So heres cahpter 47... i wanted to post it too keep the story going and well, things might start getting uphill form now. the last chapter was just something for fun, and this is the real deal... but please review my other chapter too!

this is Jake\s POV

This is me asking you for permission

Ness remained in bed for a week. Refusing to eat, refusing to do anything. She didn't even speak. It was like if she'd lost herself after… the accident. It was hard for me to admit it. But that was what it actually was. A horrible, painful accident.

Even though I tried not to, was it hard to not think. To not, imagine, how our lives would've been now. Sure, Edward would've killed me when he found out, but it would pass. Then, it would all be happiness and in less then the nine months that where required, we would've had a baby in our care. A little Nessie, or a little me. It didn't matter. Even if in the dreams I had, was there always a little boy. In Nessie's dream, he looked like me. And of course, he had something like me, but I couldn't help but seeing Nessie's beauty in him.

But Nessie was taking everything harder. She was blaming herself, she was- I never thought she could- depressed. She'd even been giving medications. Carlisle hated that idea, but he had no choice.

When they told me she needed another treatment, did I put the fist down. I just couldn't let her stuff herself with all that crap. She was to precious.

Somehow, was it my job to make her happy. To never let her suffer like that.

I'd thought over what I was about to do over and over again. And I was sure, it was the right thing. I would've done it anyway, but the resent happenings made me want to rush it. I wanted to give her a reason to smile. To be happy.

I cleared my mind before going to look for him.

He didn't know what was going on. Bella had agreed on protecting my mind.

I found him in the living room. With Bella, Alice and Jasper. Blondie was like a tree, planted next to the door where Nessie was, and Emmett with her.

The TV was on, but no one was watching it. Everyone's thoughts where everywhere except in the room. Only Bella seemed focused. Focused on keeping my mind safe from Edward.

"Edward" I said quickly "Can I talk to you for a minute?"

Everyone's head shoot up and I saw the curiosity in Alice's mind.

He examined me. And frowned when he didn't get anything out of me. He threw a look at Bella but she looked back with her eyes filled with innocence. He gave up with a sigh and stood up to make way outside.

I followed him, let him decide where we where going. I could give him that.

We walked through the backyard, into the woods. Perfect. If he killed me, no one would hear.

He suddenly turned around, about 10 feet away from me.

"Why are you using my wife to protect your mind?" he said low still loud.

"Because I want you to hear the words coming out from my mouth before my mind" I said slowly, calm.

"So, what is it?"

I looked him in the eyes, showing him that I wasn't afraid of him.

"You actually already know what I want" I said. Giving him a look that would make him think over.

"In my time we did it different" he said when he'd figured out what I wanted to ask.

"Well, I am from this century"

"Still, manners should be the same"

I sighed "You know, it isn't fun that you're always thinking of me like a misbehaved jerk"

"You give me reasons to. Like this one"

"Well, in that case, I'm sorry." I kept looking him in the eyes.

"Apology accepted. But when it comes to the other…"

"Edward, you know it's the right thing…"

'"When she's old enough!"

"Isn't that what she's been trying to prove to you? You know, if it hadn't been for your mistrust in her she might never left us lone and…" I paused abruptly, fearing that I might break down if I refreshed the memories.

"I just want her to be happy" Edward said after standing in silence a while.

"And what do you think I want?"

More silence before answers "So you're asking me for permission to…"

"Yes. Edward Cullen, this is me asking for permission to marry your daughter"