A/N: Sorry for making everyone wait. I've been busy and I've been reading. My friend Carissa let me borrow Twilight and I read it in 3 days. I love Edward Cullen and Bella Swan together!lol. Edwella/Bellward.lol... I'm currently reading New Moon. I'm on chapter 18 and I got it Friday. I'm getting Eclipse on like Tuesday or Monday. So after I finish those books, I will start updating more of my stories:)
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Chapter 17: Even Heaven Cries
March 22, 2008.
Today was March 22, 2008.
I hated today. It's the worst day of my fucking life. It will always be the worst day of my life. The memories. The pain. Are still here. I thought I had gotten rid of them years ago. But who Am I kidding. It's always going to be the worst day over. Ex-specially the date. March 22. March 22. March 22. I remember the day oh so clearly. But let's not now...and say we did later. I hate it. I say hate alot today.
I sighed and looked around my room. It was 4 am in the morning. I can't sleep. I know what today is. Dad will come in here to check up on my in about an hour. He always does on today. So does Lucas, Braden and Matt. I take this date the hardest than any one in my family. I look over to my left to see Troy sleeping softly and he looked cute too. I watched as his chest rose up and down as his breaths kept going. He then shifted a little. He wasn't wearing a shirt. Just his toned abs showing and he was in boxers and his plaid blue pajama bottoms and had his ankle socks on. He looked peaceful. I can't sleep a wink. I turned around, my back facing Troy. I felt the bed moved and saw that Troy placed his arms around my waist and pulled me closer.
"Babe, what's wrong?"he asked. He's a heavy sleeper! How did he wake up...?
"I thought you were a heavy sleeper."I whispered softy.
"Ella, you've been tossing and turning since midnight. You kicked my several times in the knee. And you stare at me. Which I don't mind, but what's wrong. Are you ok? Are you sick?Are you sad?"he whispered in the crook of my neck. I sighed and turned to face him. He looked sleepy.
"Troy...today is just not a good day."I said. He looked at me for a brief second.
"You wanna talk about it?"he asked, I simply shook my head no.
"Not right now. What I want is for you to take me in your arms and don't let go. Please?"I asked already squirming into his embrace, which he gladly excepted.
"Of course. And Ella, when you wanna talk about it I'm here."He said pulling me closer with a firm grip and kissed my shoulder. I was wearing a tank top and a pair of Troy's plaid boxers. I swear my boyfriend/fiance loves plaid. But don't worry, I do too.
At about 6 am, I heard my bedroom door open. Troy was still sleeping. I was still in his embrace. My head against his toned chest. I breathed in and out and then felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked up briefly and saw it was my brother's and dad. He must of dragged them out of bed at this time. I managed to get out of Troy's embrace and he rolled over. I smiled and dad led me out of my room along with my brothers and shutting my door.
We walked down the stairs and we saw Andrea making coffee. I sighed. Maybe I could tell my new step-to-be mother why this day is so bad. We all got some coffee, me orange juice, since I'm not a coffee fan and we sat down in the living room. I sat in the couch chair, dad and Andrea sat on the love seat and the brothers sat on the long couch. It was just a bad day for them as it was me. But for me...worse.
"Gabi, you wanna talk about it?"Dad asked. I looked up and sighed and I really didn't wanna talk about anything. I felt like Troy needed to be down here. I really wanted Troy here. I looked up for a moment.
"I need Troy down here. I want to tell him too just like Andrea."I said. Dad nodded and motioned Braden to go and get Troy.
Braden ran up the stairs and opened Gabriella's door and walked over to her bed. He looked down at Troy whose head was buried into the pillows. He shook Troy and shook Troy and managed to wake him up.
"Dude, put a shirt on and get downstairs. Gabriella's gonna tell Andrea something about today and she wants you there too."Braden said and left the room. Troy looked at the time. 6:10 am. He sighed and got up. He went towards one of Gabriella's droor's which were his too. He opened the second one and grabbed the matching blue tee shirt that went with his pajama bottoms. He put it on and went downstairs. He rubbed his eyes and went towards the living room.
I saw Troy come down and I got up. Troy sat down and I sat on his lap and placed my legs over the chair. I gave him some of my orange juice to wake him up a little.
"Thanks, El."he said and took a drink. He kept it in his hands for me since I was tired of holding it. I turned towards everyone else.
"Today is...a bad day for me, Lucas, Braden, and Matt. This day is harder for me. March 22. 10 years ago my mom died. Today's the anniversary of her death. 11 years now. And I was the closest to my mom. And it hit's me harder than anyone."I said and Andrea felt bad for me. I looked at Troy and he leaned up and whispered in my ear.
"I'm here for you Ella."he said. I smiled at him and nodded a thanks. I looked at my brother's who were talking to dad and Andrea about my mom. They were in their own little world. I got up from his lap whispered for him to follow me upstairs into my room. He nodded, placed our drink down on the coffee table and we headed up the stairs. I opened my door and shut in locked it right after troy came in. I turned to him and ran into his arms. He held me tightly and I cried. He carried us over to my bed and layed both of us down. He ended up onto of me and held me close to his heart. I pulled back and leaned up and kissed him. Troy was taken back but I wasn't. I wanted him to love me. I deepened the kiss as well as he. I started to play with the hem of his shirt and then I managed to break the kiss and pull it off of him.
