First of all: THIS IS ONE HECK OF A LONG CHAPTER, I KNOW, SORRY! But i just could't find a good end and kept this is juast in case i don't have time 2 update 2morrow, have a little much to do in school with final exams and stuff... so here you have chapter 16 of When Eternity Isn't Enough (WEIE:P)

Sightseeing

I didn't want to wake up, neither did I want to sleep. I felt unsure, didn't know what I wanted to do. I felt like screaming or crying. Or both. It was probably late night, around 3 am. I heard noise in one of the rooms. My parents were home. But it was to quiet for being the television. With my eyes closed did I focus on the sounds of their breaths which calmed me. But there was another sound, a squeak. Mattress feathers. But it was a very light and quiet sound. Then I heard a change in their breaths, then a sigh of relief…

"Holly crow!" I whispered to myself and flew out of the bed. I held my hands for my ears and started to sing for myself. Trying to erase the sound I just heard. I felt sick. Disgusting. Oh, God… I took deep breaths.

In…

Out…

In…

Out…

I couldn't… I shouldn't… oh…. What was I supposed to do now? They probably hadn't noticed that I had woke up, which was good. But still… Gosh! I took my shoes and a blanket and went out. It was cold. And dark. The sun wouldn't rise for another hour or so and I had been- unconsciously- restrained the entrance to my house. I shivered. Not from the cold, but of discomfort. So what now? I ran up to a tree and sat on a branch high up, watching the forest that surrounded the city of Forks. I realized that I had been here for almost three days without seeing anything besides grandpa Charlie's house, the reservation, La Push and some miles of driveway. I decide to go and explore Forks.

I quietly entered the room and putted the blanket on the bed. I put on some sweatpants over my pj shorts and a blazer to put over. I took my cell phone with me. Just in case. I stopped by the window to hear if they had notice my movements, but I regretted that immediately. I went out and clossed the window carefully.

I ran up to the tree to see where I where. At east was the main house and west the beach. South I had forest, to the north I had… Canada. I saw far away the light of the driveway and decided to run that way. I ran and ran, mile after mile. I came to a sign that said "The city of Forks welcomes you" and kept running, but in the deep forest. There was one car on the drive way and I followed it. I followed the car through South Forks avenue, the main way of this tiny city. After some miles was the forest replaced by an inn, then more and more shops. I saw signs and traffic lights. I slowed down my tempo to jogging. If someone asked. But then, who would be jogging at 3 am? When I came to the first traffic light did I turn right. I came to a school, Forks elementary school. It wasn't that big. I kept jogging and came back to the main road that went through the entire city. I saw dinners, cafés, a tiny book store, but I didn't see the high school. After about twenty minutes did I came to a neighborhood. There weren't many houses, and they where far away from each other, giving them a pretty huge garden. All the houses were painted in light colors, maybe to make it more light, but in this city wouldn't a orange house light things up. I could literally feel the fog.

I stopped in front of a familiar house.

Swan said the mailbox. I walked to the driveway to the little porch. I saw light coming out of the window. I carefully peeked in and saw that my grandpa had fallen asleep while watching the TV. I looked at him for a long time. Then I remembered what my dad had told me. I went to the side of the house and saw a tree. A floor above was a window, mom's window. I climbed up the tree and touched the window. It was open. I carefully opened and climbed in not making a sound that would wake my grandpa up. The first thing that hit me was a smell. A sweet, rose scent that filled the room. I went to the bed that had a purple bedspreads. I went to them and touched them. They where cold. I realized that nothing had changed since mom had married. I looked down to the floor and saw something. I bended down and saw that it was a photo. In the photo was my dad and… mom? I couldn't breathe. For the first time, I saw mom as a human. She was standing next to dad with a green short dress. She looked amazing. Her entire body revealed shyness and awkwardness, still she was beautiful. Her eyes where just like mine, chocolate brown and big. She looked so soft and delicate, her skin was pale and almost transparent. Hadn't I seen the eyes I would've thought she was a vampire in this picture. I took the photo and putted it in my pocket. I went out the room into a little hallway. I went down the stairs really quietly so that they wouldn't make noise. I went to the living room and watched my grandpa sleep. His chest raised and sunk back with every breath he took. He looked so peaceful.

I looked for the remote and turned the TV of. I watched him sleep for some more time.

I looked at the digital watch. 04:45. I was shocked. How long had I been here? I ran quietly to the bedroom and down the window into the deep forest. I ran and ran until I felt the smell of my family. I was heading to the main house once again.

Some miles before I came to the main house was I stopped by a smell. A strong and piercing smell. I felt breathless. I looked around but there was no one there. I kept running.

When I came to the main house was I welcomed by a sight that almost made me scream.

