A/N: so I'm really enjoying writing this and I'm going try to do a chapter a day but it depends on how much time I have to get to a place with internet when I get home from moms. The place I live only has dialup and no wireless which I didn't know still existed! Enjoy! ~Loren
She felt the pain in her chest and saw blood on her hands. In the back ground she heard yelling and someone grabbing her from the waist as went down. Then it was blackness and nothing else. Her eyes fluttered open and she was back in the car. It was dark out, Sam was driving and Dean was asleep in the passenger side seat. Sam looked back at Saturday in the rearview mirror as she put her hands on the seat and looked around trying to gain her surroundings. She never had a dream like that. It was so real, so vivid. She looked at Sam and forced a smile
. "You ok?" he asked.
"I'm fine" she replied trying not to show that she was shaken.
"Were almost at the motel, it will be five more minutes." He said his eyes back on the road.
Dean steered in his and opened his eyes blinking a few times. He stretched his arms out pushing on the ceiling on the car and yawned. "did I hear were almost there. Good my neck is killing me" Dean turned around in his seat and looked at Saturday. "did you sleep well. Hopfully you can sleep tonight.
Sam, Dean and Saturday walked in to the room and Dean flicked on the lights. Saturday looked around. It was a nice enough room. Big windows with light creamy curtains. The walls were a light maroon color with a strange but interesting patterns with swirls on it as a middle border. There were two full size beds and a small lounge like chair with a foot rest. On the other side of a divider by the wall a table stood with 4 chairs surrounding it. Next to it was a stand with a microwave, mini fridge, and a coffee maker. Sam walked over to the table and placed his laptop bag on top of it. Dean threw his bag on the bed and went in to the bathroom closing the door behind him. Saturday looked around the room not sure what to do. Sam looked at her.
"it's good to create a pattern of what to do when you get here. It makes it easier to deal with the uncertainty this life brings. At least that's what I remember. Without a soul nothing bothers me anymore. Emotions I show are done by memory or instinct but not much behind it." Sam's face was unaffected but Saturdays was sad. She couldn't imagine living like that. Though at the same time she wish she felt nothing at times.
"thanks, I'll ajust eventually. I'm going to go outside. I need air." She said turning around after putting her bag and books on one of the beds. When she got outside the fresh warmish air greeted her. She saw a pool about 20 feet away. She walked over to the pool and sat on the edge and looked in to the inviting water. Thoughts flooding her mind again. The dreams,the pain and image concerning her, especially the knife. She closed her eyes and breathed in.
"We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing suffering produces endurance." She recited scriptures repeatedly but it didn't keep the feelings from flooding. Feeling s that weren't hers, that belonged to the people who occupied the rooms in the motel. That was one of the curses that came with her being half demon. Feelings flooded her at all times. Most times she could suppress them, she believed god gave her grace for this. But in stressful, anxiety ridden moments they flooded till her mind feels ready to explode. Scripture was not helping.
She looked in to the water. Pushing her arm and hands against the cement she pushed herself off the ground and lowered herself in to the cool water. She turned around facing the wall and lowered her head below the surface. She felt the cool water surround her as she used her arms to hold herself under. She stayed there for 30 seconds when she felt her heart start to race. Most people would allow themselves up at this point or at least panic if they couldn't but she didn't. Instead she welcomed it. Her heart rate slowed after 10 more seconds. She continued holding her breath and allowing her heart to slow more. Till it made her dizzy, resulting in her emotions being silenced.
A hand grabbed her wrist and pulled her from the water. She stood in front of Castiel, soaking wet, dress clinging to her slender form. Castiel stared at her for a minute before specking
"Did you fall in?" he asked. Not realizing what she was doing. "I can't swim so you need to be more careful" he took off his coat and put it over her shoulders. "You should go inside and get some sleep."
"I'm not tired." She walked past him, not wanting to look him in the eyes. She hated her torn feeling for him. She hated the feeling that she held for him when he was around her. The demon part wanting to punch him, make him bleed. But at the same time she wanted to grab him by the neck and meet his lips with hers. Neither of them where appropriate though. But both of them were appealing in their own ways to the two sides of her.
"You have to be tired, you're human. You need 8 hours of sleep a day to function properly." He said to her sounding like the surgeon general.
She laughed and smiled slightly looking at him feeling herself calm and the grace from god removing the rage. She thanked god that he loved her even though she was half abomination.
"Castiel, I see you haven't changed in your awkward remarks. And yes I know, don't worry I got some sleep in the car. She turned around and started walking toward the motel room door. When she realized Castiel was standing at the pool still, she turned around.
"Why are you still standing there Cas?" she asked
"I thought our interaction had ended, you walked away. Should I follow?"
"Yes unless you want to stand there and have a conversation with water I would suggest following" she shook her head and walked to the door and nocked. Dean opened the door and looked at her soaking wet. Castiel standing behind her looking down eyeing her in a strange way.
"Do I want to know why you're wet?" Dean asked confused.
"Castiel pushed me in because I called him a dick" she smiled and said jokingly.
