Chapter 13

Madison was feeling good, The Center was practically empty with most of the hunters heading out on hunts Gus had sent them on which left her with a few days of uninterrupted time with Jason. Ever since him and Gus had found out about Tiny almost 2 months ago they had been spending any free time they had together, they spent their days working out or training some of the younger hunters, as much as Madison resisted it she liked working with the more serious hunters who wouldn't shoot her a side eye glance when she walked in, they were just eager to learn as much as they could and that was something Madison admired. She was a little nervous when she got a group of four hunters, 3 boys 1 girl, but she learned that they were quick learners who listened to her and never complained. She had gone out with them on their first official hunt going after a vamp in the small town of Blue Ridge, there were some hiccups but they had came out on top and returned to The Center safe, picking up some cases for Gus after and now she sat her in the empty Gym a couple hours after sending them off on their first hunt without her and she was confident they would be fine but it still worried her that if something happened their blood would be on her hands.

Gus had been helping her grieve her father since she had never gotten to in the proper sense, she was able to talk about him more and more but they had yet to discuss the day he died but he had asked her to prepare for that conversation and she was starting to panic a little being that it was almost 2 weeks ago since their last session and she had a feeling it was coming, things had been going to good for her. Finishing up her workout she walked back to the room and smiled seeing Jason sleeping under the covers she was tempted to join him but she knew she had to check on Tiny and make sure he got back from 'eating' last night, she quickly took a shower throwing on her clothes and boots and walked out of the room but not before sneaking another look at Jason and smiling to herself.

"Hey Baby, let me look at you" Walking into the room Madison gave Tiny the once over, she was very protective of her hound even though she knew not many people or things could hurt him. She ran her hand over his head and he responded by letting out a low growl and leaning into her side.

"Knock Knock" Madison glanced up at Gus and smiled.

"Hey"

"I assumed you would be here"

"You know I had to check on my Tiny"

"Yes, did he have a successful hunt? Is that what we are calling them?"

"Well I tell him to go eat but it's the same thing but yea he's ok"

"Good, I was wondering if you would like to continue our sessions?" Madison let out a breath and dropped her head.

"Today?"

"Now if you'd like" Madison patted Tiny on the head and stood up.

"Let's get this over with" Gus followed Madison out of the room and walked behind her, he noticed how slow she was taking it, this was going to prove to be one of the most emotional sessions to date and they were both worried about the aftermath. They walked into the empty sick room they had started using and took their usual spots, sitting across from each other.

"Have you prepared yourself for this?"

"I've done everything I could to get ready"

"Good, now the day Bobby died lets go back to that day, tell me how it happened, how you felt, the moment you found out he had passed, tell me as much as you can and we can work on accepting it happened and that it was NOT your fault" Madison nodded but kept her head down, just Gus mentioning that day already had her emotions running high, she sat there for a couple minutes playing with her ring.

"Madison take your time" She took a deep breath and tried to compose herself, she found herself stuck as to what to say, she could remember the day she lost her father like it happened five minutes ago, she finally steadied her breathing and looked at Gus.

"Just tell me what happened"

"Ok-" Madison closed her eyes and started reliving the day everything changed for her.

Madison sat next to her fathers bedside gripping his hand she cursed herself for not being strong enough to heal him completely, getting the bullet out was the most that her powers were able to do for her father. She hated seeing him like this he looked so pale and weak, she had never seen him like this but she knew he would pull through, knew that he was too important to this world to leave now. She hadn't left the room since they brought him here, she had walked around the room to stretch her legs when they started to fall asleep but she always kept him in her eyesight for when he woke up she wanted to be there, she needed to be there to assure him that he's going to be fine. Sam and Dean had been watching her with weary eyes like she was going to break at some point but she knew he was going to be fine despite what the doctors had been saying.

"Do you want to go get some food with us?" She shook her head not even bothering to look away from her Dad. She felt a hand land on her shoulder gently.

"Maddie you haven't had anything all day you need to eat something"

"I'm fine Dean"

"Maddie-"

She shot out of her chair knocking Deans hand off her shoulder. "Damn it Dean I'm fine would you stop treating me like a child, I have to be here for him don't you get that" She turned away from them with tears in her eyes, running her hands over her face not letting the tears fall.

