Sorry guys for my abcense! i feel sooooo baaaaddd! i havent been able to sleep the entire weekend! Well, I'm here with an uppdate but then again there will be a break this weekend... so sorry for that! But good news are that we're done with all the exams in school so i'll have more time over to write!

I might not update tomorrow due I'm going on a trip with my class and wont be able to update the next chapter... or maybe i can... we'll see...

But for now... ENJOY!

Distracted

I showed Jake everything that had happened before. I showed him everything I'd said, everything he'd said.

We were sitting in the living room. Billy and Rachael were there too. Jake told them everything I was telling him, he was my voice now.

I was sitting on his lap, my head relying on his shoulders and my hand against his warm chest. He had his arms around me and was rocking me gently. My sobs had turned to silent tears. Tears that streamed down without a sound. When I'd finished showing Jake what had happened was the room silent.

Billy was the one to break the silence.

"Well, it's a sad story you're telling me, Renesmee" his deep voice filled the room. "But there's not much we can do now. Will you go back?" I shook my head against Jake's shoulders but he was already answering for me.

"No way! I wont let her return if she'll suffer. Didn't you hear what she just said?"

"Yes, Jacob, I did. But there's nothing we can do, this is between you and your family" Billy said looking at me "The only thing I can offer you is my humble home"´

"Yes! You can sleep with me, honey" Rachael replied immediately.

Tell her thanks I said looking at Jake.

"She says thanks" Jake spoke with a hard voice.

I sat up and Jacob followed my moves but stopped halfway up when Billy spoke.

"Jake, we need to talk" Jake stared at Billy and Billy stared back. They where having an inside argument, something I didn't understand. When Jake finally gave in with a sigh, did I know Billy had won.

"C'mon sweetie, let's go" Rachael put her arm around my shoulder and led me to the room.

"I'm sorry that this is all I can offer you" Rachael said while giving me some black sweats and an old, washed out tank top.

"It's okay" I mumbled looking down.

I undressed and put the clothes she'd giving me.

"So, all of this for cutting your hair?" Rachael said with a slight smile.

I sighed "I wish". and I really did. I really wished that was the only thing that had happened that night, that my hair was the only problem. But it wasn't my hair. It was me. I was the big problem here.

"Can I have a glass of water?" I asked Rachael before I would start crying again.

"Of course, sweetie" she said and left the room, leaving the door open.

"She can't and I wont let her go back" Jake hissed from the living room.

"But what if they're looking for her? What if they call the police? If they call Charlie?" Billy fought back. Jake didn't say more but I could vaguely hear his heart that was beating hard and fast.

"I'm gonna call Sam so they don't freak out if they catch a scent" Billy said leaving Jacob alone in the living room.

"Here you go" Rachael said giving me the glass. I took it and drank everything at once. "lay down and sleep. Tomorrow will be a new day and you'll see that everything is going to be okay" she said smiling.

"I hope you're right" I said quietly as Rachael turned the lights of and I was surrounded by darkness.

I woke up and it was dark. The big, red numbers of the digital clock showed that it was some minutes pass midnight. I hadn't slept a lot.

I heard Rachael's quiet and even breaths from across the room where she was laying on a pull out bed.

I sat up on the bed and listened to the silence. It was so silent. No wind, no leafs dancing, just silence.

My thoughts were a mess inside my head. What should I do now? Should I stay? Should I leave? Should I check in on a hotel?

But something I was completely sure of was that I wouldn't go back. Not now, not yet. I need to think things thru carefully. The last thing I wanted was that the peace that had been between the family's would remain. But my 'family' wouldn't show up here. After we'd left where the treaty lines put up again, in case some new ones arrived.

I had to much in mind to go back to sleep. I needed to distract me.

I rose up and tiptoed carefully to the hallway.

I was in the far right of the house and I had to walk through the hallway to go to Jakes room. Quietly did I go pass Billy's room, I listened carefully to hear if they where any changes in Billy's sleep but his breaths remained regular.

When I came to Jake's door did I open it carefully, but even before seeing him, did I know he wasn't as calm as the rest. His breaths were uneven, and his sheets were all over the place. He was restless.

I walked closer to him, his hands gripping the pillow that looked to be ripped apart soon. The moon was sending its light through Jakes tiny window, showing his bare chest. My heart started to flutter, but I ignored it.

"Jake" I whispered putting one hand on his cheek. He mumbled something in his sleep. Baby, wake up

He opened his eyes and flinched a bit when he saw me "Ness? Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I can't sleep" I told Jake. "Can I stay in here?"

