A short and a bit dramatic chapter... perfect for a Monday afternoon...

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I watched the clock that was hanging in the living room. It was pretty early and my parent wouldn't come home until later, maybe they wouldn't come at all tonight, who knows. With dad acting all weird didn't I know what to expect.

I did the dishes and went to my room. I took a book and started to read. It was a Jane Austen. I knew I had read it before, but somehow I couldn't focus on the story. I though I maybe was reading it in Chinese.

I looked at the clock again. It had been 30 minutes since Jake had left. I became anxious and couldn't lie down. I went to my window and looked out at the dark forest. A dark forest that could hide any type of evil. I immediately turned around, away from the window. How could they do this? The wives of the imprinted? Where they calm or where they as worried as I was?

I couldn't just sit there. I needed to distract me. I went to my huge wardrobe ad started to look through it. I checked behind every door, inside every drawer and counters. I counted all the dresses, blouses, pants, jerseys, shoes, skirts and all of the clothing in there. I started to see which shoes went with which bags and whish necklaces matched with which earrings. I did everything to distract my mind, but it was impossible. I gave up, grabbed a jacket and went out. I ran to the main house. The lamps on the porch were on, but those where the only one.

I entered the house and it was empty.

"Anybody home?" I asked

"In my room" Rosalie answered me. I went up.

Rosalie was on the balcony of here room. The room was big but dark. It was only lit up by a little night table light. I hadn't seen the light because her room had the view to the back side of the house.

"Hey sweetie!" she said smiling. I just waved to respond. Not sure of what to think. She had been really pissed of yesterday when I was with Jake, but now was she the same auntie as ever. She maybe was PMS-ing, but it was impossible.

"What's wrong?" she asked me, his voice filled with mothering concern.

"Nothing… just worried"

"About what?"

"Jake… he left for some wolf duty thing." I said looking at the view, avoiding her look of anger.

"Ness, why are you so tight with that…" she begun.

"You know why" I said, my vice firm "and he's not a 'that', he's Jake, or Jacob"

"So you're going to be with him for some wolf-mate thing?" she said annoyed.

"You know that it's much stronger than just a thing, Rose. This is serious."

"Yeah, but you? Are you happy? Do you have a choice?" she said and I didn't get it. What was she trying to do?

"Yes, I have a choice, of course I have! And I've chosen. I've chosen to be with Jake, it feels right. I feel right, I feel happy."

"But what if you could be happy with someone else?" I started to get what she was after.

"Are you trying to say that I can be happy without the only one who really loves me?" I said, a bit angered now.

"You're just seven! And you'll live forever. You might find someone better"

I couldn't believe it!

"What? Are you my mother? Because as far as I know my mom and dad are totally okay with this. And aren't they the only ones who can say that to me?"

She didn't say more. She was stunned, wordless. I saw pain growing in her eyes, some worthless efforts to produce tears which she would never cry.

"You're right, I'm not your mother. But I love you like my child. I see you as my daughter, the one I've desire and will desire for all eternity. And I wont let you make a mistake… specially not with that!"

I begun to lose my patience with her.

"But I'm not your daughter, you can't decide for me. The only one who have something to say here are my parents, and even if they said that they wouldn't let me be with him, I would." I said, trying to sound calm with that little amount of patience that was left in me.

"The I would go and look for you. Ness I don't want you to be with him"

"If I'm with Jake or not is not of your damn business!"

"But I won't let you make that wrong step. I don't want you to suffer"

"No you don't want me to be with Jake, you said it yourself!"

She looked at me with a look that could kill, but she tried not to snap.

"No I don't." I took a deep breath.

"Why?"

"Because… because…"

"You don't even know why, don't you?" I shook my head. "I might be seven, but I'm as grown up as my speeded up growth. I'm 17... And I'll go out with Jake. He'll come over to dinner, he'll take me out to a movie. He'll bring me flowers, we will kiss each other in the porch, we'll walk hand in hand. He might follow us wherever we move, I might stay with him. We might get married. And if you want to be a part of my life, you'll have to deal with it. Because he has become my life."

The silence remained. She didn't protest, but didn't agreed either. I knew she had a strong mind. I knew this might be the last time we'll ever talk. But it was her decision.

I turned around and left. She stopped me.

"Ness" she said lightly, her voice thick, like if she crying, but she wasn't. She couldn't. "Will you ever change your mind?"

"Never" I answered looking out at the black hallway.

She didn't say more, I took it as a goodbye and left the room. When I came out did I start to run, let myself be surrounded by the darkness. Let my tears out, because I could cry.

I entered the house, went to the bathroom and washed my face. My tears mixing up with the water. I couldn't contain them. Rosalie was, is a part of my entire life, she's my auntie. Only that my auntie had become selfish. Had chosen not to be a part of my life, a decision I couldn't do anything about.

I went to bed and kept crying. But I was crying for two. Crying for myself, crying for her to. I missed Jakes embrace, missed his arms around me, the warmth of his breaths to my head. I wrapped my arms around myself and felt how something slowly ripped me, how something disappeared from me, faded away. I felt how the tears stopped, how my breathing calmed down. My eyelids became heavier and I was submerged into black and dreamless sleep.

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