"Hey, I get it OK, we get it we're just worried about you too"

"Well stop I'm fine...just go please give me a minute with him"

"Ok but I'm going to bring you a sandwich or something" She nodded her head and waited for them to leave before she turned back around and sat back down she grabbed his hand and scooted her chair closer to his bed.

"I know you're gunna to be fine but you're starting to scare me I need you to wake up you just..."She took a deep breath in before continuing." You cant die, your not allowed to die, your my dad, I cant, I cant do this without you, I need you, I'm not going to lose you I know I'm not but I just need you to come back to me Daddy, please you have to come back to me" She laid her head on his hand she was holding and cried whispering to him. She didn't stop until she heard the curtain being pushed aside and the boys walk in, She straightened up in her chair and looked at them, they were frozen by the sight of her waiting to see what she would do .

"Do you want us to leave?" Sam asked gesturing to the curtain, She shook her head no and got out of the chair walking over to them.

"I think I'm gunna go get some coffee"

"You want me to come I could use some too?" Sam put the sandwiches down offering to go with her.

"No, you guys stay here I need some air" She walked around Dean pausing as she pulled back the curtain and glancing back at her father and the boys." He's going to be fine he knows he can't leave me" She walked out of the room and found the EXIT, stepping outside she took a deep breath in and sat on the curb, she knew she wasn't willing to admit he wouldn't be ok he was her father the great Bobby Singer, her hero, there was no way in hell he would die like this not today. She let out a laugh and she shook her head. "Of course he's going to be fine why wouldn't he be" She said to herself standing up and walking back into the building she found the bathroom and peed the quickest she ever peed and she got herself a bottle of water and started walking to where her dad was, when she rounded the corner she froze she saw Dean and Sam not in the room but right in front of her and doctors were with her father rushing around him, swarming like bees, she never felt her feet move but she was flying towards the room trying to find out what happened when she felt arms grab her, she knew the boys were trying to stop her from going in there, she didn't care she just knew she had to. She fought against their arms as hard as she could she heard one of them say "He's gone Maddie" she shook her head and fought even harder she had to see him. Everything around her got quiet and stopped when she saw them place the blanket over his face. She felt herself fall but she didn't get far because of the arms holding her all she could do was sob and mutter "No" over and over again she couldn't believe it, she wouldn't believe it. She heard someone whisper that everything was going to be ok she recognized the voice as Sam's.

"Come on Maddie we should go" she shook her head against his chest grabbing at his shirt.

"I have to see him Sam please I need to see him"

"Maddie I don't think that's a good-"

"I didn't get to say goodbye Sam, I left and he-" she wouldn't let herself finish her sentence. Sam didn't know what else to say he just held her, he knew what she was going through but being on the outside looking in he didn't know what to do.

"Maddie come on we'll give him a hunters burial ok ,we'll say goodbye the right way I promise" She felt herself being lifted up to her feet, her legs felt like they were broke, she had a sharp pain in her chest, her whole body ached, if Sam wasn't helping her she would've never made it to the doors. Stepping outside she saw Dean turn to them as a black limo drove off, Sam had let go of her as she leaned against the wall she saw him go over to Dean and say something and take the keys from him. She felt the tears roll down her face even though she wasn't aware that she was still crying, she saw Dean walking over to her and she pushed herself off the wall to meet him halfway but as soon as her back left the wall her legs gave out and she was falling, she felt herself hit the floor and the pain in her chest got worse and she started sobbing. She felt arms around her and saw legs come down next to her and she turned pulling Dean as close as she could burying her face into his neck feeling alone, weak and hopeless knowing that there was nothing she could do to change it. He was gone.

Madison sat back in her chair wiping tears from her eyes and taking a deep breath before opening her eyes and looking at Gus "That's it, I can't anymore" Gus nodded and stood.

"You did enough, with time you will see there are some things you have no control over but it doesn't mean it was your fault, all you can control is how these things affect you"

"Yea"

"Take all the time you need to grieve, it's healthy for you and you don't have to be alone in this you have me and Jason"

"I just need a minute"

Gus nodded and left the room, she dropped her head into her hands and tried to keep the tears at bay but closing her eyes all she saw was her father in that bed and her emotions racked her and she sat in that room and sobbed for the father she had lost.