Hey again! This is a more quickly update ;) This is from Jake's POV and takes place after Nessie has left and while she's on the plane. This is what happened during her way to Maine. Next chpater is going to be from an outsiders POV, you'll find out, eventually.

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Desperation

I felt the heat and the light hit my face. Which was weird. It was to hot and to sunny for being Forks. And then I remembered. The smell of strawberries and vanilla opened my mind.

I couldn't help but smile at the thought of what happened last nigh, right here.

I thought of my Nessie, my beautiful Nessie. Her lips, her touches, her body over all. She was just wonderful. And I was lucky enough to have her. To be able to hug her and kiss her. To have her next to me in this right moment.

I didn't open my eyes, I wanted to surprise her.

I carefully stretched my hand across the bed searching for her hand.

I stretched my hand for what felt for an eternity just to feel, nothing. I kept moving my hand across the bed without feeling anything. This was weird. I could swore I'd left here right here yesterday, or some hours ago.

I focused on hearing some noise that would explain the empty side.

In the far away I heard some water pouring down. Like a shower.

I got an idea.

I quickly wrapped a sheet over half my body and started to walk to the bathroom.

The door was slightly open and I definitely heard the shower pouring. I couldn't help but smile. I wanted a kiss, I'd been without them for too long.

I smirked as I opened the door slowly. Just to find… an empty bathtub.

I looked around the huge bathroom but she wasn't anywhere to be seen.

Where could she be? It was barely 7 am so what could she possibly be doing? Shopping? It's to early for that. But once again, she's a Cullen, schooled by shoppaholic Alice Cullen.

I turned of the shower and looked for my pants.

I found them on the couch of the living room. How the hell did they end up here? Ness had a pretty good arm.

I took the pants and went to the bed and took a pair of boxers of the bag.

Then I noticed that Nessie's bag wasn't there. I could swore on that I'd seen it yesterday…

My eyes moved to the pillow where Ness had been laying on and found and envelope. I took it up and saw that it said To Jacob, the love of my life.

I couldn't help but smile. She'd left me a romantic note.

I opened up the envelope and took out the note. As I did it, did a bunch of bills fall out of the thick envelope. Why'd she leave me money?

I got suspicious and opened the note.

Dear Jacob:

How can I even start? I want you to know one thing before you continue reading: I love You. Never forget that.

When you wake up today, you wont find me. I'm gone, and I wont tell you where I went. I don't want you to know. I don't what anyone to know. I know I told you that we would fight Jane together. But there's no way that I let you fight her and get hurt. I love you to much for even think about you being there with me. So I left.

I saw in Alice vision, we wouldn't have a chance. And I just couldn't think of you getting hurt. This is a fight between her and me, you don't have to suffer.

This is hard for me too you know, but it's the best, it's the right thing to do.

I love you. If you meet my parents and family again, tell them I love them too, a lot.

I know that what I did will hurt you, hurt you all. And I hurts me too, but I do this because I love you. And believe me, I love you more than what's good for me. But I do. And I would do what I'm about to do for you at any time.

I love you. I'll never get tired of saying it and never get tired of feeling it.

Yours for eternity: Renesmee Cullen

P.S Thank you for last night. It was definitely the best of my life. And the money is for the hotel room.

The wrinkly piece of paper was shaking on my grip. I couldn't believe it. She was gone. She had left. She'd left to fight that demon child so that I wouldn't get hurt?

"Damn it!" I took the first thing that I found- the night stand lamp- and sent it across the room. It broke in million pieces and even a piece of wall fell off.

My body started to shake intensely, making a ball of the piece of paper. But the sorrow could more. Hot, big tears left my eyes and I sat down on the bed, sobbing like I'd never before.

I felt like my heart was being ripped apart from inside. I was in so much pain. Was this how it felt to loose your imprint? No, this must be worse.

I searched for the pillow that she'd had under her head and pressed it against my chest. Hugging and squeezing it. I took a deep breath of the scent that it sent out. It smelt just like her. Her smell, together with the strawberry and vanilla scent that clung in the room fit perfectly together. It would always remind me of her, of the most perfect of all things. Renesmee.

The thought of her made me stronger. I collected myself, I decided what to do.

I finished to dress quickly and looked took up the hotel room phone and dialed.

Edward. I had to admit that he sounded really calm.

"Edward, it's me, Jacob. We've a situat…" he didn't let me finish.

Jacob? Where the hell are you and Renesmee? Come home immediately!