"Dude, what you do that she called you a dick?" Dean asked as Castiel walked past him in to the room.
He looked at Dean and replied "I didn't push her in and she didn't call me a dick, she lied for unknown reasons"
Saturday looked at Dean and gave him a shrug while grinnign. Dean looked at Castiel with a frown "she was joking Cas, she wasn't lying, she was playing around."
"No, she was defiantly lying." Cas said in a matter of fact way. Face completely serious as usual.
Dean was ready to reply but decided it wasn't worth it. He walked to the bed after closing the door and started removing necessities from his bag. Like his gun, knife, and some cookies. Sam walked in to the room from the bath room with a towel around his waist, apologizing, saying he forgot his clothes on the bed. Saturday could not believe how ripped the boy was. She blushed slightly due to the fact not a lot of half-naked boys graced her presence. She realized this situation was going to be strange, sharing a room. She never lived with non-family related men and never was in situation with men were this stuff could come up. She was in fact a virgin and only had two serious nonphysical boyfriends. She only kissed one boy in her life and that was an accident. She had the urges and everything, but she controlled them. Her behaviors were defiantly a little wilder then the other church members but that was because she had to pick her battles and chose to worry about the damaging ones. To her watching any kind of movies and reading any kind of book was not as big a deal as stuff attached to her demon side. Thankfully when Cas left he did a funky mind thing that made it very hard to use any of the ability's that didn't just happen. Pain was attached to them.
Saturday walked over to her bag on the bed and opened it. she took out a few things she would use like her netbook, toothbrush and paste, and bible. She took a pair of pajamas out to change into after Sam got out of the bathroom. She really wanted out of the wet clothes.
Sam walked out and she rushed in and quickly changed. She came out of the bathroom dry and bright wearing a pink tee shirt and a pair of neon blue pants. With metallic green hearts on them. She placed her wet clothes on the dry rack in the closet area and sat down on the bed starting up her netbook. She had to send out some emails to the pastoral team and friends with a reason for having to leave. She just was unsure of what to say.
"Where should I tell people I am?" she asked out load to no one particularly.
"Tell them you had family business to attend to….. And will be out of state for a while….. unsure of how long." He said to her in between bites of cookies.
She looked at Castiel who looked back at her and said to him "know that would be lying"
"The other one was a lie to" he told her once again.
"you're going to have to make up a lie that you can build upon over time, if you have people who will be nosey" Sam said to her while looking at something on his screen.
"I'm part of a close nit church so yeah lots of people will want an update and details." She said to Sam. "I can't use family issues by the way, my family is dead, and they all know that." She said to Dean. Dean said sorry and asked what happened. All she said was a plane crash a while ago.
She looked at the screen trying to think. She decided just to send out a mass email that said she was going to be gone a while and would let them know what was going on at a later date. She went to her email and typed it up in quick strokes and sent it out to those she was close to or who needed to know. Which was almost everyone in her life. She shut down the computer and closed the lid. It was only 6pm. The meeting wouldn't start at church for an hour, hopefully someone will get it before then.
"So, what are we doing about dinner?" she asked looking around the room at the boys and angel.
"I don't eat." Cas replied to her.
"I already know Cas, I didn't forget" she said to him wishing sometimes he could pretend to be human.
"I'm up for going to the diner across the street now" Dean said just finishing the last cookie in the bag.
Sam chuckled at dean and Saturday's left eye brow went up. Wow the boy likes to eat.
"Sounds good to me" she said realizing she had to change again. She walked over to her bag and dug through it pulling out a pair of jeans and a light sweater. She figured it was a little chilly out by now. Plus she was still cold from being wet. She went in the bathroom and changed. Her light sweater being 2 sizes to big fell off one shoulder and revealed her collar bones. She looked in the mirror and adjusted her hair, the tannish sweater making her wavy auburn hair stand out. She decided she looked fine and walked out of the bathroom. Sam and Dean looked over at her; Dean couldn't help but be surprised by how well she could look in a sloppy looking outfit. Sam was just amazed a girl could be ready in 5 minutes. She sat on the bed and slipped on her cowgirl boots. She stood up putting some money in her back pocket from her pocket book and announced she was ready. Dean chuckled and once again said my kind of girl not insinuating anything, which Sam kind of found odd.
"I'll stay here and set up some protection just in case the demons find her" Castiel said to them all standing still in the room as they all walked for the door.
"We'll have fun with that" Dean said to him leaving while Sam said to the angel in all seriousness "no blood on the walls"
"I'll see you later" Saturday said and smiled walking out the door with the two men that were surprisingly growing on her.
Castiel noticed how quickly they were all adjusting to her and how much they seemed to like her and a new feeling raised inside he couldn't pin point.
A/N: so I know people are reading and I really would love some reviews! They will make me want to keep going and also think more of the story line and plot. Plus reviews will make me smile and feel joyful! Unless it's someone yelling at me telling me I stink! Those reviews I'm not so much looking for. I hope the fact Saturday was more happy in this chapter wasn't odd or unnatural but I don't want her being dark. Let me know what you think.