Well, hello readers! new update here, hope you like it! it took me a long time to write it... 3 days actually...

I just wanted to give a heads up... there's a situation in the chapter that i'd been thinking on putting on but was affraid of your rections to it. But i got this review asking me for it so i thought it was okay to put it... Hope you like it Morgan... it's a bit xtream comparing with what you suggested, but that's who i am;)

Moving out

I was vaguely aware of what was happening. My eyelids refused to open, I was so tired.

I didn't hear the engine so we were probably home.

Before I could react did the window that held my head up disappeared and I fell helplessly.

I hadn't even time to panic or scream before I landed in Jake's warm arms. "Sorry, Ness" he mumbled.

He carried me to the house but he stopped and groaned in front of the door "Great"

"Jacob!" I heard Rachael's relieved voice.

"She's fine, just sleeping"

"What are you thinking with boy?" Billy spoke thins time.

"She couldn't sleep and she wanted to get out" Jake said firmly.

"But didn't I tell you to stay here and not take her away?"

"There's a difference between taking out and taking away" Jake answered and I stiffened. Take me away? I'd definitely missed something.

"But we can't take any risks, Jacob! Sam agrees with me, as long as she wants, she can stay. More cant we do." Billy was calmer but Jake tightened his grip on me.

"You know I cant deny her any-" he started before Billy interrupted him.

"Well, you'll have to find the strength to".

I'd never heard Billy with that authorial voice before, it made me jump in my sleep.

I felt how Jake started to shake, his tremors grew bigger and bigger. I wanted to say something or get down from his grip, but I couldn't. My eyes and body didn't obey me.

"Jacob, give her to me" Rachael pleaded "I know you don't want to hurt her, so give her to me" she came closer.

Jake calm down I said but I was even to tired to say that.

His shaking became weaker but Rachael still pleaded "Put her down"

I felt how he pulled me away from his chest and putted me down on the couch.

"Jake, get out" Billy said.

"No" I moaned "Jake, don't-"

"Honey, he'll be right back" Rachael said putting her hand on my cheek.

"But-" another cut of.

"I just need some air" Jake's voice said and he was out of the house.

Now did I actually feel how much I was freezing. But I was to tired. My eyelids close against my will. I wanted to go after Jake but darkness filled my mind.

I heard the weak sound of rain against the windowpane. I felt like last night was a dream but I knew it wasn't. I didn't dream. Not anymore.

I stretched my arms and felt how it hit something. It sounded with a big 'thud'.

"Ouch!" Jake's voice sounded near me "Ness, I think you broke it!"

I sat up straight and saw how he had coped one hand over his face, covering his nose.

"Oh, Jake! I'm so sorry baby!" I exclaimed as I folded my knees under me and looked at him.

"I didn't think you could hit me and actually make me feel pain" he mumbled through his mouth.

"Me neither" my voice filled with panic "You okay?" I put my hands on each side of his face.

In a quick motion did he grab my wrists with his hands and pulled me down with him. "Mhm, now I'm fine" he said with that annoyingly, amazing grin.

"You jer-" before I could finish he crashed his lips against mine. It made me melt like butter out in the sun. I the butter, he the sun.

I remembered were we were. Even though Billy new about us, did I doubt he liked the idea of me being here alone with Jake. Billy? I asked.

Out with Rach

Okay I said, I needed him right now, so I let go of the last of boundaries between us.

I grabbed his arms and he put his hands on my back pushing me towards him.

Our lips kept moving together, intensity growing with each.

I slid my hand up his arm and under the sleeve of his t-shirt. He was warmer here than normal. I kept moving my hand up and found his shoulder and grip it. He moaned and pushed me closer.

My mind slipped and I showed him how much every single touch made me want him more and more.

Oh, Ness! he said and it was followed by and intense kiss that took my breath away.

I took my hand out and slugged it around his neck and our bodies crashed. My side was hurting and I wanted to lay back. But I refused to let go so I dragged him down with me so he was half laying on top of me.

His hand moved along with my side and slid around it. He found the edge of my shirt but froze.

They're coming

I heard the sound of an engine approach.

Oh! I sat up in the speed of light.

Hey, relax. They know I'm here, I've been here all nigh and I'm not planning on changing that.

