Hello my dear followers! This two upcoming chapters are from Jakes POV! As the other ones they start where the last ´chapter ended so I hope you like them and that they aren't äs confussive as in my mind...

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Suffer

I felt something stung me in the chest. It wasn't pain, but it was something.

I opened my eyes and searched for my phone. The display showed 4am. Wolf hour. I putted the phone on charge, the battery was about to die. I'd been talking to Renesmee fore a long time. Then she fell asleep. I think she slept through the entire afternoon because she didn't call back. But I couldn't blame her. She was sick. Poor her.

The thought of her made me warm all over. Just the thought. I remembered her face in my mind, how she sounded. Her smell, her touches. Being around her was magical. I think I understand why all the imprints are so fluffy. The feeling is indescribable.

I was once again stung by that awful feeling in the chest. Something felt really wrong. Renesmee?

I took the phone of the charger and called her. She didn't answer, just voice mail.

I left her a message to call me as son as she heard it and hung up. But I still didn't feel okay. Something felt wrong. Really wrong.

I couldn't go back to sleep. I was worried, impatient. What was going on?

I tried once again to call but nothing.

I went to the kitchen and drank a glass of water. "It's probably nothing," I told myself over and over. "She's okay,". But something told me she was not okay. I felt it.

I went back to my room and called once again to the phone but no answer.

I slung the phone on the wall and I think it broke. Why didn't she pick up? Was she okay?

Anxiety grew in me and I was considering to run out and go and check on her when the house phone rang.

"Hello?" I answered. I hadn't notice I was breathing heavy.

Jake, it's Bella

"Hi. Is everything okay?"

No, that's why I'm calling you. Nessie… we don't know…. She's not doing good. She has pain everywhere and she's… screaming and crying. I don't know… Bella's voice broke a bit and my heart stopped. I felt how the ground disappeared under my feet and I had to rely on the wall to stand up.

"What… What do you…"

She wants you to come, she needs you. Please hurry up!

"I'm there in a minute" I said and hung up.

"Who was that?" my dad asked coming out of his room, Rachel followed him.

"Renesmee is sick. She needs me" I heard how my voice broke. "Bella called and told me that she's in a lot of pain, and she wants me to go over"

Rachel gasp slightly and my dad nodded at me. And I ran off.

The entire way to the main house was pure fear. Fear of what might be happening, fear of what I would meet. I had honestly never felt this scared in my life.

Some feet before I arrived to the house did I phase and putted my cloths on. I assured to were a shirt, so that Edward wouldn't complain.

Bella was waiting for me on the porch in front of the door. When I came to her did she greet me with a hug.

"Thank you for coming" she said quietly and with a voice that was heavy with worry. Whatever that was happening, was really bad.

"Anytime" I replied. She let go of me.

"She's in Carlisle's office" she said and we went up.

As we entered the house where my ears filled with a sound that filled me with pain and made my heart explode. A scream. A piercing sound that hurt so bad. I ran up to the office and saw her.

She was on a bed. Her body was twisting in pain, her face was sweaty and here eyes where all around the place.

"Make it stop! Please! Make it stop!" she screamed over and over. And every time she screamed did something punch me right into the heart. A knife that was cutting so deep, over and over.

I was paralyzed by the door. Bella had walked to her and was whispering some words of comfort in her ear. But she didn't touch her.

She screamed once again and I saw how Bella clossed her eyes and how Edward hugged her shoulders. His eyes and faced reflecting that wild man I'd seen when Bella was in pain. But this time it was stronger. Next to him was the doctor. He was just standing there. Looking. Doing nothing.

Renesmee was twisting and turning in such pain that I walked to her. I wanted to hug her to comfort her.

"Don't do that" Edwards voice said "If we touch her does it get worse" he said looking at her. Feeling her pain. But he was just looking.

"Can't you do anything? she's in pain! Can't you do something? You two are doctors!" I looked at both Carlisle and Edward. The both looked me with the expression of 'we don't know what this is. We can't help her'.

A wild scream pierced my ears. A scream that last for long and painful seconds. She was stretching, her back turned to a bow and the scream got intense. Her eyes rolled back. I felt tears burning in my eyes. I couldn't watch.

Suddenly she felt on the mattress like a piece of fabric. Her arms and legs with no life. Like she'd died.

"Renesmee!" I screamed running to her but the doctor managed to stop me.

"She's fine…"

"Fine? Fine is the last thing she is! Look at her!" I screamed terrified.

"She passes out. She does that now and then. Before she wakes up and starts to scream again. It's like the pain is to much to bear and her body passes out" Edward said with his voice heavy of pain, I think he almost was crying.

"Can't you give her anything?"

"She burns out the morphine in seconds. We have already given her to much, and we have to consider that we can't give her an overdose." Carlisle spoke.

It took a while before I could melt all the words that he'd said to me.

"So, we just have to sit here and wait?"

"I'm afraid that that is the only thing we can do, son" Carlisle said putting one hand on my shoulder.

After a while was everyone there, everyone except Blondie. Everyone was quiet everybody was in pain with her. After some minuets did she once again start to move. Her fist opened and clossed so hard that her knuckles whitened.

Her eyes opened and she looked bewildered around the room. Her chest rose and sunk, faster for every breath she took. She grabbed the sheets and pulled them. I heard how they ripped.

I looked at my left and saw Jasper staring at her, giving her an intense look. I didn't like that.

"He's just trying to see if he can remove the pain by filling her with a calm feeling" Edward said to me. And I remembered. He could change emotions.

I saw how Renesmee struggled. How she relaxed and then became tense once again. How the pain left and returned.

"I can't be here" Jasper finally said and left the room with little Alice after him.

In that instant did Renesmee scream. Everybody looked at her. I think they felt just like me. Useless. I wanted to do so much. I wanted to take the pain myself, wanted to end her suffer.

She turned her head around and looked me in the eyes.

"Ja-a-ke. Ja…ke" she said over and over and I walked to her.

"I'm right here, Nessie. Right here, baby" I whispered into her ear.

"It… hur-ts so-o ba-a-ad" she said her voice almost indescribable. It didn't sound like her. "Ta-ake… take it a-away, Ple-a-se!" she said and screamed.

I felt how my tears swelled up. I felt like trash. I was trash. Useless trash.

She grabbed my hand and squeezed it so hard that she broke some bones. We both screamed.

"Renesmee, let go" Edward said calmly "You're hurting him"

I'm sorry, Jake! I'm so sorry. she said to me.

It's okay baby, it's okay. I said trying to ignore my broken bones.

She let go of my hand and did once again pull the sheets, she bended her head backwards and I saw her jaw clinch. She was suffering so bad!

"Come Jake, I'll fix your hand" Carlisle said.

"No. I wont leave her" I said holding on to the bed were she was laying.

"But you have to fix them before…"

"I'm not leaving" I said strongly. I wouldn't move. Not even if there was an hurricane out there or an earthquake, I wouldn't move. She needed me.

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