Hey Guys! Well, i give you annother looongg chapter due, i didnt update yesterday and i probably wont update 2morrow due i have things to do:( That's why i give you this heck long chapter;) Please don't hate me!

This is now Nessies POV. Last chapter ended where jake sees Nessie's change, well this starts before Jake wakes up... Hope it's not to confusive

ENJOY AND COMENT!

Changes

I slowly stated to gain conscience again. Oh, no, not again! I didn't want to wake up, I didn't dare. I didn't want to wake up with that feeling of pain and torture, I didn't want to feel how my legs where pulled of my body, I didn't want it! I desperately tried to go back to the dark, restless cave that now was my sleep. That empty, black hole that protected me for the suffering.

But it was impossible to stay there. It was like I was floating up. I struggled to not, but in vain.

My eyelids suddenly became brighter and brighter, it was day. The day had never felt this threatening to me. I started to feel the sheets, sticky around my legs, but no pain.

I felt the humid pillow, salty with a mixture of tears and sweat, but I didn't feel like I was hitting myself with a brick.

I felt my entire body relying on the mattress, without feeling like I was laying on a mattress made of burning coal and glass. I felt nothing.

I slightly opened one eye, afraid of what might happen if I saw the light. I'd always been. Every time, before the pain came, was I filled with this calm feeling that said 'it's over'. But in that instant did the pain overcome me and I started to scream.

But not this time. I opened the other eye and looked at the wall in front of me. I was in grandpa's office, but when had they moved me here? I'd been in a darker room before. With…

I stiffened and my breath stopped. Where was Jake?

I heard his heartbeats and even breaths.

I wanted to see him.

I turned around just to see his neck and back against me. Not exactly what I was hoping for.

"Thank you, my Jake" I said looking at his back, reaching for his arm, but I was to far away. Well, so I thought.

My arms suddenly appeared in front of me, long and slender, different.

I bend a bit and managed to reach him. I saw my hands and fingers. They where different to.

But most surprising, I had no pain.

I removed the covers from me and saw that my entire body was different. It didn't look like yesterday. It looked stronger and a bit longer. But I also felt stronger. I laughed quietly for myself as I saw that I'd hips and my breasts where… well, formed.

I felt how Jake moved besides me and I looked at him once again.

I realized then, that I liked this.

The dawn was breaking, the lights shining through the window. Jake barely waking, I all tangled up in sheets and covers besides him. But what I wanted was to be tangled up in him.

I watched him as I felt the changing of his breath, how he was waking up. I saw how he stretched his arms above him. His arms that where my shield, my protection.

I saw how he stiffened in the middle of the move and he slowly turned around.

He had been shadowing the sun. but now that he'd turned around, was the sun hitting my face. I smiled at him.

From his look did I see that he'd also seen my change. He eyed me and his expression turned surprised.

"Holy crap!" he whispered. I giggled.

"Good morning, baby" I said to him, putting my hand on his face.

How… you… you're… you're in pain?

No, I'm not. Thank you.

You look different

Do you like it? I asked with a hint of worry. What if he didn't like the new me? What if I'd change on a way he didn't like?

I'll always like you for who you are, Nessie, not for how you look. he said, in some way answering my intern question.

"Renesmee, can I come in?" my mom's voice called from behind the closed door.

"Yeah mom" I said putting the covers over my body.

"Honey, how are you?" she asked carefully.

"I'm fine, I'm not in pain anymore. I'm just feeling… odd"

"Odd? How?"

I removed the covers and sat up on the stretcher that had been my bed for the past days. Jake followed my moves.

"Oh my…" mom said putting one hand on her face in surprise. Or was it in horror? I wasn't sure.

"I know" I said.

"Edward! Carlisle!" she screamed and then they where both there. They halt as soon as they entered the room, looking at me wide eyed.

"Renesmee?" my dad said examining me.

Yes?

"How do you feel dear?" Carlisle asked with some doctors authority and some grandpas concern.

"All in all, fine" I told him and stood up.

I felt that my bones where made of rubber and how they didn't carry me the way they should. I fell down to the floor but my dad managed to catch me before I could hit the floor.

Thank you I told him.

"You shouldn't be putting to much weight on your bones yet, they might not be as strong as the rest of you look" Grandpa said as my dad putted me back on the bed. I nodded.

Jake rose up and I saw my dads expression.

"You want to change?" he said. I turned to look at Jake and saw that he only was wearing this paper dress that the people in the hospital had. I giggled quietly at the look. "You look pretty good in that, though" I said.

"Thank you, and yes, please" Jake said looking at my dad.

"I'll tell Alice to get you some clothes"

"Why don't you just rip my head off right now, instead?"

My dad laughed quietly at Jake's statement and was out.

