Hey guys! 1st of all Sooooo sooooorryyyyy for the update abcense! i've not been on the best conditions, still aren't but i'm doing my best to keep you guys updated. Believe me, i HATE not updating because i feel that you guys don't deserve to wait for the chapters, ut believe me im doing my best...

so here you go with ch 24 of WEIE

Control

"Eh… er…. Ah…" he'd definitely caught me unguarded.

"Spit it out" he said not taking his eyes of me.

I peeked fast at Jake who seemed as surprised as I was about this. Inside my head was I praying that Jake wouldn't reveal us. I gave mom a quick look and then at Jake. She nodded and her eyes focused on Jake.

"We where in La Push, walking" I told my dad who didn't notice what my mom was doing. "I held Jake's hand and asked him something, and before he could reply, I heard his answer." I said showing him the memory of when I'd asked Jake how he was doing after all that happened between him and mom when we where at La Push.

Dad looked suspicious at me before turning to Jake

"Is it true, Jacob?"

I saw my mom flinch and removed the shield from Jake fast.

"Why wouldn't it?" he said with a cool voice.

"Just double checking" my dad said turning towards me but keeping his eyes on Jake.

"Nessie… I got the pain relief for you" grandma said clearing up the tension in the room.

"Thanks grandma" I said giving her a smile.

"Oh, and you've visit" she said smiling at the door.

"Hey, tiny" Seth said as he entered the room.

"Seth!" I said with a smile that spread all over my face. "How are you?"

"Just fine. Hello doctor Cullen" he said looking at grandpa

"Seth, call me Carlisle"

"Okay" Seth said with a childish smile.

"Would you like some food, Seth?" grandma asked.

"I would love to!" he said with a voice that made everyone laugh.

As my grandma made some food for us where people start to leave the room. The first one was Rosalie and short after where just my parents, Jake, Seth and I left in the room.

"So you're done growing?" Seth asked.

"Pretty much, yeah"

"That's good, I don't want you to look older than me" he said and I giggled.

I rook the pain relief and drank some water to wash it down and settled on the bed. I might as well get comfy now that I wasn't going to leave this bed. While my parents and the guys talked did my eyelids feel heavy and I closed my eyes

When I woke up was my throat aching. This was bad!

"Dad!" I screamed.

"What is it?" he said as he ran into the room.

"My throat hurts" I said putting my hands on my neck.

"What's-" Jake said as he entered the room.

I felt how my heart started to race, how my body stiffened to his scent. I felt my back crunch slightly. Seth came in and it just got worse. I felt some kind of roar rising from my throat. I saw my dad's scared expression, together with Jake and Seth's.

I jumped out of the bed and opened a window. I felt the cold air punch me in the face and I took a deep breath. I then felt how my legs avoid me and how I stumbled down the floor, dad was already there to lift me up.

"Jake, Seth, out now!" I told them, not turning around to see their faces. I was to ashamed.

"Do as she says" my dad mumbled quietly. "Bella, ask Carlisle if he has any blood supply" and I heard how my mom left the room.

I remained with my head outside the window. Ashamed. How could I do this? Guilt ran through me as I realized what just happened. I wanted to kill Jacob.

The tears streamed down my face and my dad took me in his embrace.

"It's okay" he said over and over.

How could I do such thing? I asked him

"It's understandable, you haven't hunt for moths. It's natural that you loose your control when there's blood near…"

But, Jacob? How could I even think… I could've killed him, dad.

"But you didn't, that's the important thing. You're strong, Renesmee, just like your mother. I can't tell you how proud I am of you, not everyone has the strength to do what you just did."

"This is the last he had. He send Emmett and Japer to get some more" mom said while my dad lifted me and putted me on the bed. The tears kept streaming down my face as I took the glass from moms hand and drank the blood.

After the incident didn't I want to talk to anyone. My uncles had returned with more blood for me. I drank as much as I could bare. Afraid of risking anything.

Seth had left a while ago, of course he'd eaten first. But Jake was still there which didn't make everyone happy. Specially not Rose.

"Don't you understand she doesn't want to talk to you?" she said the fifth time she'd walked by the door. Apparently hadn't Jake moved. I could hear his heartbeat.

"And don't you understand that I wont leave until she speaks to me?"

I heard how Rosalie groaned and left.

"Jake" I said in a whisper.

The door opened and Jake stepped in. "How are you feeling, honey?" he asked. Could it be possible that he still cared about me after what I'd done?

"Not better" I replied being honest.

"Why so?" he asked and sat next to me.

I took his hand in mine and I showed him how sorry I was for my reaction. How the guilt was slowly eating me up from the inside and out. How I wondered why he wasn't angry at me and how he could give me a second chance.

I'll always give you a second chance. Always. His voice in my head made me flinch.

Why? I mean… what if I hadn't managed to…

But you did, that's the important thing.

Ugh! You sound like dad I said and he laughed.

"I actually prefer to sound like your Jacob" he said.

I looked up at him.

"I'd almost forgot" I said "You look extremely hot in that outfit" I said dragging my hand along his arm and the black blazer "it suits you"

His body changed position, now facing me and his hands around my waist. "Well, thank you" he said in a low and very seductive voice which made my heart speed race.

I leaned forward but heard then someone's quiet complains.

if you don't want to see this you either walk out our ask mom to block you. I told my dad. Seconds after did the front door close. I waited for another three seconds before I gripped Jakes blazer and pulled him towards me.

Ness, your dad-

He's gone I said as I pressed my lips to his.

This time didn't I do what I'd done last time I kissed him. I controlled myself as much as I could. It was hard to not lose control around him, but in this particularly moment, didn't I trust myself completely.

Hope u liked it... i did my best and i PROMISE that i'll do better

next chapter is again from the X POV...UUUHHHH any guesses of who it might be? the next chapter has a big give-away so keep your eyes open

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