Still sadly I own nothing, but if I did...
"Benson," Olivia said into her phone.
"Liv, it's El, we caught a case." Elliot swallowed the hard lump in his throat, this was not a call he wanted to be making, he had to tell her they caught a case with the same MO as her's just with out the gun.
Olivia started shaking, slient tears pouring down her face, she had one more week of medical leave. her cast may have come off and she may have been better, but she was forced to sit out one last week. Calming her voice, "where? I'm coming down, I want to listen in." She really wanted to listen to the victims statement.
Elliot could tell she wasn't ok, even if she had been, he'd been told to keep her away from the case. Sighing audible into the phone, "Liv, Capt. says he wants you no where this one." He hated to be the one to break it to her, but she had a right to know.
Alex had come out of the bathroom listening to her end of the conversation, just not sure of all that was going on, she moved to be bed sitting down before looking at Liv.
"No El, I need to be there," she sighed. She knew she wouldn't win this one and finally agreed and let it go. hanging up she burst into a fresh set of tears choking sobs wracked her.
Lex went quickly around the bed taking Liv in her arms, "baby, what is it? shhh it's ok what did El say to upset you so much?"
Dropping her head into her hands after ten minutes of solid crying, she finally told Alex of the new case, "it's the same Mo Lexxy, same type of wood, an alley way, it's all the freaking same." Alex adjusted themselves on the bed, taking Liv in her arms, "let it out Livvy, let it out, it's ok to just cry." She let Liv cry it out till there were no tears left.
Liv for the first time since the call felt safe, loved, and yet somewhat good. Being able to just cry it out, no worries, no one telling you how to feel, or what to think, that in itself was amazing. Sometimes just being able to be held and let it all out was great medicine. She curled up in Alex's arms laying her head on her breast, her tears slowly subsiding.
For the next few hours she held Liv, as she cried on and off then finally ending. She had cried for herself, for the other Victim, for the fact that someone else had gone through just what she had. Not that she couldn't handle another case, but this was way to close to home, and was shocked. Once she had let it out though she knew the other victim wouldn't be an issue, she just needed it out of her.
Olivia threw back her fifth shot, sitting at the bar she signaled to the bartender for another. It was six pm and she was meeting Alex here at seven. in the last hour and a half she had been there, she had one beer, before switching to shots, and was quickly downing another shot. She tried to make it appear she was ok, but she felt to much like her mother now. her worst fear come true, raped and now drinking like a fish.
"Hey Lady, maybe you should slow down." The bartender looked at her as she swayed a bit on the stool.
She looked at him for a moment, as anger flashed in her eyes, she didn't need him to tell her to slow down, she didn't need anyone telling her what to do, but she was pretty drunk and didn't want to thrown out, "yea, fine, gimmie a beer then." He looked her over but got her the beer, hopping she wouldn't drink it all that fast, and the larger drink would slow her down.
At seven pm Alex walked in scanning the bar looking for her, as she made her way through the bar she found her sitting on a bar stool with a beer. "hey baby, starting without me?" she joked not knowing just how drunk Olivia was.
"Baby!" Olivia exclaimed as took another sip of her beer, "you made it." she slued, her breath could have knocked over half the room, Alex wondered just how many she had, not that Olivia couldn't be drunk, but she never did it when she was depressed. Alex knew of her fears, and turning out like her mom.
Olivia swayed as she stood up grabbing Alex for balance and trying to kiss her. Alex pulled back but held her upright, "baby how many beers have you had?"
giggling not something Olivia ever did, she was not the giggling type, she tried again to kiss Alex as she counted, "ahh lets see, this is my second beer and i think a few shots." Leaning in she kissed Alex trying to get her arms around her, she didn't care who saw, she was going to make out with her right here.
Alex kissed her softly but quickly pulled back again, "lets go home love." Moving Olivia's hands away she whispered in her ear that she though home was more suited to doing anything more, when all she really wanted to do was get Olivia home safely and then to bed, Olivia would have one hell of a hangover in the morning.
Olivia nodded her hands now on Alex's shoulders as Alex turned around then walked her out letting Olivia use her for balance.
She found them a cab and ten minutes later was trying to get Olivia up the stairs into the house, "baby, you need to try and walk up the stairs, come on."
Giggling as she stumbled up the stairs Alex finally got her in the apartment, after locking the door she took Olivia straight into the bedroom planing on helping her into bed. It was only 7:45pm but as drunk as Olivia was, it seamed better to try and get her into bed.
Olivia had other ideas, she immediately started kissing on Alex, her hands trying to travel all over her girl friends body, "Mmmm, you feel amazing baby, let me love on you."
Alex shook her head no, she knew Olivia wasn't ready. This was the booze talking not her girl friend, "baby, lets go lie down, we can watch a movie, I'll even make some pasta, we have left overs from the other night."
Olivia shook her head, trying again to get Alex onto the couch and kissing her, she reached up playing with one of Alex's breasts. Alex had to bite her lip to stop a moan, she wanted this, but not this way, she was not going to take advantage of the love of her life. She would never hurt her this way. wrapping her arms around Olivia, "how about, " she kissed her, "you let me make us some food, then we can eat and see what happens?" It would give her some time, and she could at least get some food into her, maybe even just a bit more sober Olivia wouldn't be hell bent on destroying herself, then tomorrow after work they could talk.
Biting her lower lip in thought, "ok, food first, I'm kind of hungry anyways."
Heating up the pasta, Alex grabbed the sauce and two sprites, grateful they were out of beer. Olivia would have to settle for this, and couldn't argue. once all the food was heated and plated up she brought to the couch where Olivia was, " dinner is served." She joked.
Alex called in the next day since she had no court appearances and got the day off. She needed to make sure everything was set up for her talk with Olivia, Olivia had not told her what the phone call was all about, only told her part of it. so she had no idea Olivia was called yesterday and told not to be in today that they were questioning the perp, yes they had a case but had just found the likely perp, and was told not to be in today. so why she had gotten so drunk the night before when for two days all seamed ok was beyond her.
At 8am when Olivia would normally be running out the door late for work she still wasn't even up Alex went in to wake her. "Baby, it's 8am your going to be late for work."
Olivia woke with a groan, her hangover giving her one hell of a headache. she slowly got up making her way to the bathroom for some tylenol, after taking some and brushing the bad taste from her mouth she came out saying, "I was told to take the day off, Capt. doesn't want to see me till tomorrow."
"Oh why's that?" Alex was curious. as she moved to wrap her arms around Liv, kissing her forehead.
Olivia looked nervous since she had only told Alex they had a case and not that they caught the guy."It's the reason I got so drunk last night," she started. "Please don't be mad, but I couldn't tell you then, I needed to try and work it out in my head." She sighed sadly. "By then I mean yesterday when I got a call from Elliot." Taking a moment before going on. "He told me yesterday after my appointment with my Therapist that they caught a guy they think is the perp. they are questioning him today, and I'm not to be near the house at all."
It was listening to Olivia that Alex put all of the pieces of the night before together. "Baby," she said arms still wrapped around her, "why don't I start the shower for you, then start some breakfast." She pulled her close kissing her lips softly letting her know she was there for her. Olivia nodded biting her lower lips playfully, "ok but only if you join me." A small glint in her eyes was showing through.
"Ok but just a shower, nothing more, although you do have a spot right there that needs cleaning." she ran her hand ticklishly over her loves back, tracing a spot to make her point.
"You can't even see back there," she laughed tickling her back as she kissed her softly. "I think I could let you wash my back, but only if I can wash yours." she wiggled out of her arms discarding her pajamas as she moved quickly towards the bathroom.
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