First of all... SOOOO SOOORRRYYYYY FOR MY LONG UPDATE ABCENSE! I had so much 2 do and then my computer started 2 mess up so I haven't been able to either write or update. once again sorry! I'll try to redeem myself but i must warn that the updates wont be many this couples of days, the computer isn't quite free from trouble.

I also wanted to say that this is chapter 10 of the story... I had written that it ws chapter 10 in the other chapter, just claryfing...

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We sat for a long time talking. Well, mostly grandpa Charlie, Jake, mom and I. the rest, Edward, Rosalie and Billy were just quiet. Sometimes looking at us, sometimes at us. Their eyes always filled with tension. I didn't need uncle Jazz's power to feel that. I just did. As I knew that mom and Jake did. The only unaware person was my grandpa that was talking. A lot. But even though he did talk and much, did I see the similarly between he and mom. They didn't like to talk to each other and looking comfortable about it. It looked a bit forced. I knew that if grandpa also was a vampire- which we all glad he wasn't- mom wouldn't have struggled. But knowing that he was human and that he knew there was something that wasn't exactly as before, did she look a bit tense.

But I talked like I hadn't done it for years. I was fascinated by all the stories that Jake told me. And I told him of the stories I remembered. We laughed a lot and I really enjoyed every single minute I was with him. The bubble of happiness grew bigger and bigger for the more time we spend together. I was thrilled and excited.

"Bella, I think we have to go. Esme is probably waiting." my dad said and as he did, both mom and I looked at our watches. We'd been here for more than five hours. But it hadn't felt like that. It couldn't be possible. It was to short time. I had years to recollect. Five little hours couldn't help me regain that. I felt a bit of panic creep up.

"No, but we just…"

"Your dad is right, sweetheart" Rosalie said, with both relief and an after tone of 'let's go now'.

" Now that was a first" I mumbled.

She never agrees with him. What's wrong with her? I told Jake.

A little giggle escaped his smiling lips but he covered with a caught.

"Bless you" I said but thought over my reply.

Wait, that wasn't…

We both started to laugh at our - literally - internal joke.

"You must be tired, Ness. You're laughing at nothing" Rose said, once again, trying to take us out of there as fast as possible.

"Well, it's pretty late and you have to slee…"

Mom! I said when I - involuntary- let Jakes hand to instantly grab mom's.

"Listen to your mom, Renesmee…" grandpa suddenly said. "It is late" I looked at him, than at mom, then at uncle Rose's relived face, at Edward's poker face. Then at Jake's face that screamed 'don't go'. but I knew I had to. I though over asking Edward to let me stay over here at grandpa's so that Jake and I could talk and spend more time together. He owed me that.

"No" my dad answered me with a strong voice. "Not that"

I looked at him, trying to look angry. Our gaze met but he had won. I surrendered.

I turned to Jake.

"Promise me that you'll come tomorrow to see me." I said. It sounded childish, but it wasn't for me. This was a promise that he had to keep.

"I promise" he said. Signing it with a relaxed and natural smile that of course made me smile.

"I'll start the car." dad said "Thank you for everything, Charlie."

He said looking at grandpa ho nodded in response. That was enough for him and he went to start the car, with Rosalie following. Mom raised and hugged Charlie and then went to Billy, then Jake. I followed the same order.

I hugged Jake fore some extra long seconds. He was so tall comparing to me. But I managed to pull him down and to step on my toes to reach for his ear.

"Bye, Jake. My Jake" I said.

"Bye, Nessie. My Nessie" he said with a smile in his voice.

I turned my head and kissed his, soft and warm cheek.

A flash of electricity flew though me, more powerful than the happiness wave, and almost made me jump. A desire of remain like this, remain in his arms, overcame me. I did now more than before want to be with him. I almost had to pull my hands from his neck to let go. His neck was the only part of him which my arms could completely embrace him.

I left the house and entered the car that without Jake felt like being in a freezer. I shuddered and mom gave me her blazer. I saw Jake waving goodbye and I waved back, even though I knew he couldn't see me.

Dad pulled the car out of the driveway and Rose opened the car window.

"Ahh" she sighed "Finally some fresh air!"

"Auntie, close the window! I'm freezing!"

"Not until the dog smell ends. No one will let you enter if you smell like that"

Her words stung me.

"Like what? Jake? You think he smells like a dog? I think he smells… I don't know… but not like dog anyway!"

"You might not feel it, but I do"

"Then why didn't you just stay if you knew how he would smell?"

I felt her freeze and I bend over and pulled up the automatically window.

The sound of the window shutting was the only thing that sounded after that.

"Hey, freshman!" Jasper greeted me as we entered. I didn't say anything. I just smiled. I smiled at everything. I was a smile myself. Except the silently trip to our new house, that had been silent even after I apologized to Rose, was everything amazingly beautiful at the moment. Except that little ache in my arms. And ache after Jake.

"Well, no freshman longer" Alice said coming down the stairs to the entrance "Soon will Ness have an growing spurt and she'll be able to be a junior"

We all just looked at her.

