HEY! This chapter was supossed to be upload yesterday but my internet didn't. This is actually my favourite, and I really hope you like it. Honest hour: I actually cried.
I've read through all the story and I can't believe how suportive all of you have been. And I can't explain much I love you. Thank you, thank you, thank you...
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Yours
"Ness, we're here" Jake's soft voice woke me up from my sleep I hadn't notice I'd fallen in to.
I sat up from my laying position, every single muscle cramped in protest to my movements.
"You okay?" Jake asked me. I just nodded in response. I rose up at the same time as he but he put a hand on my shoulder, making me sit down once again.
He took our bags in one shoulder and then bent down to carry me. I didn't protest.
"You wanna check in on a hotel?" the words made me wake up straight.
Before I'd fallen asleep had I been planning the second escape. My escape. There was no way that I'd let Jake fight with me against Jane. I just couldn't imaging letting him stand there with me as she took booth of us. I'd seen the vision. I'd seen that she'd attacked both of us. We where chanceless. And it just didn't fit in my mind letting him suffer like that.
"Let's ask for the hotel that's closest to the airport." I told him as we walked to a turism counter.
It turned out there was one only 10 minutes away so we decided to go for that one. We got the suit and the man behind the counter tried the hardest to act professional as I gave him the sum of the room, in cash.
We denied the help to get our bags up the room, mostly because we hadn't much with us.
As soon as we where in the room did I walk to Jake and let myself be submerged in him. I let his arms warm me and let me escape this nightmare for one second.
"Everything will be fine, I promise" he whispered into my ear as he rocked me in his embrace.
"Give me a second" I said as I got out of his hug and went to the big bathroom. As I closed the door behind me did I slide down along with the wall until I was sitting on the floor.
I put my head on my knees as I started to cry once again. But as I cried did my mind start to live its own life. It started to plan, to think, to figure things out and puzzling things together.
One thing was clear. I would not let Jake fight for me. That's it. But there where other things that needed to be thought through carefully.
It was still dark, around midnight. I'd leave in the morning, before he woke up. I'd take the first flight to my old house, to the only place I had ever felt secure. There would I go, and there would I stay until I was completely sure she wouldn't go near Forks.
I tried to collect myself before leaving. I took a look in the mirror and the sight made me decide to wash off my makeup immediately.
"I thought you'd never get out" Jake said trying to sound relaxed and funny. And I appreciated that.
"Sorry, you want to take a shower?"
"Yes, I don't like this flying thing" he kissed my forehead before closing the bathroom door.
A sting of pain filled my shoulder as I kept looking at the closed door that hid my love. Tonight would be our last night. I mean, this could mean the end. We might never see each other again. Never ever.
I gripped my chest, surprised over the force that thought had on me.
I sat down on the king size bed as I recalled memories of Jake and I together. All the times I'd given him my hand and he had taken it without hesitation. All the times I'd walked into his arms and he had taken me in without thinking twice. All the times he'd laughed into my ear. Every time I'd heard his voice in my head. Every time he'd kiss me, whether it had been just a little kiss or a passion filled one, I could still recall the force and the chills it sent through me. Even now, right here, could I remember how he tasted. The soft movements of his lips against mine. How the corners of his lips rose up to a smile under mine. Every memory was so clear, so vivid. I don't think that death would be able to erase those memories, which I somehow glad me. I had this tiny amount of hope that I would be able to remember these things even while dead.
I wasn't sure of what death would be like. I remember asking my mom once when I was younger. She'd said that death was peaceful, quiet. Yes. Even through that peaceful sleep call death, I would definitely remember all these things. All the moments I'd spent with Jake. Not even death would be able to erase that.
But there was one memory that I hadn't and that I wanted badly. There was one thing that I felt I had to do before leaving him. I wanted to show him how much I really loved him. I wanted to love him.
I went to my bag and opened it. There was what I looked for.
I undressed and putted on the silky night gown I'd worn that day when Jake had come back from the awfully long patrol. The very first time I'd ever felt such strong emotions towards him.
I could hear that the water had stop falling from the shower. It would be a though fight, but I would win it. I collected all the candles I could find in the room and lighted them up as I killed the lights. The shadows of the little, dancing flames of the candles spread around the room making it look cosy and welcoming, just what I wanted.
