad it took her a while to get comfortable again. she was medicated, but still winced. "I'm... I.. I'm sorry, so sorry." she was sobbing into her pillow.
Alex took her none injured hand, "shhh, you didn't do anything, I'm right here, I'm not leaving you." she reached out to wipe Olivia's tears away with her thumb, her heart broke just looking at her.
Olivia flinched as her thumb touched her face, but then relaxed into it, "it.. it.. it hurts." she cried into her pillow.
Alex looked worried, "what hurts baby?"
"My head, and down there." She said looking down with her eyes.
"Baby do you remember what happened?" Alex wondered just how much she remembered.
Slowly shaking her head, "nnn... no, just that when I came to someone was on top of me saying..." Her voice trailed off.
"Saying what baby?" Alex encouraged her to go on.
Olivia starred at her blankly, "hold me?" she pleaded, the vacant look never leaving her eyes.
Please as Always R/R