I relaxed and felled back, curling up to his warm chest.

"See, here's where you belong."

" I know"

I heard the front door open and close. I heard the quiet footsteps through the house and the light knocking on the door.

Close your eyes he told me and I obeyed.

"Is she awake? Rachael asked.

"Barely" Jake mumbled

I decided that the best thing to do was to play along.

I stretched once again- more careful this time- and mumbled quietly "Jake?"

"Mhm?" he mumbled back.

"Honey, did you sleep well?" Rach came closer to me.

"Ye…ah" I faked a yawn.

"you want breakfast?" I nodded and whipped my face with my hand.

"Kay" she left us and I looked at Jake who looked wide eyed at me.

"Wow, Ness. I'm really impressed! I didn't thought you had it in you. Specially not as you're Bella's daughter…" he trailed of but I laughed to make him sure I was fine. Even though I wasn't. it hurt to hear her name. Even though I didn't want to admit it, did I miss her. A lot. Painfully much.

I want to change I told him . Afraid that my voice would break if I spoke out loud.

"Okay" he said and kissed my forehead before leaving.

When he was out did I realized I hadn't any clothes. I groaned when I saw no other option than wearing the dress I'd bought yesterday for the meeting with Mr. Morris. But as soon as I'd walked out of the door, I would ask Rach to borrow me some clothes.

I went out but stopped in the hallway.

Everyone that had been in the house the first time I'd come was here. Plus some other guys that- judging by the size- were part of the pack.

I heard some gasps and fists hitting on skin.

"Nice, entrance princes" a girl said.

"Oh, so sorry! I… I didn't know… did I interrupt anything?" I looked around the room and blushed.

"No, Ness. It's ok. You didn't do anything wrong" Jake came to me and put his hand on my shoulder. He glared at the woman Don't listen to her, she's just pissed. Leah's always pissed. It's something we all have to live with.

Yeah, but standing in the middle of this crowd all dressed up is a bit embarrassing.

"Rach" Jake said and she came to us immediately.

"Come Ness"

I followed her to the room and she handed me some boot cut jeans and I put on the tank I'd slept in.

"I'll be out in a minute" she nodded and left. I looked franticly after a brush but ended up putting my hair in a messed bun. I gasped as I touched my hair. Forgetting that I hadn't much anymore. But I didn't complain. I liked it this way.

I threw a quick look in the mirror and saw that the tank was a little see through.

I turned and saw a sweatshirt laying on the floor. I out it on and zipped it. I smelled it, it belonged to Jake.

"Well, no matter what trash you out on you'll always look stunning!" Seth said and I smiled shyly. He winked.

"Good you're here, we wanted to talk to you" Billy said coming closer. Jake did too and he felt how nervous I was. Don't worry he said and I calmed down.

"We've been discussing your situation and it's a pretty tricky one"

I looked around and saw that everyone was looking at me. I immediately looked down, ashamed.

"I- I'm sorry I didn't meant to put you all in a difficult spot, honestly. You don't need to have me here if it's to difficult for you. I can just-"

"Stop saying stupidities, Ness. You're staying here, end of story" he looked at me and threw a quick look at Leah, who just growled quietly.

Jake wrapped his arms around my waist and I hugged him.

"Renesmee, you're more than welcome to stay with us." Sam said looking at me "We already see you as a sister, a part of our family"

"But, as far as I know, you're family doesn't know you're here" Billy said " And something we wont do, if we see them of course, is lying about you staying here" I saw that he was looking at Jake who was looking at him with anger.

"Of course not" I said before anyone else would comment " and I am extremely thankful for what you're doing for me."

"I and some of the pack are going on a round later. We caught a scent yesterday, it's probably your family's but we're going anyways to make sure" Sam said but hesitated "If we meet anyone, your dad perhaps… you want to tell him something?"

"No" I said. I felt Jacob and the rest reacting to my cold voice. "I don't want to tell Edward anything" I said and turned around to leave the house.

"Let her go" I heard Billy say, probably to Jake.

I came to the porch but stopped there. The rain was pouring and I couldn't go anywhere.

I sat down, pain filling my chest and tears drowning my eyes.

After a while did Rachael come out "Nessie, honey, come in. you might catch a cold or something." I didn't argue with her, I had no strength to.