"Mom, I would like to change and shower too, I feel sticky" I said, feeling my jammies sticking everywhere.

"Of course, baby. You think we could use your bathroom, Carlisle? If she wants to change will I have to carry her, an I'm not sure I dare carry her all the way to the cottage"

"Of course, Bella. If you want, can she stay in our room over the night, just to be on the safe side and so that I can be close if anything happens"

"That sounds like a good idea"

Alice showed up and her face was like a kid on Christmas morning.

"Jacob, I've some fresh new cloths waiting for you. Oh, I've always wanted to see you in some entire jeans and a clean shirt! Ness, I've the most gorgeous outfitt for you lying on my bed! Have I mentioned that Missoni's new collection is absolutely…"

"Whoa, Alice! I really appreciate that you take care of me and don't let me look like a fashion disaster, but right now, I just feel to wear a new pj"

She sighed and I felt so sorry for her. "Fine, you can give me some designer sweats in bright pink and matching sweater" I said and her expression changed.

"Thank you!" she said running to me, putting a kiss on my cheek and dragging Jake out of the room with an expression of a kid who don't want to go to the dentist.. "You'll survive, I promise! " I called after them.

Mom carried me to grandpa and grandma's room. When I entered where the neutral colored room and it's creamed colored curtains and covers attacked by a matching pair of sweats and sweater in fuchsia. I rolled my eyes. Mom carried me to the bathroom and sat me on the edge of the bathtub as she got my clothes and I undressed. It wasn't embarrassing to get undress in front of mom, we had that kid of relationship. We knew each other.

She putted the clothes on a shelf near the toilet and then putted me inside the bathtub and reached me the shower.

"You can shower yourself, or do you want me to help.?"

"Eh… I think I can do it myself, but I might need help with my hair" I told her looking at my waist long hair.

"I'll be out here if you need me. I'm going to check if Jake's alive" she said with a smile. I nodded and she left.

The water was warm and comfortable. It gently touched by body and made me relax. Hopefully was this the last and only time I would need to go through something this painful.

I took a sponge and poured a lot of shower gel on it and started to massage my body with it. The smell of roses filled the bathroom.

When I was showering of the foam of my body did the water appear in a different color. Red.

I looked down and saw that I was bleeding. Shoot!

"Mom!" I screamed and she came in

"What is it…" she stopped.

"I think I got my period"

"I got that" she said "Eh… do you have any towels or tampons at home?" she asked.

" Yeah, in the cabinet in the bathroom, top shelf"

"Got it" she said.

I'd get used to get my period. In the beginning was it of course a bit embarrassing, due everybody knew about it. But know was I used to it.

"Esme, have you seen my…" Rosalie's voice appeared in the bathroom but she immediately stopped when she saw me.

"She's not here" I said trying to sound like if she being here didn't bother me, like if I didn't care.

"Oh, sorry." she was quiet for a while "Eh… How are you feeling?" she asked, trying too to not seem to care, but I saw she did. She always did.

"Better"

"You need any help?"

"No, thank you" I said avoiding her look all the time.

She didn't say more. And it hurt. It hurt to know that she didn't like me because she didn't like Jake. I wanted her to like me again, to be my auntie.

"You know I don't hate you, Renesmee" she finally said. I turned to meet her eyes "Just wanted you to know that" she said turning around.

"Rose!" I said after her. She turned around with a sparkle of hope in her eyes "You think you can help me clean my hair?"

"Of course" she said and walked to me and kneeled besides the bathtub "Which shampoo do you want? Rose or Freesias?"

"You choose" I said.

"Then Freesias" she said.

I turned my back towards her and laid my head on the edge of the tub as she massaged my head with the shampoo. Her touches where soft and gentle, calming.

We didn't speak a word.

She washed the shampoo of my hair and then reached a big white towel to me.

"Eh, can I have the brown instead?" I asked, afraid of staining the towel with blood.

"Okay, but take this to dry your hair" I took the towel and started to dry my hear. As I rubbed my head did my hands feel a bit soar. But that was probably because of what I'd been feeling before.

Mom came back with a package of towels.

"I thought a towel would be more comfortable for you to wear. Hi, Rosalie" she said trying to sound normal.

"Thanks mom" I said as I wrapped the towel around my hair and the other around y body.

She carried me out of the tub and sat me on the bed. Rosalie stayed in the background, near the wall. I started to put my panties with the towels on and then my bra. I realized that it was to small.

"Eh, mom. The bra is to small" I said

"What?" she asked

"Yeah"

"Well you'll have to be without then, because you, Alice and I had the same size"

"I might have one" Rosalie said quietly.

"You think I could borrow it?" I asked.

"Sure, let me look for it."