"Ella..."Troy started but I just nodded to him. He let me up. Every time we had sex, we always had my iPod on. Two reasons. To hide our noise and it makes me feel good to listen to it. As well as Troy. I put it on 'Even Heaven Cries' by Monrose.
There are times
When you feel
That you don't know where you fit in
So you hide
What is real
Even when it hurts you pretend
To be the one
That you think
Everybody wants you to be
No one sees
Yeah
I got back on the bed and Troy was looking at me with so much love. We hadn't had sex, in a few months, or more. I can't remember. Troy pulled me to him and I kissed him deeply. He deepened it and I let him continue. He took the hem of my short and lifted it over my head. I sat on Troy lap and he kissed my neck and kissed down. It felt good. Like I was in a whole new world.
Troy lowered me down so that he was on top of me and straddling me. He hugged me deeply and whispered, "I love you Ella. Always and Forever." I smiled up at him with tears in my eyes. Not only because of what he said but for my mom. Troy was my savior right now. He's here when I need him the most.
"I love you always and forever too, Troy."he smiled at me and kissed me lovingly.
The one you really are
But you don't have to hide your heart
Cause nothing 'bout you needs to change
Sometimes it might seem hard
And your whole world falls apart
Just know that when you fear that way
Troy kissed me on my neck and continued down to my stomach. He kissed my tattoo and then started for his boxers I was wearing. He pulled them down. I was of course wearing underwear underneath. I think I should it would be kinda gross if I didn't.
He kissed back up and looked at me. I nodded for him to continue. he lifted me up a little so he could take a hold of the clasp of my bra. He unclasped the back of it and slid the straps off my shoulders and took it off. He kissed down to my breast and took the left nipple in his mouth and I started a moan. He the then took the right one in his mouth and massage it and I let another moan escape my mouth loving the feeling of this sensation.
Even heaven cries
Everybody cries
It's okay to doubt
Yourself sometimes
You don't have to be afraid of what you're fear inside
It's alright
It's alright
Cause even heaven cries
After he did that he kissed his way back up to my lips. I started to pulled down his pajama pants and then he kicked them off. I could feel his bulge in through his boxers. Even though today wasn't a good day for me, I still want to be loved. And this was one of things. He kicked his socks off as well and then he started for my underwear and started to pull them down. He got them down and He kissed my stomach and then to my lips again. I was on birth control so we were good.
I took them hem of his boxers and started to pull them down. I got them off and he looked into my eyes asking me if I was sure.
"I'm sure. I love you and I just want to be loved today...by you."I said.
"I will always and forever love you remember?"he smirked. I giggled. He positioned himself over me and looked into my eyes once more before entering me.
When you look
In the mirror
And you don't see picture perfect
What they say
Break your heart
And make you feel that you´re not worth it
And I wanna disappear
Hide the tears
Still playing make believe
So no one sees
I moaned when he entered. I wanted to go slow and he could tell. I also listened to the lyrics of the song, but thought of Troy at this time. His pace was slow and steady and it felt good. I moaned and he did too. He leaned down and kissed my lips and I smiled into the kiss. He groaned and kept his pace.
"Ohhh..."I moaned out and he smirked a little. I love the effect he had on me.
"God, Ella...your gorgeous."
"I love you."
Even heaven cries
Everybody cries
It's okay to doubt
Yourself sometimes
You don't have to be afraid of what you're fear inside
It's alright
It's alright
Cause even heaven cries
"I love you too, Troy."I said and he sped up a little. I bucked my hips a little and that caused him to moaned out. I smiled at him and wrapped my arms around his neck and had my hands in his hair. He started going a little faster.
"Oh god, troy."
"Ella..."
He kept his pace up as I did as well.
Troy's POV
God the things she does to me. Touching my hair while we're at this...god... I started to speed up our pace. And she responded and I leaned down and kissed her sweet lips.
No, you're not alone
Don't be ashamed
To let your feelings show
You should realize
You're special who you are
In time you're gonna see
Oh oh...
Don't you realize..
"Oh my god, Troy...OH!"she moaned out. I simply smiled and went faster.
"Faster, harder, Troy."she moaned out again. I obeyed and started going faster at our pace. I could could feel her walls tighten. I thrust-ed in a few more time before we came together. We were panting. I was still on top of her. I looked at her. And then we didn't use a condom.
"Ella, we didn't use a ..."I trailed off.
"I'm on birth control, still."she panted out. I nodded and kissed her face all over. I rolled off of Ella, and wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her closer to me.
"Ella, I love you and we'll get through this day I promise."I said she she cuddled up to me.
"I know. I miss her...I'm sorry for breaking our little thing to wait."she said looking sorry.
"Ella, it's ok. I think we both agreed to wanting to this. Don't worry. I love you. And when we get married, I will love you more than the world."I said. She giggled.
"I know, and I love you more than the world too."she said nad kissed my shoudler and fell asleep into my chest. I soon followed after.
Even heaven cries
Everybody cries
It's okay to doubt
Yourself sometimes
You don't have to be afraid of what you're fear inside
It's alright
It's alright
Cause even heaven cries
Ok, there is chapter 16. Chapter 17 will be towards Keith's and Andrea's wedding I believe. If not...you'll be surprised with whatever I end up writing.lol:)
Song- Even Heaven Cries
Artist- Monrose
-Ashley