Unexpected

I felt the pain even through my unconsciousness. It was like something was ripping me from inside out. But I couldn't scream. I think that was the worst thing.

"Did she hurt her physically?" my dad's hateful voice was questioning Jake.

"No. Or not what I saw, I told you I was pretty busy with fighting the witch's brother and boyfriend"

The pain increased by just thinking of her. Everything inside me twisted.

We where in the car and I wasn't sure how long we had left.

I started tried to open my eyes but my mom hushed in my ear "Relax, honey. We'll be home soon"

Dad must been driving more than 200 Mph because it felt like it only had ´been 10 minutes from the house to the airport.

We used the family jet that we'd never used before, but this was an emergency.

The plane had a bed which I laid on. Mom never left my side. Neither would Jake, if it haven't been so that my dad and grandpa were questioning him out.

"I tell you" Jake said pissed " Renesmee and I where attacked by Jane when somehow Ness broke out of the witch's power and they started to fight. I phased but got attacked by her brother and not long after did her boyfriend appear"

"I didn't know Jane was in a relationship" grandpa said.

"It was something recent."

"But she must really loved him" Jake came out "She almost immediately stopped fighting when she saw I'd ripped his head apart…"

The scene played up once again in my head. Jane's crushed face, Dimeteri's dead body in front of Jake's feet. It was all so clear through the pain.

"What happened with Alec?" dad asked Jake.

"He ran off"

"You think he might have gone back to the Volturi?" mom asked from next to me.

"That's possible" grandpa answered her.

"Should we be worried?"

"The only thing we should be worried for right now is Renesmee's health"

I had the feeling that grandpa knew more than he said. I mean, he's a doctor, he sees the symptoms more clearly.

The pain came over me once again and I curled up into a ball, not screaming, but shrieking.

"Doc, do something!" Jake's voice of despair was loud in the plane and everyone onboard immediately came to where I was.

I felt something pinch me, morphine.

I didn't fought against the unconsciousness but let it once again defeat me.

When I once again woke up was it in the familiar office at the house. Grandpa's office.

The clear light that hung in the ceiling blurred my sight and I looked away.

My grandpa was the only one there. He looked at me.

"How are you felling, Ness?" my grandpas voice cleared everything up.

"I feel… weird"

"The effect of the morphine" he said smiling.

"Am I okay?"

He sighed before answering "Yes. Now. I found some inner bleeding in your abdominal area, but that's cleared up"

Inner bleeding. "How come I bleed?"

"Jane's power seem to affect you not only psychological but physical too" my grandpa said.

"Really? Why?"

"Well, Jane's power have never been proved on a human. Your mother didn't feel them as human because of the shield she had, but the Volturi have never tried her powers on humans, so we didn't know"

"But Jake…"

"He's stronger than you. But… you where vulnerable at that moment too…"

He said that last sentence with sorrow and pain.

"Grandpa, what is it?"

"Renesmee you have to rest"

"But there's something else going o, and I wanna know!" I wouldn't give up that easily.

He looked away, refusing to meet my eyes. But he talked

"While I was curing your inner bleedings, did I found something else" he paused but turned to meet my eyes. "I found… a three month old baby"

I gasped for air. "What?"

"Yes. Renesmee you where pregnant"

The room spun fiercely around. Pregnant. A baby, I had a baby inside me. Or…

"Where?"

He nodded "It seems the impact of the pain was too much for it. It didn't survive" his voice was full with sorrow.

"No" I shook my head in denial, it couldn't be.

My hands moved to my stomach. And even if it wasn't possible, could I feel the emptiness inside me. I could feel that something that belonged there, no longer was.

"Three months?"

"Hadn't it been that long?"

"No. yesterday was the very first time" I stared at the blank wall in front of me.

"Seems like we'd another fast grower" he said so absent mindedly I thought he was talking to himself.

Another fast grower. Another life. Another me.

"Grandpa, is it possible, the baby" I fought to hold back my tears "Could've been the reason to why was more vulnerable?"

He thought it over. "Yes. After all, this baby's a part of both you and Jacob. It had more humanity than you, it was weaker." he trailed off.

Weaker, more vulnerable.

My breathing became heavier.

"I'll give you some time" he said and left the room.

I remained in bed after Carlisle had told me the sad news. I didn't bother to hold back the tears, I didn't care if I Cried. I had all the right to cry, it was all my fault after all. It was my fault that one innocent life had died, my life.

I cried so hard it hurt. So hard it was almost impossible to breathe. I couldn't determine which was worse. The pain Jane caused me, or this.

As I thought of Jane, my body tensed and the anger came. That witch! It was all her fault! She killed him! She's the main cause of his death! She's the one who hurt me so bad that I lost him. Thanks to her, I'll never be the same. And maybe it was her main point, to destroy me, ruin me. But could she know? Was it possible she new about my -now lost- gift when not even I knew about? And if she did, how could you be so cruel?

But, as the angered ran off, i knew it was my fault too. If I only hadn't been that stupid. If I only hadn't left alone, he might still be alive. Just might...

"Honey are you okay?"

"Go away!" I screamed back "I don't want to see anyone!

"Honey, please-"

"No!"

in that instant he burst into the room "We have to talk and I'm not going away until we do!"

I sighed. Freaking over sitter.

"Jake, please understand, I can't… I…" I sobbed again.

"What's wrong?" he asked

Didn't he know?

"I don't want to talk about it…" I turned to hid my face.

"Then don't talk. Just tell me"

I placed my hand on his cheek told him.

His face changed several times. At the end, he burst out in tears together with me.

I leaned and hugged him, got drenched in him. Wanting to disappear.

There we remained, empty-handed. We where broken. We where suffering. Mourning and grieving for that lost life that could've been part of our lives.

Jake's big arms surrounded me grabbing the loose shirt that I was wearing, wetting it with his tears.

I don't know how long we remained like that. Crying . Rocking each other back and forth. Trying to collect our spread out pieces. Trying to get together our broken hearts.

I didn't know if he did it too, but I slipped away in a ark tunnel I never though I'd get out from.