heyy guys! How's vacation going? I'm enjoyin this so much! My younger cousin is still in school so we haven't done much so I thought i would write a chapter for you guys. This isn't really an important chapter, just some cozy thing i wanted to write from Jake's POV before the seriousness starts... I've strated to begin fixng the final states of this story which scares me a bit... this is a story that i Love so much and it feels scary to have to put an end to it:( but it's nothing that's coming right away we still have some chapters left so no panic!

After this story am I going to post my new FanFic "Welcome to the Adam's- I mean Cullen's" it's a story WAAAAYYYYY diffrent than this one, it's a comedy. If you'd like to have a preview of it could you just write it on a review or PM me...

Well, hope you enjoy it and please review!

So this is what happiness feels like…

I couldn't have planned the night better. It all went smoothly and the over-prized food was actually worth it. We talked and I saw that sparkle in her eye that I love so much, the sparkle I always wanted to see on her.

A subject that last during the entire dinner and even the way home was about our future. Liked talking about it, talking about us. Showing her everything I'd planned, letting her tell me and choose what she wanted. That was everything to me.

It was hard to take my eyes of her and actually focus on the road, she looked stunning. I'd said it to here like a hundred times already.

"Jacob Black, focus on the freaking road!" she yelled and I turned immediately around.

"Yes, ma'am"

When we came to the reservation was everything turned off. Nobody was home. Weird. It was almost midnight, Billy never stayed out 'til this late?

I shook my thoughts off and turned off the engine.

"Thank you for tonight, Jake" Ness looked at me, her face just glowing and it made me smile.

"Anytime for you" I leaned and kissed her forehead.

I stepped out and opened her door. She was waiting for me there, clinging on me as soon as I opened the door. I took her legs with my arms and carried her to the door.

I struggled with opening the door with the key and she just laughed.

When we came in did she jump down, letting the bag she had with her fall with a big sound, turning around to me and jumped, clinging her arms around my neck again and kissing me. She had heels on so it wasn't so hard to keep kissing her, even if she still was shorter than me.

She started to kiss me more intense. Oh, no.

I tried to get loose, not to hard though.

Before I could notice where I kissing her the same way. I couldn't help it. She kept clinging on me and pulled me back, I followed her every move. When she hit the door did I automatically put my hands one her hips. I felt her hands tracing around my chest, filling me with a wave of pleasure. Her hands kept tracing, searching. They came under my jacket and kept moving to my shoulders. She lifted her hands and started to take the jacket of my shoulders. My arms responded by moving out from the sleeves. When the jacket was off did she throw it away and it ended up somewhere far away from where we where. I put my hands on her face, never stopping kissing her. Her hands kept tracing around my chest. I felt a weird motion of her fingers and didn't realize she'd unbuttoned my shirt until I felt her cool hands on my bare chest. Tracing lines and locking on my back. Her kiss became more intense, making it hard to focus. Then she smiled and flashed me with images of us in my bed. I chill went through me and a moan left me without my permission. Then she started to take steps forward , making me move backwards. I felt confused as I kept following her moves. She led us to my bedroom door and I hesitated at the entrance. Where I ready? Or, the most important here, was she ready? I knew what I was. I wanted this too, but now?

Ness…

Shut up she said with an annoyed voice. She kept walking and turned around when we came to the bed, me following her.

Ness, please. Are you sure that…

She groaned "What?" she responding out loud made me jump "If I'm sure I want this? If I'm sure I love you? Yes, Jake. I'm sure, I do want this, I do love you." she looked at me, examining my eyes before speaking again "Aren't you?" she said with a lower voice.

I was shocked "Nessie…"

"I knew it" she moved away from me and sat up. I felt confused and sat up too. "You aren't sure of this, you aren't sure if what you feel is real…" she trailed off, never meeting my eyes.

"What are you talking about?" I was once again shocked by what she'd just said. If I wasn't sure? How could she say that?

"Of course I'm sure. I'm sure as hell, baby this is real. It's not a thing, it's not an illusion. Believe me I feel it as strong as you do"

"Then why are you so… not into this?" I had obviously hurt her feelings. I saw it in her eyes, heard it in her voice tone. I took her chin in my hands, making her look at me.

"I love you" I said it slowly for her to get it "I always have and I always will. You don't have to give me or do anything special, just this is enough." I kissed her.

"But, I want to"

I sighed, she just had to get Bella's stubbornness.

"What I'm doing, I'm doing it for you" she looked at me "I don't want you to regret it."

"I wont" she kept pleading me with her eyes.

"You know, I hate do bring this up but, I can't. Not now"

Her eyes filled with curiosity and I knew that even if I didn't want to, she'd know what I was thinking about. After all, she'd this lie detector gift thingy.

"Ness, you're young and even though you don't look like it" I trailed off remembering the moment she'd come out of the bathroom looking absolutely gorgeous, but I focused once again in matter of seconds "can it sometimes be hard for me to ignore that fact. I'm trying to, because I know you want to be treated as an adult, but it's difficult." I looked her deep into her eyes, talking slowly and clear. "I want to make you see that I do want you, but that it's a tricky situation and I can't just ignore the fact that you are much younger than you look like. And that honestly freaks me out. I'm afraid of going to fast forward, for you. I could've given in that other night when I came back from patrolling, but I was afraid of you getting hurt."

