3 weeks after Lil's attempted suicide. Lil had been put on a careful watch and nothing happened because everyone was in and out of the hospital watching her, so no big events for these 3 weeks.

A lot of stuff has been going on recently. I haven't been there for most of it, but I've heard about all of it. Tommy and Kimi being together, Phil's death, Lil's attempted suicide, Angelica pregnant with Phil's baby- really, a lot of shit was happening. Ever since Phil died, a lot of things have changed.

All I could think about was Lil. Man, I loved this girl so much. I have loved her since about half-way through college. She's so beautiful, sensitive, caring, considerate, sweet, gentle. She's just an amazing woman. I would give anything to have her.

I have also known that all of these years, Chuckie has also loved Lil. I don't know if HE knows that I love her too, but I just don't want that time to come. Chuckie is very protective over what he loves. Me and Chuckie are practically brothers, but he always said to me "I feel sorry for whatever woman ends up with you. You're pretty weird." He always said it in a joking manner, but he meant it. Did it bother me? No. Not at all. I knew I was weird. Was I to be mad at the truth? I still am a pretty weird little guy, but I can be normal when I have to be. Regardless, Chuckie would not want me messing with Lil, especially since he loves her, too. It would be awful if he found out that I loved Lil. He might even would get physical...

I decided to go check on Lil, who just got back home from the hospital, after 3 weeks. I knew Kimi, Tommy, Lil, Angelica, and probably all of our parents would be there. I was right. When I got there, my mom and dad were there, Betty and Howard were there, Kira and Chaz were there, and so were my friends. Lil was walking around with the rest of them, I guess she was feeling okay.

"Hey, Dil!" She said, giving me a hug. She always smells nice. Always. It never fails. Like a fruity-yet-vanilla scent. Always beautiful, too.

She gave me a friendly peck on the cheek. I was very happy with that. "How is your research going?" She asked me. "Pretty well, I may have discovered a planetary body. Wish me luck." The whole room was filled with excitement at that. I was very excited with it, myself. I could be famous for this.

I overheard Betty talking to my mom. "We're going to have to keep a constant watch on her, doctor's orders. She said she wouldn't do it again, but for about a week, we're gonna make sure. She was supposed to go home tomorrow, but she is going to stay with us for a few days." Betty said.

Shit. I had been so caught up in everything, I had completely forgot that we all had homes to go to.

"Yeah, I gotta head home in 2 days. Film crew and everybody back home doesn't wanna delay anything too much longer if we wanna get production moving." Tommy said. "And I gotta start packing my office up to go move with Tommy." Kimi said.

No one had any comment for Kimi's statement. ALL of us knew that they would be together before it was all over. ALL of us. Us, our parents, our neighbors, everybody who even knew the two of them, knew it. So, we barely gave it any mind.

"Yep, I gotta get back home to my students. I can't make my sub work too hard." Chuckie said.

"It's a shame you all have to go. I have missed my kids so much, I never realized how much I have missed you guys in these past few years. You guys need to visit more often." Chaz said. "I agree, Koibito. It's a shame that we've lost one of the group, but we can keep ourselves strong. We need to have the bond we once had..." Kira said. Patting me on the head, my dad said, "Yeah, I know I have sure have missed my boys. The house has been too quiet without them. It would be nice to see their faces on a day that isn't a holiday." "I agree, Stu. I love you all so much." My mother, Didi said. She reached over and gave Lil a peck on the cheek. "We're gonna get you through this, sweetie. I'm sorry your brother is gone. We all miss him. But, we need to be strong together. If you ever need anyone, sweetheart, I'm right here for you. I promise." Lil started to cry and gave my mom a hug.

"It's gonna be hard, not having Phil around. But, I know that he'll always be watching us. We'll get through it." Howard said.

Angelica decided to speak up. Uh-oh.

"I just wanted to say something. I can't be sorry enough for what I have done. I was a selfish bitch, as I always am. I helped myself instead of helping Phil. I have done you all wrong at some point, whether it be something big or small. Tommy. I have just been, in general, a bitch to you. I have treated you badly our whole lives. I never should have acted this way. I should've been better to my cousin. And you too, Dil. Chuckie, I'm sorry for everything I have done to you. In the 8th grade when I embarrassed you by pantsing you and... telling all those girls those things you said when you never said them... I wronged Phil by...well, you all know. And I wronged Lil the same way... I just hope... that you guys will forgive me. I don't deserve it, but I hope you will. I want to be surrounded by people I love whenever I bring Phil's baby into the world. I... I'm just... sorry..." The room was silent.

"It's ok, Angelica. Granted, you were selfish... but I'm sure Lil forgives you...right?" My dad said, and then looked at Lil.

Lil got up and left. She went to her parent's room and cried on her bed.

Angelica left the house because she knew in her heart that Lil hadn't forgiven her. There was nothing but total silence for the rest of the 30-or-so seconds until we decided to get up and eat.

Lil came in after about 20 minutes. You could tell she had been crying for quite a while. "What were you doing Lil?" Betty asked. We were all sitting at the table. Lil started to cry again, and pulled out a pregnancy test. It had a plus sign on it. We all dropped out silverware. It was about to get intense.

"I'm...I'm pregnant." Lil said, crying a little. I got up. "Who the... who the hell did it?!" I screamed.

Kimi and Tommy both looked at Chuckie. Chuckie dropped his silverware and looked at Lil. "Are...are you sure...?!" He asked. "Yes. I haven't had my period in 3 weeks, and these past few mornings, I have had morning sickness. The doctors helped me lay low on it and told me to test for pregnancy when I got back home... Well, I did. Here it is... a plus sign." She explained to us. "I am carrying the child of Chuckie Finster. I know this for sure, he was my first time."

I can't even tell you what a sad moment that was. Lil had sex with Chuckie. She must have loved him too.

"Although, I barely remember it, because at the time, I had just got through taking the Valium... I was high, and it was a mistake. Now, I have to pay for it for 9 months. Looks like mine and Angelica's baby will be the same age."

The room was in total silence. I could feel tears coming on from my end, so I got up and left. Chuckie did, too. I think he was sad because Lil just publicly announced that she had sex with him and called it a "mistake." That sure would hit me bellow the belt. I was just hit somewhere, though: my heart. It just took a pretty hard blow. I didn't even know happiness at this point: one of my bestfriends was dead, and I had probably just lost my one chance with the girl I loved. She wouldn't date me... she had sex with Chuckie and called it a mistake. I could rule out her coming anywhere near me in that department... I just sat in my car, and cried. I had been doing a lot of that recently.