My family was standing in front of the house, looking at wall of six feet big wolves. No one had seen me stop and I laid back. I saw that Carlisle and my dad where in front of the others, I guessed they where trying to communicate. When I saw that they were totally calm and no one was in a hunting position did I come forward. Alice was the first one to notice and gasped slightly. But I saw how the wolves reacted. They turned around fast and where all looking at me with fierce eyes. I jumped back a feet, preparing myself to flee.´

"Renesmee?" my dad said . One of the wolves looked at me and did a shouting sound. The rest of them did immediately back out. I just looked between my dad and the huge wolves. Feeling terrified.

"What are you doing here?" he asked.

"I.. I… just… I couldn't sleep so I went out for a exploring trip." I answered. Lying

"Where did you go?"

"Hmm… I don't know… around. I ran through the forest, the highway, into the city…"

I saw how he relaxed and turned to the wolves.

"Seems like it was a false alarm" he said looking at the biggest wolves, a black one.

I was surprised. I had never seen this big wolves before, yet I felt they where familiar. A thought hit me and I turned to look at dad who nodded in response.

"Sorry, you guys!" I said when I understood that they where the guys that had been in Jake's house the first time I was there, but which one has which one didn't I know. I could only guess one, the big black one, Sam. I didn't know who Jake was of them, but I knew he was here, my nose had just caught his smell.

I looked around and saw that one of the wolves was pulling out his tongue and closing his eyes.

"I see you Paul" I said looking at him. I heard something that sounded like a laugh come out of Paul.

"Thank you for coming anyways to warn us, Sam. Sorry for the misunderstanding" my grandpa apologized.

Sam nodded and turned around, and so did the rest. But one wolf remained. He had a wonderful brown fur and when I looked into his eyes did I recognize him at once. I went to him.

Hey Jake I said running my fingers through his fur. He laid his head on my arm and I kept my fingers in his fur. Tell the rest that I'm really sorry for causing you guys this trouble. He looked at me like to say 'it's okay, no trouble'. Can you come over later, like as soon as you're done with your shift? I asked him. He nodded and I let go my hand. He ran of to catch the rest. I looked at him.

"Renesmee?" my dad said from behind.

"I'm gonna tell you why I went out, but lets take it home, please?" I said and he nodded. We ran away.

We sat on the kitchen table, there was no idea of going to bed again, the sun had begun to rose, but it was to early for breakfast.

"Why did you left in the middle of the night, hon?" mom asked. I stared at my hands on the table. Feeling awkward.

"You can tell us"

"No, I can't" I said, avoiding their eyes. I slipped to the sound that had started everything, the squeaking sound of the mattress feathers. My dad froze and stared at me.

"Renesmee…! We didn't know you where…"

"Stop, stop… right there!" I said interrupting him " I'm actually trying to convince myself that when I sleep you live out your childhood and jump in the bed and laugh, ok? And it's actually a really good explanation so… let's keep it there… please!"

He nodded, obviously embarrassed.

"Changing subject…" he started

Please, do! I though

"What happened between you and Rose today?" he said. I froze. I was caught in bed. Shoot! Not the most appropriate expression…Oh, gosh…

"Renesmee!"

"Sorry"

"So what happened?" he asked calmly.

"You already know."

"But was it as bad as never talk to her again?" he asked, obviously misunderstanding everything.

"She had an option, she decided that, not me."

He sighed.

"You know she's devastated" he said

"Me too. But I can't do anything about it. It was her choice." I said feeling the tears coming out again.

I rose up and went to the bathroom and cried once again.

After a while in the bathroom did someone knock on the door.

"Nessie?" Jake said with a soft voice.

I had been leaning against the door for more than 30 minuets, so I rose up on sleepy and stiff legs.

I unlocked the door and sat on the edge of the bathtub. Jake came in and closed the door halfway, you could still se out. He didn't say anything, he just walked to me and hugged me. He sat next to me on the edge of the bathtub and I sobbed in his embrace. I let everything go out, didn't keep anything in. I had went to sleep whishing he was hugging me, now he was. He caressed my back and kissed my head. He mumbled words of consolation without knowing what his consolation was for.

After another half hour of crying did my sobs become lighter.

Will you tell me what happened? he asked

I had an argue with Rosalie…

About'?

She's mad because I'm with you. She doesn't want that.

And that's why she's pissed and don't talk to you?

Not exactly. I started I told her that if she wanted to be a part of my life she'd have to deal with us being together. You're my life now, Jake.

But she didn't like the idea, did she? he asked. I didn't answer him. Of course not. he said after a long break. She doesn't like me.

She's being childish. I replied. She doesn't know you. You're wonderful.

You're that too, that and so much more, and I don't want you to cry, I don't like to see you like that. he said.

I took a deep breathand his arms let go of me. He took my hand instead.

"No more tears, okay?" he said. I nodded. "You want some breakfast?"

I nodded again. We stood up and went to the kitchen. I passed a mirror in the hallway and saw my reflection.