"Have you put down the hatchet?" mom asked when Rosalie left.

"I honestly don't know."

Rosalie came back with a white sports bra. "Here you go she said putting it on the bed, not giving it to me. Always looking down.

"Thank you" I said quietly and putted the bra on. It fitted.

I continued to dress and removed the towel from my head.

I tried to go to the bathroom to blow dry my hair but my legs once again where weak.

"I'll have to carry you, babe" mom said and carried me once again to the bathroom.

"I feel like a baby! How long will I have to stay like this?"

"We'll ask Carlisle later, okay?"

I nodded. I turned on the blow dryer and started to blow my hair. But after a while did my arms start to hurt.

"I'll have to cut my hair soon, it's painful to maintain" I said smiling to mom. "Can you help me?"

"Of course" she said and started to dry.

After she was ready was my hair completely straight and long. I saw Rosalie on the back of the room and gave mom a look. She blinked.

"I'll be back" she said and left the room.

I sat quiet looking at the mirror.

"Rose, can you braid my hair?"

"Mhm" she said and came to me "But isn't it your mom that's supposed to do this for you?"

Oh, I'd cut deep with those words.

"I'm so sorry if I hurt you with what I said, Rose. I really am. You don't know how awful it feels to think that you don't like me"

"You don't have to feel sorry for anything. I'm the one who has to apologize. You where right. It's not my decision if you want to be with that do.. Jacob. It's yours, and only yours"

"Thank you" I told her.

As she finish the braid did I turn around to give her a hug.

"Well the x-rays showed what we thought" Dad told mom.

"The most extraordinary thing was that very single plate was different form the other we took, you where growing everything at once, which caused your pain."

"Ouch" Emmett said where he was relying on the door to the room.

"I'm just glad it's over. How long will I need to stay in bed?" I asked.

"Well, we'll do some tests tomorrow, to see if you can stand straight, but at least today, you wont be out of that bed" he said.

Crap.

My dad laughed at my expression.

"I'm a miracle maker" Alice said storming into the room

"What've you done now?" dad asked her.

"I introduce you to a new Jacob!" she said and starting to bounce around in the room.

Jake showed up with some full-lengths Levi's, a dark green shirt and a black blazer on. He looked amazing, beautiful.

"Wow" my mom said "I don't think I'd ever seen you like this"

"Me neither" dad said.

"Good job, Alice" Grandpa said.

"Yes, Jacob, you look stunning! Very handsome." Esme said.

"Thanks" he said a bit ashamed.

"Well, I think you looked better in the dress" Em said with a grin on his face.

"I just wish the smell disappeared with the good looking clothes" Rose said

"And I wish your brain cell would have more company" he answered her.

I rolled my eyes at them. "Here we go" I sighed.

The room started to laugh.

"You know" Alice stated "I think you guys actually like each other, you just don't admit it"

"And I thought that she was the blond" Jake said looking at Alice and pointing at Rosalie.

I laughed but then I felt my stomach cramp.

"Are you okay?" my dad asked concerned.

"Yeah I'm fine. I'm just having some menstrual pain" I said "Do you have any pain relief, grandma?" "Yes, I'll bring it to you"

"Thank you" I said and she was out.

"You having your period?" Emmett asked. If he'd asked that a year ago I would probably blush, but it wasn't that embarrassing anymore.

"Yeah" I said calmly

"Oh, c'mon! 'Yeah'? is that all I get? It was funnier when you blushed about it" he said annoyed.

"Well, Em, some of us grow up" I said.

"Men, where did time go?" he suddenly said.

"I know, right?" I said.

"Do you remember when Edward was supposed to explain to you what 'period' was?" he said and we started to laugh

"Oh my God, yes! Gosh that was so fun! Or when he tried to explain what sex and baby making was!"

"Yeah! His face! I would give anything to be able to retrieve that moment!"

"Well, you have it right now" I told him and looked at dad that looked like if he wanted the earth to swallow him alive.

Emmett and I busted out laughing. And then I remembered what happened during my midnight tour around Forks the other day.

"Oh and you don't know what happened last night!" I said

"Renesmee!" My dad yelled

"What happened?"

I signaled to him to come to me and I grabbed his hand.

"What the hell!" he said and started to laugh. "You caught them in the middle of that?"

"Of what?" Rose asked

"Of that" he replied.

"Of that that?" Alice exclaimed

"What the hell is that?" Jacob asked

"Jake, of that" I said looking at him

"Oh… God! Oh…"

"My thoughts exactly!"

"Okay, can we change subject?" dad said

"Fine, what do you want to talk about father?" "How about you explain how you and Jacob can communicate through your thoughts?"

I looked at Jake who looked at me.

We where busted!

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