"I can't… we… she…"

What do you mean you can't? You have to! he started to scream like a maniac and threat me. As much as I tried to hold my posture was it almost impossible to be calm while he yelled. I was going to loose it if he kept up. Jacob Black, if you don't have my daughter home and safe in the less 24 hours I swear I'll personally make you an expensive piece of clothing!

"I can't, okay! She's gone!" I freaked out.

What? he hissed mortally.

"She's gone, okay. She left this morning. We where at an hotel and today when I woke up was she gone" I felt how the tears where about to start flowing again but I tried my hardest to not cry in front of him. "She just… left me a note" I said with a thick voice "She said she loved me and her family too much for letting us fight for her." each word I said hurt more saying out loud than reading them. Hearing me saying it made me feel guilty about her escape, it really felt like my fault.

She didn't say where? Did he have to ask such stupid question?

"Do you think I'd be wasting my time calling you instead of being looking for her myself if I knew where she was?"

I guess not. I'll talk to Alice and see if she sees anything.

He hung up and I remained with the phone on my hand for several minutes before throwing it across the room.

I grabbed my bag and the note and went downstairs. I was going to find out.

"Good morning Mr. Black" the receptionist said.

"Hello" I said as calm as I possibly could

"Going to catch up with Miss Wolfe? She was in a real hurry this morning" I made a stop and I think I left a mark on the floor.

I walked to the receptionist now not that calm "Eh, yeah. Do you know when she left and where? I'm honestly not sure of where we where supposed to meet" I tried to smile confuse, but he didn't seem to buy it very much.

"Eh, no. I'm afraid I don't know where she left. But she left early this morning. Around 4 am"

That early? "Oh okay. I guess I'll have to call her. Well thank you anyway" I took my bag from the floor and saw the envelope with money and remembered that I'd to pay.

"Excuse me, how much's the room?" I asked the receptionist.

"Let me check… it will be 1500$" my head shot back. These freaking Cullen standards would drive me insane soon.

I picked up the envelope and took a bunch of bills and put them on the counter. And turned around.

"Eh, excuse me sir, but this is 2500..."

"For reparations" I said over my shoulder.

As I walked out of the hotel did my cell phone ring.

"Hello?"

Jake, where are you? Bella's voice sounded alarmed.

"I'm in L.A" I said as I kept walking.

"Where in L.A?"

"How the hell am I supposed to know? I've never been here…"

Which hotel?

I turned around "Eh, Hilton Resort…"

I knew it! she said quietly Edward, she went to the Hilton hotel where we stayed for her birthday… quiet whispers that I couldn't understand started to sound on the other side of the phone. God, I hate when they do that.

Jacob Edward this time You need to focus. Alice just had a vision. She saw that Jane has decided. She's going to follow her to our old house in Maine… Jacob?

I hung up on him and started to walk to a cab. I was going to Main, and I was going to bring her back. Even if it would cost me my life.

I took a cab to the airport.

"Excuse me" I asked the lady behind the counter "Do you know if Renesmee Cullen has board the plane to Maine?"

"Let me check" the lady behind the counter started to type on a computer.

"No, sir. I'm sorry. There's no Renesmee Cullen on our lists"

No? but she… oh!

"and do you know if Vanessa Wolfe has board that plane?"

"Let me check, again" she said, this time more annoyed.

Typing, typing, typing…

"Yes. Vanessa Wolfe boarded the plane to Maine this morning at 4:45 am"

Yes! "You know if there's any tickets to Maine today?"

"Eh, there's only one plane today, but it doesn't leave until 18:50"

Damn it! "Sure there isn't any other flight on any other airline?" there had to be!

"No, we're the only airline with flights to Maine… Sir!"

Whatever! I knew a faster way to get there.

I took another cab to a tourist information.

"Hello" the awfully happy man said to me on the counter.

"Hi. Can I have a map over the forests around here?"

"Ah, so you are a wild-lifer?" he didn't wait for me to answer before he disappeared and appeared again with a bunch of maps and brochures.

"Let's see" he folded out one map "The best woods are right here ad the best hiking paths are right here" he pointed out places on the maps "If you want to go through dessert then you can walk here, but careful with the mountain lions, they're many this time of year" Well, there was my lunch.

After being stuck with the guy did get turn around and took another cab to the National reservation the info guy had pointed at.

It was still early when we arrived so there weren't much people around.

I ran into the forest, away from the walking tracks. I'd check the map so may times I could it all by heart now.

I quickly undressed and started to run.

The shaking started and when my wolf had appeared did I run fast in the dark shadows of the forest. Hoping and praying it wouldn't be to late. Who knows how much I have left.