"Holy crow!" I gasped looking at my dirty cloths, muddy sneakers and messed up hair. "Just a second" I said to Jake and I ran to my bedroom and took of the sweatpants and sneakers and threw them in the laundry pile, or the recycle bin. I kept my shorts on and took and oversized sweater and some slippers. I looked for a hairbrush and braided my hair into one long braid that I putted to the side. I went to the bathroom and washed my face and brushed my teeth before I felt I looked decent enough to enter the kitchen and been seen in public. That was what my aunties had thought me… The pain grew but I ignored it.

Jake was in the kitchen preparing something on the stove.

"What are we having for breakfast?" I asked him.

"Eh… I warn you that my coking skills aren't as good as Edwards" he said "But I'll try to make you some eggs" he said looking in the fridge.

"It's okay. I can eat cereals with milk" I said trying to prevent a disaster from happening. I came from behind him and dived under his arms and grabbed the milk. I heard how he closed the door of the fridge and opened another door.

"You want cornflakes or the chocolate ones"

"The chocolate ones" I said with a baby voice.

"Do you still eat this?" he said taking out a bowl from one of the counters above the sink.

"I'm seven… I like eating chocolate and sweets twenty-four seven! And I'm a teenage girl, I stuff my face with chocolate when I'm sad"

"Tell me about it! Rache actually hit me hit a casserole when I didn't gave a chocolate bar…"

"Ouch" I said, imagine the pain.

He gave me the bowl and the cereals and I started to prepare my breakfast. Then he putted his arms around my waits, connecting with me, following my every move. Now and then did he kiss my head and I got goose bumps. The though of having him here with me made me feel like I the moon.

I dropped everything I was doing and turned around. I looked him in the eyes and he smiled. His smile sent a electricity shock through me and I putted my hands around his neck I felt how his hands locked around my waist. I stood on my toes to reach him better. He bended down.

Our lips moved together in perfect harmony, like they belonged together. The soft movements of my lisp against his almost made me lose my balance. He felt that I almost fell and he grabbed my waist and lifted me up. He putted me on the table. Now that I was sitting was it easier for me to grab him and I could pull him closer. It became also easier to kiss him. The kisses grew in intensity and became more wild in some way. Even though we where close didn't it feel close enough, I wanted him closer. I locked one leg around him and pulled him in. he responded by grabbing my leg and hugging it and walking forward and with his free hand was he pushing my back forward to him. My hands slid up and down his neck, grabbed his hair and let it go. Our kisses kept growing and our breathings became heavier. I sighed loudly and so did he. His arms where tight against my back and leg. I pulled back my head and took a deep breath. I found his lips again and kiss him with such intensity that I though I would explode.

Ness, he tough between sighs in his head. He said my name over and over. I said his name over and over.

I pulled him forward and I went back to lay on the table. He followed me.

I hit something and it fell. I heard dripping of liquid to the floor and I looked up.

SHOOT!

I lingered out of Jake's grip and took up the milk bottle from the floor, Jake was already behind me with something to clean up the mess of the floor.

When I was done did I start to laugh and so did he.

"It was a good thing that it fell" he suddenly said "I wasn't sure of what you where doing" he said. I blushed.

"Yeah, a became a bit eager" I confessed.

"A bit?" he said smiling.

"You know, if you don't want me to fly over you again will you either have to stop smiling or you'll have to put something over you face." He chuckled.

"What if you instead eat your breakfast?" he reached me the bowl of cereals.

I sat down and he took the seat in front of me. I started to eat.

"You scared the crap out of everybody yesterday with your sightseeing trip" he said

"Yeah sorry about that"

"It's okay" he said. "But next time you do that, make sure to tell me or anyone of your family, and don't go out in the middle of the night, ok?" "Yes sir"

He smiled and I looked down at my cereals and ate.

"What did you see yesterday anyway?"

"Nothing, really. I ran through the highway and the main road."

"So you didn't see anything at all"

"not really"

"Okay. Eat your breakfast and I'll take you out on a real sightseeing tour of Forks"

"Yay!" I said and shoved in the bowl of cereals and lifted him up and led him to the door.

"Eh.. Ness. I think you should change" he said and I looked down at my slippers.

"I'll be right back" I said giving him a quick kiss on my way to my room.

I took the first best thing I found and went to him.

"Lets go!" I said. When I passed through the kitchen did I see a piece of paper on the floor. I took it.

We went to Carlisle's, we left you some money in the jar above the stove.

Love: Mom & Dad

I took the same piece of paper and left them a note in the back.

Went out with Jake, don't know when we'll return, I have the phone with me. Thanks for the money!

XOXO Nessie

I went to the stove and took the money that was in the jar. Or, it wasn't money, it was my mom's American Express card.

"Now can we leave" I told Jake and took his hand.

I closed the door behind me. Leaving there all the sadness I had felt and left now for a happier today with my Jake.

Sorry again if it was to long, i hope it was worth reading!

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