I entered and short after did the ones that were going to run patrol leave- one wolf stayed in the forest nearby to keep us informed if there was something new.

I choked on my cookie when a suddenly a big howl was heard from the woods.

We ran out and found the wolf nearby. Jake had stayed behind to phase.

When he came back he sat down next to me, his eyes were different, tearing. I putted my hand on him and saw what he was seeing.

Tears filled my eyes as I saw my mom's expression. She was devastated.

She wants to talk to you Jake said

can she hear me?

No, but Sam will phase and talk to her later

I took a deep breath and clossed my eyes Mom? I'm fine, I'm with Jake. Mom, I'm so sorry if this hurts you, believe me, it hurts me too. But I need to do this. You need to see that I can take care of myself, I'm not planning to leave, not now. I miss you. Say hi to my grandparents, uncles and aunts for me. Love you.

in that instant did Edward appear in the picture. I flinched when I saw him. His face was torn, looking lost and more devastated than mom.

"Renesmee, I know you're there!" he said his voice broke, it didn't even sound like him "Baby, please come home!"

this is home, Edward. I've moved out.

I quickly removed my hand from Jake and ran to the house. I slugged myself to the bed and hugged a pillow. But I didn't cry.

I woke up, not realizing what time it was. Probably afternoon. The house was quiet. I didn't hear Billy or Rachael, so I supposed they weren't here.

I found my cell phone. I had one message.

Baby, I miss you too, a lot. Please talk to me. Your dad is gone, Carlisle took him away from town a few days. He's killing himself, he's devastated. The only thing that kept me from going with him was the urge to talk to you. Please, meet me in Port Angeles, take Jake's bike or something. I'm on my way there. Love you.

She'd written the address. It was hard to breathe. I really wanted to meet her, but should I go? Jake would probably want to come with me. But this was something I had to do alone.

I put shoes on and went out of the room. I heard Jakes light snoring from the couch. I left him a note saying I went out and that I would come back soon.

I took the bike keys on my way out and ran quickly to the garage and stated it and took of.

The ride to Port Angeles felt short, too short. My heart speeded with every mile I took.

While in town I looked for the address and found it quickly. It was a little café.

It was easy to find mom. I saw her before she did and when she caught my eyes did she fly up the chair, too quickly to a human but she didn't care.

I ran to her and crashed against her chest, her arms locked around me in a tight grip.

"Oh, baby, I've missed you so much!" her voice broke in many places and she sobbed tearlessly.

"I've missed you too mom" I said, crying of course.

"Please, we need you. We love you. Everything you said last night…"

"We can talk about it while sitting down" I told her.

We sat on a couch on the far corner of the café. We both ordered a cup of coffee.

"Nessie. All the things you said last night. What were you thinking? Sure, we probably wished you'd stayed little longer, but you're an amazing daughter and I can't see my life without you. I've told you at least a million times before"

"I know mom. But, have you ever felt like you don't fit in? I never told you this, but there was some periods in my life when I wanted to just be normal. A normal vampire, not a freak."

She looked at my with an extremely motherly look "But you aren't a freak, your special. Amazing, and we all love you for who you are. No one would like differently"

I took her hand and squeezed it hard. "Yeah, but the fact that I look like 17 or more doesn't change the fact that… some people don't accept that."

"so you're trying to prove to some people that you can handle your own problems?"

"Yes"

She looked at me "then I wont fight with you about that" she looked at me and smiled slightly "You know, Edward freaked out when he heard you say that you'd moved out"

I rolled my eyes "What else could we expect?"

We sat in the café for about an hour when my mom said something I never thought I'd hear from her "You want to go shopping with me?"

My jaw dropped "Did you just say 'me' and 'shopping' in the same sentence?"

"I know, right?" she said looking at me.

After some stores and a lot of bags were we walking down the main street.

"Bella?" two girls some feet away looked at us "Oh my God, Bella!" they started to walk towards us waving

They are? I asked mom

"Old friends from high school" she whispered.

I looked at the two girls coming "Oh, Bella! So nice to see you!" one squeaked.

"Hi, Jessica" mom replied as the girl throw herself at my mom.

"So, what? You forget your high schools friends when you get married?"

"Hey, being married isn't easy, you know" the other girl said. Mom just gasped.

