The pain of it is, after saying he'd be 5 minutes, he's been gone 3 months. The pain of it is, he didnt know I was pregnant, then again at the time I didnt either. The pain of it is, he didnt know I loved him just as much as he loved me.

The pain of it is - Jack wasnt there when I needed him most.

We were all sat at our desks, apart from Ianto who was sitting on the sofa with Maxwell on his lap and Tyler asleep. They were growing up so quickly and Jack wasnt here to see it. Nothing much was happening lately, especially since Jack had gone, so we were all spinning on our office chairs as Owen and Tosh were discussing the view from their new flat. They had become a proper couple since everything had happened but decided to move in as soon as possible, everyone around me was happy, but here I was, pregnant as Jack was flying round the universe not knowing what was going on. What had I done to deserve this? The computers started to bleep as we all span round on our chairs, typing away on our computers.

"Tosh?"

"Were getting a massive rift energy reading from... Right above us? A whole ship. Oh my god it must be..."

"Jack." Me and Martha interupted, Martha grinning, but my face dropped. Everyone looked at me, it was my decision what was gonna happen.

I turned to the coat hook and took a massive cardigan and wrapped it round me, covering the small bump I already had. It was up to me if he knew yet or not.

"I cant tell him now! It'll be all 'Oh hi Jack how was it flying round the whole galaxy with no responsibilities or anything? By the way I'm pregnant' I cant do that can I?"

Ianto put Maxwell into his carrier and we all headed to the lift, managing to squeeze on, arriving on the water tower. The TARDIS materialized and everyone except from me got off, Jack ran out giving everyone hugs, even the babies, and The Doctor came out to say hello to Martha.

"Where's Gwen?" Jack asked. Everyone started looking around not looking Jack in the eye apart from Martha.

"Now Jack you need to be calm..." Martha started.

"Is she ok? Whats happened?" Said Jack freaking out.

I undid my cardigan so my bump was shown and stood off the lift, looking at Jack. He was staring into Martha's eyes before he caught me in his gaze, he turned to look at me. I was standing holding my bump. He stood there for a good 30 seconds.

"I'm sorry." I mouthed to him before stepping back onto the lift taking me back down into the hub, tears streaming down my face. As soon as the lift stopped I ran to Jack's room, picked up my bag and packed everything of mine I could see as quick as I could, picking up my gun and the Torchwood contact lenses, putting them into my eyes. I ran for the door as everyone walked in.

"Gwen listen-" He looked down and noticed me bag and gun. "Um, where are you going?" I turned and ran, Jack grabbed my arm but I pulled free, jumping onto the lift, by the time they had all got over to the lift, they couldnt stop it.

"Gwen please dont do this, I love you! Its a baby!"

"Jack what if it's Rhys'?"

Everyone's faces dropped, I dont think anyone had thought of that. The lift dissapeared, and I got off, running across the bay, I managed to get into town before nearly passing out of exhaustion. I ran into the nearest public toilets and looked into the mirror, sticking my bag on the side.

"Hello?" I whispered. "Martha? Tosh?... Jack?"

Its Martha. Where the hell are you Gwen? Jack's going frantic, the boys are running round like headless chickens looking for you whilst me and Tosh watch the twins and try and track you down. Its stupid how many CCTV tapes Tosh has looked through.

"I'm sorry, its obvious he doesnt want this baby, especially if it IS Rhys', the dates are only a few weeks difference, so I cant tell. He told me he loved me, and I love him too, but when he left again it was clear he really didnt love me at all. So this is why I have to do this..." I held up a tiny white pill in my hand.

DONT GWEN DONT! Retcon could effect the baby.

I half smiled and put the retcon down the sink. There was crashing as Owen, Ianto and Jack came running in.

"Gwen love, if you plan on going awol again, warn us first?" Said Owen leaning against a cubicle next to Ianto.

"Please Gwen, lets just talk."

"I love you Jack." I whispered before trying to make a run for it.

I woke up in Jack's bed. I didnt need to freak out or wonder what was going on. I got up and stormed to the top of the stairs of the hub. They were all sitting around doing nothing, but they hadn't noticed me.

"OI! Now listen you lot! If a girl decides to go off on a runner, its VERY rude to go and stop her ok?"

"Your so Welsh." Jack mumbled.

"And you can shutup too Harkness!"

He walked up to me. "Come here you." He hugged my waist. "Why did you try and run away?"

"You dont love me, because you wouldn't have left me. And you certainly won't want a baby around. I've done something so stupid, I'm not even divorced yet, and I'm pregnant by my psycho husband or someone who doesn't even love me!" I cried.

"Gwen Cooper. I love you so much, I left because I didnt think that you loved me!" He placed his hand on my stoumach. "Even if this baby isnt mine, I want to raise it with you. I love you Gwen. Marry me?"

I loved this man so much, I could be carrying his baby.

"No Jack."

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