I sat on the side of the bed, not trying to look to seductive. Just wanted to sit there, just wanted to wait for him.
Each second that passed made my heart beat harder. It was like it would flew out of my chest at any second.
The bathroom door opened and Jake appeared only wearing pants and with a towel rubbing his hair. He was perfect. His beauty left me breathless and made my heart pound even harder. I felt light headed as I tried to look calm.
A slight whistle left his wonderful lips as he looked at me. "I haven't seen that one in a while" he put the towel on the back of a chair.
"Jake, come" I said and stroke my hand on the side of the bed, indicating him to sit next to me.
His facial expression changed but he came to me.
"What's wrong?" it was like he could see right through me, something was wrong.
I stayed silent for a while as I saw the dancing light of the candles showing of his face on such a wonderful way. He looked different in their light, he looked softer, like he was made of the most fragile material existing. Still, the strongest and most wonderful marble statue. This amazing person that would do anything for me belonged to me. And I wanted to belong to him.
"Can you do me a favor?" I looked down at my hands as I said it.
"Of course. Anything" he replied with the most sincere voice.
I looked up and looked straight into his eyes. His dark hair was still wet and the water moist my hair as I moved closer and put my forehead on his. Connection us.
"Love me" I whispered, taking a deep breath of his own and wonderful scent.
"I do love you" I heard he hadn't quite understand what I was trying to say.
"It's not what I'm talking about." I felt him move under my forehead.
"I don't understand" he said bewildered.
I moved my head away from him and looked him straight into his brown, warm eyes. I saw the water drops that where slowly coming down the side of his face. For some reason did I stretch out my finger and caught one on its way down. I kept my hand on his face as I once again turned to look into his eyes.
I moved closer. Carefully approaching my head to his. Silently moving forward. Loving touching his lips as they came in contact with mine. I kept my movements soft and careful. My hand slid down to his neck and caressed it gently, just like the kiss.
Love me I said once again in his head. I felt how he moved away from my lips, but his head remained close.
"Renesmee, please…"
"No, Jake. I can't. The fact that I feel like we only have hours left together… I can't. I want you Jake. Even if it's just for tonight. Just for this short amount of time, I want you like I've never wanted something else. Please" I pleaded feeling the tears stream down my cheeks.
He lifted up his hand and stroke the tears away.
"Renesmee…"
"Jacob…"
He sighed "Is that what you really want?"
I looked up at him "It's the only thing I want"
He remained silent, but never let his eyes of mine.
I couldn't believe the wave of happiness that filled me as I saw his face coming closer.
Our lips met halfway. Started to move together in a perfect dance that increased in tempo as our passion for each other took over. As the desire took over our bodies.
I locked my arms around his neck and he locked his on my back. I pulled him down just as much as he took me down with him. This just showed me that he wanted this just as much as I did.
My back felt the mattress and his arms disappeared from my back just to show up on my shoulder and arm. My hands slid down his chest, following the contours of his well defined torso, his strong body, my comfort.
His lips left mine, trailing kisses down my neck, sliding gently through my collar bone, doing a stop by the stripe of my night gown. I felt his mouth open slightly and how his teeth gently gripped the strip and slid it down my shoulder. I couldn't help but shiver with delight.
He placed a kiss on the edge of my shoulder and then returned back to kissing my lips, this time more fiercely.
My hands kept sliding down his body that belonged to some Greek God, yet it was soft and warm. I felt how his hand searched for the other stripe and how he found it and slide it down. I started to run my fingers down to the side of his pants, searching and finding. I unbuttoned and unzipped swiftly, more swiftly than I thought.
He quickly made a move, making me sit upright. Kneeling in front of ach other.
He did a pause in the kissing, looked me in the eyes. I just smiled.
He crashed his lips to mine again. I finished taking of his pants as he looked for the night gown. When he found it did he pull it over my head, revealing my body to him.
I thought I would blush, but I didn't. He looked up on me and I looked at him. I put my hand on his bare chest and looked him deep in the eyes.
I'm yours now. And I would be yours for eternity. But eternity isn't enough.