I was ready to begin my operation to give Phillip my kidney. Hopefully, we would both survive. I wasn't about to lose my only brother. From eating worms as babies to him getting protective over me to my boyfriends, we had been through a lot. Too much to just let it all end. What kind of sister lets her brother die?

I was on the way to the hospital with my mom to begin my operation. I was ready to live a life of one kidney, as long as my brother was there to do it with me...

"Lil... I just don't want to lose you. I don't want to lose Philly either, you know that. But what if this doesn't work? I don't wanna lose both of you. I couldn't go on without my kids... Please, Lil. Just don't do it." My mom said to me. I had to take the risk. I ignored her.

We walked through the doors of the hospital. We got in, and told why we were there. Before I went in for Pre-Op, I wanted to see Phil. So, they allowed it.

In Phil's room was Tommy and Kimi, holding hands. That was both a little surprise yet no shock at all. I predicted that years ago, it was only a matter of time.

"Hey, Lil..." Phil said. He was yellow skin'd and his eye were red and blotchy. He was much worse.

"Lil...I'm telling you, you can't do this. It's inevitable now, I'm done. I made a stupid mistake. It's karma for being an idiot after all of these years. Years of thinking I had... invincibility. I thought I was untouchable. So, I just kept drinking. And kept drinking. And kept drinking. The whole time, I was thinking to myself 'I'm just having fun with my friends. It's only a couple of beers.' Soon, 'a couple of beers' turned into about 20. Then 30. Then, we would break out what we called 'The Good Stuff.' Rum, vodka, tequila, JD, anything for a little extra fun. All of this time, all I could think was 'I'll be fine.' That is, before I got so waisted that I couldn't even think anymore. Then, the other night, after about 32 beers, 12 shots of tequila, 8 shots of Vodka, and about 10 glasses of rum, Coke, and JD mix, I fell over. I don't even remember that last 4 hours of that night. I just remember waking up here. The doctors kept saying the alcohol in my system is obliterating my kidneys and liver. Even if your transplant works, my failing liver will still kill me, Lillian... Don't waist your time... Just... Don't."

I looked over to Kimi and Tommy. I was crying at this point, and so was Kimi. Tommy was holding her while she did. I just began to bawl and hugged Phil's neck.

"PHIL! I CAN'T GO ON WITHOUT MY ONLY BROTHER! WHO THE HELL WHEN ANOTHER DAMN BOY BREAKS MY HEART?! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PLAN MOTHER'S FATHER's DAY?!" I pulled back and dried my tears. "Last of all... What am I supposed to tell my children? That their uncle drank himself to death?"

"Unless you want to lie... I love you... I love all of you..." Phil said. Chuckie walked in with Angelica and Dil. "What's going on?" Dil said. "My last words..." Phil said. We all started to cry.

"I should have been thinking about you guys when I was drinking. And when I was sitting on my ass instead of doing something with my life. All I wanted to do was drink, party, have sex... I probably have three children by now. All I can hope for in these last moments, is that you guys, and God, will forgive me for this life I have lived. 26 short years, it was..." Phil said, beginning to close his eyes.

"I am coming... I'll see you all again later... I hope... You have been the best group of friends that a guy could ask for... And the best sister on planet earth. Tommy, Kimi... I wish you the best. I knew all this time what you two would happen soon. Chuckie, man, you keep teaching those bitches some English man, I know you're doing a good job. Dil, you have always been strange, but that's what I always liked about you... Keep it up. Angelica...I know you love us all. The past you've had gave you a rough image, but, underneath it all, I know you have a big heart that you loved all of us with." Phil closed his eyes. We all began to sob.

"I am coming... I am coming... I am coming..." After that, flatline. My only brother was dead... I couldn't believe my eyes, his empty vessel before me and us. We all began to sob, loudly. At this point, there was nothing but sadness. All around us, all in the building, all in our hearts. It was going to take a while to get of this one...