Still sadly I own nothing, but if I did...
At her next appointment, Olivia told Sam about her mom, how the only reason she was here was because she was rapped and her mom had to have her. She told her of her biggest fear, that she would be rapped and end up a drunk like her. Sighing as she talked feeling just like her after getting drunk the other night. Not only was she drunk off her ass, she was all over her girl friend trying to prove just how ok she was, and groping on her like a teenager.
Sam listened nodding now and then, "why do you think you'll end up just like her?"
"She was raped, then drank herself to death." Pausing taking a deep breath, "I got really drunk the other night, my partner called telling me of a case just like mine, that night I went to the bar and drank like a fish." She hated admitting she had gotten so drunk just because of that. Reaching for a tissue she wiped some stray tears from her eyes.
"Olivia, I wouldn't worry about you becoming your mother, you realized why you got drunk and how it made you feel, just in talking to me, your seeking help not to do it again." Sam was making sure she saw the difference in her getting help, and talking about it, rather than her mothers way of just drinking herself to death and keeping it all inside. Olivia nodded not so sure, but it did make a lot of sense, and she would talk about it for as long as she had to, rather than stuff it and end up falling down the stairs out side a bar near the subway.
As soon as court was adjourned for the day Alex headed home after stopping at the store for groceries planing a special dinner. She had talked to Elliot and knew the bad news that Olivia was sure to hear before the days end. She knew it was hard news and there was nothing anyone could do. It was like just when Olivia was able to take one step forward and was knocked on her ass two steps back. She placed the bag on the counter, pulling out the alfredo sauce, fresh noodles, and the grilled chicken, then she filled a pot setting it to boil for the noodles.
Olivia was about five blocks from home, looking into this little jewelery store seeing a celtic love knot trinity heart pendant in the window, she thought of Alex and wanted to get it for her. She also found they had small teddy bears that you could have hold the box the jewelery came in. Picking a cute brown bear with a red heart in front of it's stomach that said I Love You. she had then wrap the box up before placing it in the bears hand, smiling her thanks as she left.
Shutting the door behind just as her phone rang, "Benson." She spoke into it not checking her caller id.
Elliot took a deep breath not sure how to break the news to her, but after talking with Alex knew it needed to come from him. he had after all been keeping her up to date with everything that was going on, and needed to see it through for her, he owed her that much. "Hi Liv," he paused still searching for just the right words. "Oh hey El, what's up?"
"I wanted to be the one to tell you, we had to let him go." She stared at her phone, she couldn't be hearing this right. "Why?" He could hear the pain in her question, "Liv, he left no DNA at the scene, she refused a rape kit." Olivia's feet almost gave out from under her as she slid down the door. As soon as Alex heard her come in she made her way over to kiss her hello when she got the call. "What?" this couldn't be happening, they were so close to getting the guy, her rapist, the one that turned her life upside down and took even more from her than Harris had, now was being let go. her head swam as she tried to close her eyes to the world.
"Liv listen to me, she told us about the small wooden table leg, she won't do a rape kit, so even if there was fluids or anything we can't link it to him, and your kit's not even been tested, so we can't force him to give up his DNA." He sighed wishing he could have called and said they got him, instead he was calling to say their only suspect had been let go.
Even though she was one of New York's finest, her kit could sit they all knew for years, with the rape kit back log in the country it was no surprise her's hadn't been tested. She wouldn't have wanted her's to be put above another victims anyways. Olivia always put others before herself, and no matter how bad the case was did all she could to reassure the victim that even if the perp wasn't sent away, they would be ok, they had done all the right things, getting the kit done, reporting it, and no matter what no one could take that from them. she only wished she could feel that now.
Olivia was now crying, having hung up on Elliot, the phone still clutched tightly in her hand, she didn't remember anything after being told they couldn't force him to give up any DNA. Her gift for Alex was all but forgotten sitting haphazardly to the side. She tried to tell Alex about the call, but her heart was racing and the tears came so fast she wasn't making any sense. "They... He... Gone.. no kit."
Alex wrapped her arms around Olivia, pulling Olivia into her as she soothed, "it's ok baby, it's ok." She knew already he was let go. "I know baby, Elliot called me earlier." Alex kissed away Olivia's tears, but no matter how many she tried to kiss away twice as many spilled out. Olivia leaned into Alex as if her very breath depended on it, gripping her shirt in her hands.
Slowly her tears slowed, taking a few calming breaths, she looked at Alex, "You knew?"
"Yes, El called me and told me."
"You knew, and you didn't tell me? Wait, wait, how long have you known and kept this from me?"
"I found out this morning before court."
Olivia pulled away, standing up and stormed off into the bedroom. "I'm going to shower," she called out behind her angrily.
Alex sighed planing to finish cooking dinner, "damn it." Standing up muttering to herself, "could that have gone any worse?"
Turning off the the stove leaving the semi warm sauce and chicken in the pan, Alex knocked on the bathroom door, "Liv, honey? Can I come in?"
Olivia grunted as she heard Alex at the door, "No."
"Please, we need to talk."
"Fine come in then." Alex walked in sitting on the toilet.
"Honey, yes I knew, but El felt he owed it to you to be the one to tell you." Olivia pulled back the shower curtain, poking her head out.
"Your the love of my life, You should have told me."
"I'm sorry I do love you, but El has worked this none stop trying to get her to do a rape hit and an exam, I wanted to let him tell you."
Olivia realized just how childish she was being and gave a sheepish grin. "I know baby, I love you too, and I'm sorry I went off."
smiling, "lucky I don't kick your ass Benson." She chided.
Olivia pouted leaning over dripping water on Alex placing a soft kiss on her lips, "You wouldn't Cabot."
Alex laughed kissing her back after pulling away a bit getting soaked, "that's it when your out, your mine."
"You could always join me."
"I could, let me think about that." She pretended to think it over. then immediately stripped off her clothes joining her girl friend in the shower.
Please as Always R/R, I'd like 5 reviews at least before I update thanks. yes this was semi short but I felt it a good place to end it.
Ok this is from Mariska's Joyful Heart Foundation Website, and is a real fact, sad as it is... It is estimated that there are hundreds of thousands of untested rape kits in police storage and crime lab facilities simply waiting to be tested. Untested rape kits represent lost justice for rape victims, as they often mean a rape investigation was cut short before the offender could be brought to justice. There are close to 200,000 untested rape kits in this country.
This a fact, sadly with so many untested rape kits to many go without justice, and their attackers walk free. I know on SVU they always test the kits and almost always go to trial, but real life to many go without, so guess what in this story Olivia will too.