She kept looking at me and finally put a hand on my cheek.

"Thank you" she let a tear out of her eye and I didn't know if this was motive to freak out or not, but she had said thank you though "Thank you for being the most amazing, wonderful guy on this planet. Thank you for loving me the way you do and thank you for carrying about me" she hugged me and I hugged her back, sighing in relieve. She'd understood, not that I didn't think she would. She didn't lean back from me so I didn't let her go, I didn't want to either. I loved to have her in my arms. Feeling her body together with mine, fitting perfectly there, like two pieces of puzzle that belong together. That was exactly what we where.

"Jacob?" the light knocking on the door made me open my eyes. I felt confused, what the hell happened? Had I fallen asleep? I sat up and looked around. Where's Nessie?

I stepped out of the bed and went to open my bedroom door.

"What?" I said sleepy. Billy was on the other side.

"I'm going fishing"

I looked around and saw that it was early morning, 5 am maybe?

"Where's Rach?"

"With Paul" he was still pissed, I couldn't bother right now.

"Okay" I was about to close the door when he stopped me.

"Jake" I opened the door again "How did it go?"

Right. I hadn't told him jet, only the thought made me happy "I got the job" my voice more clearer.

"That's good, son. Congratulations"

"Thanks"

"Well, I'm leaving. I'll be home by four. Take care of Ness"

"Always, say hi to Charlie" I saw how he left to the front door and clossed. I clossed my door too and headed to bed. When I laid down did three light knockings on the door make me turn around. Ness opened the door and closed it behind.

"Hey, babe" she said walking to me with a playful smile on her face.

"Hello" I couldn't help but smile back "Where did you go?"

"I left before Billy came, you fell asleep"

"I noticed. I looked around the bed and stretched my arms out towards her. She skipped over and sat down on my lap. She wasn't wearing the dress, just some sleep shorts and a short tee that was big that she had one shoulder showing.

"You look comfy" I stated. She had buried her face in my neck, her breathings warming my already hot skin.

"You should get comfy too" she stated and it reminded me that I still had my black pants and unbuttoned shirt on.

"Now?" I asked breathing in her scent.

"Hmmm… I don't want to let you go but… better now than later" she lifted her head and kissed me. She turned around and opened her legs so she was sitting facing me, always kissing me. She put her hands under my unbuttoned shirt and locked them behind my back, I did the same. Then in a quick move had she taken of my shirt completely.

Renesmee…

Just helping ya'

she rose up and left the bedroom. I fought against the will of following after her so she could help me with the rest.

She entered again when I was about to pull a black t-shirt over my head.

She took the shirt and threw it away before pushing me down on the bed. This was odd. I was surprised.

She then came and laid next to me, taking my arms and wrapping the around her. I didn't fought against that.

It's early, should we try to sleep? she asked not looking at me.

Sure I was honestly tired. Her even, slow and regular breaths where like a lullaby to me and I quickly begun to fall asleep.

"Waky, waky, Jakey" her melodious voice made me rise back to reality.

The smell of food did soon fill the room and I sat up. Her wonderful laugh was like music to my ears.

"I made you breakfast. Hope you like my pancakes" she put the tray with food on my lap and sat down in front of me. "It was too small for two plates, you mind if we share?" I saw one plate and two glasses of milk. I smiled

"Of course not" I took my first pancake. It was warm and tasted wonderful and I moaned in delight.

"I've the best cook of the world! Baby these are delicious!" I swallowed the pancake and kissed her. She giggled.

"I'm happy you liked it"

We kept eating. Talking and laughing. Enjoying each other. Well, I surely enjoyed being with her like this. It was the first time we actually sat down and ate together like this. After I ate did I offer to do the dishes and she went to shower. When she came back where the dishes done and she was wearing the same thing she'd wore before, which surprised me. She probably saw it to.

"I feel comfortable like this. Besides, I'm not planning to do anything special today. Just hang here with you, if you like it"

I couldn't let this opportunity go "I don't like it" she looked at me with surprised and sorry eyes "I love it" she laughed and ran to hug me and I kissed her.

We chose a movie and curled up together on the big couch. I was combing with one hand through her hair and she was drawing designs on my arms. I couldn't pay much attention to the movie, she was too distractive for me. When the movie ended didn't no one of us raise to stop it, we just let the after text roll on until the main menu appeared, and not even then did we do something. About it.

"Jake" she mumbled

"Yes, baby?"

"Could you imagine us when we have our own place, being like this?"

I closed my eyes as she showed me images of her imagination. We where sitting the same way we where now, only in a different house. The sun was shining thought the window and it was warm. I didn't recognize the surroundings and I asked her where we where.

It's the house we lived in when we where in Brazil. I like that house much more than the others, mostly 'cus it's so open and sunny.

You'd like to live in a sunny place?

Yeah, I like sun. This weather is depressing

I chuckled you're right.

She kept showing me the house and it was beautiful. It was open and light, the interior was modern but t the same time, didn't it loose that alive feeling. Many colors and music coming out of speakers. A beach was the back yard and a life full street the back yard. I analyzed clearly all the rooms and all the details. This was the house my love wanted, the one she imagined us in. And I would do everything in my power to give her what she wanted. She was already spoiled, well, I would spoil her more.