"Of… Of course" he said a bit sleepy. He sat up leaning against the wall and I crept up close to him. I laid my head against his chest and he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head.

I don't know what to do I told him, tears fighting their way up I wont return, but I don't know where to go.

You'll stay here Jake said firmly I'll make sure you've a house, clothes and food. You wont miss anything. This isn't as classy as your place, but you wont miss anything, I promise.

As long as you stay with me, I'm okay I said hugging him tightly.

We remained in that embracefor along time.

"Jake" I whispered after a while "Can we go out?"

"Where do you want to go?" he mumbled into my hair

"Away from here."

"Okay"

We rose up quietly and he took a shirt that was lying on the floor and pulled it on. He opened the window and climbed out.

"What are you doing?" I hissed quietly.

"I don't want to wake Billy up. It would be rude" he said. I knew that that wasn't the real reason but I didn't ask.

When I landed on the ground did I feel the mud under my bare feet.

A quiet curse left my mouth and Jake chuckled "Just like…" he said before cutting off. Just like my mother I thought. That was what he was planning to say.

"Let's go" I said.

We went to his car and Jake started the engine with a loud sound. "Can't wait to get a quieter car" he said and left of in full speed. I listened careful to the sounds inside the house, but nothing had changed.

The road was wet, it had probably rained, when didn't it?

I had my feet up on the passenger seat and hugged my knees, my chin relying on them. Even though it was dark could I see the contours of the trees that where passing by.

After a while did Jake speak to me for the first time "You don't wanna go home?" I shook my head and he sighed.

An hour later I looked out and saw the same sign I'd seen at least twice before.

"You're driving in circles" I looked at Jake.

"Well, you didn't give me and exact address did you?" he said winy. And it was understandable. I'd driven him out of the house and made him drive around just because I had nothing to do. I looked at him with an excused look and his face expression changed.

"Sorry, baby. I didn't meant to be mean. sorry if I hurt you. It's just… I'm mad at myself. I could've done more, I could've stayed" "Don't say anymore" I cut him off "not your fault."

"I cant help feeling bad. Your hurt! He hurt you" he said hardly while gripping tighter of the steering wheel.

"No Jake, you wouldn't be able to do anything" "But I have to protect you"

"No Jake, you don't. your not my bodyguard. I knew what I was getting myself into, I can only blame myself."

"But Ness…"

"No Jacob, you couldn't do anything!" I yelled looking at him directly into his eyes.

"You're impossible, Renesmee Cullen!"

I flinched and looked at him "You've never called me Renesmee before" I whispered.

"Well, you've never called me Jacob" he answered relaxed.

"Yes, I have" I remembered that first day at his house, the first time we'd kiss.

He smiled a mini version of my favorite Jake smile "Fine, but you're still impossible"

We continued in silence, well, until my stomach complained loudly. Jake chuckled.

"Well, someone's hungry. There's a McDonalds some miles away, you can hold or you want to go find a deer, that's fast food." I shook my head

"I can wait."

Five minutes later did we pull in to the parking lot and even before Jake had managed to put the hand break in, was I out of the car and halfway through the parking lot.

"Hey, what happened to low profile?" Jake said as he came running behind me.

"As long as we don't reveal ourselves to humans, we're okay" I said opening the door and the, for now, delightful scent of fried filled my nose.

"Well you've got a good vampire raise"

"That's what you get when you live with a bunch of them" I mumbled.

"What do you want to have?" he asked as I looked at the signs showing of the food.

"I'll take a big Mac, big fries and a big coke" I said and Jake whistled

"You eat more than me!" I punched him playfully on the arm and he went to the cahier who smiled widely "What can I get you?" she sang, to eagerly.

I rolled my eyes and went looking for a seat.

I chose the seats as far away that I could. There where only a few people there. A man in a suit that was arguing with someone over the phone, and a young couple. They looked very alike…

I turned my head quickly to avoid the memories.

By our table was a little play castle for children. I hadn't seen the little girl playing in there. She had long chestnut colored hair in big curls at the end, just like I had have fore less than five hours ago. Her eyes where big and brown. Scary, but she looked very alike myself when I was little. What was that, 3-4 years ago?

The girl looked at me, tipping her head to the side and watching me with her big eyes.

I looked around. Maybe she wasn't looking at me. But was she here all alone?

The girl started to walk and soon was she by my table.

"Hi" she said with a clear voice.

"Hi" I said nervously.

"What's your name?" she asked, very innocently.

"Renesmee"

"Oh, your name is so cool! I wish I'd a cool name like yours" she said looking disappointed at her feet.

"Well, what's your name, then?"

"Amanda" the girl replied.