"Angela? Since when?"

"Soon a year" she looked at my mom and blushed " I tried to find your address but you were no were to be found"

"Yeah, I tried to convince her to get a private detective or something, but she didn't want to" Jessica said.

"Oh, congratulations, Ange! Who's the lucky guy?" my mom said.

"He's name is Jaden, he's a doctor"

"oh" my mom said looking a bit bewildered.

"Hey, who's this?" Jessica asked looking at me.

"I'm Re-Nessa. Well, Vanessa actually but everyone calls me Nessa" I stretched my hand to both the girls.

"You're a Cullen to?" Jessica's look was filled with curiosity. I looked at my mom who gave me a nod of 'go ahead'. I knew their story so it would be easy to lie something.

"Yeah, Dr. and Mrs. Cullen are my foster parents"

"You don't look traditionally Cullen" Jessica eyed me.

I laughed "I know right? It's weird being around pale people. I'm… Brazilian actually, they found me on a vacation. My parents died in a car accident"

"Oh, so sorry" Angela looked at me kindly.

"It's okay" I said.

"Hey, you guys want to go eat or something? Bella we've a lot of things to talk about" Jessica was once again excited.

"I guessed we could-"

"Bella, I'm in a hurry" I cut her off before she could continue. I have to get back.

"You sure?" she looked at me with her eyes starting to fill with that sadness from before.

"Yes. We'll talk later, okay? Bye" I gave her a hug and said my goodbyes to the other girls.

Love you mom I said and turned around.

When I came back to La Push was it more grayer than ever. The clouds were so dark and heavy that they threaten with fall down from the sky at any second.

I ran to the house but there was no one here.

"Anyone?" I said and got no answer. I dropped the bags on the floor and stepped to the kitchen.

On the floor there was a paper shaped to a ball. It was the note I'd left Jake. Why was it here?

"Renesmee!" his voice made me jump five feet up in the air.

"Jacob! You scared me!" I said as he stomped in to the house.

"Yeah? Well what do you think I am?" he yelled back.

"Why are you yelling at me?"

"Why did you just leave without telling me?" he looked furious, I'd never seen him like this.

"You don't read what I write to you?" I said showing him the paper.

"That doesn't give me enough information you know"

"Well, how much do you need?" I was starting to get really mad.

"At least tell me that you're leaving? What if something happened? Or if anyone-"

"I can take care of myself you know! You don't need to baby sit me" I yelled at him. I couldn't believe he actually was angry because I didn't tell him where I was.

He glared at me "What?" I asked annoyed.

"That's what you see me like? A baby sitter?" he asked, his voice a bit shaken with anger.

"That's how you're acting" I said without flinching.

He walked closer to me " How the hell do you think I would react if you suddenly disappeared like that? You know who hard it has been for me? I'm living whit the constant fear of you leaving again, you know how that feels like?" we were just some inches from each other, staring at one another. "You know how much I'm afraid of your bloodsucking family taking you away from me?"

"Bloodsucking family?" I said "My family, a bloodsucking family?" I raised my voice "You could at least show some respect to them, that's my family you're talking about."

"Respect to who? To the ones that you said don't want you? To the ones that wished you where different? To those?" he said "You said it yourself, they don't want you"

I couldn't believe how much pain those words caused me. I knew my family loved me, but Jake made me recap last nights argument. They wanted me different, they'd always.

But hearing those words from Jake ripped me apart. He'd never spoken to me like that.

I looked up at him, tears rolling down. His expression changed "Oh, Ness. I'm sor-"

"Leave" I whispered with a think voice.

"No, Ness. I didn't mean to…"

"Just shut up and leave Jacob!" I screamed and my tears disappeared. "I don't want to see you! Get the hell out of here!" I pushed him away from me. "GET OUT!" I screamed pushed him, sending him away from me.

"That's what you want?" he said coldly.

"am I talking in Chinese? Get out, damn it!" I screamed.

He turned around and slammed the door behind him so hard that a vase fell down to the floor and the windows shook.

I stayed paralyzed in the middle of the floor. What just happened?

So what did you think? Was it as you expected? Please comment, it helps me a lot. and of course you can suggest some things you want to happen, i might have thought of them, and i might not... tell me!