Okay People here's chapter 6! And I just realized thet I'd forgot to tell you guys that I'm wrighting both from Nessie's and Jakes's POV's! Sorry about that... This is now from Jacobs pov and it starts where ch 5 left of... kind of... you'll get it when you read it;) Enjoy and PLEASE comment!

Weird

I stared at the phone. What was that? Or who was that?

I kept looking at the phone like it would answer my questions.

Now it's official, I've lost it.

Well, I lost it a while ago. But it seems to get worse for everyday that passes. Is it even possible?

But actually, was it my fault.

I kept encouraging myself, kept filling my mind with some kind of self-destructing pep talks. The first months when I started to become anxious about her depart I kept saying 'She'll be back soon'. Then after a year, when the communication between us had brooked and my phone calls to a number that never answered me, I told myself ' wow they must be really into something now that it's taking them a year over there'.

And then, short after that. I received the note.

It was not a happy not, or a sad. It was an indifferent note. Something that wouldn't change anything, as he expected.

I'd read the note over and over, I had even memorized every single word, even though they were words I didn't want to memorize. Still they popped up in my head at any random moment.

Jacob.

Stop calling or try to get any contact with Renesmee. She has forgotten everything

Edward Cullen

Forgotten? Did she got amnesia? Was it temporary?

But I was sure of one thing. She couldn't forget everything. It was impossible.

Yes, no kid remember it's first years of life. But Renesmee wasn't like the other kids, she was special and much smarter than other kids.

So no, I didn't believe that she'd forgotten me. And even though everyone-even Seth- kept telling me ' she wont come back.' did I always answer ' no, she has to'.

And now, almost seven years after am I still holding on to that hope of they returning. So I'm practically holding on to nothing

I remember when my dad told me the same thing, just some months ago. That was when it all fell for me.

His words somehow made sense. I did actually listen to the content in those words. Words that now decorated my mind with it's constant echoing.

I hit the wall in pure frustration.

" hey Jake, take it easy! What has that wall ever done to you?" My dad showed up besides me. " You know if you break it, either you fix it or pay for the reparation."

His attempt to cheer me up was as helpful as taking a guy who 's trying to quit drinking to a ' drink-as-much-as-you-want' bar. Not helpful.

He saw my expression and sighed loudly.

" Son, I've told you this before, and I don't want to sound negative but…"

" I know, I know… She wont come back."

Those words sounded somehow even more bitter when I said them. Maybe because I still had that little hope that she would come back. Still hoped that she would remember me.

She had to remember me. Remember me as much as I remembered her. I mean, she kind of got it. Got my strange and wired bound to her? I think.

I straighten up and went to my room.

My dad didn't follow me, or asked me any questions.

I closed the door to my room and laid down on the to small bed.

I closed my eyes and started to listen. I wasn't listening after something specific. I just wanted to fill my head with sounds so that I could forget everything. I wanted to drown in the million different sounds that surrounded me.

I laid there for about an hour until I realized that I couldn't stay there for ever.

I stood up and got the sweater that was laying on the chair by the desk.

It was cold for being mid-April.

I didn't need a sweater, but any normal guy would.

" I'm taking a walk." I'm shouted.

"Okay" he shouted back from the kitchen. "I'm going to visit Charlie later, there's food in the fridge."

I didn't answer and walked out.

I started to think of how strange this world was.

Of all the people in the world, did Charlie get an heart attack. Charlie.

He was with my dad when it happened, they had been fishing. But Charlie wasn't the man who liked to look vulnerable, or been taken care of. Just like… Bella.

I shook of the melancholy feeling that her named filled me with, and I kept walking. Lately, was walking the only calm thing around me. Just walking. Not running or jogging as I liked to do before. Not even running when I was in my other form did I find as calming. Just walking in normal, human speed.

It was somehow… calming.

"Hey Jake!"

And the peace was over.

" Hey Seth." I said without the same enthusiasm.

" Where are you going?"

" I'm just going to take a walk"

Alone, I wanted to say. But he seemed to get it.

"Oh, okay"

Seth looked at me. Not really looking but inspecting me.

"What?" I gasped.

" I don't know?"

Huh?

" What do you mean ' I don't know'"

That kid was weird.

" I'm just…I'm not sure, but…"

" What?" I said annoyed.

I don't liked when people hesitate.

Seth interrupted the silence.

" Have you ever felt really sorry for a close friend?"

" Well… Yeah, maybe… Why?"

He kept looking at me.

" So sorry that you sometimes, very often, want to tell him to go and search for help… like rehab or something about that…?"

Was it me or was he trying to tell me something?

"What do you mean?"

"Well…" he started "I'm worried about you, man. You're keeping holding on that she'll come back, but I'm not sure. You see… if Edward told you that they would return, would they have come for a long time ago. It's has been seven years now" he did a pause but I didn't say anything . I just let the words sink in.

He continued.

" Of all the people around here- besides you of course- the one who have a complete faith on the Cullen's. but now, I'm loosing my faith on them more for every day."

Suddenly did I understood the meaning of his words.

" Faith on the Cullen's? I don't have faith on them! I could care less of that bunch of bloodsuckers. I care only about Renesmee. She is the reason of my constant worry. If she returned with only half her family wouldn't I be sorry as long as she was ok. Nothing else matters besides her for me."