"I like your name, it's really pretty" curiosity took over, it wouldn't harm to ask, would it? "How old are you?"

"I'm seven" Amanda said with a quirked simile.

"Oh, just like…" I was about to say 'me' when I realized my mistake "My sister" I said and Amanda's eyes sparkled.

"You've a sister?" she said. And I was about to answer here when Jake came with our food.

"Hey, who's this?" he asked, smiling to Amanda, but looking worried at me.

"I'm Amanda" she replied happily "Who are you?" "I'm Jacob. Are you here alone, sweetie?"

"Amanda…" a voice called I spun my head to see the young couple form before walking towards us. They looked concern, but Amanda ran to them and jumped into the mans open arms "Daddy! Mommy! I've new friends, their names are Renesmee and Jacob" she said with a smile that made both Jake and me smile.

"Sorry if she bothered you" the woman said "She does that pretty often, go and talk to strangers even if we tell her not to."

"Oh, no. it's okay. She wasn't bothering." I said and Amanda smiled once again "I think this little princess made my day"

Amanda jumped down from her dad's arms and ran to me and locked her arms around my neck. I took a breath of her scent and remembered how hungry I was.

Jake did immediately put his hand on my shoulder.

I'm fine I told him and he relaxed.

"Did you say something?" Amanda asked.

"No" I lied.

"Oh, Well, see you Renesmee"

"Bye princess"

She leaned away and walked to her parents "You've an amazing daughter" I told them.

"Thank you" the man said and took her up on his arms. They both left and Amanda waved.

I couldn't help but pretending Amanda was me and her dad was Edward. I sting went through my heart and I turned away from that painful moment.

"Hey" Jake said putting his hand on my cheek "It's okay" he leaned forward and gave me a soft kiss.

For? I asked

I think the cahier wrote her number on my order. he said and I giggled against his lips.

I pulled away and threw myself to the food. I only heard Jake laugh.

After we'd ate- which didn't take long- we sat and talked. Nothing specifically, just random stuff to make me think of something else. I looked around the now empty restaurant and then I saw the girl behind the counter who was impatiently changing her weight between her legs. I leaned closer to Jake, gave him a kiss on the cheek and then mumbled into his ear "I think your friend wants us to leave" I said peeking at the girl who frowned slightly.

"You want to leave?" he asked.

"If you come with me, yes"

He looked and changed so he was facing me "Always" his lips found mine.

I grabbed a piece of his shirt to pull him closer as he locked his hand on my cheek.

The only thing holding me from throw myself over him was the fact that we weren't alone.

Let's go home I told him.

Without arguing did Jake let me go and went to throw our trash in the garbage bin. He came to me and took my hand Jake, you threw Miss She-cant -be- with- him' s number Jake just laughed and shook his head. He lifted me up to carry me. I had no shoes.

I saw how the girl reacted when she saw it, here eyes threatening to pop out her head. Jake saw that too.

"Great, will we have to kill her now?" he growled. I giggled and put my hand on his cheek and showed him memories of him flashing me with his dazzling smile. He stiffened. Do it! I said, to eagerly.

Why?

Because, I want to see if I'm the only one who dies for some few seconds every time you do that.

Jake sighed and turned to face the girl. I didn't see his face, but the girls reaction was as revealing as it could get. I bit my bottom lip to hold my laugh. Then did Jake surprise the both of us.

"Thanks for sticking out with us" he said with a voice so sweet and soft it even made my heart flutter.

The girl just nodded franticly, her beats even more uneven than mine and she was… hyperventilating?

Jake, I asked you to dazzle her not actually kill her! I hissed in my thoughts to him.

What are you talking about?

Her heart, Jacob! I think she got an heart attack! I was terrified by the fact that tomorrow workers would find a dead young girl on the floor and that we would be the last ones to see her alive.

Jake just snored She's just weak. I didn't even do my best.

I sighed in relief but got curious "Why didn't you do your best?"

We where by the car now and Jake opened the door and put me in the drivers seat before answering me "Those are strictly restrained to you, love"

His words melt me and I wrapped my arm around his neck and pulled my self up to kiss him.

He responded the kiss by pulling me even more up so I was completely out of the seat. I wrapped my legs around his waist to keep me up.

"Ness…" he mumbled "We have to go" he kept kissing me.

"You let go first I told him"

"I can't" he fought back.

I shrugged "Too bad, then" I said and crushed myself into him once again. But he pulled away. "Fine" I snapped and slid down of him and slammed the door shut. He chuckled and went to take his seat.

As we rolled out of the parking lot to the drive way did I rest my head to the window and before I knew it was I submerged into a deep sleep.