"A… junior?" I Said

"Jupp" Alice said " And you knows what that means…"

"Shopping trip!" we said together. I ran to her and she immediately started to talk about clothes and so did I. I was going to bee a junior, I was becoming older. I would grew. I imagined myself some many inches longer. And in high school.

"Rosalie, I have this great idea of…" Alice said running like lightning up to tell Rosalie about the news.

I started to look around the big house where I've never been before. Our old house that I didn't remember.

I was amazed by it. It was and felt very vampire-ish, I liked it. Even if it was ten times bigger than the other house, and the color pallet went in white. Blanc and silber with modern architecture instead of mahogany, timber in an old forest house, did it remind me a lot of the other house. Big spaces, clean lines, panorama windows, big stair case and a lovely kitchen. But here was there something that we didn't have in the other house. It was standing on an elevation, like a stage, before the living room. This surprised me.

"Who Plays the piano?" I asked looking at mom.

"Your dad used to" grandma replied from behind me. "He hasn't done it for years" she said now looking at him.

"Why?" I said to him looking surprised.

He just looked at me.

"Ah, come on! seriously? Have you even hide that from me? What kind of father are you?" I gasped, exaggerating.

He smiled and went to the piano. He sat down on the chair in front and just looked at the big, majestic instrument. I went to join him.

Oh, so it plays itself ? I thought. He's shoulders moved lightly, like if he was laughing.

His fingers started to dance along the keys and made a magical sound. My dads fingers looked like an ice-skater on ice. Calm, soft and completely aware of what they were doing.

The melody was calm and soft. They where connecting on an surreal way. I closed my eyes and felt the melody. I felt the beauty of the high tones, and the depth of the lower. Together they connected in such way that made my fast beating heart slow down its tempo. I suddenly realized that it sounded like a lullaby.

"It is" my dad responded to my thought. "It's a lullaby. Your lullaby"

I freeze with a breath in my nose. My dad kept playing my lullaby and I felt tears roll down my cheek. I suddenly felt the love that I once felt he had felt for me. Well, the love that I thought he didn't have. The one that he had assumed he had when taking me away from Jake, the one I didn't believe in. It was still there, in that lullaby, in that beautiful melody that was created by my dad. It was there.

"it has always been there" he said now looking at me while the melody kept playing "And it always will"

"I'm so sorry" I said in a sob "Sorry for not believing in you, for not trust you" I took a breath "I love you dad"

The melody slide to a slow end and the last key was touched. I let myself into my dad's embrace. He's soft, welcoming embrace. My tears kept rolling and I didn't let go of him for long time. His lips kissed the crown of my head and I let his slow and even breaths cradle me to sleep.

I woke up in a bright room. I hide my eyes under my arms. I reacted at my to short pj sleeve. It fitted perfectly yesterday, what had happened? I rose up and heard fabric been ripped of. The thigh of my pant had ripped. I looked at the legs. They where 4 inches to short. I felt dizzy. When my head had stopped to spin did I see where I where. I was in a big spacey room with bright curtains. The walls where painted bright pink and had a flower pattern following the walls. I felt disoriented and left the room. I came to a hallway. It had two doors besides me and another one in front. A big window covered the entire wall on the right side of the hallway. I walked to the left side. The walls were filled with photos of me, my dad and mom. I rounded the corner and came to the living room. Now I was sure that I weren't in the same house that I had fallen asleep in.

"Ness!" mom called at me, she was sitting in the kitchen. I hadn't seen her because it was in another room. She had heard me.

"Good morning swee…" mom stopped in the middle of the sentence. Both mom and dad where looking at me. And I knew what they where looking at.

"Auntie Alice should have a better eye on the dates to her predictions" I said and took a seat. I heard more fabric rip.

When I had got new clothes we left to the main house again. I had now found out that we had an own house here and that uncle Em and Rose where looking for one of there own.

"Finally our own privacy" Emmet said giving Rosalie an intense kiss.

"Oh C'mon!" my dad said looking disgusted. I followed the stream and put my fingers in my mouth and pretended to make myself through up.

Emmett grinned at me and kissed Rosalie even more intense.

"oh, God! I'm out of here. I've been traumatized for life" I said leaving my parents in the couch and pulling my tongue out to Emmet.

I sat on the porch looking out to the forest. It was starting to become greener now, it was April after all.

I heard an engine, an old one, approach. I stood up to see who it was.

An old car showed up and I immediately recognized the person in the car.

"Jake!" I screamed and ran in less than a second towards him. He met me with his hands open and gave me a hug. I know reached his neck without any problem.

"You're taller" he said surprised

"Yup, I woke up this morning and my PJ's where all to small for me." I said pround.

"But still aren't taller than me" he said patting my head.

"it's okay. I like it this way" I said and hugged him once again.

"Me too. Eh… are you into something right now?" he asked looking at the house and so did I. my dad was standing by the window.

I let go of Jake.

Please I said to my dad in my thoughts.

He sighed and nodded once.

"No… lets go!" I took his hands in mine again and went with him to the car.

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