The words flew out of my mouth without me understanding the meaning in them. I just looked at Seth that was looking at me with big and surprised eyes. It was a very funny image that almost made me smile. Almost.

I didn't understand why he was so surprised until I actually realized what I just had said. I hadn't told this to anyone. Actually, I don't think I'd talked this much for years. I had become that 'suffering-in-silence' type. Kept distance from everyone. I thought of myself as a victim of the bizarre magical world that I'd been dragged into without my approval. I could be class as a martyr. Saint Jacob. What a joke! Now this made me smile.

" You're smiling?" Said Seth with even more wonder in his voice than before.

" It's a strange world we live in, isn't it?"

I said no more. I just took his head under my arm and ruffed his hair with my fist. He was still shorter than me. But he would catch up.

I started to run, leaving a surprised and paralyzed Seth behind me and entered the thick forest that surrounded the reservation.

I did unconsciously dirge my steps to a little and narrow path that had been created during my infancy. To a place that I went to when I wanted to be alone or where I wanted to get away from my sisters, or from my dad when I did something bad. It was like my own escape.

After some minutes of walking did I come to my getaway. It didn't seem like an super secret getaway. No one would thought that this was a getaway for a child. It wasn't this typical tree house. It was just the roots and a trunk of a tree that had fallen before I was born. The tree itself was rotten but it had grown a lot of moss on it, which made it comfortable to sit on. And sitting here did I have a view over a little green glade where I used to sit and look up at the sky. I laid there the first years after my mums death. I thought that by looking to the sky I would see her again. Oh, the innocence of a child. How I wish that I was so easy now.

I went to the glade and laid down on the frosty grass. It was cold and I shivered once but the frost of the grass melted immediately with the heat of my body. And I did as when I was a kid. I looked up to the sky. I was following the soft contours of the thick grey clouds.

I thought of what my life had been before I became a werewolf. How everything was so easy. How everything made sense. Then I thought how much my new abilities had complicated things. My relationship with my father and my friends. When I thought of friends did Bella automatically appear in my head. She was the first outsider to know about my new skills, so to say. But then, I wasn't the first mythical creature she'd met. She had met Edward which lead to that the things complicated a bit more.

Edward Cullen.

I thought his name over and over. Some times with a tone of hate, some with disgust and some with nonchalance. Why did he had to come back? It was the question I had asked myself during the first year of his reappearance. But the one thing we had in common was Bella. We both wanted her to be safe. So we fought the read-heads army. Together. No treads, no laws, nothing. Just her. And then, did we once again fought to protect someone we loved. Nessie. The only person I cared of. Bella had now become a friend. Now was Renesmee my everything. That little beautiful girl that I would die over and over for.

" When will I see you again?" I said to myself.

I almost immediately thought of the phone call I'd received today. It had been something in that voice that was familiar, in a way that I wasn't familiar with. And in some point did I seem to hear his voice. Edwards voice. I shook it of. Paranoid.

I didn't feel the time passing by. I just laid there until I saw that the sun was starting to go down. I could've stayed out all night, but I didn't want my dad to freak out. Or make the else look for me.

I suddenly decided to do something I hadn't done for a long time.

I rose up from the now wet grass. My silhouette was marked in where the frost had melted because of my heat.

I started to run as never before. I ran into the woods while taking my clothes of. I took a deep breathe and jumped. I felt how I became what I for so long had try to hide. What had complicated everything. My paws landed quietly on the ground and I started to run even faster. I didn't know where I was running I just knew I was.

Who's there?

Leah's annoying tone appeared in my head.

Jake

I felt how she flinched.

Long time no seeing. What'cha doing out here?

Trying to think I replied in a kind of bitter tone.

Always as bitter she said and then it was all quiet.

I ran for about an hour until I decide to return home. And to my surprise did I see my dad sitting in one of the chairs in the kitchen.

"I thought you where at Charlie's?" I said looking at him while I went to the fridge to have a coke.

"I was" he said briefly " Sit down Jake, I need to tell you something"

Oh boy. When he wanted me ' to sit down, I need to talk' was it probably to give my some 'fathers advice'.

"What?"

He looked at me, more examined me.

" Well, when I was at Charlie's did he get a phone call. We went to the kitchen. He exclaimed once or twice but was quiet for most of the time. Then he told me some good news" he looked to see my reaction but I couldn't get why we needed to talk about Charlie having a phone call.

"Jacob" he said " They're coming back to Forks"

I was about to ask him who they where but I suddenly got it.

I felt breathless, like having an asthma attack. The room started to spin around and nothing made sense. I wanted to ask him a lot of questions but I only could figure out one. For me the most important.

" Is Nessie also coming?" I said and looked at him.

He nodded.

A sudden happiness overflow me and I felt like I wanted to scream.

The phone rang. I went up to answer.

"Hello?"

Silence.

" hello?"

"Hello"

"Who's this?"

" eh.. I would like to talk to ehm.. Jacob Black?"

who was this?

" It's me"

Silence once again.

" Okay, whoever you are I don't have time to play around and…"

"It's Renesmee."

The silence was now absolutely.